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byebye "_elskan" ;x
new FRIENDS ONLY journal.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/__lovelock/
comment there, & if i choose to, i'll add ya.
shit's gonna get personal.
hope ya'll understand.
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| this shall be my last entry as "elskan". for i no longer deserve that name. |
[22 Jul 2004|12:15pm] |
Last night, i was a runway model... it was, awesome. i felt so... glamorous. everything was amazing, things were almost perfect... & then i remembered, my old definition of "amazing" and yeah.
but i wont get into that.
tomorrow im going with Eydís to see Fame.
http://www.fame.is
& tomorrow, my amma & brother leave.
haha god dammit.
allooonnnneeeee again. but now, completely.
what's new?
its Summer 2003 all over again.
just this time more "<|3"
ijustwantitbacktonormal.
iwanttofeelcompleted.
asdfghjklx23456789.
you know that place between asleep and awake..
the place where you still remember dreaming,
thats where i'll always love you...
thats where i'll be waiting.
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| 154: something to give up on. |
[18 Jul 2004|11:34pm] |
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so many things flying through my head.
so many new feelings that i cant even explain... too many.
y'know.
im not perfect. & i think it's about time for my family to know that.
stop expecting me to be something i never have been... kthx.
bc i try...
oh fuck it, its not even worth it.
at all.
i wont even get into it.
no one understands me anymore.
& jesus. i cant fully please ANYONE.
im losing everyone i love. in so many ways.
fuck livejournal.
im on hiatus, bitch.
ekki fuckin' meira.
no mas. NO MORE.
byebye
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| 153: 'cause i want it all. or nothing at all. |
[18 Jul 2004|11:19am] |
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So last night i went to sleep thinking about you. & woke up in the greatest mood, until i realized what i dreamt, was in fact JUST a dream. :'[
for like 5 minutes tho, things were back to normal, & in my dream we were happy. & i almost called you to just say the 3 words i've been waiting to hear for too long. im glad i didnt. ouch;[
So, today is a GORGEOUS day outside. & i'm going to take advantage of it.
im gonna head down to that biiiiiig park and lay in the sun... maybe write a bit... then im gonna go to the big church and look over the city, and then probably head to the pool:]
last night i watched the "sunset" for an hour out my window, the colors were undescribable... pink, blue, purple, orange... i mean, WOW... its the things like that, that too many people take so much for granted. i wrote a bit while watching it, and i think what i wrote turned out pretty good.
motivation is key.
& lately i have a lot.
today has to be the start of it all.
today it must begin.
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| 152: æji |
[18 Jul 2004|12:23am] |
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ó ó ó ó ó ó.
& so, tomorrow it all begins :]
.... :/
i think i can, i think i can, i think i can...
it worked for the little engine that could;[
gahhhh.
no one understands.
& i mean no one.
inhale, exhale, inhale... stop...
asdfghjkl.
i hope this is the best idea.
because it honestly feels like the worst.
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| 151: stolennnn from erin<3 |
[16 Jul 2004|11:53pm] |
1. Go to my user info
2. Pick someone (not yourself) who is on MY friends list (not that has added me.)
3. Comment with their username (put their name in the comment)
4. & I will tell you about them.
yay!
do it or ill delete you.
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| 150: oh yay<3 |
[16 Jul 2004|11:42pm] |
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kilik says:
you're the only person i know of, as in right now, that can explain herself clearly... self expression, to me at least, is huge....and i guess its just attributes about myself that click with yours... but i can sense sincerity.
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| 149: 9months |
[16 Jul 2004|12:56pm] |
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Happy, happy "day that would have been".
And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once?
before we felt loss for the first time?
And as he faced the sun he cast no shadow.
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| 148: Survey says. |
[15 Jul 2004|11:20am] |
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What is your birthday?
August 4th
What is your place of birth?
hospital
Do you have pets?
nope ;x
What is your favorite color?
Black!
What is your lucky number?
