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[20 Jun 2007|09:11pm] |
I'm so in love with Dustin. I was just thinking about it, and I've NEVER had any thoughts about wanting to break up with him and we've been together for a year and a month now. Sure, we've had fights and stuff where I've gotten upset, but that doesn't happen very often and I never get THAT mad. He makes me so happy...I could spend all day with him just laying in bed watching movies and I would be perfectly content. He's so sweet, he makes me laugh, he's actually on my maturity AND intelligence level, and he loves me for who I am and tells me how beautiful I am almost everyday. He's just so amazing.
I just randomly felt like gushing about him. lol.
But anyway, I'm still taking pictures of kids and I'm still enjoying my job. I have another niece on the way if I haven't mentioned that yet. Everybody around me is having babies, too. Umm...I don't think anything else is new...
I figured I should update this thing though, so there's my update.
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| Well hello Livejournal |
[14 Dec 2006|02:05am] |
So...it's been a while since I wrote in this thing.
Dustin and I are still doing great. We talk about marriage and kids all the time. We even have the name of our first boy picked out but we can't decide on a girl's name. He doesn't like any of the ones I like and I don't like his ideas either....so that one might take a while. But anyway, he's super excited to give me my Christmas presents so I'm anxious to see what he got me. I think he has good taste so I'm pretty sure I'll like whatever he got me. I like the stuff that I got for him too. I know he'll like the gifts.
I was working at Kiddie Kandids as a seasonal person but when we got the job, she told us she might keep 2 of us to stay permanently, and I am the only one she picked to stay. So that's awesome, especially since I don't like the other seasonal girls but I like all the other people. My boss is the shit and I close with Amanda all the time so we spend a lot of time together and talk and laugh. It's cool. She's really nice, and so are all the other permanent girls. I absolutely love it there.
I think the next semester will be my last and then I should be done with my associates. I'll be glad when it's over. I actually had to work really hard this semester to keep my grades up in some of my classes but I ended up with 4 As and a B, which I was very proud of. I'm going to pick up my research paper tomorrow to see what I got, because that's the class I got the B in and I'm really curious to see why it was a B instead of an A.
But yeah, life is good. My emotions have been all over the place as usual though and I feel bad for Dustin, but he doesn't want me to go back on the meds cuz he's afraid they will change my personality. My mom says I'm the same person except happier. I wish I could be happy all the time because that's the way it should be since I am actually happy in life for once. But Dustin can say the smallest thing and I get upset or angry and I don't know why. I hate it.
I'm really dreading going back to school in January because I'm really enjoying sleeping in :( lol.
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| My new job |
[30 Sep 2006|10:39pm] |
Not only do I get to take pictures for my new job...
but I get to take pictures of KIDS!
AND I just got to scrapbook too! lol. My manager gave me some of the scrapbook pages we sell at work so I could put together the sample pages :)
I got a job at Kiddie Kandids and it's right down the rode from my house. I had a profile on CareerBuilders.com for a sales position and it randomly sent me the kiddie kandids thing and me and 3 other girls got chosen out of like 70 applicants. It's so awesome. We started doing sign ins and sales today...actually getting to crop the photos and put them in borders and stuff then showing them to the parents and getting them to buy stuff. I was so nervous at first but it's getting easier, and Monday we're gonna start learning how to take the pictures. Yaaayyy. Coolest job EVER.
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| pluses and minuses of today |
[13 Sep 2006|06:28pm] |
-my computer broke and it's gonna cost $99 to get my crap off it just so I can reformat it AND it's not gaurenteed to work
-I'm so bored with my hair but don't have the money to do anything
-I miss my dark hair but Dustin thinks I should stay blonde, possibly even go platinum (My mom says he's on drugs....lol)
This would be me now, but with probably about 2 inches more hair which therefore gives me two inches of dark roots.
Blonde? I did go blonde from about...8th grade to 12th grade, with some purple hair in between....lol...and no one ever said anything bad about it. *shrug*
+I'm gonna marry the most AMAZING guy on Earth and he knows it :)
+We're gonna make pretty babies some day. lol
-I'm sick, and it feels like I swallowed a pine cone.
