| RIP Daisy May |
[09 Jul 2008|12:51am] |
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RIP Daisy May
16 years young.
i cant remember the last time i felt an emptiness like this...
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| Portland = green trees, gloomy weather, and GRUNGE! |
[23 May 2008|12:55am] |
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first. i really need to keep up on this thing in order to avoid exceedingly long entries in an attempt to catch up. That being said, I am just going to address the present in this particular entry, and provide update in an entry that will follow at a later date.
At the moment I am sitting in a fairly stiff hotel bed on the outskirts of Portland, Oregon. I am here on a "business" trip with Filter's (www.filter-mag.com, www.uptheantics.com) 2009 Antics Team. Portland, from what I have seen in approximately 24 hours, is a very clean city with a healthy drug scene that houses interesting people to say the least. Hippies, obviously, make up a good portion of the population, however I found it interesting that the 90s grunge scene (well at least style wise,) is alive and kicking in this green, yet gloomy city. I am intrigued by this city, and am looking forward to getting to know it better. Unfortunately we leave tomorrow morning for Gorge, Washington. Fortunately we will be visiting Portland again in June, as well as in August... Maybe then I will be able to get better acquainted with this perplexing little city.
On to another subject matter... my team. I am having sort of a rough time. Let me brief the situation.
5 guys, 1 girl (me) - Not a big deal, used to being one of the guys, not sure team knows what to do with a girl like me.
5 childhood friends, 1 newbie (me) - This has definitely been a bit tough... I am really trying to make an effort to get to know everyone, as well as include myself, but it is really hard when I am pretty sure each of them could care less about me or whether I was on the team at all.
I pretty much was put on the team because the sausage fest decided they needed a semi-decent looking female to attract other members of their own sex at events. I am okay with this role, however would really like to be treated like a real teammate. As much as I am independent, and do enjoy doing things by myself, I am quite social, and also like to share experiences with people. I feel like I am always the odd (wo)man out. I don't feel like any of them get my dry sense of humour, and no one really likes to laugh as much as I do... well maybe that isn't true... They laugh too. I dunno, I guess I am just frusterated because I feel like we are all supposed to be a team.... and quite frankly THEY are a team, and I am just the tag-a-long.
As I type, all of them are hanging out in one room, and I am by myself, again. I am not the type to play the martyr, but a simple invitation to hang out would be nice. One must remember, being the only girl, I cannot just run into a hotel room full of boys... An invitation must be extended because it basically states that everyone is decent and the situation is appropriate. I guess the point is, is that when everyone is hanging out, no one says "hey where is courtney, maybe we should call her and let her know it is cool to hang out if she wants..." I have tried to play the role of inviting everyone else, such as to play cards or bones. So far, no takers.
How to fix this problem.... well I am not quite sure. I think I am starting to like the majority of my team, however I must admit that sometimes I feel the better I get to know an unstated couple, the less and less I care to get to know them at all. I am very aware that there are always personality types that do not mix well, and for now I am going to chalk my annoyance for these individuals up to this type of clash rather than the idea that it is their pretense and dramatic nature that truly makes my skin crawl.
All in all, I wish I could bring a friend every trip so that I would have someone to keep me company when this feeling of loneliness washed over me.
I guess it just comes down to feeling lonely, really fucking lonely.
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| lots and lots of changes... |
[17 Mar 2008|11:32pm] |
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i am moving to LA.
K-town, mid-wilsire.
2 blocks north of the wiltern to be exact.
my rent is steep.
i like the place.
i have a temporary job.
come visit my at LaLa's on Melrose.
my first day was today.
good times.
i signed my lease today.
i am allowed to start moving on wednesday.
i will most likely be moved by the end of the day march 30.
i am so excited.
i am absolutely terrified.
i am lonely.
i am lonely now.
i am lonely here.
i will most likely be just as lonely there.
hopefully i will be more productive...
that's the goal at least.
i am sad.
so sad.
i miss matt.
i miss matt terribly.
i miss being held.
i miss sharing my life.
i miss matt.
i miss traveling and experiencing and getting excited
and watching someone else experience and get excited
i miss sharing.
i miss matt.
