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[08 Mar 2006|02:13pm] |
my number-
07845026338
get intouch cause i dont have internet unless im at college or my grans!
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| saturday night :] |
[27 Feb 2006|07:48pm] |
so i go round to lucies whilst she gets pissed and smokes, i think im fit so i pull this dead good face.
me&lucie
i think lucies dead good, so i kissed her.She loves it
jenny?me lucie and mike, i like mike hes nice
suzie,jen and me looking a bit stupid
i love this one! suzie, me, ruby, jake and jennn its a right picture.
me and frenchie!
me++lucieee!
me lucie suzie and mike!
i look a bit intense here .
end :]
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| Ive been gone a long time. |
[27 Feb 2006|02:32pm] |
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Only the lonesome love us. Only the careless can handle us.
What's wrong with us that we're so unamused?
So, Ive not had the chance to update, talk anyone, bitch, etc etc, or do anything lately.
For those who dont know, 2 fridays ago my mother and my 2 sisters and brother moved house, to a converted barn house just off the outskirts of Little Hulton,Manchester.
Sadly the area its in has really bad bus links, so if I lived their Id be really stuck, she has no internet connection, one big tv with freeview, a few dvds, and the worst bit is im sharing a room with my 2 sisters. My idea of hell yes.
So I decided to divide the week into nights and spend nights at different family members a friends houses.
Monday-Grans
Tuesday-Mothers House.
Wednesday-Auntie Mels
Thursday-Auntie Mels
Friday-Friends
Saturday-Auntie Mels/Friends
Sunday- Grans
I quite like my new weeks, they are really different in a good way, I dont spend my nights glued to the computer chair with my eyes stapled to the screen eating whatever my hand grabs.
I spend my nights thinking, watching the odd pointless TV show, or reading and listening to my ipod.
I feel like a gyspy, without a caravan and the police constantly on my tail.
I like it though.
Besides moving around I have spent my half term from college working fulltime at the Lowry Shopping Centre Mall thing, in the quays. I worked at the subway in the foodcourt because the guy that owns my subway owns that one too, so I offered to help, I scored myself 6 shifts wooo.
Works going really good, I get on with everyone and I actually enjoy it.
On friday night i spent the first night in the new house, i invited chris over it was a fun night, we just listened to wigan pier and the starting line, it was fun
on saturday morning i was awoken by the wind, having an attic room has its disadvantages, being woken by the sound of wind ripping through the roof!
saturday night was amazing, enough said.
I went out with lucie but met ruby in there, frenchie was there too, hes actually the funniest guy ever.
rubys seeing jake i think, ive only met him a few times but i dont like him, hes weird and shes not even properly with him yet and he made her sad.
thats not the best starting point ever, but oh well, if theres one thing i learnt from my mistakes its not to get involved with my friends love lives.
Ive been spending alot of time with lucie lately, its been really nice shes such a mint girl to hang out with.
Ive also been spending loads of time with chris green, which is nice aswell, but spending less with ruby this due to her being with jake 3/4s of the time, and the other 1/4 some other part of the country with natt, most likely leeds :]
but i went to stay on tuesday/wednesday night, which wasnt the best
she asked me was chris a better friend than her and she was getting into the whole chris being my best friend stuff.
she knows she is my best friend, and chris is too, but i would call her the better friend if anything, ive spent more time with her and i dunno she just is.
so i just didnt know what to say.
i felt like asking if natt and amy were better than me, but petty and childish isnt really my middle name.
everythings going well, i just need to kep college work balanced
good day
xx
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[20 Jan 2006|12:10pm] |
I dont think I enver mentioned Im in love with this boy.
sigh.
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[06 Jan 2006|03:26pm] |
I think Im going insane, or to say the least losing my mind.
Ive gone really REALLY forgetful and my dreams are so fucked. I just dont understand myself anymore.
My dreams are just so WEIRD! they dont make sense and they dont have any relevance to me whatsoever.
