Empty stars

_fivel_ @ 2007-09-24T17:12:00

2007-09-24T15:28:59Z

I've been extremely busy (and tired) these past three weeks. I now know a lot about Excel, I started with my driving lessons, photographed a wedding (I'm still editing the tons of photos, ugh!), became ill, did a photoshoot for my friends' theater group and designed their flyers and posters.

This Thursday I'll fly to Naples again for a photo assistant job and come back on Saturday. We'll be photographing jeans in the streets, so I hope everything goes well. Many have warned me about the crime level of that city and last time the shooting was on walled premises. I hope the other people there will keep an eye on our equipment, too.
At least we'll have direct flights and a less tight time schedule this time.

I also received another scholarship for my photo classes, which is good because the school finally got a studio for us! In return for the scholarship I'll take photos for the school and company, starting with me assisting on a trade fair in two weeks time.

After the cut: The poster for the play Arsenic and Old Lace.

_fivel_ @ 2007-08-22T02:25:00

2007-08-22T00:36:02Z

I've been so lazy these past two days. I've been basically hiding in my room, sleeping as long as I could and then passing time on the internet. I didn't even let some daylight in.

I should have finalized the editing of the wedding pictures of my friends. I didn't, so right now I'm sending them some via email for them to use as a card motif. Takes ages to upload and I'm so tired!

Today I attended my first theoretical driver's lessons. :O Yes, I finally decided to get my driver's licence, to have better chances at getting some photo assistant job. Had my first aid course on Saturday. I'll wait a little till I start doing the practical classes, eg driving. It's quite expensive, too.

Last homework, cutlery:

My makeshift studio (my bedroom):

More photos here: http://www.antihelios.de/Phototext/Besteck.htm

Naples

2007-07-31T18:29:36Z

Stressful week last week, but a good one.
First off, my computer semi-died the week before. The cooling fan fell of the CPU and landed on my graphics card, luckily not damaging anything. I took the machine to a friend, she bought a new fan, then had to go to five stores to find a replacement for the screw that broke. Then it turned out the threading was damaged so she brought it to a computer repair shop. All in all it took one week till I got it back. Cost me twice as much as anticipated and for no reason I can imagine I have to re-register Word now!
But I'm content, I got to edit my "multiculti" photos in time for my exam.

On Tuesday I met up with Mick Mazzei, who asked me to assist him in a photoshoot in Italy. At first it was going to be in Milan, but then was relocated to Naples. We were to shoot sports fashion for the company's catalogue. The location was a run-down machine hall where they repair the public busses.
Italians don't seem to place much emphasis on being on time. Our flight from Rome was delayed one hour, then the next morning we were picked up an hour later than it was said. I wouldn't have minded the extra sleep, I didn't get much because we arrived past midnight and then I couldn't get the air conditioner to work. We don't have air conditioners in Germany, and in Hong Kong they were working anyway or had buttons. Turns out the next morning, this one had a remote. The guy from the reception, whom I'd asked for help, never showed up either.
Anyway, back to the story. The model was apparently some TV personality, that much I could make out from the makeup artist's little English. She used to be on Italian Big Brother, and the bus mechanics were rather excited about her presence and had pictures taken with her. I found that amusing, both Mick and I had never even seen her before.
Despite the heat it went well and I enjoyed being active. My job was to set up the flash and battery at every new location, and to upload the photos onto the laptop. Shortly before the end, however, I was told to set up the equipment at one of the gates. I did so and when I was gone to get the battery, the flash was blown over by the wind there and broke. The photographer stayed cool, thankfully, we had both forgotten about the draughts at that particular place, and we did the remaining four outfits with a reflector.
We were done at 5pm, got to the airport and - yes, we had to wait an extra hour for our plane, hence missing our connection in Rome by mere 5 minutes. The flight to Munich, ironically, had been on time. I wasn't too sad, we got to sleep at the five star airport hotel, got a free dinner and breakfast, an airconditioned room and I could hit the bed earlier.

Some pictures after the cut:

Flying over the Alps for the first time!

Nocturnal view from my hotel room in Naples.

Melita on top of a bus.

Caught the flash! :-)

Fierce?

Flight back home.

Some more can be seen here: http://s61.photobucket.com/albums/h50/fivelein/MiscPhotos/

_fivel_ @ 2007-06-09T22:52:00

2007-06-09T21:18:40Z

I'm a bit down lately. Standstill, the topic of my last homework, is very much applying to my life. I don't really know what to do.

Today I got an email from a girl asking me if she can do an internship in my illustration company. I can't even get an internship myself! Goddamn, I had three promising interviews two weeks ago.
One, which would have been my frist choice, turned out to be graphics design and photo editing only, no photo assistance at all. And in the end they wanted someone with more experience in that field.
The second turned out to be a studio doing still life only. Didn't have a good day either when I was there, so I declined later. I want to do something with people, or at least something with different fields, so I can learn more. Payment would have been on the low end too.
The third one would have employed me on the spot - if only I had a drivers licence! Goddammit. Looks like I have to get one, after all. And for that I might have to get a boring office job in the meanwhile. Job hunting is depressing.

So most of the day I'm laying around, feeling a bit sorry for myself, don't eat enough so my energy and mood is low. :-/ All I want to do these days is play Guitar Hero, which I don't own.

