I'm free as a bird now

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 03:42:23 GMT

Goodbye to the most beautiful yet heinous 2 years of my life.
I really loved you. I did. I do and always will.
goodbye.

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 00:29:01 GMT

A correction is a change
A change is an alteration
But a change or correction
is not always the right answer.

mg.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 05:46:42 GMT

This just now how I planned anything going. I am so confused and I wish I still had somebody ..anybody. I don't know how much longer I can hold on to anything anymore.I have no control over my life and it is scary. I just want everything to slow down..make it go away.
I need help.

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 05:39:31 GMT

"look at you. you're wasting away you practically weigh nothing."

nothing will ever get better, I am a big, empty weightless mass of nothingness.
Simply nothing more than the air that we breathe.

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 04:15:03 GMT

I'm fucking up. drinking my days away everyday god help mre

goodbey live journal.

Mon, 22 May 2006 14:38:57 GMT

hi sammy doodle !
you are in school.
steph is in bed complaining
(about her back.)
i am here.
at your computer.
not in school.
(but what else is new.)
i just stole that little black toy gun you kill people with.
i knew it was here somewhere!
i'm glad i found it.
i need it for the film project i should have started two weeks ago.
ok i'm leaving.
leaving your computer
leaving your house.
but deffinately not going to school.
i havent seen you in two days.
i pretty much miss you.

with all the love in the whole wide world
-CHANNAH!

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 02:53:01 GMT

my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.

I've given up trying to comunicate with people through this thing. It's mostly for my personal use now. I'd turn it into a private journal, but I just need to know that this it out there; something's reading it. I think I really need that. just knowing somebody out there gives a shit. things are changing right before my eyes.. I'm so violently happy and sad at the same time I feel like the two opposites will counteract and I could very well explode. I've been changing so much, although I don't want to admit it, I have to remember not to lose sight of who I am. I am so fucking depressed and I've been dropping weight like crazy..not to mention hair..I find it disgusting how I find pleasure in this. I constantly feel like I deserve the pain that I'm actaully happy with what's happening to me.
I really need more people to talk to. School's okay, I mostly keep to myself..but I think it's this way for a reason. or maybe it's that I don't give people a chance.. I always try to see the best in most people and examine every aspect of them and find the qualities that I find appealing. but lately anyone that I find intersting turns out to be a bad seed. but not to worry. I've got a couple of the most important people to me very close and precious. I love my boyfriend to an insane amount, despite the rough times I know he's always there for me and I know he loves me unconditionally; no second thoughts. He understands me so well, I never though anyone could ever understand me like that. He is so unique and just.. always there. I can honestly say that if we were to break up [hypothetically speaking, of course] , I can walk away knowing that I've learned THAT much more..
I really hope the summer goes well. I really need it. So much has happened this year, I can't even keep my head on straight. between the rough times between mathieu and I and my fucked up family situations I don't know how I would have made it out alive without you&you.
I barely made it..
but at least I can say I did;
and I'm perfectly happy and sad about that.

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 22:01:15 GMT

dear _eatapeach,

I love you so much, best friend.

love,
ihopeyoufeelit

Mon, 16 May 2005 02:33:31 GMT