First one, Me and my guitarist Iain were walking in this inner city roughish part of manchester and he was telling me about how council flats have massive dressing rooms, and i didnt beleive him, so he showed me this flat with a gigantic window for the dressing room, then we went to a market, and begun to carve into a white fish, then this old woman gave me £1.50 odd, and iain about £5, I asked him why and he told me that was his job, to cut fish. WHY AM I HAVING THESE DREAMS? AND WHY AM I REMEMBERING EVERY SINGLE ONE
the second dream was even weirder, I was sat on rubys bed and holly and this weird guy came in the room, and I went to kiss holly and say hello, but something like a mole or a piercing fell off her face into my mouth, and I felt really embarassed for her cause she had a red mark where it had been so I didnt say anything.
WEIRD AS FUCK
AND THEN!!! last night...
I was in this old secondhand shop with rubys ex and his gf, he stretched his ear to the size of a hubcap and was holding it, then he pulled out a TTEOTD cd, and told me it was £3, so i dived after it pulling out all these cds trying to find it but I just couldnt, then he showed me all these books, then everything switched and I was at a swimming baths, and this tramp from my old street called rachel bates nicked my shoes, and i was like wtf?
So i ran around the swimming pools looking for her, but then i bumped into this person I knew, and I started talking to them, but I was trying to keep an eye on my little sister at the same time, and this person was like STOP LOOKING AWAY FROM ME! YOUR SISTER WILL BE FINE! and as soon as i took my eyes of her she had gone, so i ran to this room which was like one ledge with a massive pool infront of me, with no ledges around to walk, so id have to swim to the other side, THEN it switched to me sat infront of a computer and ruby was sat behind me telling me how to type cause i couldnt type words, and she was like ALRIGHT and i was learning to type words
I DONT UNDERSTAND THEM!
I think I need severe dream analysis.
xx
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[04 Jan 2006|11:31pm] |
So yesterday.. *sigh*
I dont know where to start, I travelled to rainford, about 3ish and I trekked across the farms to chrises, only to find that band practise wasnt even meant to be on, luckily the
others were there so we just penned down a new song, which is realy decent, its really old dahlia ish riff wise, and I penned down a few drum beats for it.
Then I had to leave to catch the train back, on my way back towards walkden ruby called me, which was a shock cause I thought she was still in russia.
I knew it was bad news straight away, she was crying and I couldnt understand her, she had broken up with matt, things were bad.
I didnt even know what to say. Im shit at times like these, Maybe its because the only ever time ive been in love was the most complicated and fucked up time of my life.
anyway I arranged to meet her later, so I got the bus later and her mum was gonna pick me up from the cathedral, so i went to meet her.
As soon as I got in the car she burst out crying and hugged me, I felt so helpless, I couldnt do or say anything that would make any difference, I felt so upset to see my best
friend so devastated because of what Matt has done, anyway we got back to hers and just sat upstairs all night, and I listened to everything she had to say, I attempted to
change the subject a few times but it didnt work, i was stuck again, i didnt even know how to help her, or what to say.
How shit am I, I could even comfort my own friend. she was just so shocked and upset I think she tired herself out, and she fell asleep. I stayed awake till quite late thinking,
she was so upset and I couldnt change it.
Woke up today about 10, but ruby didnt wake till about 1, so i sat around, she woke up looking a bit better, but still proper upset about matt. It must have hurt so much to
wake up to the reality of what you thought, or at least hoped to be a bad dream. I convinced her to get a shower and get ready and stuff, so she got ready and looked really
nice, this made her feel 10 times better, which I was glad of, as I thought Id managed to help a bit.
Later on she rang matt and found out he is going out with chanel (this angin girl, whos nothing compared to ruby! what a step down eh!! haha) and she called some other
friends, basically cheering herself up, she felt much better by later on.
Her mum came home and took us to the garage and I bought cookie dough ben n jerrys its so awesome, and ruby was still on the phone haha, clearly getting better.
We went back and watched TV and listened to frou frou, then it was time to go pick natt up, natts like her best friend, shes known her less than me, and i think she knows
her as a person less than me, but it doesnt matter, she has cooler hair and has more "girly" interests, which i dont have because theres more to my life than hair and nails.
I knoI Ill never be good enough to have that one friend that I do everything with and have al these interests with, Ill never have that one friend whos a girl, it will always be a boy, Im tired of pretending that I can have a girl best friend, Im not "girly" enough, and i dont seem normal enough, i think i spend too much time on here, or reading or playing drums, maybe If in earlier life I would have focused on doing my hair or doing my nails, I would be able to have that one friend, and If I would have had more boyfriends or "lived" a bit more, I would have been more help to my friend last night,but no.
