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[14 Feb 2007|07:56pm] |
So i havent written since my birthday..eh.nothing really has happened since then
right now im suppose to be in the air..on my way to connecticut but my flight was cancelled..damn snow..my mom said it didnt really snow in december or january..so the ONE day im flying out..the biggest blizzard hits...no no doesnt just HIT but closes ONLY my airports..yeah awesome thanks goodbye.
so tomorrow im going..hopefully..as long as the weather gets better.
i have a couple things to write but i have so much on my mind, plus im angry about the flight and im on the phone so lol ill write later
<33 Alysha
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[16 Jan 2007|09:10pm] |
Im turning 18 tomorrow
its like CRAZY
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[07 Jan 2007|12:37am] |
Im so tired right now but i have so much on my mind its crazy
im broke..i need another job, i spent too much money on myself, i need to sleep right now, im so tired, what the heck did that text message mean, i hope i have enough money to go to connecticut..
and i think thats it..
lord
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[05 Jan 2007|12:35am] |
For some reason, this song just gets to my heart and i cant stop listening to it..
"Runaway Love"
(feat. Mary J. Blige)
[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
[Verse 1 - Ludacris]
Now little Lisa is only 9 years old
She's trying to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she's all alone and ain't neva met her family
Mama's always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listen
Mama is on drugs getting high up in the kitchen
Bringing home men at different hours of the night
Starting with some laughs -- usually ending in a fight
Sneaking in her room while her mama's knocked out
Trying to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.
[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]
[Verse 2 - Ludacris]
Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step-dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleeding on the inside, crying on the out
It's only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight 'til the end
Until one day lil Stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.
[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [x8]
[Verse 3 - Ludacris]
Little Erica is eleven years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
'Cause she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinking 'bout the consequences of her actions
Living for today and not tomorrow's satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowing her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say she's about to run away and never come back.
[Hook - Mary J. Blige]
Runaway love [repeats 'til end]
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[01 Jan 2007|12:55pm] |
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Its Simple really
1. Stop acting like a lil bitch and stand up for myself
2. Be happy with who i am. Change what i can and be happy with the things that i cant
3. Remember my true friends are and stick with em
4. Go to college and make something of myself
5. Stay out of peoples drama...2007= DRAMA FREE YEAR. And this time, thats a promise
6. Be myself, and nothing else.
7. HAVE AN AWESOME LAST 5 MONTHS OF HIGH SCHOOL..its almost over kids..enjoy it while it lasts
8-10. Live life to the fullest.
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[24 Dec 2006|06:13pm] |
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[07 Dec 2006|11:01pm] |
Lord..college
As stupid as this might sound to some of you out there, i dont want to go. I have had lectures all week about this. I DONT WANT TO GO
Heres the other part to this story..im going..IM FUCKING GOING so stop giving me lectures. I know i have to go and its free, so why am i not going to go for free? Its like hello!? stupid! lol..but i really dont want to go..seriously
and my dad just gave me the "...you wont get anywhere in life blah blah blah..." so yeah its getting old very VERY quickly
So my life has been hectic since hte last time i wrote like when? a year ago lol who knows i really dont remember i doubt it was a year ago. Me and tanner are friends still but we arent on very good terms..since he started going out with my "best friend" brittany, who told me and swore to my face she didnt like him, and how much uh..im in love with him didnt really matter to either one of them..but hey..whatever makes you guys happy.
Me and John hang out twice as much..like every day..even his girlfriend thinks hes cheating on her with me..which is kind of scary but..hey..she did the same thing to me that brittany did..i liked john but hey its all good..i just cant get a boyfriend and thats it..im going to have to be ok with that..even if im not ok with that
Me and nick and me and mike dont hang out much anymore..and the other FINE ASS mike lol..just turned 19 wooh! im so excited for my 18th lord
christmas is so close...and i might go to connecticut but i dont think i can afford it..but im working 2 jobs now..Winn Dixie and old Navy so maybe i can save up and go..who knows?
