Ashton

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 19:42:54 GMT

Look at these pictures I found from 8th grade

These were at my house but i dont remember when, lol, i had more but i just misplaced them maybe some other time ill put the rest up

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 04:06:09 GMT

lets see....saturday was my sisters birthday we had a party it was pretty kick ass except her friend monica was being really fucken loud and i didnt want to be a party kill but i didnt want cops or anything at all to fuck it up! but yea so brenden was so sweet and he helped me clean all of everything up.WOW i love him so much so so so much. hes so yummy...anyways other than that life is really fucken great. my job is so/so only because i have to work alot but at the end of the day i have brenden so i am happy. school is ok. but its school.
MY LIFE IS WONDERFUL! and im so happy.

missing arizona

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 06:31:25 GMT

i miss arizona alot right now, not so much arizona as the people. i miss r.j alot he is sooooooooo cool and i wish he didnt live so far and i hope hes always happy i miss alley alot too, we had alot of alot of good times and i was pretty two-faced to her and i shoudnt have been, i fucked that up though. I miss ari alot too, we had a weird realationship and we kinda ended werid and then i took the whole him and maddy thing too werid but i miss him and i miss his smell even if its a jew smell. I miss mike we had a werid realationship too but it worked for the week or so. i miss tina i miss tina tina before all this werid stuff happend i loved her she was so wonderful. i miss roach i miss the real roach he seems so differnt now, not changed but changed. i miss dustin he was silly. i miss nico. i miss danny he is wonderful and fun, fuck even part of me misses mark. i feel so werid right now cause im happy but im not.

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 03:39:24 GMT

do you..
<33 remember 1st crush - probably this guy named renato
<33 still love him - no i love brenden
<33 read the newspaper - no
<33 have any pets- my dog sammy and my cats dylan and jack
<33 talk to strangers- maybe
<33 have peircings - 4 in my ears
<33 have tattoos - a heart kinda near my hip
<33 hate yourself - no.
<33 Collect anything - nope
<33 have bad habits - yea
<33 care about looks - yea
Current
<//3 dress - shorts and my boyfriends shirt <//3 mood - pretty good cept my boyfriend needs to get home! <//3 makeup - EYELINER <//3 hair - Ponytail <//3 annoyance - stupid fat bitches who talk shit <//3 smell - brenden <//3 fingernail color white tips <//3 drink - diet pepsi <//3 worry - i worry about brenden and the future and the rent cheack <//3 favorite celebrity - dont know Last person... </3 you talked to - jessica </3 you hugged - brenden</3 you IM'ed - ritachka =) haha i LoVE LIL REE <3 !! </3 you yelled at - no one </3 broke your heart - dont know mark or ari or mike proabbly mike Friends, Family, and Life <3 Do you love anyone - I LOVE BRENDEN MACKAY <3 Loudest - jessica <3 Weirdest - i dont know

Tue, 27 Jan 2004 04:29:20 GMT

pick ANY 5 lj users on your friends list. without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them. never reveal who is what.

1. You were the first boy that ever had mutual feelings for me, and it wad wonderful.
2. i remember when we were best friends it was nice, i wish things hadnt changed, its most likly my fault.
3.Your beautiful inside and out and i love you and i miss you.
4.I remember when we first met and i wanted to be your best friend but that position was already taken.
4. You were always very intresting to me and i was always quite attracted to you but you were to old and it didnt work out

If your bored... FILL this out about me

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 04:48:13 GMT

[07 Dec 2003|03:06am]
Everyone fill this out about me..
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

im bored

Wed, 14 Jan 2004 03:05:01 GMT

*. . . W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .*
1) pierce your nose or tongue? tongue
2) be serious or be funny? funney
3) drink whole or skim milk? whole

* . . . A R E Y O U . . .*
4) simple or complicated? in between

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
5) flowers or angels? flowers
6) grey or gray? gray
7) color or black-and-white photos?BLACK AND WHITE
8) lust or love? love cause it can lead to both
9) sunrise or sunset? i cant decided
10) M&Ms or Skittles? skittles
11) rap or rock? ROCK
12) staying up late or waking up early? late
13) TV or radio? tv
15) eating apples or oranges? apples

* . . . A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . . *
16) Do you have a crush? NO IM IN LOvE WITH BRENDEN
17) Who is it?

