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Wasting Another Post Away With My Mean Thoughts And Cheap Shots ;D

2008-07-28T21:05:38Z

My oh MY Oh Myyyyyy
Ive got like random shitters going through my head and i dont kno what to write about but i am wasting away some time so i am less hungry lol

First of all My dear friend and i talk about the honesty issue... and i feel her sooo much.. people think that the good and the bad are like good being ohhh so nice when they are just fake as fuck and then the bad being the worst people ever when it's all just honesty. Things have been bugging me about this issue SOO much right now.. and it doesnt seem to just leave my mind... Honesty is what people say they want.. but when it comes... they yell and scream at you and say how awful we are... i believe that true friends should be able to handle the truth... i am a total honest person... i say it... straight out... but i guess im the awful person?? i dont get it... shits fucking whack... im sorry but it is... I dont have many friends anymore.. the ones who get pissed off at me for being a BITCH or a SHIT TALKER has left. I tried to patch things up but it doesnt work.. i guess i was always the one thinking these people were my friends... but they arent... what a waste of time.. and i kno that once time passes by.. these people are gonna think things are okay.. but im not gonna even give it a chance... maybe i'll talk it out again.. but if they throw a fit then im done fa sho... i cannot handle being a true friend all the time to useless people. What have they done for me... im always the one making the effort... always there... but when i need some time to have my shit heard... those people who are selfish and shitty brush it off... seems like 80% of the people around me are so fucking selfish... i understand if you need to be at times... but why all the time? the fucking world doesnt revolve around you... it's sickening
Dont take advantage of me! im not stupid

Another thinggg
ive been trying to help out with my family a lot these days... its hard to be in the middle of everything but i cant run away from it. i see both sides but i guess these lil things teaches me about patience and really thinking out of things :]
but spending time with the fam is getting me a little bit more closer to putting fams in front... and it's hard to for me because of my past but im trying my best right now.

i have one more week of summer school and then a month off.. i am poor right now.. cant find a job since i'll have to quit in like a month lolll michelle and i have been doing some cheap as living right now! hahaha i used a del taco coupon and saved a facking dollar!! yaaaaa! tight tightttt
Anywho my month of sumer is gonna be..
Chillin with the Dmoney
Michelle Days..
San Deigo Zoo?
Karaoke?
Dinners?
Art Museum Days?
Movies?
Six Flags?
Damn.. all consists money hahaha argggg

Then i start my second year! im a sophomore and it's nice to be one. I feel like im right on track since a lot of people are still freshmen from the units and stuff which is no big deal to me just for my parents (BLAH)
But what i am looking forward to this Semester is meeting new people! im really gonna make the effort ot meet new people and try to go out and socialize more with new PEOPLE lol :]
Got Astro with the fellow North and High school friends... Then Art History with New friends from LB... Phyl. With Monica... And hopefully cool peeps in art!! :D

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Wells im out! LUNCH TIME!!!! YESSSSS

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4 Years FOOOOLS

2008-07-05T16:30:37Z

:] SSSSoooooo it's almost four years till i moved to the south bay and all i can say is im fucking happy that things turned out this way. every year i go back to la mirada and it's fucking sad cuz there seems to be nothing to do and the people tend to be going down hill. I dont kno man, as much as i complained in the beginning i am really appreciating it now more and more.

Sad to say that it's been quite a 4 years that i have been through but it made me grow up pretty fast and even tho it back fires at me with people over here. the ones i have really close to me is like more that i want. Non will ever reject or back stab me and they really accept me for who i am.

i think if i stayed where i was at 4 years ago, i would've dropped out of school, being a bum and just wasting my life away.

Now ive got minor connections and have that strength to get what i want. :] its a great feeling.

i kno this is a short post, but hey.. i dont think there is a need for a long one. haha

so here it is for me and 4 years of ups and downs... and here it is to the future

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ps. Fourth was Great This Year <3 Thanx Monica

Summer Of 08 Has JUST Begun!

