01:05 pm: art pimp and daily paranoia report
hello bleach list....Thank you, LJ, for not sending me any comment notices so two days had passed and I was struggling not to get paranoid about no reviews for my last IchiIshi but I went there to post this a.m. and there were a bunch. Whew. I'm so simple. I was getting in a bad mood today--headache, fever, general angst, but the reviews cheered me right up... piti...ful.
Now to pimp some art I've loved lately.
Kamumi Yamato's Bleach My Little Pony series...she's got em all... this is Hitsugaya Suffice it to say Sophie's wild about these.
Isn't this Jin ahhhhh? So simple and lickable
funniest most original Bleach fanart I think I've ever seen I have taught pale Artifice to spread his nets upon the morning Q, this one so does it for me.
This one so suits this week's chappie Lashon Hara, the wicked tongue. I'm chewing on mine in order not to say anything but isn't it odd--since the bleach_anon shishkabobbing of me, I've found myself wanting to say bitchy things I never thought of before. I mean, could you imagine the fall-out? The worst I did all last year was express my opinion about Bleach-related things (yaoi, ships, literary likelihood of plot) and that got me a mess of haters. Imagine if I actually said something bad about someone? Must be the hurt. Must be that all these mean people are hurt by something. It's the tit for tat, I suppose. I don't want to believe in Bitch Girl Hierarchy where girls kick other girls when they're down.
And I still can't get over the "infuriatingly sexist" remark on DA. I really need to call one of my old bra-burning friends. I mean, I was reading the Andrea Dworkin when these DA kids were in diapers. Now... that's one flamey thing that's actually cheered me up with its silliness. The rest--gadnabbit, I'm such a woos. :-(
Tags: fanart,
fandom insanity
"Could you imagine the fall-out?" Is this seriously all you worry about? Please don't tell me one of your biggest worries in your life is how people (re: other Bleach fans) perceive you on the internet, because that's ridiculous and so unnecessary. I'll tell you right now, your constant boohoo-ing and whining is grating on my nerves; I'm getting tired of sticking up for you. You need to stop playing the victim.
Some of your hardcore friends/fans will probably jump on me for this but seriously, enough is enough.
Yep, one of the things I seriously worry about. I DO worry about how I'm perceived. A Good Name, the Torah teaches, is the most precious prize.
I don't mind when people like you confront other people directly on the internet--that's your style, and it's honest. What I think is sick is the msh msh msh backbiting.
And yes I whine a lot. But yes, I was also a victim of bleach_anon--I didn''t do anything to deserve that. I let it get to me more than I should. But it was a crappy deal overall. And I'm not the only one who was very hurt.
Now you've got me paranoid about "sticking up" for me. Sure hope you're talking about when you've done it publicly and not bc people are STILL talking about me... which would make them even more pitiful than me.
Victimization is like uke-dom. It's a position and its an attitude. Like the time I had a knife held to my throat--position. I was freaked for weeks. If I'd developed a fear of knives, it's be a change in character--like adopting an uke attitude.
People REALLY need to know how much their internet words hurt other people,though. It's NOT talked about enough. In the past 4 years I've known 3 people sent to hospitals with anxiety/vomiting bc of stuff like this. Two teenage suicide attempts directly connected to some internet abuse. Now, you can argue these people were fucked up before and that may be true. But talking bad about people isn't an innocent pasttime. It's an active mean-ness and a .... fucking, if you will. The semes of the internet will never learn, though.
Well, I've known people who freaked for less--one flame or a plagarism or something. Four (five?) years of writing and those didn't get to me. I even talked nice with a plagarist and we got to be friends.
Maybe this was the final straw. I think it was a combination of things--one, all the personal attacks coinciding with losing a good internet friend. In any event, I'm trying to distance myself from it and do some reading on internet bullying. It's a really bizarre phenomenon and it seems to be growing along with bullying in schools.
hey lady, i'm glad to have found you on LJ :) i have been reading your stuff for a while on MM.org and you are one of my fav authors. your bleach stuff makes me melt! i checked out your website, and i was impressed with your art as well. anyhoo, just thought id say hi and that i added you as a friend, hope you dont mind :)
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