It's just conversation, we're not so compatible

Wed, 03 Sep 2003 18:37:31 GMT

okay guys, this journal is quite possibly no more, not sure yet. i have a more privater journal which is friends only so if you want too be added comment, and i'll think about it.
http://www.livejournal.com/~_forty3seconds

goddamnit who the fuck gives me 7L they should fucking be slapped motha fuckahs.

Tue, 02 Sep 2003 19:26:23 GMT

Homeroom 10 -- Neely, S -- 218
Period 1 --English 10 Honors -- Banerjee-Emanual -- 107
Period 2 --Phys Ed 10 -- Gyuricz, K -- Gym
Period 3 --Biology 1 Lab -- Montel, P -- T204
Biology 1 -- Montel, P -- 204
Period 4 --Fashion and Deisgn 1 -- Cassidy, M -- 300
Period 5 --Basic Geometry -- Pociask, J -- 414
Period 6 --US History 1 Honors -- Affros, S -- 404
Period 7 --Voice Class -- Demonic, B. -- 516
Period 8 --Spanish 2 -- Roman, S -- 431
7 L Lunch

my fucking schedule. if you have anything w/ me tell me i don't care who you are just tell me.

ahhhh

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 01:56:01 GMT

last day.
wonderful.
tomorrow i'm staying at snehas.
it's going to wicked!!! to the max.
we maybe going to philly. so if you kids wanna meet us up, tell.
uuhmmm. i met a new kid named scott today. he's uber rad. ♥
yeah. so. im trying to ignore the bad, so don't make a "im sorry about this" comment.
it's not needed.
i'm chill. so you should be too. AHHHHHHH. yeah.

....

Sat, 30 Aug 2003 17:10:57 GMT

haha. oh man oh man.

that's it.

done. forever.

this has quite possibly been the worst two weeks of my life. fuck. hahahahahahahahahaa.

ugh.

She, who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them...when they cry
She's maybe the love that cannot hope to last
May come to leap from shadows in the past
That I remember 'till the day I die

Easy Mother Fuckin' E.

Sat, 30 Aug 2003 00:07:48 GMT

new fucking livejournal. http://www.livejournal.com/~_dancewithme

i don't know anything about anything

Fri, 29 Aug 2003 18:08:37 GMT

okay. this is a major bitch and rant entry. they all are. so whatever.

boyfriend? hahahahahahaha. that's a major joke within itself.
i'm so sick of being second to his band.
so sick of it.
fuck your band. god this is the last time i'll see you before school starts and what do you say?!
"it's important" I UNDERSTAND YOUR FUCKING BANDS IMPORTANT BUT WE BARELY SEE EACH OTHER.
tomorrow was supposed to be absolutely perfect. but no you fuck it up cause YOU need to go to band practice. so fuck it. i don't know. i don't want to say i'm done with it, and not mean it.. but i'm starting to believe that i'm done with it. i can now see where your priorities are, and well, whatever.

a lot of people are telling me it was doomed to begin with.

maybe this is the beginning of the end?
or am i just overreacting.

either way, i'm hurt.

so fuck you relationships, fuck you boyfriend. fuck everyone.

Tue, 26 Aug 2003 03:55:34 GMT

grounded again.
so fuck that.
if you need me call 940-0741 but call before 9pm cause otherwise ill get killed by my mother.
fucking whore.

YEAH and uhmmmmmm i love johnny c. ♥
and jessika reiter.

and everyone else for that matter.

school soon, i'll see all you kids, or some of you then.

thomas i miss you.
and our mac and cheese.
with the green and pink icees.
you left a pair of pants at my house.
im wearing them.
im giving jess the teddy bear and comb you left too.
she loves you.
i love you.
we all do and miss you terribly.

And don't you cry tonight, there's a heaven above you baby.

Sun, 24 Aug 2003 19:51:39 GMT

I'm going to loose it.

If I loose one more person. I'm.. I'm going to go crazy.

Thomas.

Why?!

Everything was perfect.
Fine.
Perfection.

I'm cringeing as I write this.
I keep replaying that telephone call in my mind.

Jess, darling if you need anything, you have my number.
John, I just love you and I hope you're okay.

RIP THOMAS JADE
Forever in our hearts. ♥

okay kiddohs

Fri, 22 Aug 2003 21:04:43 GMT

fill this out for me and i promise i'll do the same for you. ♥

01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together:
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
06: name one thing you really don't like about me:
07: name one thing you really do like about me:
08: if you could give me a gift what would it be:
09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
10: have we ever hugged:
11: have we ever danced with each other:
12: have you ever seen me cry:
13: have i ever offended you:
14: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
15: what do i usually look like when you see me:
16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
18: do you think i am bitchy:
19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
20: what advice would you give me, in general:
21: wanna make out:
22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
23: is there a song that reminds you of me:

....

