here's where the story ends.

byebye.

2008-05-10T02:36:04Z

http://themissadventuresof.blogspot.com/

_feedingthefire @ 2008-04-28T23:27:00

2008-04-29T06:27:15Z

"And love, even without light I could see that we would fail"

_feedingthefire @ 2008-03-22T08:50:00

2008-03-22T15:54:17Z

each time i pack my belongings, i feel like it becomes less and less.
before i had a few boxes, my bed, my dresser. some clothes, a whole lot of makeup.
this time it's a 2 boxes, my dresser, some clothes, even more makeup.
i'm completely broken hearted. i've been in this empty room by myself for a day and a half. tonight, we're out of here.
all i want to do is cry. i can't believe that he's leaving me and living 350 miles away. i feel so selfish for being so upset, but i guess after living with, seeing, touching, kissing, being with someone every day for 11ish months, it's bound to happen.
next week i'll be living back at home. i'll only have to drive 25 minutes to work instead of an hour. sleep more, eat less.
2008, you are a fucking huge drag.

_feedingthefire @ 2008-03-14T13:26:00

2008-03-14T20:34:26Z

i miss all my friends.
i miss hardcore.
i'm going to philly for my 22nd birthday this year.
i might even stagedive.
i miss looking normal, so i stripped my hair. i'm waiting for it to dry so i can dye it brown.
bye bye blue bubble.
normalcy. my life is anything but.
i never leave my house but nothing is ever normal.
i still refuse to grow my eyebrows back.
i'm moving home friday. danny's moving to lower knob hill.
i'll live in a bedroom with my 24 and 13 year old sisters.
everything is pink in that room.
maybe i need my dad. i'm 5'6" but i think if i try really hard i could still cuddle up on his lap and let him rub my hair
and he'll tell me everything is okay.
back to saving money.
ironic that gas is $4 a gallon.
lucky for me one of my closest friends and coworkers lives three blocks from my dads house.
now i know what it means to rideshare.
i have tanlines from last summer still.
i want tan lines from this summer already.
i love my boyfriend to pieces
and i love that he's moving to san francisco so we can walk to the presidio and look out over the ocean and the golden gate bridge.
change is inevitable,
but i like change.

_feedingthefire @ 2008-02-25T21:14:00

2008-02-26T05:18:05Z

hot list:

- alicia keys; as i am
- the fact that 4" + heels are in
- burritos
- $1 chonga hoops
- downtown los angeles
- puri kura machines being busted
- american gangster
- short unpainted nailz
- messy hair
- finishing school
- 8th and maple
- glitter glue

the not list:

- having no phone charger
- the state of hip hop
- 3rd and maple
- parrodies of your family members on SNL
- 28 hour paychecks
- arguing with your boo

xoxo

_feedingthefire @ 2008-01-24T18:19:00

2008-01-25T02:20:19Z

i feel like i have zero friends. no one invites me to do anything and when i wanna do stuff, everyone either ignores me or never wants to do anything. i'm not gonna try to make plans with anyone anymore.

_feedingthefire @ 2008-01-03T22:20:00

2008-01-04T06:21:10Z

in 2008, i'm going to grow back my eyebrows and stop stealing internet connections.

okay maybe not the eyebrows part.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-12-16T01:59:00

2007-12-16T10:00:29Z

being in a crew that no one gives two fucks about and being closeminded about anything that isn't hardcore is so fucking lame. i'm over hardcore because of this. fuck it.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-12-13T09:20:00

2007-12-13T09:22:59Z

I'm so in love that everytime I look at him, my heart palpitates. My smiles are real. If angels were real, he'd be mine. He is mine.

favorite.