Unemployed

2007-04-10T01:29:08Z

As most of you already know, I lost my job.
Three weeks ago I had my job interview. Half an hour later (that was on the evening of my second-to-last day at work) they told me that I was not "extroverted enough" and that I don't really fit in to the image they had formed for how my position should be in the future. For the record: I did my job very very well for those two years, I was liked by everybody (except my boss), and that was just an excuse to get rid of me.
It was a shock for me and everybody. The thought of everything changing, of becoming unemployed all of a sudden, and having to find something new were very scary. In fact, I'm still worried about what should become of me.

I spent the first days afterwards collecting my things, saying goodbye to my colleagues who I liked a lot (some of them are close friends) and going to the unemployment office.

The following week I had an exhibition at a hunting and fishing fair. While being there and watching out for the artwork I filled out my forms and thought about what I want to do now. Since I am forced to change my life I thought it's the perfect time to finally try and get into photography as a profession. First through an internship and then, after half a year when I start running out of money, as an assistant. It's a somewhat risky plan, but at least I'm getting unemployment compensation. If I fail I can still get some meaningless office job. But at least I tried!

It's the year of change for my friends too. Alex, who I did the makeup photos for, is trying to go to a makeup artist school that has more emphasis on stage makeup and the likes. Ben, my flat mate, is applying for graphic design school. It would have been good for at least one of us to have a normal income, but we will make it somehow. He'll have to get a side job to finance his studies.

Saturday was my birthday. Ben had invited me for dinner some weeks ago, but he ended up on vacations in Berlin. So Frank invited me in his place, and I told my friends that whoever wants to come along is welcome.
Frank insisted on blindfolding me, even though I knew we were driving to the Greek restaurant. I thought it was silly but way later I found out it had a purpose, haha. My friends were already waiting, I got some flowers, sweets, a Muse cd, and food. Frank was often disappearing, I had no idea why. He was a bit ill and picked up some friends from the train station so they could join us.
After dinner he made an announcement, congratualting me and said that I have to come outside. First I was thinking "oh god, please don't let it be a stripper!", and when he said outside I thought "fireworks!". We all gathered outside in the dark, they set up a little radio, and to the music Tine started flinging burning flares. It was quite pretty and not what I expected. :-) When she was finished they told me to look at the lake (which is directly next to the restaurant) and on the other side some lights went on, forming a "25" and then fireworks went off! I was so surprised, they had arranged fireworks after all! :D Apparently they had planned this for quite a while now! *love*

For the next day (Sunday) the school where I attend evening photography classes invited me to take photos of their info day. I took it as a good sign, because I had applied for a scholarship some weeks ago. A girl working there was telling me how great my photos are and then she let it slip that I got the scholarship! Haha, I was happy. I don't have to pay for the next course!
I don't know if they are happy with the photos I took on that day, though. It was dark, I am still not working with flash for various reasons, and I had to upload the photos onto their computer immediately afterwards without getting a chance to work on them or make a selection. I hate that.
Well, apparently I'll have to take photos on all upcoming info days, so there'll new chances...

Last week I started applying for internships at various photo studios. I started with the one I had an interview with last year. So far I haven't gotten any replies except from one who had been looking for an intern, telling me he liked my work but had already given away the job to someone else. He'd like to meet up some time, though.
It's Easter, so I hope to get some replies in the coming week.
Wish me luck on my search, guys! Sometimes I'm really doubting myself and life.

Oh, and to round up the misery, I'm ill again. I had a cold just a month ago, so it's quite unfair! Sleeping long, not doing anything, feeling bad and tired, and my sleeping times are really really messed up (I'm writing this at 3:30am). I'm also feeling so uncreative.

_fivel_ @ 2007-03-18T21:47:00

2007-03-18T20:59:59Z

I'm nervous! Tomorrow is my job interview.
Actually I'm applying for my own job again, because my contract ends on Tuesday (D:) and basically the only contract they can give me now is a permanent one. The thing is, I don't know if my boss wants to keep me or not, I don't trust her. But everyone else wants to keep me there, I've been in this office for two years and doing a good job.
I shouldn't be nervous, I guess. I wish I would know what's coming up to me. Also, I've been too emotional and anxious about everything related to my employment lately, so I hope I can make it through the interview well composed. :-/

Also, I've been ill this week. I took Monday to Wednesday off to be able to shoot photos for my final exam, but then I ended up staying in bed all of Monday. The next two days I was in Munich snapping tattoo artists at their work. Thursday I came into work not feeling so great. Found out they had set the job interview for that day actually, but nobody informed me at home. So of course I missed it, but they weren't surprised and it was re-scheduled. After a bit more than an hour I felt so miserable that I went home and to bed again.
But, at least, I got 100% for my tattoo photos on Friday. Although they are really not the best photos I've ever taken.
I'm still waiting for an answer about the scholarship that I applied for. I guess they are waiting for the grades. I'd really like to continue with the class, but it's quite expensive.

In case you are interested, I did two shoots since my last post:

The Writer

And some make-up stuff for a friend:

Edit:
I got 25, slightly above average, in this Autism Test.