Thu, 21 Aug 2003 02:29:34 GMT

... the world just seems .. so not important.

My dad died.
his heart stopped.

so Daddy, wherever you are rest in peace

Barry Junior Ymer
1963-2003

ps. thanks to thom and gabbs and john. you three are totally fucking awesome and you guys are always there to listen to me when i need someone to talk too. gabbs hunny you fucking rule my world without a doubt, so thank you the most. i love you all to death.

it indeed is a wonderful life

Mon, 18 Aug 2003 09:35:54 GMT

the sunrise is beautiful.
and so is my life right now.
just everything is so peaceful.
so perfect.
wonderful.

ps. i love you, boyfriend. ♥

if you've got it, you've got it. if you dont then there's a pill.

Sun, 17 Aug 2003 13:50:15 GMT

so last night was pretty fucking hilarious.

sheena picked me up, and we drove the 45 minutes to john's house. when we got there johnny's dad.. hilarious. scared the shit out of me and i turned bright red. he kept calling me his daughter in law. yeah. imagine that. dropped by wawa and them two got cigs. then we drove out of.. what was like georgia ghetto to the place where chuck-e-cheese is. there is absolutely no ball pit, so we get up and leave. from there, we asked about a trillion people where princeton is, and finally we find out. we go there and after about 10 minutes of trying to find a parking spot we find out. we go to the p.r.e. and get there right before four minutes are up. i got les savy fav's rome written upside down. i like it. then we go get gas, and start to drive john home. unknowingly we get all the way to north brunswick [by regal] and realize oh wrong direction! so we turn around, and finally get him home. then sheena drops me off, and i come inside to get bitched at. oh well. im grounded for two weeks, but whatever. i had fun. i hung out with two amazing people. so it's cool.

now it's the a.m. and i'm dancing around my room to les savy fav, just because i can. alright kiddohs later.

whut?!

Thu, 14 Aug 2003 22:50:44 GMT

1: loveendshere,
2: bangbangbettie, -- old name
3: cheesetacular,
4: getyerhairdid,
5: hesper,
6: howrobotsdanse,
7: ibukilei,
8: inthemoshpit,
9: set_your_glory,
10: hot_sexy_mike,--mikebennet
11: aaroncaresnot,
12: grab_my_peen,
13: meagancaresalot,
14: self_amusing,
15: xborderlinecunt,
16: thursday_knight,
17: bobertgogurt,
18: isolated_souls, --sneha
19: maggz0rz, --maggie
20: m0rethanukn0,--kayt
21: murkythetrout,
22: pimppurple,
23: the_guestlist,
24: allshewrote,
25: draik,
26: enjoythenoise,
27: homies,
28: istheresplendor,
29: itscommon,
30: kaioflynn,
31: ohgemini,
32: iwontgrowup,
33: starpowr,
34: urbansoulfairy,
35: weezerchick7,
36: puresex,
37: uaintnomattcase, --mattcasey
38: the_shaikh,
39: cantbecalm,
40: instant_orgasm,
41: __paper___heart,
42: dead_emotion_,
43: 1910418,
44: _diemydarling,
45: _pillbox_tales,
46: _playtragic,
47: earlyinnovember,--jess's friend
48: mindless_ash,
49: rentablepenguin,
50: selenevsariadne

identify yourselves, niggz.

wah

Mon, 11 Aug 2003 04:04:29 GMT

hey kiddohs
im grounded.
for awhile.
so call me if i'm needed.
iloveyouall!
kthxbi.

ps. alli you were added
ps. ill add the rest of you kiddohs when im ungrounded

oh me

Tue, 29 Jul 2003 02:57:18 GMT

well i have the greatest friends in the world. seriously.
♥
I love you all. Seriously.

and it feels.. alright.

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 04:59:33 GMT

i wish everything was alright, but it's not. i really don't know anymore. i think i just need time to think about everything.

soi'mthinkingaboutthings

Mon, 21 Jul 2003 21:22:48 GMT

and i've come to the conclusion that certain songs spark certain memories. in example, "little league" by cap'n jazz spark the memory of me.. and someone else just laughing and talking the night away. and i listened to this song all the way to ohio, and i thought about the person that i talked on the phone too like prior to my trip and argh. .. it's weird. i'm listening to it now.. and i'm all like.. about to cry. why must people change? or why must anything change for that matter? everything.. i wish.. should just stay the same sometimes. how stupid am i sounding right about now? ugh. i've gone super lame. but that's okay.
heeeeee-eeeeey.. hey coffee eyes,
you got me coughin' up my cookie heart.
♥ ♥ ♥