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| mgmt - pieces of what |
[21 Feb 2008|09:51pm] |
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when the world has turned
paralyzed and wrong
cold blooded claws
never offered anything at all
past the point of love
shattered and untied
waiting to pick up the pieces
that make it all alright
but pieces of what
pieces of what
pieces of what
doesn't matter any more
moonlight on my floor
shining through the roof
they got the city surrounded
as if I needed proof
i forgot my fear
feelings on the rise
burying all of the pieces
falling from the sky
but pieces of what
pieces of what
pieces of what
we used to call home
pieces of what
we used to call home
when i drank your tea
and shallow water still
at the belgian gates
i waited for my meal
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| hm. |
[19 Feb 2008|10:40am] |
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today is the first day in a couple of weeks that I have woken up feeling empty and sad.
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| V-Day = D-Day? |
[14 Feb 2008|04:34pm] |
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Not for me... but maybe for the poor kids Northern Illinois University's DeKalb campus... FUCK, people never cease to disappoint me. Another school shooting... so, so, so sad.
On a positive note... I woke up smiling today, and said out loud, "happy valentine's day to me!" I then wished Stella and Daisy a happy v-day too. I really do not believe in Valentine's, never have actually. It is such a silly, silly holiday, however I will admit to capitalizing on it. Hahaha... Valentine's Day Soap Sales :)
I found my silly Kennedy CD today. I forgot how much I love this silly cd. "I know karate. I know jujitsu. I drive like a gangster when I'm coming to see you." hahahahaha. It makes me laugh every time.
So the first 2 and a half weeks of this break up were really hard... But you know what? The last 2 and a half weeks have been really good.. Like I wake up smiling for no reason. It feels soooo good to be smiling and happy and free... Free to do what ever I want, when ever I want... Free to have fun... as much fun as possible. Can I just tell you I have the best friends in the world? I really do. Thanks guys.
I really feel ready to embrace the world. I feel like I can take the world head on by myself. I feel confident. I feel good. I feel silly. I feel ridiculous. I feel like having a blast. I feel like enjoying life. I feel free.
I cannot decide whether to move to experience something new and foreign. I am in love with a handful of good people that I wish I could move with me. I want to have my cake and eat it to. I look forward to seeing how this works itself out.
Ahhh, Life. You never know what's around the corner... All I know is that I am ready for it.
Love.
Life.
happy valentine's day everyone.
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| kate nash - little red |
[29 Jan 2008|12:14am] |
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Everybody took everything that they could
And they made a little town out of stones and out of wood,
And they made a little king out of plastercine,
And they threw the rules away but they kept the wisdom in.
And all the birds and the bees lived so peacefully
And all of the babies they slept so gently until...
Little Red, Little Red, Little Red, Little Red, Little Red, Little Red, Little Red, Little Red.
Little Red, Little Red, Little Red, Little Red Little, Little Red came knocking.
Little garden, how do I make your flowers grow,
When I already do everything that I know?
I bring you sunshine and I bring you rain but still you refrain.
All the other gardens are so full of flowers.
They're so colouful, yeah, I spend all these hours
Trying to make you as beautful as them but sti-i-i-il you refrain.
Knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, scratch.
Knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, scratch
And a knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, scra-a-atch.
And a knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, scra-a-a-atch.
Little girl, why are you crying,
Just because the flowers in your garden are dying?
There's so much that you could be doing,
And all of your neighbours,
Well, they haven't got a clue.
Come on with me and we'll have a little fun,
It's not too dangerous, yeah, and we won't hurt anyone.
Yeah, we'll cause some havoc between the birds and the bees,
We'll paint the town red and we'll shake the trees.
Oh, come on with me and I'll show you a good time,
All you have to do is a jump and a climb.
Yeah, I'll take you over to the other side of town.
There's so much to do there and everybody wheres a crown.
Should I go or should I stay?