Oh well
What Can I do, I guess theres someone out there wholl appreciate my shitness.
xx
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[02 Jan 2006|10:41pm] |
So after reading dear Abbey Sheridans livejournal it made me really sad to see how much people change over time and stuff.
And Abbey Sheridan is officially one of the best people I have ever EVER had the pleasure of meeting. Every single time I read her journal, go on her myspace or even look at the photobucket, it makes me real sad.
I know ive never really got to properly hang out with Abbey Steph and Laura, but just knowing them and being able to act like we talk 24/7 when we do see each other is an ace thing to have with someone.
Id rather hang out with these kids than any others, any day.
I miss our stupid times at gigs and stuff, oh well time goes by, some memories fade
but these ones sure wont : ]
So Ill update this stealing some of her pictures in the process :P
So I suppose 2005 all started for me with the gigs, I met most of my friends at all the gigs I went to, Taking Back Sunday, The USED, MCR etc etc
Me at the used, yes I wore pyjamaz back int day
I also played guitar at like 6am after staying out all night before TBS, damn I was a loser :]
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| Birthday+Xmas |
[20 Dec 2005|04:40pm] |
Firstly Id like to wish everyone on my friends list a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Have fun and I hope you get nice prezzies :]
Secondly Id like to invite everyone to my birthday celebrations! Nothing special like! :
about 1ish were going to watch Just Like heaven( Yeah I am a great big piece of cheese I know) then off for a meal or something, then maybe to the pub or somewhere for a drink or something
NEW YEARS EVE : possibly go to kitchens NYE for my birthday, or go to dannys friends party, not sure.
But everyones invited :]
Rubys in russia now, i really miss her! Shes gone till next year, even though thats only 2 weeks away haha
I hope everyone remembers my birthday:]!!
On a different note works going ok, i just get bored, and college is finished till next year woooo. apart from that i suppose things are shit as always but oh well :]!
xxx
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[06 Dec 2005|08:38pm] |
dammit I tried a love calculator and was fooled!
my dearest number one ill never know! haha.
oh well
Ill stay single for a while :]
College was ok today im beginning to enjoy it
Im in a desperate bid for money, I need 275 :'(
MEHH
help>?!xx
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| dear santa (stolen from steph) |
[06 Dec 2005|12:37pm] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
In August I caught a purse-snatcher who stole ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _shed_no_tears_'s purse (30 points). Last Saturday I pushed askheychris in the mud (-17 points). In July I committed genocide... Sorry about that, pretty_words_xx (-5000 points). In February I stole stopyourvoice's purse (-30 points). In May I ruled Iran as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-5717 points). For Christmas I deserve a lump of coal!
Sincerely,
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[29 Nov 2005|10:20pm] |
there was this place I used to love to hate and hate to love
it was such a small nice place, where i grew up
yeah it was my old school, the place i learnt most in life
I met some proper ace people there
and in 2004
I had the best year ever
and Ill never ever forget and I wouldnt swap the memories of that summer for ANYTHING
ill finish it later
I have a cough
xx
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[27 Nov 2005|07:41pm] |
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I had a real good weekend, on friday i went to rainford which was scary...walking through woods in pitch black at night on my own
spooky I say, then I went to chrises and I played so much better so that cheered me up
day after had 3 interviews: one at faith, one at the chippy haha and one at the posh shoe shop
I got the one at the chippy trust!
I love dashboard and houston calls
I stayed at chrises on sat night and vicci went in a mood with me cause I ripped her bf
pshhh
jokes eh
watched shaun of the dead spoke to runy and lucie, i proper miss ruby and lucie loadssss.
i cant even be bothered updating this anymore cause its crapp
xx
p.s
if anyone wants a mixtape off me comment my journal
i want to make mixcds for people every week cause my taste varies sooo much!
evening.x
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[22 Nov 2005|03:21pm] |
im in college
and some prick keeps reading this and leaving anonymous comments
right sad if you ask me
I feel dead full today and i havent even eaten yet!!!
im going seeing harry potter later
yay :]
xxx
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[21 Nov 2005|09:34pm] |
SO new hairdo ideas:
fo sure :]
finally things make sense and i have organised things!