6
What is your favorite food?
mmmm pizza, or chinese
What is you favorite hobby?
singinggg & shopping... aaand i love watching movies. but i hate going to movies unless someone buys me a green popsicle at intermission, without me asking.
Are you naughty or nice?
depends:]
What is your dream job?
To be on Broadway.
What is your alter ego?
I don't have one.
What is your super power?
getting what i want, when i want it ;x
What place would you most like to visit?
Australia, England, Italy & Paris.
What are your favorite clothes to wear?
mmmm Pajamas:] nooo wait, BOYCUT UNDIESSS<3
What do you sleep in?
it really depends on the situation.
Do you believe in life on other planets?
pshh yeah, not like, little green men.. but yeah life.
What are some good diet tips?
dont eat bullshit food.
What is your favorite restaurant?
American Style, & TGI Fridays. take me to dinner at friday's and you will win my heart for life.
What flavor fits you best?
sweet & sour
What is the quickest way to your heart?
there is no "quick way" - im a complicated gal.
What sign are you?
Yield & proceed with caution.
Are you romantic?
oh god, yes... very very much so.
What is the key to happiness?
freedom & the ability to feel.
If you could be any animal what would it be?
a lion or a tiger.
What is the cheesiest pick up line someone has ever tried on you?
oh god. seriously tho... i cant even pick ONE.
What do you for fun?
rock steady.
What are your plans for the future?
total world domination.
What's your theme song?
The smurfs!: la-la - la-la-la-la - la-la-la-la-la
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| 147: *siiigh* |
[14 Jul 2004|11:42pm] |
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I’m inside, I’m outside
I’m with you, without you
Don’t love me, don’t leave me
Don’t trust me, believe
Embrace me, release me
Deny me, then feed me
I’ll own you, then lose you
So distant, so near me
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| 146: ANSY; this post is screaming for your opinion. |
[14 Jul 2004|10:35am] |
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sometimes i ask myself, in 10 years, wherever i may be...
will anyone whos life i've been in, remember me? will anyone who i've dated, who i've helped, who i've talked to or who i've befriended, remember me?
is there anything worth remembering?
i'd like to think so.
i love doing for other people, but i love getting in return as well.
Sometimes i get this feeling that i'm here for a reason. Here, being Iceland... maybe its to succeed in school and continue my career successfully... so i can support my family... bc i don't plan on depending on the man.
Maybe it's to meet a guy, fall madly in love and start a life eventually...
who knows...
a very wise friend said to me yesterday:
"what if we were robots? happiness wouldn't even be a part of our lives, and therefore not sorrow. You can't feel good... if you can't feel bad."
it honestly stands true.
Not everything is always rainbows and butterflies. You have to feel the equivelant of both emotions in order to fully grasp the meaning of either one.
is happiness,
waking up to the sound of the rain,
wrapped up in your lovers arms?
is happiness,
waking up to soft kisses on your forhead
in the wee hours of the night? [God... yes.]
is happiness,
driving with no destination,
singing your heart out to your favorite song?
is happiness,
sitting around with a few good friends,
laughing and just having a good time?
is happiness,
being in love & learning how to feel?
i love to think so.
but you see with each one of these things, anything can go wrong. bc nothing is perfect, and it's all in how you play your cards. if something were to go wrong, that, indeed would most likely flip the situation and have your emotions do a turn.
you gotta take the bad, to get the good.
& when you open your mind, and close your heart... dealing with things: such as a break up, can be 'easy'.
dealing with the fact that you will never get what you had back again... ever.
now, that is the hard part.
bc i did it once, by coming to iceland... & it took a while.
but you know, fate works in mysterious ways, and i should seriously have something good comin' at me...
& until then, i will just have to take my "bad" with a grain of salt, smile it off, and LIVE.
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| 143: i love you. 143. |
[13 Jul 2004|11:21am] |
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attention everyone: no, i am not over my ex boyfriend.
thank you.
So yesterday turned into a flop. I stayed home with 3 invites out. im so pimp. haha sure.