Well im so tired..and i have to call mike before i go to bed..so yeah ill write more later
i like comments too lol <33 ALysha
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[06 Dec 2006|09:33am] |
Wow, haven't been here in a long while huh?
Well i've decided to write in here again..start letting out my emotions in this livejournal because everyone has myspace and not everyone has livejournal which i like
im not going to write a lot now because im going to breakfast in 10 mintues, but im going to from now on..
i hope everyone enjoys! lol
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[17 Aug 2006|01:48pm] |
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I dont update very much, im either far to busy; or im on myspace! Myspace is the new revolution people cmon!! Anyways Today i stayed home from school and not by choice. I woke up so late that if i did go in, they would most likley say just go back out the door you came through..i was THAT late waking up. I forgot to set my alarm. This does give me a chance however to finish my Humanities homework which is super long..its ridicious..i should not have taken this course as my filler..im screwed.. S O L
I barley work anymore..i have like no hours. its good and its bad..i go out now everynight im doing something even school days its crazy..its like senior year is one big party that never ends..and thats true..tomorrow is yet another party its c r a z y. im pretty excited..before the party im going to our first football game so im kinda excited for friday night..
Liz, thanks for 30STM..im in love.seriously..you heard me..LINKIN PARK they almost beat them..its amazing haha
i know i have to change my livejournal..all those links im just too lazy to do it right now..im working on my website for capstone, humanities homework and tryin to get my tan on haha..yeah right like that is ever going to happened
In this play that we read in Humanities..which the homework is based on, this is something i thought was worth mentioning again::
"If I'm who I am because I'm who I am, and you're who you are because you're who you are, then I'm who I am and you are who you are. If on the other hand, I am who I am because your who you are and if you are who you are because I'm who I am then I'm not who I am and you're not who you are"
Thats just perfect..any thoughts?
<3 Alysha
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[31 Jul 2006|12:08am] |
i understand now why tanner getsd runk all the time..its so dang fun for seiourly..i ws a virgin to shots..never had em in my life..but i hadd LOTS tonight..ti was pretty nice..we watched bevis and butt head do american hha that movie is funnnny..well i might go lay down and pass out a litlte..ok
i cna still states the jeigsermister in my mouth..i cant spell that anyways..its tastes like HARD licorish and that buttersotch was good
but the jegiermister bomb was good 2..yunmh red beull;
ok bye
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[27 Jul 2006|02:24pm] |
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Updates are slim and far apart these days..Myspace is the future..everyone has a freakin myspace..Not that i update on that blog any more than i do this one..actually maybe a little more..but not much. My life has been such a rollercoaster these past couple weeks that to update would take so much more then words..
The other day, I went to Tanners "welcome aboard" for the Marines. When i was sitting there watching the ceremony and half listening to the words, for the first time in..a long time i saw him and his family smiling. Both agreeing that this is something positive that he has done with his life. IM so proud of him i dont even know where to begin. Of course the sense of proudness is accompanied with the sense of lonleyness..knowing he will be leaving us in less then a year. After the ceremony, we [John, Tanner's Mom, Dad, Sister Brother and Nephew who flew in from Kansas, Tanner and I] Went out to eat. It was also his moms birthday and she had a couple margaritas and she was trashed by the end of the night. After that JOhn drove me back to get my car at the fire station. I went over tanners later because John had decided that we needed to have a little "chat" and so did tanner; but when i got there he had nothing to say of course. I told him how i felt and that we dont hang out like ever anymore. and he got very mad thinking i said he was using me but that wasnt the case AT ALL. so we talked more and then he told me to write a letter to him..of everything i was feeling so i did..and brought it to him the next day. He read it nad i havent heard from him since. I told him i didnt want to give it to him becuase i knew it would push him away but he insisted and now he hasnt called me since when he usually would call me everyday. I have no idea what my next step should be but i guess it doesnt involve calling and or texting him until he calls and or texts me first.