My flowers are dying and I'm sick and tired anyway.
This boy seems kind of cool,
His jeans are kind of low,
Well, I think I'll go.
Jump. jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump and a jump, jump, jump and a climb.
And a jump, jump, jump and a jump, jump, jump and a jump, jump, jump, and a climb.
And a jump. jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, cimb.
And a jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, jump, climb.
Oh let's pack a picnic and then go for a drive.
We'll go to a funfair and go on all the rides.
We'll climb up a mountain and take in all the sites.
We'll jump in a plane and fly.
If you want you can come back to mine.
We'll drink some coffee and you can spend the night.
We'll do anything that makes you smile
'Cause your smile is beautiful and it makes me happy.
'Cause your smile is beautiful and it makes me happy.
Well, this little girl grew up and moved away.
And she lived her life full of risk and full of play.
And she lived her life with so much to say,
And her flowers, they grow more beautiful every day.
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| day 10 |
[24 Jan 2008|10:01pm] |
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today i woke up with my eyes wide open, and felt like i may have had an epiphany... I guess it was just one of those days where one finds they have a much over-due growth spurt. As I was walking the dog around 7am, thinking about my conclusions, as well as contemplating how to approach the apologies I needed to give, the sun was shining on the east, the clouds were black in the west, and over my small apartment building was a rainbow... a very beautiful rainbow. It seemed like it was there just for me... i know this is not the case, it is simply a reflection of light on water, but it brought me peace nonetheless. I almost felt like nature was smiling saying, "it's about fucking time you pulled your head from your ass miss courtney, now go and be happy." As i stared at the rainbow, with the sun behind me, I felt the rain fall on me, washing me clean. As silly as this must sound, I really feel like a huge weight has been lifted from me. I feel like i have a clean slate... a point from which i can go and live differently... happily. I don't mean to sound like i believe life will be sweet and easy from here on out, I just have a different, a better, a more healthy and positive outlook... One that will help me deal with the rough times in a more mature, positive way.
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| day 9 |
[23 Jan 2008|07:22pm] |
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things seemed better... at least bearable. things are still bearable, i guess, but not better... just more confusing. when should one just suck it up and say i do, or just say no, or just run away? i have a plan now... I am going to make the appropriate phone calls, and really work to get this job. If it turns out i do not make the cut (which is highly likely due to my inexperience in the field,) I will then reassess my situation. I guess i will just let the universe decide... If I get the job I stay in fullerton, and will take it as a sign that this is where i need to be... I will also pursue grad school at cal state fullerton. On the flip, if i do not get this job, my first step will be to explore new places and begin job searching appropriately... top 3 list - NY, SF, LA... def. not OC. only time will tell...
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| day 5 |
[19 Jan 2008|10:25pm] |
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yesterday was the first day i woke up and did not feel like i was dying. today, however, was really hard. it was really, really hard.
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[16 Jan 2008|07:59pm] |
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this fucking sucks.
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| all i know is... |
[16 Jan 2008|01:02pm] |
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Freedom does not feel near as good as I would have imagined. I guess there is no use in spreading one's wings if one has no clue how to fly. I know this is what needs to happen, but fuck, it is not what I wanted. I hope that through this time apart I will grow, and discover my true goals, desires, and needs. I feel that I need to take this time for myself if I am to ever be successful... Successful in life, successful in our relationship, successful in any relationship. I am fearful that during this period, the relationship I cherish most will be destroyed. I am terrified that when I have gained a clearer understanding of myself and so forth, I will have lost what is most important to me. I hope that this is not the case, and when all is said and done our relationship will be able to grow into the next level. I know that where I currently am (confused as fuck, with out any idea of where and what I want to be and do,) as a person will prevent our relationship from growing... eventually destroying it permanently. I feel that it is in the best interest of the relationship to terminate it now... in hope that through growing individually we will find that we can have a relationship that will surpass what it would have been with out this period of separation.
that is all for now.
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| im sorry. i am so sorry. |
[15 Jan 2008|08:40pm] |
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i never meant to break your heart.