_fivel_ @ 2007-02-15T22:29:00

2007-02-15T21:56:47Z

You scored as Friedrich Nietzsche. Well you're an egotistical maniac, and you are so very iconoclastic that you probably are currently lost in a post-modern Jupiter, I mean jungle of self-definition.

Don't let it get you down though, someday, through a willful onslaught of reinterpretation of dated forms and ideas, you will strike on something that passes as remotely new, and people WILL be into it on the basis of how hip it is alone. Also, the average espresso drinker looks up to you.

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Friedrich Nietzsche

92%

C.G. Jung

67%

Dante Alighieri

58%

Sigmund Freud

50%

Adolf Hitler

50%

Mother Teresa

42%

Steven Morrissey

42%

Stephen Hawking

42%

O.J. Simpson

33%

Hugh Hefner

25%

Jesus Christ

25%

Miyamoto Musashi

17%

Elvis Presley

17%

Charles Manson

17%

What Pseudo Historical Figure Best Suits You?
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× I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (Contacts.)	✓ I love to play video games. (Never get to play these days, though.)	× I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
× I curse sometimes. (I think I don't curse as much as I used to. But I guess I can be pretty blunt, still.)	× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	× I need/want money right now.
× I love sushi.	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (WTF?)
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
× I have a mobile phone. (I'm the last in my circle of friends who has no mobile.)	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (I don't drink. And if I would, I'd never drink that much.)	✓ I've rejected someone before.
× I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	× I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
× I have a lot to learn.	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
× I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced. (No piercings. Never.)
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	✓ I have jumped off a bridge. (Into a river.)	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (Never wear makeup.)	× I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	× I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (They goddamn talk too much.)	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
× Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone.	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
✓ I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	✓ I have a custom-built computer. (At least I'm almost sure I do. My roommate ordered it as it is now.)	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet. (Very rarely, though.)	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

_fivel_ @ 2007-01-25T19:56:00

2007-01-25T19:05:40Z

I knew that January and February would be a busy time, but I did not expect it to be THAT stressful. I think I have the worst part behind me, being the only one responsible in my team for a big fair was a bit too much for me.
Only time I get some time off is Sundays this month, but I have to take photos for a friend. She's going to apply at a makeup school and we are taking pictures for her portfolio. This is important for her and fun for me, so I'm gladly doing it, but it limits my spare time even more.

And February... I'll have to work on a lot of weekends. Two trade fairs. But after Feburary everything will be good.

Here are two makeup shots from the past Sundays:

And a fun photo from the last calendar shoot:

_fivel_ @ 2007-01-01T16:09:00

2007-01-01T15:17:50Z

Happy New Year everybody! :-)

I hope you all had a nice night. I didn't see a lot of fireworks, the location could have been better, but the party was nice. We were all dressed up poshly because the theme was "casino". We played for cents, so I made a plus of 1,15 Euros by playing roulette and black jack.
I was at my friends place two hours before the party started and tried to carve carrot blossoms. Don't ever try it, it's so hard and time consuming! I gave up after two.
But I used these (what's the english name for these?), to cut salami and cheese slices into stars. :-)

_fivel_ @ 2006-12-26T02:01:00

2006-12-26T02:35:50Z

Survey time!

Your 'Do You Want the Terrorists to Win' Score: 85%

You are a terrorist-loving, Bush-bashing, "blame America first"-crowd traitor. You are in league with evil-doers who hate our freedoms. By all counts you are a liberal, and as such cleary desire the terrorists to succeed and impose their harsh theocratic restrictions on us all. You are fit to be hung for treason! Luckily George Bush is tapping your internet connection and is now aware of your thought-crime. Have a nice day.... in Guantanamo!

Do You Want the Terrorists to Win?
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|	10%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	57%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%

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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:
"does not make friends easily, secretive, introverted, reclusive, observer, dislikes leadership, somewhat socially awkward, does not like to stand out, dislikes large parties, values solitude, solitary, avoidant, ambivalent about fitting in, not dominant, unassertive, suspicious, prudent, unadventurous, worrying, weird, intellectual, frequently second guesses self"

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You scored as Postmodernist. Postmodernism is the belief in complete open interpretation. You see the universe as a collection of information with varying ways of putting it together. There is no absolute truth for you; even the most hardened facts are open to interpretation. Meaning relies on context and even the language you use to describe things should be subject to analysis.

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Postmodernist

69%

Existentialist

63%

Materialist

56%

Cultural Creative

50%

Modernist

44%

Romanticist

38%

Idealist

31%

Fundamentalist

31%

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You scored as Alice.

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Alice

63%

Marina

63%

Jenny

50%

Bette

44%

Shane

31%

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You scored as atheism. You are... an atheist, though you probably already knew this. Also, you probably have several people praying daily for your soul.

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Satanism

58%

Buddhism

54%

Paganism

54%

agnosticism

54%

Islam

46%

Judaism

38%

Hinduism

33%

Christianity

25%

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Oekaki!!!!!

