| Friday, March 17th, 2006 |
| 4:01 am |
Im not dead
i have't have't posted in a long time.. but yeah most off that i dont ever get any replay but any ways.. its all good.. i may not post in it for much longer.. but yeah.. i dont know what is going on with my background.. but Fuck it.. |
| Saturday, January 28th, 2006 |
| 10:03 pm |
Man i got car jacked
yeah i got fucking car jacked the other day.. now i am with out a fucking car.. i was in jackson and the jackson cops seem like they are not doing the first fucking thing about it.. |
| Monday, January 23rd, 2006 |
| 1:17 pm |
Free Online RPG
well its not free but i am makeing it free if you are instrested in playing it.. its called Lineage2 a friend of mine is hosting his own privet server.. befor you say no its not stolen its free ware... and if you want the game.. go to lineage2.com and download & and install it.. then update it then down load this file its a patch to connet to his server.. http://www5.sendthisfile.com/d.jsp?t=lsqtqzK0uYd9KPbF2LIjFfdPand then you will be set just make sure you update the game first.. befor you install the patch.. or you will have mager problems.. but hope to see every one on the game.. PS i was asked to do this lol,,, join if you want to.. BTW my name is Skyrider and the GMs names Are Power2All SG3G Kokoto Nitemare Matt if you do come have fun.. i will be on it.. |
| Friday, January 13th, 2006 |
| 3:51 am |
well Moveing
i am going to be moveing realy soon off of 49.. yeah i am geting out of my house and moveing out there.. with some hope it will be ok. but right now iam going to be at this house in to i can move out.. and from then i have to get a job.. its going to be a lot easyer then.. hell i would settle with fliping buggers right now.. its better then nothing but yeah.. working my ass off again would make me feel a little better.. i have been stress out over bull shit that i should't even worrie about.. but its all good.. i am not going to let it get to me... but besides once i am out of this house then i am going to be a lot better off.. and more and likey be abel to do thing for my self a lot more and be happy more then i have been in a long time.. i have bene haveing so much on my mind and every thing has been hiting me all at once.. its been like that for some time now.. but yeah i am moveing and with some hope every thing should be ok from now on... i am just going to have to do a lot of changes but i am looking followed to them all... |
| Wednesday, November 30th, 2005 |
| 2:25 am |
nothing new Blah
yeah i did't get the job the one i was talking about and so happy to get.. fucking hick came in there and got it.. oh fucking well.. i talk to the GM in compusa and i put a app in for asst Manager and i have to come back up there and talk to him again. and see if i can get a job.. and yeah with some hope i will get a job.. he asked me if i worked in cuircut city and i said yes.. he was like wait was't you a manager there.. and i was like yes.. and then he is like yeah give me a day or two and i will call you for a intervile.. so yeah maybe i got a job with some hope i will have one.. and yeah i may have a job at a computer store.. where the fuck i need to be.. with some hope.. |
| Monday, November 28th, 2005 |
| 5:23 am |
lol i am so sick of childest crap from girls
my ex the one i just had problems with called me up tonight at 2 i just got off the phone with her.. its 5:21 the hole time i was like well your the one that fucked up i did't but hey i am not going to be the guy who is like oh baby sure i will take you back.. but hey i do care for her but in to she can SHOW me that she can do better i am not going to even try.. Am i wrong for doing this please someone let me know.. becouse i dont know at this point where i am doing the right thing or the Wrong.. |
| Sunday, November 27th, 2005 |
| 3:15 am |
well i got a new job lined up
when i start this new job i am going to get a apartment.. when i get the money saved up.. with this job is only going to take me about 2 mouths to get all of the money i need.. with some hope i will not have that much deposits that i have to pay.. and with some hope i will be moven in sooner then i hope.. it would be nice.. that way i will be in my own place and i will not have to deal with the shit at this house.. any longer.. i am going to be staying at my dads off of 49.. which would be a hell of a lot nicer then what i have here.. but who knows maybe wich some work i am going to get this shit done... well other then that nothing realy new to say.. i am just geting my hopes up more and likey but i am going to move out of this house one way or a nother.. and i am going to get some shit done i am going to get my ass back in school i am going to take some night class's to get my ass back in school.. so yeah i am going to be booked up on time.. its better that way.. becouse i dont need that much time.. becouse i am singel and kinda hurt.. so that is the best way for me to heal is to book most of my time up.. so i dont have the time to think about her.. and i will get the shit done and make money and get somewhere in my life.. i am sick of the way its going right now.. i need to do something about it and change it.. and i am going to do that siting here thinking about it... |