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i promise.
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and god knows i never ever imagined i would break my own.
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im sorry. i am so sorry.
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| ive obviously been feeling the mazzy star lately.... |
[19 Dec 2007|12:24am] |
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one more for good measure...
I can't believe your thinking
Save everyone, inside you
Take everything
Fake everything
Save everything
About me
All of you, all right
Just because, I want to know
Do you still come last night clear eyes pale
You never got there even though you say you will
Sorry now that you've fallen from my eyes
That's the truth
Why are you telling me about everything
Why tell me about anything
You're just waiting for her to come apart
You're just waiting for her
Take everything
Fake everything
Save everything
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| look on down from the bridge - mazzy star |
[14 Dec 2007|11:35pm] |
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Look on down from the bridge
There's still fountains down there
Look on down from the bridge
It's still raining, up here
Everybody seems so far away from me
Everybody just wants to be free
Look away from the sky
It's no different when you're leaving home
I can't be the same thing to you now
I'm just gone, just gone
How could I say goodbye
How could I say goodbye
Goodbye
Maybe I'll just place my hands over you
And close my eyes real tight
There's a light in your eyes
And you know, yeah, you know
Look on down from the bridge
I'm still waiting for you
death. my heart feels like death. what will i do? what have i done?
death. my heart feels like death. what will you do? what have you done?
death. my heart feels like death.
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| feels like yesterday.... |
[11 Nov 2007|02:51pm] |
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but the years have passed quickly... last night was a blast. good times. good people. old friends. everything and nothing changes. love.
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| virginia calls for silence. |
[08 Nov 2007|09:59pm] |
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despite the fact that i quit smoking (aside from the occasional drunk indulgence) for the second time over a year ago, all i can think about is a cigarette... a virginia slim menthol ultra light to be exact. unfortunately and fortunately i know no one that i could call and beg for just one... just one chemically charged, menthol flavored, nicotine yeilding tobacco cancer stick.
sometimes i hate memories. sometimes i hate the good memories. i never would have expected that the good memories sometimes haunt you worse than the bad. looking back, i have always been quite the naive fool... so not expecting something that seems so common sense is quite predictable. i am making no sense. my racing mind makes no sense. logic fails me often. logic is failing me now. practicality is also a weakness for me... i dont know how to be practical. all i know is what i feel, and all i feel is not right, and all i feel that i know may be wrong, very wrong.
music. it is music. music is the culprit that brings me to this place. the easy solution seems to be to turn it off... but its not that easy... its really quite silly.
silence.
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| hit and miss.... |
[26 Sep 2007|06:12pm] |
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seems i remember this journal a lot less often than i used to. i miss it, however i think i prefer the paper kind... at least at the moment. a lot to say and nothing at all. lately i have been at a loss for words, and yet instead of keeping my mouth shut, i ramble incoherently and foolishly. i would rather not continue that compulsive cycle at this moment... so straight to business.
i finally finished my website for my business.
Please visit RAW at www.rawbathessentials.com
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| misfortune |
[17 Jul 2007|05:35pm] |
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1 barnes and noble giftcard
1 world market gift card
1 brighton giftcard
2 nordstrom giftcards
3 insurance cards
1 AAA card
1 cal state fullerton id
a couple other misc. cards i think...
these are all the things missing from my wallet.
i have searched my house, my car, even my work cabinet.
no luck.
i feel violated.
death to those with no respect.
death to those who steal.
karma will find you.
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| wishes |
[15 Jul 2007|06:18pm] |
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i wish i could turn back time.
i wish i could just close my eyes and disappear.
i wish i could mend broken hearts.
i wish i could call him and say lets go to disneyland.
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[24 Jun 2007|02:37pm] |
skinny puppy tonight.
very excited.
thanks nicki.
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| i think i flake with out meaning to |
[23 Jun 2007|01:13am] |
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sometimes i forget about livejournal and wish i wouldnt.
it takes so long to get caught up.
i think i will start using this thing more often again.
i backed into a truck.
the truck got away with out a single scratch or nick or anything.
on the contrary, my little vroomer wasnt so lucky.
im so bitter with my clumsiness.
ive felt so very clumsy lately.
extra clumsy.
i think i need a vacation from life to find my mind.
