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Wisdom teeth extractions, interesting 'first dates', muscular boys from Cape Elizabeth, and dream houses by the beach...My summer has yet to be interesting.
I turn 18 in 11 days.
I received a swell early gift...
Introducing....
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July 29th... the big day. Smoke me up. I'll be in Portland.
Oh yeah... and I bought my self a Mac Book.
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| Top 4 unnecessary ways the Dark Knight is being shoved down my throat: |
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4. Myspace
The least surprising but the most annoying. I don't want my computer to freeze over an advertising spot I can see every time I turn on a TV.
3. Azizisbored
It's Aziz Ansari's own personal blog and I can't be mad at him. But he's been posting at least one Dork Knight related thing a day for months.
2. Strictly Fitteds
Dark Knight related hats I understand, but they recently posted reviews of the movie etc.
1. The Sidney Crosby Show/The Pensblog
Give me a fucking break.
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[07.17.200811.19.p ] |
Ever since I realized I could use Google Reader at work I've added about a bajillion feeds and have been dedicated to reading as many articles as humanly possible in an effort to do the least amount of work at work as I can while I'm there. This one was by far the most intentionally hilarious:
Painfully white person Mike Toth 'sounds off' about Ray Emery's recent departure from the Ottawa Senators to the Russian Super Russian
League and has an inkling that it may have to do with race.
 "Many black people have their own distinct culture and when a guy like Emery walks into a dressing room with his flashy clothes and hip-hop spirit, some hockey people tend to raise their eyebrows."
Is this guy fucking retarded?
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| i still watch too much TV |
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Who looks at/hears this guy and thinks "That's who I want selling my product". My only explanation would be that John Shamwow Jr.'s brother-in-law is crashing on his couch and he's getting tired of him not getting job interviews.
EDIT: For every thousand or so homophobic/racist/ignorant Youtube comment there are about one or two that just warm my heart.
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| REAL UPDATE NO BULLETS |
[07.14.20084.43.p ] |
I'm officially turning into an old man (more specifically my dad). I go to bed early and wake up early (for me), shave my head/face and gurgle a mouthful or two of mouthwash even on days I don't plan on going anywhere or seeing anyone, wash my glasses every other hour, fucking hate driving anywhere, and utilize my days off by trying to get as unnecessary shit done as possible.
I forget what bullshit show/movie I saw/heard it on but I really need to utilize the whole "You need somewhere to go or something to do every day". What I'm doing isn't healthy. I want so badly to fuck around or drive around and just bullshit the day away but that has it's limits. I have been actively going to B&N to sit at one of the little tables and read a book I brought which is beyond purposeless but it gets me out of the house. That's like the beginning and end of the ways I can come up with to be "social" completely by myself.
I know I've said it about a billion times and only about a half billion were superficially but it really has been a really long time since I've felt anything at all whatsoever.
I have always put big significance on arbitrary events or series' of events but it's finally dawning on me that it's nothing but chemicals in my brain being released or whatever. Like listening to a certain album or being in the company of a certain group of people coupled with a certain nice bit of weather or an unwarranted good mood for the day usually creates something memorable or significant with no cohesive rhyme or reason. I've always fallen back on that, but now it's hitting me that that isn't anything. It's just chemicals popping off in the brain autonomously. Boozing was absolutely a means to try to harness that and make it happen all the time. But boozing turned ugly, then empty, then non-existent. That void takes a long time to fill up especially when you realize there's no one way to do it.
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I'm on some Schopenhauer shit yet again. Life really is "ill-adapted for any purpose other than suffering". The fact that he held this point of view from his adolescence into old age while basically living comfortably off of a substantial inheritance and never having a financial (and in effect: basic well-being i.e. food, shelter etc.) worry throughout his long life speaks volumes. I've taken the vacuity of life as read basically since I've been sober, but the fact that it is inherently unpleasant didn't occur to me for quite some time. This injection of something finite into the stratosphere of endless time is nothing short of cruel. Birth is the crime for which the course of your life is the punishment.
But I don't dwell on that I do my best to keep myself in denial of it. Not denial as self delusion but denial as active non-participation. Will Oldham summed it up pretty well.
Homeboy in the Fox Racing shirt is always going to be a better candidate for getting laid than me, the will to drink will never be absent from my life, and I will never be completely content. These are just facts.
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| oh how much of my life revolves around dvds |
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| dog days |
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Fuck:
- Baseball still existing.
- Mad TV not being canceled.
- Scrubs " "
- My female repelling alopecia'd head.
- All this free time.
- How low I almost have sunk.
- How many books I've started and not finished.
- The couple of shirts I've bought as motivators that still don't quite fit. (I may have lost 40+ lbs but I still look a twat in most large t-shirts.)
- The combination of the above and my 'pecia making me blow off about 5 hangouts this summer for the mere fact that I don't want to be seen. I can wear a hat but I'm still a tubster. I don't want to be seen by anyone I know until I have a neck like the dude from Justice.
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| whatever blowjob i'm not getting |
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Friday night age 12: Skating around the block listening to the Beastie Boys.
Friday night age 22: Skating around the block listening to Darkthrone.
The best part is that I've regressed.
Don't let anybody tell you sobriety doesn't kill your social life.
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[07.11.20089.15.p ] |
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I want to marry the girl from the Gotham Pizza commercial but other than that I don't want anything more to do with this batman than any other batman (i.e. watch fifteen minutes of it on FX in three years).
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| for angela |
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haha idk what to post about, whats up????
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| miss me |
[07.07.20087.14.p ] |
im back fuckkas!!! and im alive can you believe it. jk... but really i crashed me car yest, like a dumb ass.. enough about that. ramble ramble.. baby luv is about to be two in a month i can't even believe it it doesnt feel like it has really been that long. funny how time flies ain't it? there isnt a whole lot new with me.. i really want to move and get my life on the road. by this i mean i want to go somewhere with my life im tired of sitting still and making nothing of my life. so i am activly trying to move out... again... we will see how soon it happens seems how i crashed my fing car. by the way everyone is ok!! lil lil was in the car but is ok.. occasionaly she will say she freaked out in the car but thats about it oh and momma crashed her car lol didnt think a 2 year old would be giving me shit.. did you ? me either hahah.. how is everyone i miss you all so much! i am a crappy friend and i dont ever call or send e-mails.. i suck and i know it im sorry i will really try to wprk on it i just need to get all my shit in order you know how it goes! life is crazy i still never though that i would be 19 with a 2 year old. well shit here it is i love my kid soo much!! oh ant is still not a part of her life! he acted like he was going to try so we set up a time to meet and guess what fucker never showed! but what ever his loo, lilli is not missing out on anything..hmmn idk what else to ramble on.. oh i noticed that everyone i know (pritty much) has a kid now isnt that weir. so that doesnt give mne an excuse for not hanging out then does it.. but like i said i already know i suck.. yall know the number hit me up and we will hang i know have fri and sat off woo woo..
<3 stixx
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| my life |
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"In the shower's the only time you get your dick wet."
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