But maybe tonight things will change. who knows. things apparently do change.
last night i played with one of the things árni brought me from Denmark.
best thing ever invented.
kinda the same thing as a stress ball. mmmm.
release the tension! ;x
i woke up at about 6 this morning, completely refreshed and just layed around & read... i ate some yogurt+granola, took a long bath in the jacuzzi-tub, did my feets, and then came on here.
only to have ruined my day yet again.
i hate the internet & ironically i hate livejournal.
called 80s at 12am bc its her birthday.
I LOVE YOU EYDÍS HULDA. & I SWEAR TO YOU WE WILL BE FRIENDS FOREVER.
don't eeeeeven worry.<3
yeahuh!
*sigh*
i want to wake up to kisses in the middle of the night.
that was my favorite thing... ever.
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| 142: Forgot thiiiis |
[12 Jul 2004|05:07pm] |
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Me & Dalíla @ a dance a few weeks ago:]
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| 141: aaaaaall aloooone |
[12 Jul 2004|04:28pm] |
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i got a new little bouncy chicken... bc i broke the other one... then when we left the mall, i realized... 'WHAT DO I NEED A NEW LITTLE CHICKEN FOR...' boo. change is hard.
i also got a blue clock, that matches the blue sæng that i was gonna put on árni's bed...
i don't even like blue... only him.
bah. who wants to buy a cloooock ;'[
mmmmmm got some clothes.
saw hott phone guy [R]- got something for my phone.
cute shoes. & hair stuff...
got hit on by an azn.
my amma got hit on and i think she has a date. w00!
örvarthegreat & his friend are "taking me out tonight" to eat or something... i'm really not so sure that i wanna go... might as well tho. bagh. asdfghjklpoiuytrewq...
ahhhhhhh it was so weird... i was at mmmm skífan buying yet another presant for 'him'... & i saw gíslitheslut's sister... ahhh she was like "hahahahaha hiiii-- i was like ohhh no ;x
she was always telling people that she wanted her brother to be with me, and i swear to god she tried to hook us up so many times. i was always like "I HAVE A BOOOOYFRIENDDD." doh doh doh.
My oh my i got a job. & it's up to me if i start in august or if i start in september... i dunno, im debating if i should just stay here... it seems the easiest way out. boOya! i ono.
ok i'm gonna go take a nap, now.
arto saari, the love of my life.
see you in my dreams... ahhh *drool* ;x
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| 140: My little brother snores :'] |
[10 Jul 2004|02:36pm] |
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ooooooomg ;x
i swear to you when my little brudder: Cody & amma ever leave me... i'll need a few shoulders to cry on ;[
This is the most amazing expierisdhfgkgnce of my life... i swear...
When my brother walked out of the terminal hole thing... it took me a while to realize it was him... he's getting bigger ;[ he's 11. Man, oh man... in my eyes i still see him as 8... gahh.
Then out came my amma... i swear to god, after hugging and kissing my brother over excessively... then seeing my amma... i almost collapsed. my knees got all jelly-like... asahdksdhf i love her more than life alone. She IS my everything. & i know im safe in saying so. She has NEVER let me down.<3
We left the airport & it was so funny to hear my Cody say "HOOOOOLY TAMOOOOLIE ITS SOOO COLD;[" hahaha awwwww<3
We drove to go see the condo that me and my amma are going to move to next spring, it's being built as we speak... MY GOD, its beautiful. :]
Then we headed to get fresh bread from the bakary:]
Then home to eat/nap...
MY BROTHER SNORES :']
When i woke up, my amma was standing over me and folding clothes... and i was like "AHHHH HI AMMA!%$&!%!" it was awesome that her face was the first i saw, & then Cody's...ahh<3
but when i sat up like, 15 minutes later, i realized there was like 832498734 things piled on top of me... PRESANTS. 3 pairs of shoes, 2 bras, 9 pairs of underwear, 3 shirts, 5 socks, a HELLO FUCKING KITTY WATCH, cameras, and a little notebook... oooomg then i RAN down stairs and told my amma how amazing she is, and how seeing her face when i woke up was the best feeling in the world. She got so happy.