* . . . D O Y O U P R E F E R . . . *
18) being hot or cold? in between
19) tall members of the opposite sex? i dont knoe
20) sun or moon? MOON
21) emeralds or rubies? rubies
22) left or right? left
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend? 1 best bud
24) sun or rain? rain
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? dont know
26) boys or girls? BRENDEN
27) green beans or carrots? neither
28) low fat or fat free? fat free

* . . . M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . . *
29) What is your biggest fear in the world? SPIDERS, and anal sex
30) Kids or no kids? kids
31) Cat or dog? noth
32) Half empty or half full? full
33) Mustard or ketchup? ketchup
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books? hard
35) Newspaper or magazine? magazine
36) Sandals or sneakers? depends on how i feel usualy sneakers
37) Wonder or amazement? amazment
38) Red car or white car? red
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich? happy and poor
40) Singing or dancing? both
41) Hugging or kissing? kissing
42) Corduroy or plain? plain
43) Happy or sad? happy
45) Blondes, brunettes? BLONDES

* . . . A B O U T Y O U . . . *
What time is it? 654
Full name? Elizabeth Ashton Cotton
Nicknames: ashtie, ashYton
Names and ages of siblings? Morgan 19
Number of candles that appeared on your last birtday cake? Just one but it was a special birthday cupcake from brenden so i LOVVVEVD it
Date that you regularly blow them out? decmeber 11th
Pets?sammy and my kittes dyaln and jack
Height? 5'4
Eye color? blue
Hair color? blonde
Piercings? 4 in each ear

* . . . W H A T D O Y O U W A N T . . . *
Where do you want to live? san francisco or san diego
How many kids do you want? no mroe than 2
What kind of job do you want? i want to cook
Do you want to get married? yes

* . . . W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . . *
2 doors or 4 (on a car)? 4
Coffee or ice cream? ice cream
Shampoo or conditioner? both
Bridges or tunnels? neither
One pillow or two? one

* . . . F A V O R I T E S . . . *
Salad dressing? raseberry vinagerrette
Color of socks? black
Toothpaste? minty kind
Food? sushi
Toothbrush? i dont know
Alcoholic drink? none
Non-alcoholic drink? diet pepsi

1 MINUTE AGO: talked to my mommie
1 DAY AGO: went to san francisco
1 WEEK AGO: walked alot
1 YEAR AGO: hung out with brenden
I HURT: my head
I LOVE: BRENDEN
I HATE: stupid bitches who want to fuck my boyfriend
I FEAR:spiders
I HOPE: to be happy always
I FEEL: cold
I LISTEN: to the distillers
I HIDE: my fat aghaghagh
I DRIVE: my parents crazy
I MISS:brenden
I LEARNED: dont know
I KNOW: everything
I WAIT: tell 2morrow
I NEED: loven
I THINK: a goat is friendly

Current Clothes: black shirt red skirt black converse
Current Mood: pretty ok
Current Music: distillers
Current Taste: salty
Current Hair: up with a chopstik
Current Annoyance: my feet
current Smell: cake
Current thing I should be Doing: STUDYING FOR FINALS
Current Desktop Picture:micky and minnei
Current Favorite Show: dont know
Current Book: diary
Current Movie In VCR: fear and loathing in las vegas
Current Refreshment: diet pepsi

thanks to katie

Tue, 13 Jan 2004 02:55:11 GMT

FIRSTS:

Best Friend: jack something
Car: dont have one
Date: nypd or the movies or something
Real Kiss: R.J
Real Breakup: with r.j cept for the mono so maybe Ari
Self Purchased Album: dont remember
Funeral: sisters
Pet: turtle, sarah
Piercing/tatoos: first ear whole in like 5th grade 2nd, 3rd, and 4th last year.Tattoo, heart on my lower hip last year.
Credit Card: no way
True Love: Brenden
Enenmy: heather
Trip: New York
Music Heard As Child: none

LASTS

Cigarette: hour
Car Ride: hour
Kiss: Brenden an hour ago
Good Cry: last thursday
Library Book Checked Out: dont know
Movie: the crow
Drink consumed: diet Coke
Food Consumed: rice
Phone Call: brenden
Shower: this morninh
Shoes Worn: osirises
Cd Played: distillers
Item Bought:candy
Annoyance: not being with brenden
Disappointmen: this morning
Wanting to Die: thursday
Scolded: no idea
Shirt Worn: social distortion

