Its been awhile, so I figured I'd update and read, and all that great shoit.

I'm bored. We just got home from my aunt's house, so that was fun. I guess Katy and Davey finally moved into my grandma's old trailer house.

I don't know if its just me, but as I am now livin' in a trailer, I don't think my dream life style after moving out of my parent's house would be to get a trailer right next to the one I basically grew up in. I mean, I know its convient with Katy and Ashley both being pregnant, and stuff, but wouldn't you get sick of it? You're basically moving right back home, right where you started and tried so hard to get away from.

But yeah, I just thought I'd say that.

Anyways, I think that everyone is being really harsh on my grandma. I mean, have you ever thought that maybe she's having problems letting go of a life; of a home she once felt comfortable living in? I know I would. I mean, its not like its sudden, but its a big change. Goin' from a "spacious" trailer, to a tiny ass, room for one apartment, in a whole new town, away from the places you felt comfortable in. How could you even think it could be that easy. The only reason its easy for Katy and Davey, is because they are moving out of Davey's dad's house. Its easy to leave a place where you're not wanted, but to leave a place that held comfort.. Would be much harder.

But I guess everything is going to work out, for better or for worse, in the end.

So today, I spent the majority, sitting on my ass, talking on the phone, and going shopping. It was quite lame. It was Erin, James, and me. We went to St. Cloud to get Erin a choir dress, for her upcoming choir concert. Its cute, but you know, that was basically all we went there for. Why I even bothered coming along, I don't know. Erin needed a dress, James needed some track shoes, and I just wanted to go shopping. But of course, all fun is cut short by Erin and her controlling fuck of a boyfriend. I swear, the more they go out, the more I want them to break up, the more I feel bad for hoping that soon, they do. Now, I didn't give her straight foreward advice on the matter, when deciding whether to date DJ or Ben, but I wish I had. I wish I had told her, DJ would be better, although I despise him. He is alot better than Ben. Ben is.. controlling. Here are just some of the "rules" (I guess that's what you would call them..) that Erin has to follow.

1) No wearing skirts.
2) No talking to other guys; even friends from elementary.
3) No cussing.
4) No turning off your (as in Erin's) cell phone.
5) No clicking over in the middle of the their conversations; even if it is your dad.
6) No making him (as in Ben) look bad to others.

Oh, the list could go on, but I don't feel like typing all the things that are taking away the Erin I know, and morphing her into some slave. She follows his rules, and if she doesn't, she lies about them. Its an annoying cycle I'm sick of. If I was her, he would be so gone. How could you even want to be with someone who is stealing your idenity? He's taking away everything that makes her Erin. I'm sick of it. He doesn't like me, because I tell her how it SHOULD be. He got mad because she wears shorts in gym class. What the fuck is up with that? It really pisses me off. You know how many tears she's cried over that bastard? You know how many times he's dumped her and came back? And how many times she's let him? Its not even worth it.

He even told her that if she ended up pregnant, they probably wouldn't be together anymore. And yet, she continues to have sex with him..

And the sad thing is, I know she's stopped telling me things that he says or he does.. Or that she thinks about their relationship, because I always bad-mouth him. But if I was in that situation, I hope she'd try to make me see the light, to see that there are WAY better out there, and that he's obviously too controlling. She's too young to be mixed up with someone who wants to take over her life.

And the way I found out that she doesn't tell me anything anymore, is because last night, Erin needed some cigarettes, and her being underage and all that, wanted DJ to buy her some. Now, I don't mind DJ and shiot anymore, but its not nice to sit there for 10-20 minutes and be completely ignored; so ignored you have to call your own mother. Now, we were sitting here, and then DJ brought up Ben, and he said something about how James tells "him" (aka, James tells Shannon and then Shannon tells DJ) that Erin feels that Ben only comes over when he wants sex. And well, Erin got all pissed off and shit. And then we were talking, and I said something to the extent of "You know, if he told Shannon, he probably told Dani, too." And she's like "Dani already knows.." So it pretty much sounds like I'm the only one that didn't know. Considering I'm supposed to be her "best friend". I now know that the word best friends has limits. It doesn't mean I'll tell you everything; it means I'll tell you what I feel you should know, and save the rest for people are are "friends".

I don't know, everything pisses me off.

But I'm out.

<3 Britty.