I am a pessimist.
I am negative.
Glass is half-empty...this is me.
I struggle a lot with making things easier for myself (which thus makes things harder) out of laziness and lack of motivation. Example: Today I moved and I figured I could empty my bags and go back to my old place and pack up the rest of my crap. Fine right? Wrong. Instead of begging people to help me, asking my friends (I have an awful pride streak) or even calling a goddamn cab, I decided to walk. My new place isn't all that far away from my former house, but it does take awhile lugging all of my things (I've been in this country for 8 months, HOW DID I ACCUMULATE 3X THE AMOUNT OF CRAP, I ASK YOU. AND I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANY FURNITURE). I struggled and sweated. I was envious of those people I see all the time lugging stuff around and looking so composed - so unlike me. Me, a girl who overreacts to everything, struggles and whines to herself and generally makes things more difficult because I always look on the bad side of things.
As I went past the train station, the half way mark to my new place, a nice lady came up to me and asked if I was going straight along this particular road. I was. She offered to take one of my bags (I had a big backpack, two huge rolling suitcases and a bag on top of one of the suitcases). And she ended up taking my largest suitcase for me. I was so so appreciative. She was Australian and told me that she came back to London a few days ago and wished someone had done the same for her.
There needs to be more lovely people in this world like her to kick the asses of bitter people like me and remind us that things aren't that bad. I give people back money when they forget it in the self check out line at Tesco; I offer people seats on public transport; I try to make things easier for people I work with even if that makes things harder for me. But would I go up to a random person and offer to take their luggage like that? I HOPE I would but I don't know.
Oh and I still have to make a trip back to my old place tomorrow. Possibly 2 more trips for a total of 4. NICE.