| Thursday, November 24th, 2005 |
| 2:13 pm |
Blah
i did't get any sleep last night lol and i am trying my best to not fall asleep befor i eat.. but yeah it seems that i am going to be falling very soon. i am going to be eating soon.. and after i eat i am going to go and die for about.. 12 hours.. well more and likey i have a new job and a realy fucking good one.. i will be makeing 3g a mouth.. if i get it i am going to wait for about 3 weeks and see how it gos. then i am going to get my place again.. and i am going to be on my own.. and then i will be so much happer then i have been.. well with some luck i am going to get the job and like it and. i will be abel to get my own place//... |
| 8:14 am |
P.S
oh and i meet someone tonight who dose't seem to be druma bound but i am not going to take any thing right off the bat in to i know for sure if i can handle it with out being like i was with tacy and fucking every good thing i had up.. so yeah i am going to see where this gos. who knows.. and the girl is from my home town cali as well.. ^.^ so yeah who fucking knows with this fucking hell i call life now a days.. |
| 8:10 am |
im better now..
yeah i had a lot of steam to blow off.. and yeah i have been realy streast out lately with every thing that has been going on.. with brain alice and anthony larry lauren.. with all of them yeah there has been some magger problems.. problems that cost me my job with main street and every thing.. even may as well have been the resson i was on a drug bing with now i am not doing.. but yeah.. there has just been to much fucking druma in my life of lates.. but i am working on it and i am trying to make it.. i am taken my ass back to the books now that i dont have a job at the min.. so i am going to take the time to get my ass back in school and once i get every thing done i am taken my ass to CALI calage to get the rest of my shit done they have the class i need to get a masters in programing and computer eng. once i get them done then i will be makeing magger money and i will be abel to get my fucking ass out of here.. i love all of you but when you got to go you got to go.. |
| 3:03 am |
I am so sick of this madness i call my life
well i am singel again.. i am so sick of this shit.. and people wounder why i am going in to the army.. so with some fucking hope i will get killed so i dont have to worrie about this fucknig life of mine.. well to get to the point i broke up with her becouse i am not going to deal with bull shit.. not even at the lest not from no damn girl.. sure i have been seeing her for 5 mouths or so.. but fuck it not with the lies and bull shit.. God i feel like raming my self in a fucking tree.. why do i feel this fucking bad over some girl.. god will someone just fucking save me.. let me find a girl that i can trust and be with out there being bull shit.. every girl i have been with there has been bull shit.. but now i am not going to dell with this shit any longer.. i feel like i just have to get away and leave all of this.. behind me and get the fuck out of mississippi.. i think i am going to go back to cali for good this time.. i think i am geting my fucking ass out of mississippi.. i just can't take this shit any more its just to fucking much for me to take... |
| Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005 |
| 9:58 pm |
man prople just keep on pissing me off lately
man anthony is trying his best to fuck with a girl that i am seeing.. and you know what he is about to get his teath busted in.. i am sorry there is one thing that you do not do is fuck with a ex, girlfriend, or a girl someone is seeing.. man how fucking low can you get.. and this is spost to be some one i trust.. how can i trust him if i can't even trust him with my girl.. |
| Monday, November 14th, 2005 |
| 12:14 am |
