such a lovely, lonely night..

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 00:04:49 GMT

everything fuckin' sucks lately...i'm practically failing every class. i have so much work to do and make up. i have strep. everything is just great.
it's snow, got out of school early today..hoping for no school tomorrow. that would be great.

shitty update, i know

i'll find my way, through night and day..

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 03:22:48 GMT

i'm gonna make this entry a quick one:
the past weekend was fun, which was very unlikely. this week has been going by so slowly
everything was great, until i got a call:

Jonathon Voluck-I love you with all my heart and I will always be there for you no matter what my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
R.I.P Andrew Voluck

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 02:38:34 GMT

mid-terms sucked. i failed all of them. i got six hours of sleep the whole week.

friday-nora laur and i went to wayne, saw hide and seek and then had dinner. we came back to my house with chel..we hung out for a little then chel went home. nora laur and i talked a little and went to bed eventually.
saturday-woke up, the girls left...i sat in bed then fell asleep. i woke up went downstairs to get ice cream, my mom yelled at me because i shouldn't have ice cream before dinner and she told me i wasn't allowed to go out that night because of it, greatt! so i had a fit..i got back into bed, i had the worst headache, i couldn't sleep all night so i had many phone calls and texts to keep me busy..thankss
sunday-got a total of four hours of sleep last night. woke up, had breakfast with my grandma and mom..came back home, cleaned up my room without being told to then got back into bed and watched tv until my parents had to drag me out to dinner, which i hated and the fact that i saw so many people i really didn't want to see considering i was a wreckkk.

i don't want to go to school tomorrow. i need the summer, i really miss my girls-Sn.Cb.Lp.Cr.Zc.Aa.Ef.Lm.Sr.Lc
i miss u alexxxxis, come home please=(
...i'm never happy...

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 02:58:05 GMT

wow haven't updated in a while. everything has been the same but more stressful..school and parents absolutely succk.

monday-no school, slept all day

tuesday-thursday-school was horrible. got two teeth pulled and i went in late on wednesdayy

friday-i was in the worst mood ever, flipped a shit on rarig during class..he sent me to the office. mmm, i came home and recieved a lecture from jeff(the carpenter) about different types of wood and saws. i couldn't stand my parents so i sat outside for an hour and read a book then nora came over..we sat in bed and ate and watched tv

saturday(today)-nora and i awoke to a lot of snow and ate in bed until noras mom came. we went to her house, ate and laur came over. we got ready and went out and played in the snowww=) we met up with leah and went sledding cause we're cool. went back to noras cause i couldn't feel my feet and they were purple. we sat and ate and watched movies. so my dad came to pick me up and on the way down the street there is this canadian goose just sitting there and we get out of the car and we see if it's okay and it seemed fine so we went home, and of course, my mom demanded that my dad and i go back and rescue the goose and bring it back here and it can stay in my shower for a couple days until we can take it to the vet. my dad and i went back and we went to catch it and it flew away and then i decided that it was sitting next to the sewer, so its mate had probably like fallen and we looked and nothing was there..great story huh. that's the bachman's for youu. i'm supposed to be cleaning my room and studying but we all know thats not going to happen. i stole my dads camoflauge hatt=)

ugghh mid-terms starting on tuesday..no point in studying, i'll fail either way

which means i won't have gym with hannah this week=( so we can't fightt

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 23:18:07 GMT

so new years eve was fun, went over chel's with ali laur and nora and took some weirdddd pictures. um..saturday alexis and i slept and went to wawa and later i went home. then i went to jenifers house to see her for a bit. went to bed at like 3 am, and i woke up at 4 pm today...i have so much work i don't feel like doing. break is offically over=(
toronto-soar-ass-rex. is it hidden valley. we'll go in 5 minutes ::pops collar::, i'm ready.
vindicated karioke. put this in your pocket for later. i think my personality is quite bubbly.

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 17:23:14 GMT

so last night alexis came overrr=) and we went to bertuccis for dinner, then to smith bros. cause i needed to exchange some clothes that i got for christmas, then to cosi for smores and hot chocolate. austin came to visit..we walked around a little and i had to stop at eckerd to get tape, so i could tape my phone together because it's a piece of shit..then we came back to my house chilled and watched the goonies, weinerman left and me and alexis went to bed at like 2am. we're so lazy we stayed in bed til 12, then she left and i took a shower, and i have no clue what i'm doing for the rest of the dayy. laur comes home today from her cruise and nora comes home tomorroww nighttt!