2006-12-25T23:37:56Z

Ah, I had a good christmas, although a bit stress beforehand. First I had to shoot a series of three photos as a brochure about water for my photo class exam. It drove me nuts, I just couldn't capture an elegant but dynamic splash. Anyway, I did the three states of aggregation (liquid, gas in the form of condensed drops, and frozen). Turns out my teacher was impressed again, he told me I was quite above the class and that he's happy to have me there to push the level of quality in the class. :-)
He also loved the milk bath photos the week before. It's good for my confidence to be told by a professional that my work is on par.

I also caught a flu just when I finished my homework and went to the written exam despite being ill. It also kept me from making a gift for my mum, but she was still happy about my visiting. :-)

Then we had our after christmas party, which for me is the only christmas event. This year I even had presents (mostly photos) for some people. It was so nice being with my friends, we laughed so much. And I got presents! Frank gave me a candy bikini. I laughed so hard when I unpacked it. :D

Also, Oekaki.de has re-opened! My first oekaki in over a year:

Milk Bath

2006-12-17T11:51:51Z

My homework from last week, and something I wanted to do for ages. :-)

When I had the idea on Monday I thought I'd never get someone to model for me in this crazy thing. I sent an email to half my female friends and was surprised by the positive replies. I ended up working with my roommate Geli again, out of convenience and because it had to be done before Friday. Also, she has great skin. :-)

We filled the bathtub with warm water and poured in 3 liters of milk (2 would have been enough). Unfortunately she had dyed her hair a few days before, so the milk turned orange pretty fast. I think the photos turned out well despite that. My teacher at least was quite impressed. :-)

You can see a few more here: http://www.antihelios.de/Phototext/Milchbad.htm

_fivel_ @ 2006-12-06T21:17:00

2006-12-06T20:17:00Z

Oh, I'm so tired this week.
I've been taking so many pictures lately... homework, calendar, other stuff.
Saturday last week I had a shooting for a goth clothing store in Munich. I was the second photographer, my roommate one of the models.
The blue-haired girl that I wanted to shoot for my color homework invited me. At first I was worried how it would turn out. The store was a bit dark and there were no lamps as I thought there would be. Also they all took soooo long to get ready, even though they had prepared the clothes the day before and had been there an hour before I arrived! 9____9
Well, we then drove to a nice backalley and it turned out to be a lot of fun. Too bad we couldn't enter the building site nearby, but at least we were lucky with the weather. On the way back we also made a quick halt in front of a circus and did a few snaps.
These are for the Erebus website and flyer.

You can find a bit more here: http://www.antihelios.de/Phototext/Erebus.htm

During that shoot I got some error in my camera, I couldn't do anything, not even switch it off until I took the batteries out. Since then I've gotten Error 99 (which is "other error" in the handbook) about two times, I have no idea why. I hope it's nothing serious.

I'm burning my photos and pictures right now. Something I should have done every month, my computer filled up to the brim in this one year. God, Raw and PS files take up so much space! x___X

_fivel_ @ 2006-11-28T23:55:00

2006-11-28T22:55:35Z

I colored the drawing from last week:

Details:

o____O

Well, since I don't seduce I can't really tell if that's accurate.

Colors!

2006-11-28T22:20:51Z

New homework, and I'm finally content with it, I think.

I wanted to shoot with a third girl but had to cancel the session because of my bitchy boss.
Kate = violet hair
Tine = red hair

These were all shot in my and Kate's bedrooms, with floor and desk lamps, my green wall/colorful bedsheets as a background. And what I love most: I borrowed the colored filters from Tine, they are from a theatre stage. :-)
I also bought a neon light recently, my first lamp with cold light, and it's fun.

Wooo!

2006-11-19T22:21:50Z

I'm very proud of myself - I've drawn something!

It's my take on Oz' character.

And a weird one. It's more of an experiment.

This one is from summer, ref was used.

In the forest...

2006-10-31T16:44:28Z

Guess what? Three weeks after the warranty of our oven expired it stopped working. Ok, it was old and we bought it second-hand, but still! Now the only hot plates working are the two in the back. Luckily someone had brought a little oven (it's as big as a microwave) quite a while ago.

This weekend my roommate and I finally got out to take his calendar photos. We were a bit late, I think we only started shooting around 5pm. And it was an overcast day, plus we were in a forest. I guess for the bad lighting conditions the photos turned out good enough:

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Some making-of photos :-)

I'll put the rest online on my site soon. He'll also put some up at www.grendelarthouse.de

I still didn't get around to do my photo class homework, the new topic is "autumn". The weather has been against me every time, and I had to work the weekend before. :-/

This was my first homework, for "history". Looks off-topic, I know, but I wanted to try the fake planet thing. That building is a castle.

Buchpfade

2006-10-26T20:52:56Z

Kommilitonen einer Freundin von mir haben diese Seite erstellt, seit Montag ist sie online:
http://www.buchpfade.de
Dein persönliches Bücherregal im Netz.
Die Idee finde ich sehr nett, ein paar Fehlerchen hat die Seite noch, aber das wird ganz sicher bald.

Fair in Rosenheim

2006-10-09T16:54:51Z

I've been to the Rosenheimer Volksfest last month. It's like the Oktoberfest, just smaller.

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4 Those cow balloons were so cute!

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6 Attempt at that fake lens tilt-shift thing. Since my old PS version has no Lens Blur I used Gaussian Blur.