Now, i'm gonna go drive around with my brother, and then we're going to see a geysir:]
& tonight we're sleeping at the summer house.
nothing, and i mean NOTHING can bring me down...;D
oh... yeah... & i miss you:/
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| 139: Pix as promised:] |
[09 Jul 2004|03:48pm] |
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( Mixture of Pictures<3 )
& now i'm off to Reykjavík for 2 weeks... but do not fret my lj addicts. i'll post daily. & i'll have pics galore when i return<3
i'm such a happy girl<3 ;D
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| 138: Attn: EL GAY addicts: read my SHIT. |
[08 Jul 2004|08:04pm] |
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WoO>@!&$%!!
Tomorrow i leave for Reykjavík, for 2 weeks... HALLELUJAH. For serious... ;D
My amma & brother are gonna be here on Saturday & i'm too excited for words, i'm gonna spend so much time with my little brother, he's gonna be so sick of me... haha awww he wants to go on a "polar bear hunt"<3
The guys are back from Denmark & bearing stories & gifts, at that!
Hjalti got a tattoo, i like it a lot... tho, at first i thought it was a man ;x but it's a Raven, or something... tré chic.
oh, i crashed my car & it costed like a grand to fix it... but my dad paid... i'm lucky there... he just feels bad bc of things he said. ;x
Mom's back in jail... long story as to why. But it's better that i know where she is, than just having to assume... i mean for all i knew the past month she could have been dead in a gutter... Good thing i never assume the worst, right? hah.
My polish friends at work sprayed me with water bc i told them i was leaving to rvk... mmmm it was cold. & i drew hearts on radek's pants :]
KRISTINN WENT ON A HORSE ADVENTURE. Awwww nuts ;[
i'm really excited to start school, meet new people & such... This is the time when i'm going to love being outspoken/outgoing/outofmymind... i make friends in a snap. KAPoOoOF!
i had fun with Sólrún at work... she's such a doll, for reals. hahaha we're the coolest. "oh pfft. she put her hand in my puke." ;x
Metallica OWNED my motherfucking socks.
i'm serious dude. i was in awe.
ALICIA MCCLUSKEY; I WAS GOING TO USE YOUR DAD'S NAME TO GET BACKSTAGE.
bc if i remember anything, it's that your dad went to school with james. muahaha.
but it was too fucking hott.
18,000 ppl & NO AIR CONDITIONING. i sweated ;[
i shopped a lot in Rvk & saw a bunch of people i knew... +ovhpp! [R]
mmmmmmm that's all that's new:]
ooooooo i have pictures... i'll upload and post tomorrow... how's that sound?
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| 137: Yeah. |
[06 Jul 2004|10:11pm] |
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since when did 'common sense' become so uncommon?
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| 136: d0rkz>! fucking technology, man. |
[01 Jul 2004|11:12pm] |
http://www.roskilde-festival.dk
So, Árni calls me... from Denmark just now & tells me to go to this site & there, i can see him, Jónas & Hjalti on Webcam... it was kinda weird... & it kept scrambling... but i managed to get this pic... & Hjalti is the only one that looks like himself in it.
HO WELL.
i'm going to Reykjavík tomorrow, for like 3 days... Metallica concert on Sunday, compliments of my dad... & bikini shopping will ensue.
i wanna get a piercing but i don't know where.
so that shall wait.
not much to update about, i've been in a really good mood lately, tho, & i really prefer to smile.
all the smallest things are making me happy, & i'm not as homesick as i've been before... :]
these past few days have just been emotionally easy & flew by.
+ kristinn got me "wicked" [the book] bc he's a great friend & knows [VERY WELL] how much i am infatuated by the concept/musical/whathaveyou.
so i'm gonna go to bed & read that, get a good nights rest & drive tomorrow... for like 4 hours :[
happyhappyhappyhappydaaaay!>@/%/&#!
aww:]
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| 135: ...& they lived.....ever after... |
[27 Jun 2004|12:42pm] |
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Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.
oh how true it is.
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