well...

guess what school has started...first day is over and im still up..of course...school starts and i start staying up later again...
im not so sure about how i feel about school starting back...i have a lot of hard feelings towards boys...im fat...
and im just ready for things to get back in the groove...i have tap at 9, jazz at 10...ballet at 12...bib lit at 230 and company standards and procedures which is RIDICULOUS i think they baby us 4-6...then company auditions...then company meeting...then life is over as we know it...when monday starts ...so at any rate...i think i will like most of my classes this semester then again..i havent had bib lit yet...
so who knows..
im in tap B...now all i have to do is stay there lol...
i moved from 2-3...then from 3-5...so who knows..maybe i will move up in the ranks of tap b very quickly...
no matter how bad i dont want to admit it...i love to tap dance..and im really good at it...well semi-good...im getting better..
im also getting better at jazz..which im excited about..ballet will prolly pretty much stay the same lol....
i want a boyfriend...i want tyler back in my life...
i would like to date a boy my own age...
i want a companion...why is it boys never even give me a second look..i dont understand it all really...but i guess in the end it doesnt matter...
so i think i i have pretty much decided that im switiching majors...i just dont want to dance anymore..i do..but im tired of all the bull shit...i want a nice car...a nice apt...a nice life and being a dancer..i dont think i could do that..
im just tired of waiting...i need to get skinny before i go try...
because i am way too fat...but at any rate..ready for company auditions ready for senior coreography auditions..and everything else and its mother...anyway..love golden girls...love them all...

love lindsey...missed her so much..she is a pillar in my life....she really is...wherever i go..she will be with me...:)..good night all..i shall update later..hopefully this realease is somewhat good for me..although i just ramble ramle...ramble....