7 I tried out my star filter that I bought for fun. Very cheesy. :-)

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10 Bavarians in their natural habitat, wearing traditional clothing.[/quote]

Ireland Photos

2006-09-27T18:54:31Z

I'm a bit late with posting these here, I've been a bit busy.

So, here's the rest of the photos I took in Ireland. Or view all of them here and read some more about the trip: http://www.antihelios.de/Phototext/Irland1.htm

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Athlone

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Jesus

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Information in our youth hostel in Galway.

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Me on Inishmore, biggest of the Aran Islands. We were walking from the wormhole to Dun Aengus, it was great.

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In Ireland gnomes live in little houses like this one.

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The wormhole.
On that day I regretted that I didn't get a grey gradient filter or polarizer before the trip.

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Frank enjoying the scenery - and himself - a bit too much.

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Shipwreck on Inis Oirr:

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In the background you can see a bit of the Cliffs of Moher.

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The Ciffs of Moher, which I found less impressive than the cliffs on Inish More, which you saw above.

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Photo opportunity. Actually, as soon as the fog cleared up, a lot of people climbed over the "fence" and hurried to the edge like photo-snapping lemmings.

Dublin:

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Back from Ireland

2006-08-26T02:36:34Z

So, I'm back from Ireland and have just been lazily lolling in front of the computer since. Which is weird, because I didn't miss the internet in my week of absence at all.
The green island was nice, temperatures were good in Dublin, a bit fresher on the west coast. After our first night in Dublin we took the bus across the country to Galway. Hostels and busses are quite affordable there, but the food is damn expensive! Also, in Ireland they don't seem to believe in street signs. To find out in what street you are you have to walk along the houses and hope for a house number that includes the name.
Anyway, from Galway we took the bus and then the ferry to the Aran Islands. They were my favourite part of the trip, very beautiful. The weather was bad when we arrived but cleared up in the afternoon, luckily. If you are ever on Inishmore, ask the bus driver about the wormhole. That's the coolest place on the whole island. Forget about that fort on the cliffs, the wormhole is nearby and much more interesting. Also, the island has both cliffs and beaches (with sand and rocks), so there's something for everybody. I wish we had planned a longer stay there.
Next day we made a little stop at the smallest island, Inisheer (there are various spellings like Inis Oirr). There's a wonderful rusty shipwreck on the rocky shore, I loved it and I wish I had had more time. Weather was windy and one of my friends didn't feel so well. We took the ferry to Doolin, which is close to the Cliffs of Moher. Do not walk all the way to Doolin, it is much farther than you'd think. Our hostel was on the other side of this stretched "town" (which constisted of three pubs and like 100 bed&breakfasts).
When we went to the Cliffs on the next day it was very foggy, and after two of my friends left disappointedly it cleared up. The cliffs were less impressive than the ones on Inishmore, at least to me. It was also quite a tourist trap.
We were tired and discouraged by the big distance between things so we never got to see the Burren, even though it wasn't that far away. We took the bus back to Dublin where we stayed two more days. If you ever go there, the Globetrotters is a very nice hostel and you get a full Irish breakfast there. The Abraham House isn't bad either and very cheap. Stay away from the Litton Lane hostel, it's not very nice there, the toilets are crammed, some of the showers don't work, the beds are creaky and the breakfast sucks.
Dublin was ok, although I'm not into bars and drinking, so Temple Bar held nothing more for me than some very few photo motifs. I thought the city was more beautiful at night, that's why you'll see mostly night shots from there.
Going to see the Book of Kells is worth the short wait and the 7 Euros, plus you get to see the old library which is really nice. Too bad you aren't allowed to take photos. The national history museum is also a beautiful building and contains some very intricate pieces.
And I saw a very cute guy (I think it was a guy...) working in a bookstore. :-)

Ok, here are some photos, not in chronological order:

This building fascinated me for some reason. In the upper windows you could read "give blood" - it's a blood donor clinic.

Mr James Joyce.

Globetrotters, reception room.

A more touristy picture. The Spire.

I have no idea either.

Being a voyeur in Temple Bar.

_fivel_ @ 2006-08-23T23:06:00

2006-08-23T21:09:49Z

And an old one from winter that I just photoshopped recently.

Evening school?

2006-08-06T20:12:44Z

So... I just got home from an open day at some private media school where they also teach photo design. I went there thinking that I most likely won't enroll there, it's expensive and all... but now I know I could do this after work, meaning I wouldn't have to give up my job to study there. Now I'm seriously considering it. One course is one semester long. Four hours per week in the evening. They claim to focus on the practical side - technically and business-wise.

It would give me some practical knowledge that I lack now. It would also help me decide if that's something I'd like to do for a living (yeah, I know it's a tough market).

After my frist interview for that one internship I was kinda discouraged. Of course I could have kept on searching, but I just wasn't sure anymore. Right now I'm not having that much fun taking stale photos (I'll post some below). I also know that I won't get a job like that by sitting around and waiting for others to offer me one. So this would be a step towards doing something, gaining experience and thus confidence.

Here are some photos I shot for her as a present for her boyfriend. That was last month, she was quite happy with the outcome. Shot in a winter garden with changing daylight conditions.

She doesn't like this one, but I do.