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| no laptop = very few lj posts |
[22 Jan 2007|11:46pm] |
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somehow my lcd screen on my laptop got broken... i am in the process of getting it fixed. nonetheless, it is a great burden and inconvenience. tomorrow i start school again... well in all actuality it started last week because fullerton junior college started last week. i am taking a music class online at the jc because cal state does not offer it online, nor at any times that fit into my schedule. cal state starts tomorrow, and unfortunately the last human communication studies class that i need to graduate is only offered at one time... 10am tues/thurs. 10am is early for me considering one must be there by 9:30 in order to get parking. i am not looking forward to waking up early four times a week: twice for school and twice for work.
moving on to a completely different sounding note... i have begun taking yoga, and i very much enjoy it. i plan on going at least 3 times a week to the brea community center, and practicing one hour twice a week on my own at home. i am also volunteering for "ride your horse" therapeutic riding program. (for more information visit rideyourhorse.com) i am helping physically and/or mentally children ride horses on mondays from 3pm - 6pm. i absolutely love it. not only do i get to spend time working with horses, but the children glow when they are able to ride a horse. it is absolutely fantastic.
that is all for now. i am tired. daisy needs a walk. i need to go to bed. goodnight.
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| .breathe. |
[03 Jan 2007|11:33pm] |
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2007 will be an interesting year... i expect that many things will change seeing as i will graduate in may, and for the first time since i was 5 years old be free from the obligation of attending classes, midterms, finals, "group" projects, etc. Finally i will be free to move anywhere my little heart desires, if i care to... which brings me to matt. i am a little torn. on one hand i love him with all my heart... on the other i have always wanted to leave california, travel around a bit, and live and experience a place other than "sunny southern california." how does one "follow their heart" when it is running in opposite directions?
so many things to think about this year, so much reality to come to terms with... no health, dental, eye, etc. insurance, student loan payments, no financial help... i dont want to be a "could have been" but i am sure as hell not ready to sell my soul to a career... im not even sure what i really want to do... ive thought about just becoming a career college kid, but those kids usually find themselves in a professor position 10-15 years later ;) decisions, decisions, decisions... my head is spinning.
matt and i leave for chicago on monday... i am hoping this trip is good for our relationship, sometimes i feel like we are growing apart. we are long over-due for a vacation.
table ten is calling my name... a glass of wine sounds good.
the key word for this year is .breathe.
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| yesssssssss. |
[11 Dec 2006|07:52pm] |
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finals and papers and this semester is now officially over for me. i can finally breathe again.
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| people suck. |
[03 Dec 2006|07:40pm] |
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sometimes i wish i could just pack my bags, take my daisy and my stella, and disappear.
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| stella's high on catnip |
[20 Nov 2006|01:17am] |
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today was a good day. matt and i went to brunch at table ten. later we ran errands together (target, petsmart, grocery shopping,) and it was a lot of fun... we rarely do that, and i really enjoyed our time. we came home and cooked dinner... grilled portabello, sauteed asparagus and re-stuffed/twice-baked/what-ever potatoes... dinner was tasty. throughout the evening we played this game, rummykub, and shared a bottle of merlot... what a very nice day... oh yeah and stella got a treat from petsmart... organic catnip. if she could talk shed say it was her heroin. i love her. i love matt. i love daisy too (even though she ate my eye case.) the end.
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| i wonder... |
[11 Nov 2006|12:18am] |
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how is it that one can be surrounded by a handful of truly amazing people who really do care, and still be haunted by the empty feeling of lonliness?
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| today and retrospect |
[04 Nov 2006|05:48pm] |
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i took the EWP today. im sure i did fine, i really dont know how you fail that thing. im going to see shaun kama and the kings of the wild frontier tonight at safari sams in la... should be a good show, it always is.
on another note, some say hindsight is always 20/20. i say it sucks.
