she's bittersweet

:D

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 15:25:21 GMT

jocelyn,

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 16:37:39 GMT

everybody wishes you were dead. won't you just die right now?

you've done so much damage.

the sun is falling &the shadows come, fill your world with emptiness.

why?

because you're nothing.

it's always been this way.

fellerina my ballerina!

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 14:26:57 GMT

happy birthday pok!

my little baby grow up alr ah! ahahahaha (not you tong, tong still baby)

hahahaha anyway poor pokky, cannot eat meat today, or ice cream or chocolate, but nvm, tmr can right? we'll celebrate your birthday some other time and i owe you cheapo chocolate, but i already gave you toblerone! ahahaha :D

hope you grow tall and fat :D

lalalalaaaa

happy birthday to pok, you were born to talk cock, & your exdarling is ah mok! happy birthday you pok!

hahahahahaha what a nice song right? :D

OBS!

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 13:55:56 GMT

HELLO! :D

i am super late!!! but i don't care! everybody's had like millions of posts about obs and i haven't had one.

anyway this is gonna be boring cos i DONT HAVE PHOTOS.

i miss obs like crazy, i miss armstrong <3 and i miss dee, i miss hiking around with the stupid heavy backpack and the killer groundsheet, i miss kayaking into the rocks with naomi, i miss shufeng shouting at random dogs, i miss dee's lies, i miss sheila telling me random things, i miss screaming at bees, i miss pitching tents, i miss eating milo powder, i miss waking up millions of times at night, i miss sleeping in tents by the beachfront, i miss jumping into the sea, i miss laughing at cousteau's burnt rice, i miss missing everybody and i miss a million things to do with obs.

we never got to do a height activity ):

&dee was a great instructor, he always tried so hard to make us happy even if it didn't make him happy, he tolerated our nonsense and we hurt him & "STABBED HIM THROUGH THE HEART, CUT SO DEEP" &he was still there for us and really taught us a lot of stuff.

jetty jump was WON-DER-FUL (:

ahhh yuechin scolded me for not blogging about obs HEHE

"ernie, don't be scared!"

i wish i could do obs all over again <3

okay everyone's blogged so much about obs hahaha

src has started! :D played against mgs, we won 14-1. only played 2&a half innings though. i made two hits! so i'm quite happy. and my pitching is so stupid now hahaha but oh well..

went shopping alot recently, bought a lot of crap and now my mommy says i can't buy shirts for a long time! ): ahahaha

when the night falls on you &you don't know what to do nothing you confess can make me love you less/I'LL STAND BY YOU!

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 14:59:51 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNIE!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 15:26:50 GMT

i really want to die.

shotgun seranade.

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 14:52:09 GMT

it's like a neutron bomb explosion tearing me apart

it's only been a minute yet it feels like a year,

so how am i going to live now.

theres nothing worth living for anymore.

dreams we have as kids all fade away now its not the same.

i'm a goddess!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 13:35:55 GMT

<td align="center"> jocelyn --
[adjective]:

Visually addictive

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

& here;

<td align="center"> goddess --
[adjective]:

Visually addictive

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

jocelyn = visually addictive
goddess = visually addictive
jocelyn = goddess! xD

of course, this is all crap.

haha.

ronnie.

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 14:36:08 GMT

just thought i'd make a little shout out to ronnie.

hey ronnie,

i'm so proud of you for finally becoming a councillor. how're the sleeves?
see the ducky cap. i specially added that picture because i have a ducky cap too.
i miss having you in my class ):
pleaseee run for president of nysc next year
i think you should take walking lessons from n.ong too
i could give you etiquette lessons too.
anyway, you're so clever. we're supposed to grow up and run a law firm together.
now i'll never be as good as you ):
you even started a modelling career before me;
you advertised for ny in aunty's blog

hey all you people! are YOU interested in NYGH?

look at our clocktower, the symbol of our resilience and strength! (couldn't think of anything)

there's even a special photo spot that you can pose at to capture your wonderful experiences here!

look at our nanyang girl! rest assured, you wouldn't look like that when you come to nanyang!

isn't nanyang cool?

i also found THIS:

haha ronnie fanclub.

[*all credits to aunty]

hahaha
anyway.
i'm happy for you (:
even though i'm pretty upset now.
but i'm happy for you.
my ronnie doudou (:
i just remembered you & your no dou no apple.
and you lame antics
and how perverse you were in p6 and sec1
but oh well ):
you were supposed to go to ib with me ):
i remember last time we used to say,
'the day ronnie becomes a councillor i think the school will close down!'
well i take that back now (:
you'll make a wonderful councillor
we all support you ronnie!
my bestie bestest friendly friendie friend <3

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 15:50:12 GMT

just look for the girl with the broken smile
and perhaps someday you'll finally understand what i'm saying.