+I have a job interview tomorrow for a children's photography place in Babies R Us
-I'm really nervous about it ^
+Dustin's out working with my brother
+I got a new pet (A Savannah Monitor)
-But she's sick and we have to take her back and get her replaced :( She won't eat ANYTHING but I love her cuz she's so sweet. :( again
-School is laaaammmmeeee
+but still pretty easy
-I hate my anatomy teacher because he's gay and doesn't know how to teach
-I keep getting migraines
-Had to get bloodwork to see if I have diabetes or low blood sugar cuz I've been getting lightheaded and shaky
+I lost about 10 pounds over the summer and Rachel said she noticed that I was smaller than last semester
-I gained like 3 back...lol
But overall life is good. I'd rather not be sick all the time tho, and Dustin worries about me cuz of it. :/ But I think I'll be fine. I'm happy and at least depression won't be weighing me down and making me sicker.
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| Back in FL |
[13 Aug 2006|11:34pm] |
As the subject says, I'm back in FL. We moved our stuff into my room on Friday and realized there wasn't much space in there. lol. We got a dresser that we're working on putting together so Dustin will have some place to put his clothes, and we're going job hunting tomorrow. We were talking about how waitresses make pretty good money but that's not something I wanna do, since I'm really shy and terrified of messing up, but he says we need to go where the money is, so who knows, maybe I'll be a waitress for a little bit. I know he can get a good paying job but I'm worried about me. But we'll see.
The day we got back, I got a phone call from Genia saying she saw on the news that a friend/aquaintance from school of mine was beaten to death by her boyfriend. Apparently, they got into an arguement and he beat her to death with a metal baseball bat. We weren't really close but we talked every once in a while thru Myspace and we used to talk a lot my senior year cuz we had a class together. I'd just seen her on my birthday (May 27) because she came over to Paul's house where we were hanging out. She was an extremely nice person, never mean to anyone and always smiling, and it just makes me really sad when I think of what happened to her. It doesn't seem real....she's the third person I knew from high school that died after I graduated. :/
But yeah, other than that, things are good. My bed is hard compared to Dustin's very soft bed that I got used to, the space is a little cramped, and it's hot as balls in FL, but I'm still happy. I have the two things that I love most here with me now: Dustin and my family. I got to spend the weekend with my neices and nephews, minus the youngest one, Brianna, so that was awesome, especially since I hadn't seen Caitlin and Christopher in about a year. I love those kids so much. And I love Dustin so much, so having him here with me as I get to be with my family is just like the greatest thing in the world.
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[06 Aug 2006|12:45pm] |
I don't feel like I'm throwing my life away anymore. Each day I feel like I've accomplished something because I spent time with Dustin. He's all I need and all I want...all I've ever wanted.
I think it's amazing that we spent 4 years apart and then fell in love with each other almost right away when we started talking again. It's funny how a voice over the phone gave me butterflies like I was 14 again. I honestly don't remember getting butterflies with Matt.
Grr. I really don't like Dustin's sister. Dustin took a shower right after me this morning and they share a bathroom, so she's complaining that she needs to take a shower. She goes, "ARE THEY GOING ANYWHERE?? NO!" Yes, actually, we are, and I wanted to walk out of his room and yell that at her. She's so inconsiderate and whiny. She's 13 years old and acts like she's like 7. Did I ever mention that I hate teenagers?
I can't wait til Dustin and I can get our own apartment. It's going to be SO great.
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| Update + Pictures |
[04 Jul 2006|08:53pm] |
I got soooooo sooo drunk last night. The sickness didn't even wait til this morning...I had to go straight into the bathroom after I got home. Dustin's neighbor Chris made this drink with crystal light and captain morgans and I had two and a half tall cups of that, a lil bit of puckers, and a shot of tequila. I felt a little buzzed as we were sitting outside drinking, but then once we started to walk home, I could barely even walk. lol. I'm such a light weight to begin with and with that much alcohol for me, I get messed up. I feel so bad for Dustin cuz he stayed up with me while I was getting sick until like 4 in the morning. And every time I get sick, I cry because I feel so horrible and I was like hyperventilating, so he was trying to get me to calm down. It was horrible. I was like "I'm not drinking anymore" but that probably won't stay true.
We had a fourth of july party thing with the neighbors today so that was fun. Good food + good people = a good time. :)
( Pictures of the happy couple )
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[19 Jun 2006|03:10pm] |
I love life...<3
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| Here I am again |
[22 May 2006|09:37pm] |
:)
I don't know that I've ever been called amazing. Dustin not only calls me amazing, but god damn amazing. He tells me how beautiful and gorgeous I am everyday. He tells me he loves me at least..five times a day. He tells me that my happiness is what makes him happy and that I am his world. To him, I'm an angel, a princess, and his someone. He told me last night that four years ago, he knew he was in love with me and that I was the one. Wow. Just wow. It made me cry, but in a good way.
He is absolutely, positively the most amazing person in the world.