As i find myself close to losing my best friend..i have been getting closer to a couple of other people. Im happy at the same time sad..i just dont know how to handle this situation. Senior year is approaching fast and i dont think i can go it alone.
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[29 Jun 2006|10:28pm] |
Nick asked me out
i said yes
he broke up with me in bout 2-5 mintues..because he did it to make me happy
can you kill me now please? someone shoot me
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[26 Jun 2006|03:21pm] |
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So i went to Destin yesterday, and of course, for all of you who dont live in Pensacola, its about an hour 15 away. I went there with Chelsie because it was her birthday..and what you do there is one thing and one thing only...shop!
Shop for clothes, shoes, purses, flops, and guys ha
anyways..i bought a couple of things..a Coach chain for my cell phone..yeah that was 16 dollars..JUST for my cell phone..bad bad bad..a Dooney and Burke bracelet..which was totally worth the money..it was on sale. ANd some Juicy Courture flops..which are so cute! there just normal flops and on the top like where your feet go lol it says Juicy A girls best friend..so there so cute i think..there blue..
The trip it self wasnt as i thought it was going to be..but hey..i got a lot of nice things which was awesome
When i got home, Robin was sick..she got food posioning from the chinese food that she ate..now we go there ALL the time..i dont understand what happened this time..but anyways i went and got her some stuff..by the time i got home from shopping, and getting that stuff..it was about midnight-1230..and i had to get up majorly early for work the next day..which suckkkkkkkked..so my dad gave me a lortab to help me sleep..the things he takes for his back pain..there pain killers..it didnt work..so i was still tired getting up the next morning..ugh..
Today i was so lazy! i did nothing and im still doing nothing. In about 10 mintues i have to go take a shower and get ready for work, but thats about it. i like going to work later because i dont have to get up at wild hours in the morning. and i can party all night long haha..well anywyas
thats about it for my life right now..Tanner is in Montgomery, AL doing his PT or whatever physical test and Asvab or something like that for the Marines..hes really doing this..ahh.well i guess i will just have to accept it and support him 120 percent..
i heard this new song on the Radio its called Do it to it..by Cherish ands my new favorite song right now
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[14 Jun 2006|11:51pm] |
Have you ever had one of those moments were you can just stop, and take a pause..and you look around you and everything is in slow motion..and you can hear everything and see everything..and you look at where you are and what you are doing at that present time, and say to yourself..everything is going to be alright?
I know it sounds so cliche..but my whole day..that happened
I woke up, and i swear to you i passed out last night..i had 3 missed calls and 2 messages..now my ringtone is on the highest plus vibrate when i go to bed which sounds weird but if someone needs me..NEEDS ME NEEDS ME..they know how to get me and ill pick up..so anywyas i totally blacked out i guess..i didnt even hear robin leave..so i wake up and im getting messages like all effin dayt..so i get one from tanner and we go to walmart becuase he wants to look at hubcaps for his car..
yes i did say that..walmart..and hubcaps in the same sentence lol..but they arent that bad really
anyways..so were walking and he has his keys in his pocket and his lanyard is hanging out of his pocket and it says Navy, they sent it to him for like recruting or whatever...so some dude comes outta no where..i swear NO WHERE and goes..are u in the navy..and we turn around and its an effin marine..outta no where!! so there talking and long story short he makes an appointment with him..to come down to the marine "office" and talk..and hes like so where do you stand in all this i said im his best friend..and he goes what do you think..i looked at tanner, and looked that marine right back and said i dont want him to go..and yeah that was bascially it lol..we got the hubcaps and he brought me home and i broke into my house again (i lost them dang keys! lol)...and i go in and im trying to go to THe Grind for a show..LATER DAYS from somewhere down south florida..fucking awesome band..anyways they ended up cancling so im glad i didnt like get a ride down there id be SOL
so i went on the computer and i have a message..from MIKE..so it says call him ASAP..so i do and he wants to hang out..so excited..so we ended up picking the movies (XMEN again lol) and i met him there and it was just..awesome..i had so much of a good time i was just like wow..new people really bring good times lol..it kinda helped that hes a total hottie..but thats besides the point..hes sweet and nice and he opens doors for you..so nice lol
but anyways it was just a good day/night all around..i was just..happy..happy about myself happy about living happy about the sunshine..which i DID go outside before it set, and tryed to tan a little haha..just because its less sunny you know..less harmful..and it was so beautiful..with a little breeze..it wasnt even hot ..it was gorgeous..i know i sound like an effin nerd but it was beautiful...