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| oh stella, poor little stella |
[02 Nov 2006|10:53pm] |
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today stella went to the vet to join an optimum wellness plan from banfield. she also recieved all of her vaccines... right as we were leaving, stella began to throw up everywhere... we had to go right back to banfield where they said that she was having a reaction to one of the vaccinations. she had to have an iv to give her medicine and fluids. the vet said she will be fine, but i have to give her children's benadryl every 12 hours. i tried to give it to her tonight, as instructed, and she has thrown it up TWICE. she is such a little beastly cat. now she is sulking in a corner being very, very, very angry. i just hope my little bundle of beastliness feels better soon. i dont like to see her so bitter and sad.
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| halloween |
[01 Nov 2006|06:29pm] |
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man oh man last night was a blast...
good people, good costumes, good times...
what more can anyone ask for?
THE PICTURES!
ONLY SEVEN!?
nope...
more like close to ONE HUNDRED so I uploaded them to my NEW flickr account that i was encouraged to get by a few sharp friends of mine... BUT you only get the link if you can tell me who Matt and I went as for halloween.
just kidding
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| looking up |
[27 Aug 2006|06:44pm] |
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last night was a glimmer of hope. we went to dinner at sweet divas (a client of matt's restaurant up in brea,) and it was fantastic. the food was amazing, the atmosphere charming, the wine tasty, and the desert perfect. we had a lot of fun and finally spent some time enjoying one another. we got home and watched a silly moving called RV with robin williams. i giggled a lot. it was nice to have good cuddle time too. after the movie we went to table ten. things were crazy but a lot of fun. good people. good drinks. good times. thank you to johnny for putting up with 100 intoxicated kids, and always keeping the bar open until the last minute which you never can tell when that is :) things may just be looking up.
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| good food, good show, still no love |
[26 Aug 2006|01:53pm] |
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i saw BRMC @ the echo last night... all i can say is HOLY FUCKING SHIT! I understand that the previous exclamation was not the most intelligent way of expressing how amazing the show was, but those were the first words that came to mind.
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| one last attempt... |
[24 Aug 2006|02:00pm] |
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i am attempting one last time to rekindle a love that used to burn fiercly... he has one more chance to accept my efforts... he used to be a happier, more spontaneous, fun, and most of all, a loving person... all cannot be lost. maybe my attmepts will be futile, but at least i can say that i gave it my all. maybe i can help teach unconditional love, but this i fear, is impossible... i have tried my best by example, but obviously i have failed. i know i have my faults, yet I never would have imagined that having a big heart was one of them... BUT i learned my lesson a long time ago sitting at an internet cafe on sunset at some ungodly hour of the morning with a dear friend whispering wise words... i just never knew those words would prove true in love. once again i have been made a fool.
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| love sucks |
[22 Aug 2006|06:32pm] |
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sometimes i think its the best idea and sometimes i think its the worst... how do you say goodbye when you dont want to?
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| starting to hurt {ryan adams} |
[28 Jul 2006|02:21pm] |
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It's a long way down, but I feel alright
It's a long way down, but I feel alright
And the cops get in, and the crowd gets tight
Take your tomorrow, pain and your sorrow and teach it how to fly
It's starting to hurt
Starting to hurt
Starting to hurt
Starting to hurt
It's a long way down, but I feel alright
It's a long way down, but I feel alright
And I hope you're here, when I hit the ground
'Cause I'm high on forever, always together, and I'm coming down
It's starting to hurt
Starting to hurt
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Here is all the information regarding my new soap business... I am hopeful that this is going to do well, and maybe one day I will be fortunate enough to open my own little shop. Please do me a favour and pass along this information to ANYONE and EVERYONE you think may be interested. Thanks a bunch <3
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so when i went to turn in my application/resume (an hour or so ago) at the place i thought for sure i would get a job if everything else failed... i found out that they are not NOT hiring. im fucked. unemployment sucks. someone give me a day job. i am sure i will qualify in some way, shape, or form...
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