I never thought I'd get the chance to be with him again...and here we are. Completely in love, happier than ever, and wanting to spend the rest of our lives with each other.
Like I've said, it's so fast, but we just reconnected instantly. We click, we can talk about anything, we can be dorks in front of each other, we can trust each other completely, and we both just know this is it...that this was meant to be.
I can't wait to see him and then after that, he's gonna move down here and it's gonna be AMAZING.
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| Whoa.... |
[09 May 2006|08:55pm] |
I'm completely baffled...I was just on myspace and I found out two girls I graduated with and knew since like Jr. High are pregnant...and it's not those 'OMG I'm so fucked! I'm pregnant!' pregnancies...they're happy. This is so crazy. We're all 19 years old...
My friend lindsay, also 19, just had her second child. I'm just like...wow. This doesn't seem real. It's as if I'M pregnant. That's how dumbfounded I am.
This is so weird! But I'm happy for them. Our 5 year high school reunion should be very interesting. Half of my class will have kids I think. WEIRD.
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| Panic attacks |
[07 May 2006|08:01pm] |
Grr.
I read an LJ friend's entry the other day about the two kind of panic attacks she had. At the time, I thought I only had one type of panic attack. But then I had one Friday night and remembered about the other kind.
I got upset because Jeremy told me I had no sense of humor. He had also said that I was gonna gain 14 pounds from eating French Toast. I don't care what mood I'm in....I DON'T like fat/weight jokes. NOT cool. Well, when I got home, I finally let it upset me when I got home and I started feeling like I couldn't breathe and it kept getting harder and harder to breathe with every breath. I started crying because I couldn't breathe and all Matt could do is hold my hand and wait for me to calm myself down. It really sucked. And it happens when I get extremely upset. I hate it.
Those panic attacks are worse than the kind I get when I'm in a big crowd. Those kind of panic attacks just consist of nausea and sweating and dizziness. My chest starts to feel a little tight and I cry some times but I can still breathe...
There's something going on in my mind and in my heart and it's confusing the hell out of me. It's confusing Matt too, because he knows that I'm confused. I feel bad for him, but I can't figure out what's going on with me, so I can't fix it..
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| Hey LJ friends |
[03 May 2006|09:42pm] |
I've been being so lazy lately. I've been sleeping until like 11 or 12 everyday cuz it's summer and I haven't had work all week. But I work tomorrow, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday :/ and then Tuesday next week. But whatever. I have nothing else to do. I hope I can hang out with Chris and them Friday or Saturday after I get off but I dunno.
My sister-in-law had her baby. They named her Brianna Nicole (she has my middle name and my birth month!). She's almost 11 pounds and she's a chunker! She's so cute though. I can't wait to watch her grow up with Alyssa and Brandon.
Yesterday I asked Matt if he wanted to invite his friend to eat at BW3s. He called everyone and they were actually all free, so that's what we did. Then Jeremy, Johnathan, Johnathan's gf Tina, Matt, and I decided to go swimming. The water was freezing at first but we got used to it and played Marco Polo. lol. It was actually pretty fun. It's nice to hang out with friends, even though they're mostly Matt's friends.
Now I'm watching Lost. I watch entirely too much TV.
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| Random update |
[28 Apr 2006|09:20pm] |
My brother got "Brianna" tattooed on his leg and the baby hasn't even been born yet. I'm gonna laugh my ass off if it comes out a boy.
My pool randomly broke today. The whole side's gone and the water made a river in my backyard. My mom says she doesn't want to get another one. I live in FL. I NEED a pool!
I've been getting mild migraines lately. With nausea. Very unpleasant.
Matt's playing D&D. It's Friday night. So I'm at home by myself. GAAAYYYY. I hate him right now.
My brain's been being mean to me and it's making me confused. But there's not many people I can talk to about it. So it sucks.
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| *insert witty comment here* |
[26 Apr 2006|12:42am] |
Getting drunk is fun (especially when you don't pass out!!) lol.
I want to do it again.
I love Matt's friends. They're my friends now too. Actually, I think I talk to them more than Matt does now. ha.
Yes. I was going to sleep but then I got up to leave my mom a note and I woke up. And I have the hiccups now. Like....the hurtful deep ones. Eh.
No work tomorrow :)
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[23 Apr 2006|08:23pm] |
This is how it works: Comment on this entry and get a letter.
Write ten words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why.
[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<lj_user="jerseygrl23">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] This is how it works: Comment on this entry and get a letter.
Write ten words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why.
<lj_user="jerseygrl23"> gave me the letter M.