^THATS WHAT I WANTED FOR CHRISTMASSSSS

you make me wanna...kill myself

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 03:18:50 GMT

mmm today, i was awakened by the goddamn carpenter..he made so much noise i wanted to kill him. then i went out with my brother and his girlfriend, emelia to look at bernese mountain dogs in reading..they were adorable. i want twoo=) so then we came home and went to sullivans steak house for dinner..it was okay..wasn't the best steak i've had. anyways, i rented a lot of movies to watch tonight with emelia. ALEXIS COMES TOMORROW=)sooo excited. wow lately certain people just fucking piss me off with what they have to say and some pretend to be something they're not...and some even pretend that they do things to make other people jealous or something..i hate people. if you ask me who these people are i'm not going to tell you unless i feel that you could actually change them, so don't bother asking. laur comes home on thursday, and nora on friday..thank god. i miss my girls. CHELSEA CITRON scored 4 points in her game tonight..so proud.

i've updated waaaaay too many times today..

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 01:46:28 GMT

i love my slut=) the story that made my night:

SuZYyBaBYy: lmaoo did i tell u bout my "3some" w/ aldin & edin thou
KLB31989: NOOOOOOOOOOOO!
KLB31989: spill you dirty slut!
SuZYyBaBYy: lmaoo
SuZYyBaBYy: it wasnt reely a 3some but it cood have been.. but wutver we were all chillling..
KLB31989: andddd
SuZYyBaBYy: and aldin edin & i wander away frum everyone and end up at the park
KLB31989: uh huhhh
SuZYyBaBYy: so they sit down on a bench and i was sitting on edin's lap.. and aldin was talking to us but he was boring so i started hookin up w/ edin
KLB31989: yeah
SuZYyBaBYy: so then aldin starts pullin me ta him & tryin ta hook up w/ me
KLB31989: yeahhhh
SuZYyBaBYy: so then as aldin's hooking up w/ me edin's trying to finger me
KLB31989: yeahh
KLB31989: but you dont like fingers in your vagina!
SuZYyBaBYy: but i didnt wanna be w/ aldin so i kept pullin away and hooking up w/ edin.. so then aldin was fingering me
SuZYyBaBYy: haha i kno
SuZYyBaBYy: and then aldins tryin ta take my shirt off
SuZYyBaBYy: and im like boyss we're fuckking outsidfe
SuZYyBaBYy: and then i tryed ta get up and leave cause it was gettin tooo weird
KLB31989: nice
SuZYyBaBYy: but they pinned me down on the bench
SuZYyBaBYy: and this kept goin on for awhile
SuZYyBaBYy: until my cell fone start vibrating near edin's dick
KLB31989: until your neighbor walked by with your dog
SuZYyBaBYy: and it scared him so he got up
KLB31989: oy
SuZYyBaBYy: lmaoooooo
SuZYyBaBYy: but yeh boys r gay

THATS NOT ALL:

jon..her new boytoy, far from ghetto and wears abercrombie=)

SuZYyBaBYy: well we tryed to have sex
SuZYyBaBYy: but it didnt work lmaooo
KLB31989: and
KLB31989: hahah, damn slut..TELL!
SuZYyBaBYy: ok so friday nite i went ta this club
KLB31989: yeah
SuZYyBaBYy: and that guy jon who ive been gettin w/ was there
SuZYyBaBYy: so we went inta the vip rooom and we're on the flooor hooking up and stuff
KLB31989: i dont know about him. but tell afterrr
KLB31989: yeahhh
SuZYyBaBYy: loll sooo i was soooooooo drunk & horny and hes like i kno u wanna fuckkkk
KLB31989: oyy, typical suz
SuZYyBaBYy: and i was like i dunno
SuZYyBaBYy: and hes like come on u kno u do
SuZYyBaBYy: and i was likee yehhh
SuZYyBaBYy: so i was wearin a skirt for easy access
KLB31989: yeah
SuZYyBaBYy: so hes tryin ta get it in.. and thennnn his friend comes and starts takin pix of us on his camera fone
SuZYyBaBYy: and i was like omfgggggg
KLB31989: hahah
SuZYyBaBYy: so yehh we stopped cause he woodnt leave

*TIMBER TOPS GIRLS ARE NOT EASY*

welcome ladies and gentlemen to the eighth wonder of the world...

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 22:14:45 GMT

since christmas it hasn't been that eventful, to tell you the truth nothing has happened. changed my user pic=)..love hot boys

anyways, laur is on a cruise. nora is in florida. alexis will be here in a few dayss...thank god. chels came over last night and hang around here while the family bonded..oy. hopefully new years will be fun..anything goin on?