(it's you i can't forget)

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 13:31:35 GMT

hello we played against aes today and we won 25-2 but that's because we only played 3 innings.

it rained like mad and the ball was wet haha i was so sad! i cannot pitch.

but i'm happy because i made 4 hits out of 4 times at bat! i think this is like the first time i've gotten 1.0% for my batting hehehe yay! other than the times when i kept getting walks or er only one time at bat that sort. yay! they were all tyco hits. but anyway i think our batting today was not bad so yay (: naomi made a really good hit! should've been more than just a two base hit if not for the stupid ground rules.

we made quite a lot of silly errors, but we'll work on that. missed an easy grounder ahhhh i need to practice my grounders ):

its funny how i keep having such silly mood swings.

i really feel like talking to you. its been quite a while..

you know, i should really start thinking about everyone else around me. instead of just me. im so selfish i can't stand it. everyone else is more important anyway and i mean it, i dont want people to get upset because of stupid things i do anymore. i'll try.

i keep having these weird mood swings like im happy one moment and then im suddenly upset again. one moment im hyper and the next i'm completely drained.

on a brighter note, i am sitting with neenee again. (: that's good.

and i'm waiting waiting for you, have you forgotten me? wouldn't it be nice if i could just forget you too, it would've made everything so much easier.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 14:04:16 GMT

or like the ahlians will say (according to aunty), HAPPY VANSTINE DAY!

hahahahaha (: i got lots of chocolates and a present from my pigs! :D thanks!

you know, i suddenly remembered about SUAY CAR ;D (nysb inside joke) haha ahgua was like, i bet those people look suay lor! ahahaha :D

i miss cdiv :'(

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 15:47:28 GMT

haha we won 28-2 or something today :D against fajar. ahgua pitched great haha and i played right field whoopee. i've never played outfield before!

I HIT A HOMERUN!

yay my second one hahaha my first one was during the peicai match? yay yay so fun (:

oh and i spoilt my boots so i had to borrow chunhui's boots for the rest of the game and now my foot has blisters. my stupid boots, just had to spoil halfway through the game sheesh.

hmm olive is on the airplane now i think how unfair i also want to go to america ): irritating pig smsed me and gloated about waiting in taiwan for transfer flight to LA.

oh yes we went shopping the other day and we bought everything except what we set out to buy HAHA :D

oooh i saw chewy with some guy at orchard you know! on sunday. SHEESH. so scary i shouted HAHA then i ran away cos i didn't want to see her. so sorry guys, no picture for you.

it's valentines day soon.

I'M TOO SEXY

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 15:53:37 GMT

HAHAHA HELLO!

olive and i want to go shopping and get combs and write, "I'M TOO SEXY FOR THIS COMB!" on it like aunty did for tkc last year, cos we just remembered the song and i think its such a cute idea! AND we want to get custom made shirts haha that says (guess what) "I'M TOO SEXY FOR THIS SHIRT!" ahaha isn't that cool! it'd be er self-designed ahahaha so special right! :D

olive thinks shes married to jon johnson and edison chen :\ she's practicing signatures! ahahaha MDM ZHU. haha stupid gay sonneh! she likes to imagine jon johnson naked omg.

training today was terrible, as usual. zones are coming up AHHHH need to buck up! stupid me.

haha i love desperate housewives :D

I MISS 211'05!!!! i can't believe i ever disliked it (at the start of last year) ahh! i miss everyone so much ): not that 312 isn't funky, we are! ahahaha i just miss eleven as well ): wouldn't it be nice if the whole gep could be in one big class.

i miss aunty and my pigs, and pirated barney and louise and claire, and liann and her spastic banana dance, i miss ness during irs and renee my financial advisor. i miss liza my P.I. and ninja bodyguard and the crazy things she always does, and nana the bigbig bimbo, sufie, cheeko ahma, fishie and michelle the fangirls, babysitter, annie, rachel, cherm, gloria, and alena my p4 classmate! i didn't miss anyone out did i? i hope not. the rest in my class now i don't miss la :D hahahaha too bad, in-law!

anyway, 211 was really funky and yeah i had fun last year!

valentines day is coming soon haha buy me flowers! :D

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 15:16:43 GMT

see my dog roy! :D he's so big now, and fat haha! but yay so cute.

i was thinking of maybe having a screening of brokeback mountain? for anyone who wants to watch. preferably at someone's house, maybe yuechin's, or worst come to worst, maybe the sac? when are you guys free, and does anyone want to watch it?!

this year's new year wasn't very interesting.