blah i talked to tommy the other day.. and yeah me and him are going to be hanging out again i have had it with the so called friends that i have.. no more am i going to be trusting any one of them.. to many of them have shown me what they are worth.. nothing.. man i have been haveing a hard time of lates.. the more and more i go.. it seems the harder it is.. i have goten to the point where its a pain in the ass to get by this problem.. oh well you know what i have in mind.. take my ass off from here and never going back.. a friend of mine wants me to go to her place and stay.. as much as i would love to do that.. but i know there will be problems in that.. this girl is a wild child.. yeah fun to be around but you have to think.. how long is this going to last befor she gets tied of me.. yeah i may as well have help one of my friends that all most got raped and yeah.. to many of girls today dont think of what they are geting there ass in to befor it slaps them in the face.. i mean damn if someone is buging you to come out with them.. tell me what in the hell is he wanting.. ok if he was realy instrested in you he would be buging you to come out with him in the mid of the night.. come on get a fucking clue there girls.. a nice guy would be asking you out on a date not to come out with him at the mid of the night.. but any way to get to the point a lot of girls and i do mean a lot of girls do not have any comen sense when it comes to that.. i mean unless you hang out with the guy dont go out with them in the mid of the night.. im sorry but your asking for problems if you do.. |
| Thursday, November 10th, 2005 |
| 5:04 pm |
i may have over did my post last night.. but a lot of shit happen last night that had me over the eage.. i have found the friend that i was thinking i had turn out to nothing more then fucking abitules bitchs who need to fuck off.. i have been waiting to see if this would blow over but it seems that brain is so piss off over nothing more then he said she said bull shit.. he needs to grow up and stop lissen to what people say.. the point of growing up is not lissen to what other people think or say.. yes brain if you read this i think you have't grown up like i use to think.. your hideing your self behind what people say.. if you go on what people say then you will be nothing more then a child.. is most peoples eyes... |
| Wednesday, November 9th, 2005 |
| 11:59 pm |
brian
yeah brain, lauren piss me off tonight.. and yeah im piss.. right now i could beat the shit out of someone.. of was out with alice talking to her trying to make her feel batter and lauren calls her when we are at the store and talks to her and the next thing i know is that she is in the store with her and is draging her off... yeah well all i have to say is fuck them fuck brain he is nothing more then a peace of shit to me now.. back stabing basterd who needs to get a fucking clue.. a once a time i use to call friend a good friend.. but not any more.. he cross the line with me.. no more will i help him or even be around his ass i wanted to hit him tonight.. you dont just come and take a girl from someone.. that is fucking bull shit.. she was with me we where haveing fun and the next i know is lauren is comeing and is like she is comeing with her.. well not wanting to put alice in the mid of it i was like do what you want to do.. and i left becouse the more i stayed there the more and more piss i got.. becouse i if i would have stayed there any longer i would have started to rase my voice.. and if that happens.. i know my eyes where changeing coler that is't a good thing.. and you know what.. lauren needs to fucking grow up.. and for a min they think i did't know what was going on.. alice did't get a chance to even say if she wanted to go or not.. they just may as well said fuck you she is comeing with us oh and fuck you.. now i am sorry but i am not going to deal with some childest shit like that.. i am not going to deal with that kinda bull shit.. not from any one.. even someone i use to call (A Friend) who now is nothing more then a bitch..... |
| 3:21 pm |
well main street tryed to fuck me again.. they said i only had to be there on sat and run a dub but then when i come and get my check they are like well you did't come in two days well i looked at the time sheat and yeah i was put on there for like 4 days and i did't come in for two of them.. well all i said is well i did't know i had to be in and no one called me so its not my falut and she said well it is.. and i told her you know what.. you can take this job and shub it up your ass.. i dont need this bull shit.. not from you or any one i have put up with more bull shit at this job then i would owning my own fucking bisnes.. and i walked my happy ass out of the place and said dont call me back in to help you again becouse my phone will not be reseaveing calls from this number or any one up in this place but the people i trust and know.. and that is only two of them.. and its none of you bitch made people who think they know what the fuck they are doing.. so yeah i am down to one job again.. holy shit.. fucking right is all i have to say.. no more 6 bucks a hour its all 9-15 a hour now.. can't complain about that now can i.... |
| Tuesday, November 8th, 2005 |
| 4:17 pm |