_fivel_ @ 2006-07-10T18:46:00

2006-07-10T17:41:55Z

I'm tired/exhausted, feel a bit ill, as if I have cought a small cold on Thursday.

Well, here's another few survery thingies, this time snatched from Tegwin:

1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship?
long distance, no butterflies

2. What made you smile today?
Frank (sort-of best friend)

3. What were you doing this morning at 8a.m.?
My alarm clock was ringing, so I was crawling out of bed.

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Came home, put away the dishes and opened a can of soup.

5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
I have no idea what happened when I was 3.

6. Your prom night?
"Prom" was boring. I didn't dance (I don't like dancing), so I mostly sat around, ate and chatted a little.

7. Last thing you said aloud?
"Hello pizza!"

8. Last thing someone else said aloud?
"Hi Babs"

9. Worst thing currently on television:
There's always a lot of crap on tv. I don't watch much tv, so I can't give any examples right now.

10. What was in the mail today?
No mail.

11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
I only drank water, again and again.

12. What is your favorite part of the day?
Evening. For taking photos outside I prefer the early morning.

13. Your current To-do list?
Send an invoice for my last illustrations.
Work on friend's photos. (or in general: get up your ass and do something creative!)
Wash white laundry.
Throw out the plastic garbage.
Ask roommate if she can fix my mum's computer. (damn, I again forgot to ask her!)

14. Where is your best friend right now?
In the town next to mine.

15. What color is your toothbrush?
Red and blue. And maybe white?

16. What is out your back door?
We don't have a back door. We only have a balcony.

17. Any plans for Sunday night?
Nope. Being lazy. I'll probably be a bit tired since I have to work this Sunday.

18. Least favorite place to shop?
Benetton and the likes. Places where there is more store than products. And where everything is too neatly arranged.

19. Last thing you bought?
I ordered a 2GB compact flash card last night.

20. Last gift you received?
One year of paid online scrabble. And a black bag that I will probably almost never use.

21. Funniest thing you heard all day?
Frank talking about the differences of man and woman, which he has read about in a book.

22. Favorite mug?
One filled with yummy hot chocolate. :-)
Heh, if it's about faces... I don't know. There are so many pretty people out there!

23. What color is your front door?
White.

24. First thing you did this morning?
Switched off the alarm clock.

25. Last thing you ate?
I'm eating chicken soup right now.

26. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
I don't have one. :-)

27. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?
The coast and Aran Islands in Ireland. Water, cliffs, rocks, and hopefully a ship wreck.

28. What's annoying you right now?
The heat and that I'm not feeling well.

29. What do you think about long distance relationships?
It's good to see new places. But generally it's a difficult thing.

30. Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
Not really.

31. Who is the last person you called?
Customer at work.

32. Do you look like your mom and dad?
Yeah... I look more like my mum. I really hope I haven't inherited all her health issues. But thanks for the creative talents, mum!

33. Do you smile often?
No. I mostly only smile in funny company.

34. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
No.

35. Do you wish on stars?
No.

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Have you had sex in the past 24 hours?
no

Are you gay?
no

Do you have hairy legs?
no, but I should shave again ....

Do you smoke anything?
no

Do you like monkeys?
Not really. I don't know why so many people love them. I only like the smaller cute species.

How many fillings do you have?
none

Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
I haven't done either in a very long time. I wouldn't mind either, I guess. A lake is probably more safe.

Have you ever licked one of those square batteries?
no O___o

Have you ever read the Bible?
Yeah, a little bit. Started at the beginning, got bored after a while. The ending is neat.

Did you ever go to Sunday School?
Something similar, yeah.

Do you wear a lot of black?
yes

Did you ever bring a weapon to high school?
Not a real one.

Have you ever hugged a tree?
Could be, I'm not sure.

Do you know what a sphincter actually is?
yes...

Describe your hair?
red, dyed, long

Are you a wilderbeast?
uh... no

Do you like drama?
Not really. Maybe to watch, but not to be part of it.

Have you ever taken a bong hit?
no

Are you afraid to die?
I would skip that if I could. I'm more afraid of dying than being dead. I don't want to suffer.

Do you like lime tictacs?
Doesn't sound like something I would try.

Have you ever peed your pants as an adult?
no

Have you ever thrown up on somebody as an adult?
no

Ever won a spelling bee?
we don't have something like that

Do you ever eat because your depressed?
I don't think so.

Are you a television addict?:
I rarely watch tv nowadays.

Do you think O.J. is guilty?:
I don't know and I don't care.

Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?:
For a bit yes. After a while it often gets a bit exhausting. I just wish I could make her life easier, give her the things she wants.

Have you ever had sex in a hot tub?
depends on your definition ;-)

On a swing?
haha, no

Do you like Elvis?
some stuff is ok

Do you enjoy watching animals "do it" on the Discovery channel?
Oh my, who came up with these questions?

Ever been hit on at a zoo?
No o___O

Have you ever had sex with a total stranger?
No

Do you enjoy the calming effects of turkey?
Huh?

Does your mom think someones hot?
Yeah, it's embarrassing. Let's not talk about it.

Are you a sugar freak?
I like sweet stuff, yes. Chocolate-y stuff mostly.

When you hear a knock on the door, do you think "Oh shit, is that the cops?"
Wtf? No.