I REALLY WANT TO GO SHOPPING.

I LOOK SUPER DISGUSTING.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

LOSEWEIGHTLOSEWEIGHTLOSEWEIGHT!

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 15:27:27 GMT

haha i am pathetic .

we went to coach's house today! and played mahjong and blackjack and funny card games (that we didn't really know how to play anyway), and i kept losing! ): poh won like 20$.

i am unlucky and i am a jinx ):

i forgot what i wanted to blog about! i am losing my touch. not that i had any to begin with.

hmm. i have. brokeback mountain, if anyone's interested. i haven't watched it yet but i'll lend it out if the quality is decent.

i'm feeling so lethargic. and tired. it's only 1130.

headache.

my mind's a mess.

what's wrong with me,

i'm a mess.

happy cny to everyone.

[edit: MOOD SWING! I AM SO HAPPY NOW, I GOT MY PHONE BACK! I LOVE MY DADDY HAHAHA!]

nothing.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 06:14:22 GMT

sigh why does it always have to be like this.

afjaeoighiunv/tsghvsiuvhnaoifjva9t2q9r7v2u9tafas'sdklnviudmm;lafopajpm/

whatever.

(all the times we had together)

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 14:36:00 GMT

argh today sucked. everything sucked except lit lesson which was funFUN hahaha so spastic. i think lit is probably the most fun class that i have, because in elect lit we get to play games and do stupid things! not sure about pure lit i think they do deeper stuff and have debates haha. anyway i am class scribe for now sheesh i have no idea what to do.

oh we had to draw some funny thing for tamer&hawk, it was so stupid okay ahaha my group was fun! geraldine rosaline zoe and me. and in between our nonsense (like geraldine screaming that she can 'draw very nice gloves' ahahaha) we would once in a while, come up with something constructive then go back to talking about spastic things like the hawk courting the tamer hahaha spastic. & mdm-oehlers seems to encourage noise hahaha

anyway. i am so pist because my sim card is dead. really. it's like cancelled or something. so don't sms me. i'll tell you how i got it cancelled some other time, maybe. i'm so stupid. maybe i'll get another sim card in a few years time. argh.

sigh.

and my back has some problem and it really hurts a lot now, no idea why. it's killing me, as well as my knee and my ankle. sheesh i am so messed up.

training makes me sad. no, it really does. because i cannot pitch and i cannot bat or do anything at all. and it's even more depressing because coach seems to have such high hopes for me. and i'm afraid that i'm just not good enough, maybe i never will be. everybody else is improving so fast, they're all so great and i'm just falling behind.

oh i'm creating a new blog. but until it's up and going, well.yeah. haha. we'll stick to this for now.

chooi sucks. i'm going to flunk math.

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 15:18:10 GMT

there's so much on my mind right now i really cannot concentrate on anything that i'm trying to do. i want to talk about it but seems like you don't, so i should shut up right.

i am so freaking tired now because i haven't been sleeping well for the past few nights and well whatever it doesn't matter anyway huh. i always get myself upset.

to hell with tests and homework, i really can't be bothered right now.

wise words.

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 13:24:32 GMT

saw this in piggy's blog, i think it's very nice haha (:

do not marry a person that you know you can live with, only marry someone that you can't live without.

(the best things in life are free)

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 15:33:25 GMT

something very scary happened today and well i'm sick of talking about it (explained it to three people already) but anyway thanks to olive, ariel, beng and poh!

olive, thanks for squeezing past the crowd for me and also for running with me and letting me try to hide behind you even thought you're too thin for that to be possible..and also thanks for watching out for me and for staying with me at the mrt station (and missing two mrts) until ariel came (: nice ~~gay~~ sonneh!

ariel, thanks for coming all the way to city hall so that you can accompany me home (: and for waiting with me at the bus stop too. and for sitting next to the man hahahahaha i said it very loudly right oops. because he gave me this weird look hahaha.

beng and poh, thanks for listening and also thanks for cheering me up (: haha if anything happens i will call poh and put her on loudspeaker so she can scold him! and smack his head.

and if ahgua was there she would use aikido skills and also throw stones at him. okay no she will scold him, i think.

i'm so thankful for such great friends and teammates haha (: if not for you guys i wouldn't know what to do, if i were alone i would have been scared to death. i was only half scared to death and sorry olive for making you sprint the whole way haha.