2008-05-30T01:17:32Z

School ended last week! DAMN A WEEK AGO!!! lol
3A's and One C and probably a D in psych.. FUCK YOU PSYCH lol.... But 3 A's out of 5 is good.. we'll see how the parents react... :[

i have been bumming it like crazy tho! :]
sleep will noon and just eat and watch japanese dramas! read books! and all!

im reading a book called Haunted by the writer of fight club! it's pretty good! the first story was called GUTS and it was insane! but not too insane for me lol Michelle recommended the book to me! thank you! i'll see if i liek the other stories... but YA!

I got a hair cut/ trim today! it felt good! tomorrow Lunch with the D-money! and then Karaoke to vent my stress!!!!

I went on a Drive with Kei today to the beach! in his convertible! it was such a nice day! <3

Sunday i hope Six Flags! :] Need to Vent My Stress there too!

Anywho! I Have been dying to meet new people.. the people around me only party and drink.. it's getting pretty lame... so I Am on a mission to find new friends at ELCO this summer!

I hope to get a job too.. cuz i am about to rot at home.. BLAHHHHH :[

The other day Erin And I had band practice.. My neck still Hurts cuz i was the vocals lol... Karaoke is gonna be insane!

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Last sunday was FUNNNN went to Amoeba and bought Cd's!!! aaaaahhhhhhh Felt Goood! And Hung Out with My Crushy All Day!!, Bought me my favorite Ice creammmm and went down to Mel Rose :] <3

Parents Went To Vegas

2008-05-11T16:42:14Z

WOWHOOOOOOOOO my parents went off to vegas this morning!!! ahahhaha
Coming back Tuesday!

What a busy day! michelle will be here any minute! and then off study, run around to the art store and video store and what not.. then study more, then off to USC to go watch Druckers film i was in.. thennnn Bash at my house!!! <3

Finals coming up! lets cross our fingers!!! <3

Good Luck to everyone and

HAppy Mothers Day!!!

Just Whats Going On, Ya Kno?

2008-05-06T16:26:40Z

First off! i just got out of my enlgish class and finally i am intrested in reading poetry! so exciting cuz the author is charels bukowski! i think he's poems are really really intresting! my favvorite one from the book is so far, "sexpot" :D

Now that we arefinally learning about japanese art for the rest of the sem, im excited too! i come home all happy because everyday i learn something new! and it's really helping me out to think more about my culture and it is very important to me. we just learned about the GENJI MONOGATARI which is a very famous piece about a prince/king that has love affairs and what not! ALSO! we got to taste a lil of the more evil and dark side of japan! i love it! like creatures called hungry ghosts (they eat your bones and flesh when you die... creatures that messa round with you if you dont beliveve in AMIDA [god]) ! and status of people showing ture feelings and emotions.. like sorrow, sadness, happiness, anger and what not! it really connected to the japanese music scene i am into :D like this singer i LOVE lookes exactly like some of the status... the crazy white eyes and his preformance really relates to it cuz in an interview he said he wants to show what the normal japanese people conserve... Its hard to explain....
i want to take more japanese related classes but it's all upper division which sux... but ya!!!

I JUST HAT THE FACT THAT WE LEARN THE MOST INTRESTING PARTS OF THE CLASS AND WHAT NOT IN THE END OF THE SEMESTER.....

OH! and i recently talked to my good friend that ignored me since i went to japan... it was nice but now that we talked.. i am missing him like crazy... i guess he ignored me because he liked me? (which he told me, but i never did anythingt o break his heart??) but i dont understand.. he never told me... i wish he wouldve told me because going through all that we did in like less then a year really made me miss him... it really sux... he isnt my type from first glance... but totally.. i feel comfotable around him and all and he was very sweet and caring.. a lil young for my taste but smart and edgy... with a hint of Bboy? lollll ANYWAYSSS .... : / i hope he will talk to me agian... he said it is better if we dont talk anymore as friends... i am hoping that, it changes and hope he will call me... and we can work things out... ARGGG i hate it.... i miss singing with him in the carrr, i miss him calling meeee, i miss his presence... i miss it...

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but over all im good! wanted to post cuz i havent for a long time! well going off the the dumbass math class.... seriosuly... only stupid people are in there!!!