*notice all of my mood icons..most of them seem like my life sucks..am i ever happy?

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 05:56:06 GMT

so it's christmas. i woke up around 8 went and opened presents with mommy, daddy, and jay jay..played around with our toys for a little then went to my gmamas for christmas brunch and to open more presents. after brunch, i fell asleep underneath the coffee table with wrapping paper and a bow stuck to me..it was really funny. we all came back here and took naps, and played with all of our stuff. we were all too tired to do anything so we are post-poning our big christmas dinner until tomorrow night because mommy was too tired to start cooking. emelia came over to exchange more gifts and hang around here for a little..she's still here. i got some cool stuff. i just wanna sleep, my brother thinks i have mono cause im always tired and get sore throats frequently, but i know for a fact that i don't. the day after christmas is always depressing so tomorrow morning i'll be sleeping late and doing nothing. thank god we don't have school for another week..laur is on a cruise right now, so jealous and alexis comes on the 29th

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 19:30:21 GMT

wow, this weekend went by so quickly. friday- laur nora and i stayed after school to watch the girls basketball game. nora left early and then laur and i stayed to watch the first half of varsity. we left and we went to get a pedicure then piece of pizza for a bite to eat. i came home and slept, i was so tired from the past week. saturday i woke up, got bitched at by my mom..what else is new. i cleaned up my room and went to the mall for a little bit. i came home and slept then chelsea came over to get ready, i straightened her hair, it looked amazing. nora and laur showed up and we all got ready. we went to snowball, it was okay..nothing special..everyone seemed like they were having fun. went back to noras around eleven, went outside for a little meeting with friends..came back in and ate. chels and laur left so nora and i stayed up and watched some really weird show then went to bed. when i got home i ate and ate and ate more..i haven't even began to think of what work i have due tomorrow. ughh. kinney test tomorrow

if that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time...

Tue, 07 Dec 2004 21:14:17 GMT

it's been awhile since my last update because nothing exciting has happened lately. got a dress and shoes. school's been really stressful. i don't think that my parents could get any more annoying these days, i just need the weekend to come.

i love lauren haas, chelsea citron and nora kenty with all my heart, thanks girls

MaRti-we <3 andrew

when all our tears have reached the sea, part of you will live in me..

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 19:06:29 GMT

thursday-woke up really early to the sound of pool balls crashing into one another, took a little nap til 3 and went to dinner at 4 came home around 9:30 and rented movies with my brother and his girlfriend and talked on the phone with people for a little before going to bed.

friday-woke up really late, went out with mommy for a little then came back home and took a nap. went over ali's house and then met up with chels and raquel at cosi. steph and michelle were there too. me and alexis went back to her house and watched cheetah girls and annie, my parents had forgotten about me and fell asleep on the couch and i was on the verge of sleeping over at alexis's house when my mom called and said she was coming to get me. i got home to find the lights in the game room dimmed, the radio on playing christmas carols and the fire going with my brother and his girlfriend sleeping on the couch, cutest<3thing i've ever seen. kodak momenttt. talked on the phone with some kids for a little, watched out of time then hit the sack.

saturday-woke up to the smell of thanksgiving dinner number 2. my brother and i went out for breakfast and then stopped at home depot to get some stuff for the kitchen, which is practically done. we came home and decided to pick up emelia and go to look at dogs and the lotus eliseee. we got to the rothrock ford dealer expecting to see the lotus elise..but it was sold on friday! i was so pissed off, car salesmen are so sketchy and slimeball-ish. but i did find the new car i wantt, 2005 corvette. we all came back here disappointed because we didn't find a dog or a car. momm was making dinner and we all were playing pool and watching tv. we finally ate, sooo stuffed. i made the pumpkin pie..it was soo good. emelia jay and i went to rent movies, came back here watched starsky and hutch and then i came downstairs and watched a cinderella story twice before going to bed at 4.

sunday(today)-woke up around 12, mom went shopping without me, dad was working on the stairs, and jay was gone so it was really quiet. got back into bed and did some work. i still have so much more to do. i feel like a bad philadelphian, i'm not watching the game. jay goes back home tonightt, but will be back dec. 22, YAY.

-27 days til christmasss!