1. <b>Matt</b>- Well, ya'll all know that Matt's my boyfriend, and he means the world to me. He's pretty much all I have except for my family and a few good friends.
2. <b>Movies</b>- I watch sooo many movies. Since I live in lil ol Orange Park, the movie theatre is about the only place to go. I'd like to go see a movie every weekend, but that doesn't always happen, so if I'm not seeing a movie there, I'm renting movies from blockbuster.
3. <b>Mall</b>- I got my first job a few weeks ago in the mall. I work at Sear's Watch and Jewelry Repair and it's the easiest job EVER.
4. <b>Money</b>- I'm obsessed with money. I hate to spend it, unless I'm buying clothes. lol. I loooove money. I'm a saver, not a spender (which means I'm the opposite of my boyfriend).
5. <b>MYSPACE!!!</b>- I'm definitely obsessed with Myspace too. I got on there senior year and didn't really keep up with it, but I think I'm on there everyday now. I check bulletins and everything. Seeing "New myspace comment" in my inbox makes my day. lol.
6. <b>Mom</b>- My mother's my best friend. I can tell her almost anything and she'll talk to me about it. She says I'm the only reason she's still alive and she's the reason I am too. I felt like giving up a long time ago but I couldn't leave her alone. I love my mom.
7. <b>Memories</b>- I love saving memories in my scrapbook and with the pictures I take. It's my favorite thing to do.
8. <b>Mystery</b>- My favorite kind of book. Well, crime mystery. That and erotica aka porn. lol. It's also my favorite genre of tv. Lost, Invasion, that kind of stuff. It's awesome.
9. <b>Music</b>- How did this take me so long to come up with? I love music. Not enough to have a ipod, but I could seriously sit in a room all day and just listen to music. Yellowcard's my favorite band, but I really like Anna Nalick, Flyleaf, Taking Back Sunday, The Used, and almost everything else. lol.
10. <b>Males</b>- Haha self-explanitory. I'm seriously boy crazy. Love to flirt, love to have guy friends, love being around males period. I get along with guys better than girls.
OKAY.
M's a hard letter!! lol. |
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| Before and After |
[19 Apr 2006|10:41am] |
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| update + picture |
[16 Apr 2006|08:14pm] |
So my weekend pretty much sucked until today. I had to work til close Friday and Saturday. Matt and I put off our plans (going to see a movie) until Saturday because Jeremy said he wanted to come. Well, Saturday came and Jeremy said he didn't really want to see the movie. I'm not going into how much that pissed me off. But he said we were going to play tag instead, so Matt and I sat around waiting for him, and then he called and said he couldn't get enough people to play. But he said we'd figure out something to do. But then he called back and said he was handcuffed to the bed and couldn't find the key. So Matt and I didn't do anything. Again. So basically Jeremy fucked up my whole weekend and I'm NEVER inviting him to do anything EVER again. I'm so tired of people.
Well, today was Easter, and I got to spend time with my family. Only bad thing was that some of my aunt's family came and one of her nieces or something asked if she could help me hide eggs. I said sure and she hid some regular eggs plus the gold and silver ones (with $5 and $3 in them). She freaking told her sister and her cousin where the gold and silver eggs were so they could get the money. What bullshit. I felt like beating her ass and she was like 11. But that's not what you do on Easter. It's like...God's day or something (haha I'm so not religious) and she CHEATS at Easter egg hunting. Who does that???
But anyway. Matt took this pic of me and I really like it.
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| I love reading these things... |
[10 Apr 2006|11:06am] |
You know you're a 90's kid if...
You can remember "Where in the world is Carmen Sandieago"
You could remember the original Simpsons.
You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SYKE!"
You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince Of Bel Air"
You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
You remember reading "Goosebumps"
You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off"
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
You remember the craze then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.
You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together.
You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates
You ever got injured on a Slip 'n' Slide
You wore socks over leggings scrunched down
" Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS ELEPHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE"
You remember boom boxes vs. cd players
You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"
You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the Robot from "MY Little Wonder"
You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool
You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"
You played and or collected "Pogs"
You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN Power Ranger and you owned a Skip It
You had at least one GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere
You watched the original Care Bears, and Ninja Turtles
Yikes pencils and erasers were the bomb.
You remember when the new Beanie Babies were always sold out.
You remember a time before the WB.
You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You thought it would be so cool to be Alex Mack.
You used to love the Encyclopedia Brown Mysteries.
You were obsessed with 90210, like everyone is with the OC
You know the Macarena by heart.. LOL
"Talk to the hand" ... enough said
You thought Brain would finally take over the world
You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"
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