well i am at home right now with nothing to do.. and i dont have any gas into tomorrow oh well not like i am complaining i dont have any where to go today any way.. i do need to save some money tho i am wanting to get my own place very soon.. well any ways i feel like Blah yeah nothing to do. just to much shit on my mind to go out right now. nothing all that bad just for some resson i dont feel like going out... maybe tomorrow.. i will be in a better mood... |
| Monday, November 7th, 2005 |
| 4:30 am |
yeah i broke down tonight
yeah i broke down tonight in madison of all places yeah i will be lucky if my car is there by tomorrow.. i am going to call my brother in the morring.. yeah in about 2 hours or so.. i am going to have to call him and be like hey can you help me please.. and i had alice in the car as well and simmons.. yeah this is going to suck.. i am going to have to see if my rims will fit that car.. this is going to be good.. or should i say going to suck.. but yeah.. talking about bs man i all ready have one spair on the car all ready man and then a nother one go flat.. god is trying to tell me something.. stay my ass home.. yeah yeah i know i need to start staying home but yeah i just like it being out for some resson.. its hell of a lot better then siting at home and doing nothing.. but the gas is geting bad i need to find a place to sit and chill.. but with simmons with me right now that is not going to be easy.. hell i would't mind in just going some place with alice and chilling.. just me and her.. but hell right now that is't easy.. i am going to have to pay for tires now.. that is going to eat most of my money i get from my check.. so yeah this is going to suck.. and i will be lucky if i get more then 100 bucks on my check from main street.. which is going to suck becouse rigth now i need money bad.. i am going to have to find something to do.. i may have to get a better job.. if i dont get this manager spot i am going to have to find a nother job very soon.. becouse this job is killing me.. |
| Saturday, November 5th, 2005 |
| 1:59 am |
yeah i can't sleep
today is going to suck but i am going to have have to get up and get shit going.. yeah i have been haveing a lot of shit on my mind.. one of the resson i have been looking for a way out of a lot of shit but i find my self in the same shit over and over again.. i have to find a way out but there are some things that i dont want to walk away from.. there are people in my life right now that i have grown very close to.. its hard to just walk away from the ones you care about.. but yeah the proson i am talking about is not the real resson i have been haveing problems.. i dont know how to put it realy but i find my self stoping and thinking its even fucking me up at work but i dont mind.. every one has to stop and think now and again.. so yeah i am going to have to get shit off my mind and get on with shit., i am going to fix a lot of things in my head very soon.. i have put a stop to a lot of things that have been a problem latey.. but there is still a lot of things going on right now that i have to deal with .. but i think i am going to be ok with every thing now.. i have been finding my self.. under standing a lot of shit that i did't when i was yonger i talked to my sister about all of it... and all she has to say is i am growing up and faceing shit that is going on insted of runing away from the problem.. yeah well i wish i would have done this a long time ago maybe i would't be as i am now.. the only problem i have right now is my heart.. that seems to all ways get in my way.. the only way i have found to fix it is to grow cold.. that just dose't work.. and seem to chase the people i care about away.. becomeing a ass hole dose't fix my problems the only thing that helps is to face them head on. even if you have to fight over shit.. yeah well all i have to say is the old me is back mixed with the new me.. if the ones have ever seen me back in the day.. know how crazy i can be.. well im back... but mixed with the old me.. time to get shit in the open and clean some rooms out.. time to face my demons and get put them in there place.. befor they controe me to the point where i can't even think.. Current Mood:  nostalgic |
| Friday, November 4th, 2005 |
| 11:48 pm |
well i went out but nothing to find i went over to see a friend that i have't seen in a long time so yeah.. its odd i know so many people but the more i look its realy the less i see but yeah.. i have no idea.. i feel like its time to make some new friends.. there is nothing to do other then sit in my house and do nothing... bored is a under statement right now.. but i think i am going to go to sleep.. now i know why i work.. to aleave the boredem... i pulled FLCL out and i am watching it.. i am going to watch it and see i am going to go to sleep and see what awaits me tomorrow... |
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