| Monday, April 28th, 2008 |
| 9:09 pm |
Sleep Training
Grace is now 4 months old. It is hard to believe that she hasn't always been with us. She is doing great and growing so quickly. She has been sleeping through the night beginning at around 8 weeks, but napping has been serious problem and not done independently. We brought Grace in for her 4 month visit with pediatrician last week and were given the order to "Ferberize" her. Oy! We started last night and as we expected the night time portion of this sleep training has not been too bad, but the training to get her napping in her crib is enough to make me want to start drinking heavily. SJ is home with us for the next few days so he is good support for this. I need support to not sabotage this. It is tough, when we are letting her "cry it out," it feels a lot like having your heart repeatedly ripped out through your ass. Supposedly this should take about 3 days - 5 at worst. We'll see. Updated picture of the munchkin below!  Current Mood:  optimistic |
| Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008 |
| 4:10 pm |
Welcome Baby --- delayed welcome but welcome all the same.
Welcome Grace Elizabeth - Born 12/19/2007 - 8 lbs 4 1/2 oz - 20 inches
 I had been meaning to post something sooner but dang - being a parent is a lot of work so my internet time has been quite a bit limited :)
In other news - I am getting out for a beer tonight with MHG. Yippie skippy - been a while for me and as much as I am having fun being a Mom, I'm looking forward to getting out and having some fun. SJ is a little nervous to be home with the little one on his own, but he will do great and truly I will only be blocks away so he will be fine. Current Mood: happy |
| Tuesday, March 20th, 2007 |
| 6:46 am |
"I think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset.."
Another day. Another negative pregnancy test. I have to go through the motions this morning with the blood test, but my home test this morning was negative. Actually both home tests I took this morning were negative. I. Am. Incredibly. Sad.
I put parents into communication blackout yesterday because I knew everyone was "thinking of me" and knowing that my patience with this wait was about spent and I just didn't want to talk abou this stuff or rather didn't want to pointedly not talk about this. My Mom sent me a text message this morning to tell me she loves me and stuff like that. Well-intended, but damn - the message came to my phone at 5 AM. This means that every 6 minutes between 5 AM and 5:40 AM when I got up, the damn phone "beeped" to tell me that I had a new text message. Oy.
So - time for me to go dry my hair and get on with this day.
Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: Shelter from the Storm - Bob Dylan |
| Monday, February 19th, 2007 |
| 10:37 am |
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| Saturday, February 17th, 2007 |
| 9:44 am |
Waiting
Blood test on Monday to see if we are pregnant. I think I may go insane between now and then. I'm fairly confident that this is not our month for a positive, but we'll keep my disappointment in suspended animation and release it on Tuesday when we get our results. I'm trying to be more positive and upbeat about this but its hard. And if I get positive, then I stand to get knocked down. Dunno. I've been trying to pour my anxiety into the elliptical trainer at our gym. I'm hoping for distraction. GOOD distractions. In happy news we booked our trip to OBX. We are still trying to decide if we will do anything in July. It feels incredibly difficult to plan things while we are trying to get pregnant. I don't know how many more IUIs we will do before we kick things up a notch and go for IVF. I am tired of listening to myself think about this. I wonder if I will go crazy before I get pregnant?! Current Mood:  anxiousCurrent Music: Let the Mystery Be - David Burns & Natalie Merchant |
| Monday, January 15th, 2007 |
| 10:26 am |
The space between
Happy to enjoy the last holiday for me between now and Memorial Day. I have often wondered which is worse for my husband -- the end of our football season or the end of summer. I suppose the end of the football season is worse because at least at the end of summer, the football season is beginning. This period between our last game and May when our pool opens somehow feel empty. Time to get back to the gym, time to get back to getting our house in order, time to return to everday things. It will be about a month before SJ starts pressing me to make our vacation plans --- need that "something" on the horizon to look forward to... It was strange to leave the stadium on Saturday wondering if it would be my last game for a year or two --- our hope is certainly that I will be very pregnant by the opening of next year's season.... time will tell, I suppose. No news for now, friends.
Good things are ahead though. I feel certain. Today I will shop with MHG so good things for today could mean a tasty lunch and a trip to Macy's. I'll take it :)
Current Mood:  hopefulCurrent Music: The Lure of the Sea - Beautiful South |
| Monday, December 25th, 2006 |
| 11:30 am |
Spoiled
Santa brought me a Nikon D80 digital SLR camera with 18-135 mm lens. I don't deserve this, but I'm not sending it back.
I never knew what a big nerd I had become until I started farting around with cameras. I have been studying this camera online for months. Reading review after review --- saving some $ to one day buy this for myself. I practically squealed when I opened this last night and thanked SJ for this tremendous gift. I then proceeded to rattle on for nearly 30 minutes about image sensors and all sorts of other nonsense.
I don't know what to say. It rocks out hugely. Even when snapping picture, it makes the best noise --- my heart flutters. I'm in love.
If you are inviting me somewhere, I am probably bringing the camera.
Merry Christmas.