well i think i might go to bed..im working tomorrow and the next day and the next...so im glad i got one day off that was perfect..yeah perfect
<3333333 Alysha
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[11 Jun 2006|10:53pm] |
I seriously hate my place of work..but i guess if i get paid i should shut up? I just cant believe how MUCH im working, and its not even that im working so much, its that im working so much back to back..like i leave at 11 and come back at 10..and i work 8 hours this day and 8 1/2 tomorrow..like dang thats a lot..to me it is..and i know you think im JUST a cashier and what does that matter? Well i cant sit down AT ALL and i know no one knows this about me, but ive had knee problems since i was little.very little so theres that, and today i had to get on my hands AND knees and scrap the floors..i wont even get into why..but long story short, mangament doesnt know how to fucking do anything..ugh im just complaining too much arent i?
I wish i could have different friends sometimes..dont get me wrong i LOVE my friends, but it seems like they always want to do the same things, all the time day in and day out like ok can we do something else?? or its just how they act..i know this MUST sound bad but..i dont know im just venting i guess...
since ive been working all weekend, i havent had a chance to do anything with anyone..so blah whatever..but wednesday im prob going to a local show..omg i cant wait because this band rules all..and thursday i might go the movies with mike "Maybe as in if he even answers his phone"
Me and tanner havent really talked since his birthday party about a week or 2 ago...i have just texted him once, and thats it.and he didnt respond to it...i hope were not growing apart so quickly and suddenly but we just might be? I dont know..but i cant do anything about it..because i tried it didnt work..
Yesterday, i was the photographer for a wedding, and i took some pretty decent photos..im hoping she will let me use these for my start of my portfolio..im really serious about becoming a photographer but for some reason, i dont think it will pay the bills..so i might do it on the side, or the weekends or somethng but this is my PASSION..so i might as well start early..i dont want to be posting millions of pictures so i will just put my photobucket address up here :::/// Photobucket, wedding pictures
I AM going to connecticut YES! im so excited..im going on the 9th..im mucho excited and i hope i can see everyone becuase im not staying too long..but it will be a nice change of pace..becuase im really SICK of it down here..maybe i can change the flight and stay 2 weeks? then id lose my job but hey its all good..honestly could care less right about now..id shure miss the money but that isnt everything right....? right..right..
Ok i havent been on LJ in a while but DANG i didnt know they SAVED what you wrote if you some how get kicked off..dang thanks LJ lol..even tho i save em all now knowing what used to happen...
[i already showed a couple people the wedding photos, and they thought they were awesome..please look at them and TELL ME THE TRUTH..becuase im trying to be a REAL photographer..thanks lol]
well thats it im GONE!
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[08 Jun 2006|04:58pm] |
Why Do i always go back? when i know im going to end up getting hurt in the end?