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 18:02:32 GMT

schools been okay lately. parents are just as annoying, it seems like everything i do isn't good enough for them and i'm sick of it. thankk god, it was a really short week. i need a break from people and school. got picked up at school, ran a few errands with my mom and now i'm back home to clean my room and put away all of my laundry...yipppeey. i'm so glad my brother is coming home tonight maybe my parents will pick on him for a change but i doubt that since he's considered "the over-loved" child of the family. by the way, i love hannah karasick so much. aww, jessi got her wisdom teeth pulled today, ouch. i'll have to get some teeth pulled soon inorder to get my braces off. mmm, 30 days until christmas eve...yessss!

and i'll keep holding on, hoping that you'll come back someday..

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 22:00:25 GMT

school was pretty bad last week, i did get a good report card..which is seriously a first. so on friday, i went into the city with raquel and we shopped, and ate a lot. we went back to her house, showered and chel came over, we watched a cinderella story. justin, john and dan knox came over and we chilled with them. raquel and i fell asleep around 1.

saturday, we woke up early because i had to get picked upp. i came back here and went out with my parents. later on when i came home lauren heff. rachel amanda and jessi wanted to do something, so we all went to suburban square for dinner. afterwards, angela got dropped off and we chilled with these kids for a little, it sucked. it was raining and we were all freezing. some kids stopped by just to say hello. finally amanda lauren and i got picked up and went to alex's house. we chilled there til like 12ish and then went home.

todayy-i woke up, ate, ate some more..and started my work, and sadly it's 4:53pm and i still haven't finished my work. i have to be the biggest procrastinator alive. i've been doing a shitload of laundry and trying to clean my room so my mom doesn't bitch out on me like she did last night. lately my parents have been in the worst mood and i all i want to do is run away and never come back. thank god this coming week is only 2 and 1/2 days long. i need a break from school and certain people. i miss aliiiiii, but she's coming on wednesdayy!

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 23:40:12 GMT

chel and amanda made varsity basketball, congrats girlies. i love youu<3

leave you wondering, counting sheep..

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 23:37:52 GMT

so tired. woke up early cause daddy had to go to the airport for a flight to north carolina. school sucked as usual. i have so much homework to do tonight, plus i have a project due on friday. i'm so stressed out lately. during art my clay jar was missing and the stupid student teacher told me to start another, i told her she was crazy and that i wasn't going to do it.i miss alexis so much. stayed after school with nora for a little then ran to her house to get her stuff for tennis. i played horrible today, i wanted to burn my racquet. and a mysterious "someone" told my tennis instructor that i was a trouble maker...hmm, i wonder who that was. went to bertuccis for an early dinner with mommy. i feel like i'm getting sick. hmmm 36 days til christmas-yesss!

life with you makes perfect sense..

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 00:47:00 GMT

so saturday-suz starr and i went to IHOP for suzy's first time there, which was really funny. afterwards we went to the harriton football game=big mistake, it was way to cold. the rest of the girls got into philly and we all met up at the mall. i bought nothing which is surprising because i always buy something where ever i go. me suz and starr came back here to shower and get ready for dinner. me suz starr carli carly laur laurmar emily zo alana myriam lora and avi all went out to dinner at Vinny T's for zo's birthday..i ran into an unexpected someone, very interesting. we all went back to zoes to chill and most of us fell asleep really early while the others watched dorm daze and the girl next door.

sunday-me zo alana and laurmar were the first ones up, and we woke everyone else up..then we went on a scavenger hunt for the bagels because they disappeared on us, which was tramatic for ten hungry girls. but we found them. then we all went upstairs and pondered what we were gonna wear to the reunion. myself just threw something on while everyone else was going crazy, espically zoe..trying on everything in her closet or our bags. we finally got everyone ready and into the cars. it was a short ride but obviously someone was very tired because laur fell asleep and we took pictures (blackmail). when we all got there it was crazy. it was all of owego and timber tops in a stupid bowling alley. of course i was the first one to go bowling since i'm cool like that..overall the reunion was okay, but i wanted to go home and sleep. of course, out of the whole weekend, suzy got a hot pair of jeans and i came home with yet another pair of hardtail pants. i went home and slept like a bear.

monday-school was horrible, C days absolutely blow. all academics and gym..great day huh? came home, didn't do any homework and then fell asleep early. didn't watch the eagles game..i'm such a bad philiadelphian.

tuesday(today)-D days have to be the best-study hall first period. went to math and it turns out that i have a %82.8 instead of an %83 and is he going to give me a B? nope. rarigs gay. ortho. after school was good, getting rubber bands next appointment and they should be off by march! crew meeting tonight was a little ehhh. tuesday through friday practices and saturday mornings? i'll think about it. yess, tomorrow's wednesday-tennis with noraa

lately it's been better than it has before, but not as good as it has been..i wish things would go back to normal. i miss you ali.