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| Saturday, December 9th, 2006 |
| 1:25 pm |
Another lazy Saturday. I took a free pass and skipped my cousin's girlfriend's 21st birthday party. This doesn't sound like it would be a big deal, but I feel we are still paying back wedding-obligations and attending stuff like this for that reason. It also would have been a good reason to go to see my other cousin who is recently engaged and visit my sick grandmother. But I took the pass --- now I need to make sure we use it wisely.
We went out to celebrate my brother's wife's birthday --- not the one who has TTTS. We had quite a nice dinner at McCormick & Schmick. Yum. My nieces are growing up. They were higher heels than me. And they can walk in them. I'm so proud. My sister-in-law received a spiffy new camera for her birthday and we ate until our sides hurt. It was fabulous. MHG, I'm sorry we didn't include you --- we thought of you and toasted to you and your dancing boots. I enjoyed her birthday dinner earlier this week and meeting some of her LJ friends that I've only read about on here. Fabulous dinners twice in one week. I'm so lucky.
We are going to brave the mall today. I'm really scared. I've done a lot of online shopping this year and I prefer to do the shopping in my pajamas and listen to my holiday music rather than brave mall warfare.
Ah well --- running out of time and my list is getting loger and longer.
I think I'm just about done with SJ though and feel very excited about that.
Well - I stink and need to do something about that soon. I'm feeling less psychotic today about the non-ovulation thing. I could write more on this but SJ is making fun of my disbelief in his wish to go to the mall. He is dressed and ready --- guess who is in PJs still?
Hmmm
More later.
Current Music: Whole Wide World - Wreckless Erik |
| Thursday, December 7th, 2006 |
| 10:39 pm |
Super
The results are in.
Not pregnant.
Didn't ovulate this month.
Suck. Suck. Suck.
I can say my husband is a good boy and offered to come meet me for lunch to hold my hand since I sounded like my world ended after I got my test results. I know I'm lucky that he is a good boy. I deserve goodness, but humbly I am grateful for him and his "goodness" --- perhaps even greedy that I want that much more in my life.
Now I will get to enter the world of "Fertility treatment" --- clomid coming soon to an infertile woman near you. Be afraid of me this holiday season as I will be a hormone depository.
Super.
Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: "Midnight Train to Georgia" - Gladys Knight & The Pips |
| Saturday, December 2nd, 2006 |
| 1:36 pm |
Sleeping in
My sister-in-law and babies are doing well post-surgery. There are some positive signs for both of the babies and sister-in-law was released from the hospital on Thursday and she goes back for evaluation on Monday and hopefully will then be released to her doctors in NY. Thank you for thoughts and prayers for her.
I am feeling very upbeat today. I think we can bank on me not having gotten pregnant this month which blows, but I guess I'll know for sure either way next week. I am trying to stay in a place where I look at a non-pregnancy month as another month where I am getting my body in shape to sustain a pregnancy. So far I'm down a total of 37 lbs since May which is pretty awesome if I do say so myself and which should help considerably with my ovulation problems. 'Tis the season of cookies and parties though --- my hope is that I can either lose 3 lbs between now and 1/1/07 OR just not gain any weight. But man do I like cookies. I'm trying to be a realist --- now is not likely to be my time where I establish a workout routine. I think everyone I know has a birthday in December so between holiday stuff and birthday stuff I don't see any opportunities for any consistency in a schedule.
I love Christmas. It hasn't been cold enough to feel like Christmas this week, but I'm still in my pajamas so not sure if there is any hope for today. Weather.com suggests it is probably warmer than I would like. Bummer. All the same, if SJ and I ever get showers, we are heading out to get a Christmas tree and some sort of wax ring for the toilet. I will spend the afternoon cursing at Christmas tree lights (it is a true Davis family tradition) and SJ will spend time resetting our toilet and cursing at how tiny our bathroom is for this project. I think we might even buy paint to paint our basement bathroom. Holy Moly. Let's not get too carried away. Oh wait --- I think he is sleeping. Damn.
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| 1:53 am |
Christmas
In case anyone on the planet doesn't know --- I totally love Christmas. and Prince. Just sayin'. Cookie day is approximately 2 weeks away. Bring the noise! Current Mood:  naughtyCurrent Music: Cream = Prince |
| Saturday, November 11th, 2006 |
| 11:22 pm |
Dear Asshole
You walked into the party like you were walking onto a yacht
Your hat strategically dipped below one eye
Your scarf it was apricot
You had one eye on the mirror as you watched yourself gavotte
And all the girls dreamed that theyd be your partner
Theyd be your partner, and...
Youre so vain, you probably think this song is about you
Youre so vain, Ill bet you think this song is about you
Dont you? dont you?
You had me several years ago when I was still quite naive
Well you said that we made such a pretty pair
And that you would never leave
But you gave away the things you loved and one of them was me
I had some dreams, they were clouds in my coffee
Clouds in my coffee, and...
I had some dreams they were clouds in my coffee
Clouds in my coffee, and...