Well, i guess you all remember Mike, who i asked to Prom and then we never went together because of his finacial situation or something to that effect? Yeah well anyways, since then things between us have been a little weird, because i obviously liked him more then a friend...and then he moved to Lowes, no longer working at Winn Dixie, and at this point i was like well i CANT like him really, so why bother? And i sort of resorted to only being friends with him which was fine with me at the time. So some time passed and i hadent seen him, and yet hed be in Winn Dixie constantly but i guess i never saw him..but anyways getting to the point. The other day he came into WInn Dixie and i actually DID see him, and he "said to me supposably" that he came in JUST to see if i was working, which was obviously a load of bullshit at least i think so..but anyways we both kinda wanted to hang out with each other, so i figured this wednesday (it was like a week ago) and i was oging to call him. AND SUPRISE SURPISE he didnt answer his phone..so i let it go knowing that thats mike..always doing that kind of crap. Then today i get online just to check my mail and who ims before it even says welcome...Mike..i honeslty dont know what to say to him anymore? its like..hey? and thats about it..what HAVENT i already talked about? like nothing! so im at a cross road and i dont know what to do? maybe im over analyzing things..but that is what i do..
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[05 Jun 2006|02:01pm] |
Before i get writting, does anyone know when Making The Band 3 Season 3 started yet? Becuase i def LOVE THEM haha and i wanna watch the show..anyways this weekend has been non stop
Friday i did..nothing..worked..UGH
Saturday..i was suppose to go a BBQ around 430, so i leave my house around..that time lol..so im late and what happens? i get into an accident..yeah thats right if i would left ON TIME i wouldnt have..but i didnt..and it just scratched the car and Robin (yes this stupid ugly already broken car) has a little white scratch on it..but i can never touch the car in my entire life and these are her exact words "You should know that people are going to hit you and cut you off, you should have known he was going to hit you" Mind you this WASNT MY FAULT..but?..but i went to the BBQ and it was awesome..my first party as a senior..that was a little scary. After, i dropped tiffany off and i went over tanners and we were just talking as always but then he got a call (hes a junior firefighter and hes a lieutantant and he has this awesome pager ha) so its like a strucure fire and hes like going crazy and hes like you wanna go? i was like HELL YES..so we get into his new car (NOT NEW just he JUST got it new..this little piece of crap is worse then the tempo lol..and its hella small! but anyways we jump in and go, and it was like nothing it was over before we got there..stupid..but anyways it was fun just like him speeding and we were going to a FIRE haha it was pretty awesome..
Sunday..i went to work for EVER i swear, and after that "scratch" i could drive the car, but only my dads and hes outta town ALWAYS when i need the dang thing lol..but anyways i worked and came home and started to clean a little and then i had to get ready for TAnners birthday party (poor thing his birthday is on 6-6-06...but i suppose he was BORN in 89 so it doesnt count? lol) anyways got dressed and ready and went..and it was awesome as usual..got to see some people i havent seen since school got out..and when i was at the BBQ..man i love being a senior and going to parties haha its just different..this is our LAST YEAR!...so then i left there around 930 and came home to just relax..slept all day and here i am..waiting for my dad to come home because i gotta go to work in about 20 mintues..and hes not here and im still in pajamas..haha tis cool i dont care
Anyways..this week were going to the beach sometime hopefully..i cant wait
Well i guess i cant complain about anything really? except i have over 20 bug bites..no..im not kidding..i counted..they ITCH like a fucking bitch lol..and i use the cortizone or whatever its called.i guess some of the bug bites were SUPER bugs..becuase its not working..most of them its like ITCH then i use it then ahhh no more itch ha..but there are like 5 that the cream doesnt work on..FUCK lol
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[01 Jun 2006|01:31am] |
Just got home from the movies
THE DAVINCI CODE!! Was frikin awesome..some things werent there from the book..and some little things just bugged the SHIT outta me..a couple LOT lol
<3 alysha
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[29 May 2006|10:25pm] |
Everything is good
tonight i went to the mall with 3 new friends..amazing how much new people can cheer you up..not like i dont KNOW them im saying we dont hang out we work together lol..but there freakin awesome..some pictures later...
i might be getting..shh dont jinx me..but a boyfriend..a full out hottie too haha..im scared but..ium going to take a leap and whether i fall or not..ill be happy i took the plunge
I got some awesome new jewlery today.like so awesome..i cant even believe it was on sale too..its sexyer then hell hahaha
<3 i love shopping
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