-i'm on the floor, battered and bored you got a taste i can't ignore-sugarcoat

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 04:35:02 GMT

wow, haven't updated in a while. schools okay. parents are just as annoying...

so today, school went by so slowly..it sucked. starr and suz are here finally..thank god. i've been waiting for this weekend for the past month. tomorrow the rest of the girls are coming, and i get to see zo and alana! after i picked the girls up from the trainstation, we went to cosi..ate dinner and chilled. then rented two movies. mmm can't wait for tomorrow. ch is being mean, as usual

and i'll be wrapped around your finger..

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 19:57:46 GMT

so this weekend really sucked. there was nothing to do, and to top it all off..i'm sick-ish. i really don't want to go to school tomorrow, i have gym...mm fun. doing homeworkk..be back later

been a long time..

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 22:15:17 GMT

schools been okay, it could be better. there's so much going right now i don't know where to try and solve it all. there have been a few situations i would've confronted differently, but there's nothing i can do now except wait it out. i was supposed to go to baltimore and virginia this weekend with my brother and his girlfriend, but it didn't work outt..my parents don't feel like driving. thanks guys! nothing to do on the weekends anymore..except to sleep. upper merion has off school on monday, no fair. i have so much work duee

hmm...

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 17:51:21 GMT

so i just got home from chel's..we were down the shore for the weekend..so fun. so we chilled with people..mostly, chelc, chadd, greg and some other kids. we saw lauryn last night and chilled at the corner on THE COUCH. we met some kids..had fun. i'm gonna miss going down the shore:(, i don't want school to start. i want summer again. so..birthday is in two days..tonight, birthday dinner with the g-rents, tomorrow night, birthday with brother and fam., and wednesday(birthdayyy)-dinner with some friends and stuff. so i'm really uncomfortable my sunburn hurts like a bitch but it will turn to tan..but i'll never be as dark as chelc..i'm so jealous. she's so dark it makes me feel so white..next weekend, chel and i will probably go to the shore again and hang out with some people;).

-gotta go unpack and read to kill a mockingbird..

woohooo!

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 00:40:22 GMT

okay so today, i had a p. surgery appt. but when we got there i didn't feel like waiting an hour so i was like screw it and i went to wendys. then i went out with my momm. got some jeans and a bag..came home, slept, ate, slept, and watched tv. then i went back out with my mom tonight to go shopping, again. got some jeans, two pairs of pants and a sweatshirt..birthday presents. so i came home and i was all upset because it was too late to see chels or alex and i have to clean my room. but the good news, me and chel are going down the shore tomorrow morning. piiimp. i need a tan so badly. anyways, im sitting here..doing nothing, excited for tomorrow. i'm really happy my dad comes home tonight from louisianna, my mom is at the airport picking him up now. i've missed chel like craaaazy!
i'll be back again in a little..i have a headache and i gotta start (over)packing.

-18425, i miss you so much.

so tired

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 01:49:52 GMT

so today, i woke up early..like 8. went out with my mom til 3, finally got my pictures developed. the link is on my prof. so check it out. the more i look at them, the more depressed i get. i'd do anything to go back to camp and be with my friends again.
so then i came home and it literally took me about 3 hours to do my photo album. jenifer brooke got her braces off today, i'm so jealous..i'm like the only kid left who has them. i actually have an ortho appt. tomorrow so i'll see how i'm progressing. wow that sounded really gay. anyways, it was me and my mom again for dinner..it will be til friday cause my dads in louisianna for a biz-trip. i really need to finish to kill a mockingbird..i'm just starting chapter 7. i wish alexis still lived here. i miss her a lot..not having her with me this year will be hard..but at least it will give me an excuse to go to florida:)
i really should go clean up my room and put my camp stuff away so i don't have to hear my mom bitch and complain anymore..

depressing...

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 06:21:52 GMT

so it's the third day since i've been home from camp. i'm missing it more and more. i miss all of my friends and just the total atmosphere and if my friends are going to be assholes to me, then i really don't want to be here. i want to pack up all my stuff and move to greeley, open a camp and live there. that would probably be even more depressing than anything.

so on the brighter side, today i woke up around 2:30pm..ate, watched tv, ate some more, finally got in the shower, got dressed. went to the mall with mommyfor some birthday shopping..got some cute stuff and put things on hold til tomorrow. it's 2:05am right now, i'm not even close to being tired. i've been talking to kurman, alex, and marti all night..which i love all three of you because you're amazing people.

p.s.-marti is beautiful!