Well I hear you went up to saratoga and your horse naturally won
Then you flew your lear jet up to nova scotia
To see the total eclipse of the sun
Well you're where you should be all the time
And when you're not youre with
Some underworld spy or the wife of a close friend
Wife of a close friend, and... |
| Monday, October 2nd, 2006 |
| 6:22 pm |
Okay
I had my surgery this morning and am home and okay. I am told that the surgery went flawlessly. Up until today I had never had general anesthesia so that was kinda unpleasant. I also found the fact that I had to be somewhere at 8 AM and could not have water or coffee or anything beyond midnight last night to be a sort of a torture. We arrived at the hospital and I was sent off to slip on booties and remove all clothing and change into the gowns and let them start me on IV fluids. Things happened pretty fast, I guess - or it seemed that way. They prepped a room for me and then brought me in put me on a table and told me they were going to start the anesthesia and then I woke up in the recovery room with severe abdominal cramping and the feeling that I could vomit or pee at any second but neither would happen. After a little while, they brought my Mom in and she was able to sit with me and they let me have some ginger ale and some water and then I was allowed to go home and they wheeled me out to the car in a wheelchair. My folks drove me home. I think I vomited immediately and then my Mom made me toast before I went to sleep. I think I slept for about 4 or 5 hours today after the surgery. Still pretty tired and achey, but I am glad the surgery is over. I am off work tomorrow as well - my doctor was insistent that I take tomorrow too because of the anesthesia. We have our next appointment on Thursday to talk about what happens next. The staff at GBMC's women's surgical suite were very good to me --- one of the nurses sat with me before my Mom could come in and held my hand and told me everything would be okay. I think strangers should do that for one another more often. Well - I think I need to find more food or definitely more to drink.... dry mouth. Current Mood: lethargicCurrent Music: Loves Me Like A Rock - Paul Simon |
| Tuesday, September 26th, 2006 |
| 7:13 am |
Coffee makes me happy. I know it may be the reason I don't jump.
Been toying with killing my LJ. I don't have a real or imagined public and that works for me. At the same time, I (mostly) refrain from writing about the trivial stuff of my day. Sometimes I feel like I used to have more to say ---- today I feel like maybe I only had about 7 things to say, and I could skate by if I could tell new and different people my 7 different things. I don't really know why I keep this going or rather why I don't just wipe this clean and evaporate into the ether.
My interest in LJ was initially born out of keeping tabs on certain people and LJ provided a litmus test for me of "How-is-X-doing-really?" Then there were other people I knew on here, followed by new people (to share those 7 things with...), and then my parents exploded and this provided a place to vent and work some things out, then people that were here that I knew but didn't know were here..... I suspect curiosity keeps me coming back.
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| Monday, September 25th, 2006 |
| 9:47 pm |
blah
Why don't we all just jump off a bridge and end it.
LJ suicide. It may be the only real answer.
Bored.
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| Sunday, September 24th, 2006 |
| 12:07 pm |
Sunday
I'm still in my pajamas. I have chocolate frosting on my elbow as I made cupcakes to bring to "the bar" for our away-game-tailgate. I don't think I will ever be the sort of girl who can make cupcakes without finding frosting in my hair, ears, elbows, ankle sometime later. No kinky inferences here --- I'm just sloppy as though it were an art form. Went to the apple farm yesterday with sister and nephew. It was spectacular. I love the way a fresh apple tastes like autumn in one crisp, tart bite. Current Mood:  mellowCurrent Music: Book of Love - Peter Gabriel |
| Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006 |
| 6:19 pm |
hmm
Work for me this summer has sucked. Not sure why exactly, but I feel like I have been hit with big project after big project. We planned our trip to Grand Cayman right on top of the OBX so the 2 1/2 weeks in between have so far been awful and are going to get worse - I see another night at work until 11 PM in my future - at least one. But then - hey, I'm in this mess because I am going on vacation for 2 weeks in a month - yeah, I'll quit whining. Waiting for Steve to come home. We were going to go to the pool but he got stuck at work and it didn't mean enough to me to leave the air conditioning. I probably should be doing anything but sitting here typing away. Oh well. Hoping that things will come together so the family can all go to OBX, but I think we are a few days from knowing how that will really shake out. I am wishing good things for everyone. I'm out of things to say. I don't even know why I have this LJ.... I am going to go do one of the 700 things I should be doing. Current Mood:  apatheticCurrent Music: It's All Been Done - Barenaked Ladies |
| Saturday, July 15th, 2006 |
| 12:27 pm |
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| Thursday, February 16th, 2006 |
| 12:34 pm |
Lost
I have not totally disappeared off of the face of the earth and I'm not stuck in a world of cranky - I've just been immensely busy at work as I transition into a new position and so I have far less time for farting around at work. By the time I get home, I cease to feel friendly. If you are someone who I owe a phone call to or who I should have had dinner with three weeks ago, or who I should otherwise be seeing more of, I apologize. Current Mood:  busyCurrent Music: Something by Ryan Adams |
| Wednesday, January 18th, 2006 |
| 9:42 am |
Cranky
I am cranky today. Cranky. Cranky. Cranky. Current Mood:  crankyCurrent Music: Mr. Brightside (Acoustic) - The Killers |
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