Friends: going fine everythings how I wanted it to be :]
Work: crap hours but oh well.
COllege:finally sorted Im gonna do it
Band: sorted
VOILA
i feel happier
Im back on track
I just need to balance everything out yep.
thats all
i have a headache
xxx
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[20 Nov 2005|10:02pm] |
So my break from society proved me correct
there is no such thing as freedom
freedom comes at the ultimate price, the price being death.
So thursday night I went to rubys, and we decided to walk to the printworks and see if harry potter was on at midnight
sadly not, so we went back and watched movies and stuff
On friday I decided to switch my phone back on and was greeted by loads of messages, answerphones, missed calls etc, college this college that
FUCK OFF.
switched it back off :]
Friday went out into town and bought su doku book *ahem* FUNDOKU and realised we were too late for harry potter as we had to go to blockbuster
pshhh :[
we went to blockbuster and got some japanese horrors out and house of 1000 corpses again
then raf took us to abduls and we ate kebabs, ( i had this proper rank veg one SOOOO SPICY!)
then we went back home, ruby was being nice, she just really missed matt :[
aw
we watched the movies and fell asleep
On saturday I was meant to be at band but they decided to not get in touch with me till like 12!
which left me no time to get ready and go home etc
so i went out into town on my own and got chips
then went back to rubys
and hung out for a bit then i met chris and went to kitchen
crap
crap
crap
but anyway things with ruby are good i just feel gay for writing big lj entries about how much i didnt want to fall out with her
the only thing that sucks is that shes proper let matt take over her life, she never has time for out else
which is pretty crap
but oh well
i have the best friends ever and im happy
now i need to sort out college and band
then when thats done
i suppose ill be better
the bled are fcking amazing
goodnight
xx
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[16 Nov 2005|01:28pm] |
I woke up with sore eyes sore head and sore stomach, so I decided to go back to sleep, i think Im getting a cold/again for the 3RD time in like a month? how stupid.
Im rather excited cause once christmas is out of the way I can just save save save like £100 month? for my trip with danny, we are going to America, west coast I reckon. Hard choice really.
Hes taking his driving test soon and were going for 3months, hes going to drive us around
Some of his friends did it, apparently it was amazing. I think it will be great, well have good n bad times, but oh its all part of the fun
Hopefully I can catch JFAC when Im over there. (www.myspace.com/jobforacowboy)
and Suicide silence, proper brutal men.
were gonna visit the goonies house too.
yesssss.
I dont update properly anymore
and im beggining to wonder who reads these
maybe ill go friends only
LITERALLY.
work at 5-10.30/11
i pray they dont sack me today
really.
ill cry.
praypraypray
xxx
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[16 Nov 2005|01:08am] |
college was fun today i had a right ace shirt on :]
Anyway After hours alone and thinking and talking to people
things are finally sorted
with friends
I personally think work and band made me become a proper twat
So apologies to everyone on that matter
things with ruby and chris etc etc are all good
I miss abbey sheridan
alot actually
Some song reminded me of her before
Im gonna go see a psychic with rubys mum i think, I want someone to see through me and tell me aload of shit i dont already know
I also forgot this thing wasnt on friends only
peachys comment confused me before
Im not sure who ive gotten close to and fucked off
If I ever have theres always been a good reason, people just dont know me that well :]
britney spears is fair ace
fairytale horiffica practise this weeeeek, we play with penknife and IDA wave soon wooooo.
everyone shouldcome
anyway thats all
.x
p.s works crap.
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[14 Nov 2005|10:43pm] |
*sigh*
Ive had a great weekend, but today I realised how upset I ATUALY WAS!
matt (rubys bf) had this friend, and this guy was what ...best friends with him for like a few months, and now matt thinks hes a right freak
and this is totally the same with ruby i reckon
shes going away to russia, we hardly talk anymore
its so gay
i miss her so much
I wish i wouldnt have said anything to her
I would rather have had her as a friend like i used to rather than what things are like now
Im real sad today.
I really am
None of my friends can match up to the people that have been my best friend as awful as it sounds
Im such a prick
bye.x
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