Ever been arrested?
No

Ever commit a crime and gotten away with it, like O.J. did?:
No, at least not a real crime.

Actually, do you like orange juice?:
yes

Where do you wish you were right now?
In bed, sleeping. But it's only half past 7.

Did you enjoy this?
I liked the previous one better.

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So Far In '06 Have You...

1. Have you had more than 5 different boyfriends/girlfriends?

Haha. No.

2. Have you had your birthday?

yes

3. Been to church?

To a church, yes. For religious reasons, no.

4. Cried yet?

yes

5. Had someone close to you pass away?

no

6. Pulled an all nighter?

I think only once. I'm getting old.

7. Drank starbucks?

Nope.

8. Went shopping?

of course

9. Been camping?

no

10. Been to the beach?

no

11. Bought something for over $200?

yes

12. Met someone new?

a few people

13. Been out of state?

Out of country, you mean? Kinda, came back from Holland on the 1st of January.

14. Gone Snowboarding?

I'd prefer skiing. But no, haven't done that in aaages.

1. Kissed someone?

no

2. Slept in someone elses bed?

couch

3. Snuck someone over?

Huh?

4. Snuck out of your own house?

no

5. Been to a bar?

no

6. Lied?

probably

7. Gotten a car?

no, don't even have a driver's licence

8. Gone over your cell phone bill?

no cell phone

9. Been called a ..........?

a what?

10. Drove somewhere?

I don't drive. But I like being on the passenger's seat.

11. Done something you regret?

most likely

Last Thing you bought?

See above, CF card.

Last Person you hugged?

Frank. Or Ben?

Last Person to call you?

customer

Last time you brushed your teeth?

This morning.

Last time you took a bath?

I don't take baths, I shower.

When was the last time you felt stupid?

probably not so long ago

Who was the last person who saw you cry?

I don't remember.

Who was the last person who made you cry?

Me.

Who was the last person who you watched a movie with?

Frank, Ben, Geli.

Who was the last person you danced with?

I don't dance.

Who did you last yell at?

Probably Frank.

What did you do today?

Prepared the upcoming trade fairs. Produced admission tickets and sent them to the customers. Stuff like that.

_fivel_ @ 2006-07-09T00:52:00

2006-07-08T23:55:46Z

Ugh, I have to use my tablet to navigate. My mouse seems to have died without any reason.
Since I had my interview for this internship at a fashion photographer I'm kinda questioning myself and my photographic abilities. I know my photos are ok, but they should be more. There's nothing special, othing great about them. I have some ideas, but I never get around to do them. Since my boss asked me if I would like to prolong my contract I'm also considering doing this normal "office job" for a bit longer than I had planned. It's not so bad after all. My team is nice (most of the time, anyway), I have flexible working hours for about 90% of the year, I get a decent salary, I have internet access there and can use the printer. Most of the time it's not a taxing job. But it's not what I want to do all my life. I'm young and I want to try things. I'm just doubting myself, and I'm not getting off my ass to actually do something. :-/

I had a photoshoot with a friend today, it didn't go that well. First time I took nude shots of a guy. I was very unsatisfied with the light. I had a lamp with me, but that wasn't great either. I would like to have an external flash, but those things are damn expensive. I haven't looked throuh the photos yet. I hope they are not all bad. At one time, after switching locations, somehow the autofocus got switched off and I didn't notice for a while. u_____u

Last weekend I had a photoshoot with a female friend of a friend. It was ok, we shot at the winter garden of my friend's cousin, so we had sunlight and a black backdrop (which I brought along), and my friend was even sometimes holding a mirror to reflect light. That was fun. The photos turned out ok, I guess. I haven't heard from her yet, but maybe she was busy or didn't get the mail. I might post a few photos of that shoot. I just wish I could direct models better, it often seems awkward for me and I end up being too passive.

Oh, and on Thursday I was taking snapshots at my company's summer festivities and towards the end of the evening I suddenly notice that the first third of my photos were gone! I never had something like that happen to me before. I was suspecting the card wasn't completely flawless already months ago, but it was never something serious like this. Luckily I was able to restore most of the deleted photos. I'll have to look for my warranty and possibly sending it back. I don't want this to happen to me while I'm on vacations in Ireland next month.

I'm tired but I feel like typing (as you probably noticed by now), so here's something I snatched from Bee's journal:

{x ] Spell your first name backwards - arabraB

[ x ] The story behind your lj user name - My online name had always been Five, but Five was of course already taken. The theoretical German diminutive of Five would be Fivelein, that was shortened to Fivel some years back. Also Fivel sounds like the name of that mouse.

[ x ] Are you a lesbian/homosexual - not really

[ x ] Where do you live - Germany, near Munich

[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - undecisive, critical, different, lazy

DESCRIBE YOUR...

[ x ] Wallet - Black, might be leather?

[ x ] Hairbrush - Also black, and grey, and with a bit of red at the end of the pins.

[ x ] Toothbrush - Blue and red. We bought it on my first day in Hong Kong last year, when my luggage was on another plane.

[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - I don't wear jewelry

[ x ] Pillow cover - changes. Right now it's some brownish white with brown stripes. I prefer my red ikea bedsheets.