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 05:02:02 GMT

Last thursday brenden and i had been togther a year! wow yay i love him so so so much he makes me so happy! we did shrooms it was crazy we were at this park laying in the grass look at the clouds and then we tripped at 4 we took more and then we decided to go to get some grub. I tired to still this baby but the lady got all werid. then when we were at jack and the box at like 630 and i started freaken OUT and brenden wasw freaking out cause i had to go home later that night and he thought i was gonna o.d and it was so scary i was freaking out and i would be ok for a minute and then freak out it was odd. then he called my sister to come help me out so i drank some milk and then we dropped him at his house and i went home it was so scary then he called me to make sure i was ok and we talked pretty much all night. Then friday we hung out with my sister again it was pretty rad. today we decided to go hang out with brendens friend Fabian, brenden met fabian when i was in arizona and he was telling me about it. so we get in the car and i was all WHOA! I KNOW YOU he had smoked me and some friends out a while ago and he kept hitting on me so it was werid BUT hes a cool cool guy and we hung out and drank some beer it was cool. SO yea... i love brenden!

my foot tingles

Mon, 05 Jan 2004 07:41:30 GMT

was in arizona this weekend..pretty cool...saw r.j and i adore him. I went off-roading with him and trey and a.j, then we picked up this really pretty girl but i cant remember her name....went to dennys yadayada...dont want to start school GROWL i hate it but i love candy and brenden.

Sat, 20 Dec 2003 04:50:43 GMT

Brenden and i got a new fishy today
... his name is Jorge

Sat, 13 Dec 2003 17:29:00 GMT

my birthday was one of the best birthdays ive ever had!
in the morning my friend jesscias brought me all kinds
of presents and than at lunch my friend adan smoked me out
and then jessica and i went home and we smoked some more weed.
so we were laying there on the sofa and i kept falling asleep
and then we heard someone run by the door and knock.... and im like
who the fuck is that?? so i get up to go anwser the door
and its brenden.... my first thought is fuck he ran what a
dumb ass i hate him and so i started to cry, cause if
he had run then he would be on the run from police and what not
the rest of his life and im not about to sit around with him
while all that bullshit goes on but i love him so much and loosing
him we be so so so bad. so where standing there and im crying and hes holding
me and hes saying " its ok i got realeased its ok" and i was like what?
BUT they let him out on good behavior so that was superfantastic, then he took
me out to dinner and it was so so sweet and i loved it and i love him
and yea.

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 05:38:00 GMT

my birthday is tommmrow yay

pictures for you

Tue, 02 Dec 2003 03:22:05 GMT

Me and Brenden.... I really love this picture

This is me and brenden when we were at my friend jessicas house for her birthday.

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Sun, 19 Oct 2003 19:52:49 GMT

Oh my I talked to roach yesterday i miss him. he sounds good but he hates his school alot alot. i hate my school alot alot.
I love my husband alot alot.thats it

wooosh

Sat, 18 Oct 2003 04:54:06 GMT

YAY... i started to set up my dark room today, its almost done i just need some red lights and a few other things. Its just this shack in my back yard but i painted the windows black and put up construction paper then i put up some curtains at the door and stuff. ITS SUPER even if its a little ghetto. i get to see my husband tommorow IM SOOO WONDERFLY excited yay yay
and I might GET to talk to someone really awesome who i miss this weekend but im not sure so yea. my teeth hurt.

emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empt

Wed, 01 Oct 2003 04:26:13 GMT

Not even a mirror can comprehend
the depth of your beauty.
Not even a raindrop can represent
your fragility.
Not even concrete can represent
your strength
Will you bless me with another
blissful kiss?
What am I left with?
Memories.
Longing to hear my name
roll of your tounge.
Is that really you
before me?
or just another dream?
When I come closer
You back away,
so whats that supposed to mean?
You are with me,
yet so far away
and yet our love
still pushes me on another day.

