and she wants to be a model... she needs to hear she's beautiful... she's beautiful
so my thoughts as for right now...

singleness again, i don't know. yeah, i liked kayla but i don't know if i could've seen like a whole future for us... i guess her breaking up with me was a good thing.
tom, i'm completely over him. i really don't want anything to do with him anymore and that's how its staying.
family well the cousnseling went okay there was alot of pent up stuff that came out and she's going to help us work toward makeing a better relationship, that means slowly things will be getting better and maybe there waon't be as much need for me to get the fuck out of here and shit like that.

as for me... well i've had a lot of shit on my mind. and no being single i'm thinking maybe i can find someone i can stay with for a very long time, i'm not looking for a pityful 2week-1month relationship i'm lookin for someone to love me. i'm sick of being hurt (whether intentionally or not) and i think if i had something steady it would make me a little more controlled. so all in all i just want to find someone to love me right now. that's about it. but i want to be able to love them too and have it be a good healthy relationship where i don't have to worry about cheating or anything or lying or anything, but that's about it.

i think that's most of my thoughts right now. more later i suppose...

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