you know, i am a terrible person. people around me are so nice to me but i'm so mean. so from now on, i will try to be nice. really, i'll try. but only if you're nice too. i'll even be nicer to calvin lee because he's so poor thing and we shouldn't bully him. same for tanbh. so 312, we shall try not to bully the teachers anymore, alright? most of 'em, anyway ;)

now that we've got each other, the best things in life are free

(nobody gonna take me higher)

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 15:09:02 GMT

haha cca concert and exhibition today! :D

be an all star!

i didn't manage to take photos of the exhibition/concert, actually. but nevermind i have some of us fooling around (:

check out their funky hair!

aww aren't they so spastically cute? stupid gay and ahgua.

BECAUSE THIS WAS TOO HILARIOUS. you should see her submarine sink, it lands you in fits of laughter hahaha!

the concert was alright, cept that the laptop was messed up! and we couldn't show our video ): and beng brought the wrong cd with weird songs haha and it couldn't play anyway. but i don't think it was too bad haha noelle made up for the delay quite well. anyway so yeah we made it through without a video, or any music! haha and it wasn't too bad. i got another abrasion from the diving ): and then we threw our gloves up in the air! yay.

i looooooovvveeeee the choir and band performances! :D my personal favourites! yay go ny choir haha!

oh we have quite a lot of potential juniors! (: so happy haha.

i'm taking future problem solving instead of irs this year because it seems more interesting anyway. anything to get out of irs!

312 board, proudly presented to you by jocelyn, charissa, elizabeth and everyone else who helped

:D

brad pitt!

they cut out a hand from another model and wanted to stick it at her unspeakables! ahaha it was so funny! :D

CENSORED! :D there was another one but i forgot to take a photo of it. because too much of her nice parts (according to cheeko) were showing, so laoshi made us cover it up! ahaha it was super amusing.

oh we were discussing potential kid names, and i pity olive's future kids if she has any! she wants to name them, josephinarelle, terappinarella, adeleee, abeleee (a belly!), areleee, ajeleee (a jelly!) ahahaha :D very funny!

laoshi wants to give us chocolates with alcohol so that we will get drunk and she can drag us and leave us outside the toilet :\ hahahaha

oh yes, my ipod has been revived!!!! FINALLY!!! after 5 days of stoning and lagging! :D

and i wanna change my layout ):

close to you!

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 14:39:06 GMT

hello (:

second day of school was okay! haha pretty boring, actually. my teachers are er weird hahahaha (: i'm sitting next to cheeko! that pervert. we got the geog and hist room tables! so there's a lot of space to throw our things around. gen is in my class! (: she's so cute and she's sitting way at the back, right behind me! ahahaha.

we decorated our board today, with a lot of models! laoshi was so excited. there's a hilarious picture that we censored haha actually quite a few. i shall take photos tomorrow! :D and guess who's among all the female models? BRAD PITT! ahahaha (: laoshi was complaining that they were too sexy then she cannot concentrate on teaching.

cca concert + exhibition tomorrow! ahahaha

i love choir's performance!!!! (: our school choir is AMAZING, it's heavenly! <3

on the day that you were born the angels got together and decided to create a dream come true! so they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue why do stars fall down from the sky every time you walk by? just like me, they long to be close to you!

band is also really good haha i love their songs! olive and i always dance along and everyone will laugh but i dont care it's so fun! we sway along to choir hehehehe (:

hmmm i got a nicenice letter from aunty today! (: yay thanks aunty!

i really miss 211 ): 312 isn't bad just that it's a really really small class but ohhwell.

LOUISE! are you reading this? do you still want your letter that i've been owing you since like term2 last year?! :D

what a happy day.

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 13:39:26 GMT

how can you be so cold its like you don't even care anymore.

two days into 2006 and i'm crying like mad and yeah i'm having the time of my life. not. just two days, and i already want to kill myself. so tell me how great 06 can be, will you?

(violence.)

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 07:15:48 GMT

yay i finally finished my commonwealth essay!

my topic is colours! and i only wrote about those two colours.

story idea from kkk! thanks (:

i wrote a love story! where they get married, the girl gets abused and she kills herself, using red to symbolize different things. i kept trying to stick to the topic but it's hard to HAHA i am going to fail!

suddenly thought of another storyline, which is about a blind man who can finally see, which would have been easier to write! but ohhwell i already finished mine so haha

okay i'm actually still not feeling very happy i don't know how i managed to type so happily so yeah whatever.

haha what's wrong with me.

my ipod is still spoilt.

i want to die.