2007-12-08T07:20:34Z

so i'll rub away the window frost
in snow like this i could get lost
but i'd tunnel through to get to you
and i'd never say goodbye
and it keeps on coming down
i'll write your name here on the ground
but it disappears with frozen tears
that fall from the sky

_feedingthefire @ 2007-11-20T23:47:00

2007-11-21T07:47:52Z

hi, i'm back.
no, really.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-10-22T23:54:00

2007-10-23T06:58:49Z

fire season has never been this bad. in the nine or 10 years my mom's been living in calabasas, i've seen some pretty horrible fires and windstorms, but none as great as this. i'm in los angeles proper and i still won't be able to sleep tonight. i'm crossing my fingers.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-10-15T21:46:00

2007-10-16T04:47:26Z

my first makeup work published in ap magazine:

www.altpress.com

yaaay! i love set your goals

_feedingthefire @ 2007-10-10T19:53:00

2007-10-11T02:56:33Z

driving down overcrowded streets has never made me hate this city more
in the thick haze of smog and greed and overexcessiveness, i always seem to find that unexplainable love.
maybe it's just when i walk in the door and i find you sitting there playing the same song you always do
and that rasp in your voice because you haven't spoken to anyone in a half hour.
i know i can always count on you.
through all the pinkand napalm orange messes and yellow rubber ducky shower curtains,
you are an anchor.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-09-29T00:51:00

2007-09-29T07:54:22Z

someone put a roofie in my drink at bad brains on wednesday night. i feel violated.
my hair is pink. i'm channeling gwen circa return of saturn.
my boyfriend is very handsome.
otayyy byeee

_feedingthefire @ 2007-09-25T11:20:00

2007-09-25T18:18:40Z

life is really expensive.
the drama's out of my hair but the stress is gonna lay on thick.
just five more months.
being an adult is not as radicool as one would think. i wanna be 16 again.
i'm going back to school to finish what i started.
and i'm hungry.
bye.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-08-21T00:32:00

2007-08-21T07:34:50Z

new year.
21 in 3 no, 2 days.
i live with the the boy i am going to marry and spend the rest of my life with.
havasu in a week which means vacation which means alcohol which means no MAC cosmetics.
i'm fully enjoying life now and i have absolutely nothing to complain about.
oh yeah, and it doesn't hurt that i'm blonde again. teeheehee.
xox

_feedingthefire @ 2007-07-10T22:13:00

2007-07-11T05:17:58Z

i finally learned what i was told a long time ago. don't look for love, let it come to you. you never find what you're looking for if you're searching, but it will never fail to find you at the bar drunk off your ass. five hours is all it takes for you to realize you've met your match. sit and talk about nothing while staring at your size tyke jordans.

i love this fool.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-07-04T18:21:00

2007-07-05T01:21:57Z

(6:21:03 PM): And don't let anyone tell you its not alright to be in love. For every reason they say not to, I can give them 10,000 for why its right.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-06-29T00:56:00

2007-06-29T07:57:32Z

tasting you and rain I walk down to the train
trying not to look down
this day could someday be an anniversary
everything is light and sound
facing forwards going slowly
wait for you to show me
where this train wants to go
living by the hour I stop for every flower
everything is soft and slow
now all these tastes improve
through the view that comes with you
like they handed me my life
for the first time it felt right
thank you for making me
see there's a life in me
it was dying to get out
holding you we make two spoons
beneath an April moon
everything is soft and sweet
this cigarette it could seduce
a nation with its smoke
crawling down my tired throat
scratches part of me that's purring
softly stirring
I'm a captain of industry smoking famously
feet up on the windowsill
looking at all these trees I feel affinity with
everything so soft and still
budding at my fingertips
touching you I start to bloom
alive with trains and passing ships
soft and sweet along your lips now
I go "oh wow"
thank you for taking me from my monastery
I was dying to get out
with tears of gratitude
I lock my latitude
cross town train to you
now all these tastes improve
through the view that comes with you
like they handed me my life for the first time it felt worth it
like I deserved it

_feedingthefire @ 2007-06-22T11:22:00

2007-06-22T18:22:55Z

life keeps on changing. i tell it to stay still, but it won't listen. i just want you near me like you are now for good.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-06-17T14:18:00

2007-06-17T21:18:41Z

i'm not dead, just preoccupied. things are good for me for once, i swear. i'm just really tired, thats all.
i love all of you. be happy for me. please.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-06-09T22:38:00

2007-06-10T05:38:52Z

danny is in tokyo and he sent flowers to my counter again.
best boyfriend.

_feedingthefire @ 2007-06-06T02:36:00

2007-06-06T09:36:35Z

puzzle pieces puzzle pieces we go together just right like puzzle pieces puzzle pieces....

_feedingthefire @ 2007-06-01T22:46:00

2007-06-02T05:48:54Z

i'm happy.