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 18:34:33 GMT

+OPINIONS+
Am I cute?:
Am I hot?:
Am I sweet?:
Am I crazy?:
Am I love able?:
Am I funny?:
Am I annoying?:
Am I daring?:
Am I a good person?:

+WOULD YOU+
Hug me?:
Touch me?:
Miss me if I was gone?:
Listen to my problems?:
Hug me if i cried?:
Be a good friend?:
Fuck me?:
Kiss me ((Really))?:
Marry me if u could?:

+HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME?+
When's my birthday?:
How old am I?:
What school do I go to?:
Do i have any siblings ~> names?? :
Who is my best friend?:
Favorite song/songs?:
Favorite music group?:

+IF YOU COULD+
Do one thing with me what would it be and why?:
Drop me one piece of advice, what would it be?:

+JUST A FEW QUESTIONS+
What do you love about me?:
What do you hate about me?(seriously):
What is my best quality?:
If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
What is your honest opinion of me?:

yum gummi bears

Sun, 21 Sep 2003 07:20:35 GMT

i feel sick. i went to Jens party * i love her * it was ok i suppose.
i miss brenden, i think i might vomit.

Sat, 20 Sep 2003 01:10:49 GMT

Four Bad Habits:
1. not liking people
2. smoking
3. not sleeping
4. holding everything in and the letting it all EXPLODE at someone.

Four Things You Wish You Had:
1. Brenden with me right now
2. our kittie cena
3. my kitties jack and dylan
4. a panda bear

Four Thing You Would Never Wear:
1. a shirt with brittany spears on it
2. more that one pair of underwear at the same time
3. an earing in my eye
4. uber high heels to school

Four Things You Are Thinking About:
1. brenden
2. getting a job
3. the future
4. my puppy

Four Things You Have Done Today:
1. went to school
2. missed brenden
3. cried
4. hit someone

Last Four Things You have Bought:
1. a new garter belt
2. diet pepsi
3. taffy
4. a stamp

Four Bands/Groups Most People Dont Know You Like:
1. a global threat
2. wasted youth
3. violent femmes
4. the velvet underground

Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. Deit Pepsi
2. smoothies
3. Oragne Soda
4. water
Last song you sang: cover me from rent
Last Person You Hugged: adan
Last Thing You Laughed At: jen
Last Time You Said I Love You and Meant It?: not last sunday but the sunday before
Last Time You Cried: today
Whats In Your CD Player: sublime
What Color Are Your Socks: fishnet thingsys
Whats Under Your Bed: another bed
What Time Did You Wake Up: 3:33 am
Current Hair: blonde uber uber long
Current Clothes:these sweat pants and a black beater
Current Annoyance: my life
Current Desktop Picture: brenden and ashton together all kissy
Current Hate: that brenden isnt here
Last cd You Bought?: metallica black album
Favorite Place To Be: anywear with brenden
Least Favorite Place: everywhere
Favorite Color: black, hot pink
Do You Believe In An Afterlife: reicarntaion
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
james dean
Favorite Day: saturday
Where Would You Like To Go: anywear with brenden

Fri, 19 Sep 2003 20:14:06 GMT

sometimes i just hate
everything in the whole
world but one thing
to bad i cant always
have him

Fri, 12 Sep 2003 00:14:01 GMT

i didnt go to school today, i was uber sick. its really hot. ECK tommorow im going to arizona call me if u wanna hang out. ( THAts u emily and r.j)

yum

Sun, 07 Sep 2003 03:00:09 GMT

i saw my hubby today! oh my god i love him so much. we got married, it was cute i wore a pretty dress and then we got married. i love him and miss him i wish he was still here, BUT i will see him tommrow YAY!!

Sun, 24 Aug 2003 19:00:01 GMT

hmm
yesterday was ok got really shit-faced.
but today i talked to my hubby i miss him.
i love him.
school starts soon.

it is only after you have lost everything are you free to do anything

Wed, 20 Aug 2003 03:15:04 GMT

school starts next monday and i'm really not looking forward to it. i don't have any friends, well i take that back i have friend but i don't know if there friends or just people i know. Most of them just want to get fucked up all the time and don't get me wrong i do too but there just stupid about it and they think we are so cool cause all we do is drink and smoke and put stuff in our noses but we are actually really stupid.And there is only one other person who i really want to hang out with but i'm not aloud to because hes a "hoodlum" so i should stay away.i'm really sick of a lot of things and a lot of people. it makes me hate myself that the one thing i'm looking forward to is September 6th, and that i'm so obsessed with that day and him and hes all i can think about but i'm stuck here in maine and the only kids here my age are stupid guys who think every girl a whore like the girls in this town and think its ok to grab my ass. well fuck them and fuck this and fuck everything.