[ x ] Blanket - two pink blankets that I had since I was a kid. I would abhor pink blankets if I wasn't so used to them.

[ x ] Coffee cup - filled with hot chocolate, please! :-)

[ x ] Sunglasses - don't own any

[ x ] Shoes - brown leather Sketchers, made for guys

[ x ] Favorite top - not really any right now. I'd like to wear my white top with collar and dark pink stripes (from Mango) more often. But I rarely get the chance to wash it since I'm basically the only one in this household that has white laundry.

[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - none

[ x ] CD in stereo right now - Radiohead - I might be wrong

[ x ] Tattoos - none

[ x ] Piercings - never

[ x ] What you are wearing now - blue jeans with a blue flowery pattern on one back. Black top, brown jacket.

[ x ] Hair - red, longing for being washed, braided.

[ x ] Makeup - none

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)

[ x ] In my mouth - my tongue

[ x ] In my head - my brain, I hope

[ x ] Wishing - I wish I could create stunning pieces of art

[ x ] After this - I'll go to bed.

[ x ] Talking to - nobody.

[ x ] Eating - nothing. But I had some nice vietnamese dinner with my friends today, after the photoshoot.

[ x ] Fetishes - probably lots of minor ones. I adore beauty in a lot of different forms.

[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who would
it be? - I don't think I could murder someone, at least not right now. And it would have to be someone who'd be a major harm for the world.

[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - I'd love to hang out with WP and Bang again. There's also a lot of other great people that I haven't met before, but I would be a bit shy seeing them.

[ x ] Is next to you - my wall is next to me. A little bit behind me is a signed Puddnhead print on the wall.

[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - every Alien movie, Vampire Hunter D, Leon the Professional, AI, The last unicorn....

[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - I wanted to do a trip to Holland again, but I don't see this happening. I'll go to Ireland in August and even though I'm not going to see the Giant's Causeway I'll be on the Aran Islands for a night and a day, I hope I can see the ship wreck on one of them.
Oh yeah, and soccer worldcup will be over in a few days. Finally.

[ x ] The last thing you ate - yummy vietnamese food. The last thing specifically was icecream with lychees and a few pieces of pineapple.

[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - Mediocrity, and dying of a horrible disease

[ x ] Do you like candles - yeah, they are ok. I never get to light them since there is never an occasion for it. I used to cast my own candles with left-over wax. I once even made two yin-yang shaped candles.

[ x ] Do you like hot wax - to play with yes, to play with on my skin, no.

[ x ] Do you like incense - doesn't do much for me when it comes to smell. But I love to watch the smoke in bright light. I've gotten some incense just to take photos of it - which is harder than one would think. But very pretty.

[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - no

[ x ] Do you believe in love - kinda

[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates- ergh, to a point

[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - Interest and "clicking" yes, real love no.

[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - no

[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - yeah, I believe there are people who can forgive.

[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - I don't care.

[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - I used to have cats when I was a kid. Cats are great. But I wouldn't want to lock a cat into my flat, cats should be free to roam around. Also, they leave a lot of hair everywhere and I have a slight allergy to some cats. So, I don't really have the time and space for a pet. I'm glad the few plants I care for are doing ok.

[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - Till almost lunchtime of the next day.

[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - Nope

[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - Yes. Not perfect, but I can. I prefer wooden ones, not too smooth.

[ x ] What's your favorite coin - The 2HK$ coin that Ken gave to me. It has a flower on it and a wavey outline.

[ x ] What are 3 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - London, New York, maybe Tokyo or HK (but not for too long)

[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - Chocolate-covered strawberries. I could eat a lot of them, but I usually don't because they are a bit pricey. Icecream, yummy asian food perhaps.

[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - kinda

[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - create an interesting picture. Or at least sketch down the idea...

[ x ] My father thinks I am: I don't know what he thinks of me now since we haven't seen each other in half a year. We always had different opinions. He didn't like my long hair. He wanted it shorter and blonde. He said I should wear skirts, be more feminine, wear make-up. He said I'd never going to earn money with art. He wanted to make me drink alcohol and carbonated drinks.

[ x ] My mother thinks I am: a lot more talented than her.

[ x ] My siblings think I am: my rommate said that my brother thinks I have a good eye for pictures, compositions and stuff. :-)

[ x ] My grandma thinks I am: I don't know. Actually when she visited my mum she thought I was being unpolite for not saying "good morning" in the morning. While in realilty she was bad of hearing and didn't hear me saying it. *sigh*

[ x ] Your three best qualities: artsy, critical, slim.

[ x ] Three worst qualities: procrastinating (lazy), critical, shy. Sometimes I'm a bit judgemental and strict towards others.

[ x ] Three things you are often complimented for: long hair, slimness, art

[ x ] Makes you happy: positive attention

[ x ] Upsets you: being ignored

[ x ] You keep a diary: no

[ x ] You like to cook: it bores me and it usually tastes better if someone else cooks it. Maybe because the smell is fresher to you this way.

[ x ] You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: I don't know.

[ x ] You fold your underwear: Heh, no, I toss it in my drawer as it is.

[ x ] You talk in your sleep: Not as far as I know. I sometimes breath a bit audibly because my nose is clogged up.