OHHHH and i am tryingt o lay off on cussing! james jackson really gave me a heads up..... "when you cuss a lot, or even little... it makes you look lower then who you really are" thank you james! <3

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i looked at the clock and it was 1AM

2008-03-24T19:59:26Z

so yesterday.. all i did was work on my last painting for the project 3B part.. i started around 5 or 6 and when i looked at my claock it was 1AM..... im tired and now i have to study for asian art history.. woohooo ahahahhahaha

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Art Fart :]

2008-03-21T22:43:11Z

So yesterday was my art class mid-sem portfolio day and we had to bring all of our prjects we have worked on since the beginnign of the semester. and once it came to my turn. the teacher just looked at me. and said " you kno, you work as been so strong... in every project we have been doing, you work has been very strong and unique." it was the best feeling ever but then she asked "whats your major again?" i replied "graphic design" and she was like "You are going to make a wonderful graphic designer". OH MY GOD. hard work pays off and it feels great. this teacher is toughhh and i got a 100% great feed back from her. i feel great and she made me want to do my best in everything. i am really starting to believe that i have the tallent to make it in this industry. Not only because of the teachers comment.. but because ireally feel good about my work i have done. each peace i put my all into it and treat it like a ART PIECE and not just a art project for a lower division class. i fuss about how much work we have each day, but you kno what i love art. it;s fun and it makes me feel like this is what i am living for.. it's my passion. and so many people piss and moan about this or other art classes.. and people give up so easly... but i wont. This kid in my art class right now is a graphic design major... and he just walked out because the teacher made a bitchy comment to him.. and he said he is gonna change his major... well you kno what this is what it takes to be in the industry. if your weak and give up easy.. go ahead.. less comp for me :] lol . i really hate most of the poeple in there... ya tough comment but they really piss me off... i have like maybe one person i like in there. everyone else is like "i dont give a fuck... it's a lower division class ill be happy to pass with a C".... no comment man... no comment at all.

On the other note... the foundation art gallery is coming up and i am going to have 3 of my works in there :] i am sooooo excited!!! thats like all of the projects we have done besides one and the one we are working on right now! :] yay for me!

And so i was working on my 3rd project and i messed up and i said shit.. and looked at my friend next to me and said "sorry i cuss alot.." and he said the most touching thing ever... like i dont kno it was so .... weird...
he said "you should read the dictionary because there are much better words out there" WOW like .... it was really something i think i may consider to do... i have to lay off on the cussing... it's a bad habit... thanx eric :]

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i'm going to old town passedena for my art history class tomrrow and im stoked :] !

For a downer.. i lost my Vivienne Westwood earing kiyoko gave me at her houseee!! .. :[ so sad.... sooo sorry secret boyfriend... :[

ONE MORE PUSH TILL SPRING BREAKKKK!!!!!

Julie and Erin's Stalker Convo

2008-03-09T19:32:34Z

so i hava fucking stalker... and i sent erin what this guy sent me.. and then this is what erin and i talked about after wards ahahahaha

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E: kkiiiimmmoooiii!! why does he write to you so much!!! and he tells you about his boss like you fucking care. I am more then happy to let yo borrow my fucking tazer. please try it out, use it for its first time. it needs to start doing it job.

J: I tolddd youuuuuuuuuuuuu ahahaha i JUST read it! ahahahahahaha fuck he's fuckign grosss!!!! wtf!!! man ahahaha "lest meet up sometime" "ringo Tabemasu" WTF! i dont give a fuck and why would i meet up withy our asss!!! wtfffffff?!!!! kimoiiiiii yameteeeeeeeeeeeee

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E: i have an idea. tell him you will meet him. and then give me the date and place and time. then ill come instead of you, and when I see him I'll taze his ass and tell him to leave you alone. !

J: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SOUNDS LIKE A FUCKING GOOOOOD ASSS IDEA AHAHAHHAHAHAHA

♥fuckkkk you are like my mighty boyfriend!!!!

Ahahahaha i LOVE this convo man. i have been posting this shit up everywhere!!!

im super excitied about this thur. i have to go eat korean bbq qith mr. kpop and his new gf (blah) but erins coming with me and she's bringing her tazer ahaha we are gonna own the night :]

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:] Julie Takada is Officially Happy Again :]

2008-03-06T16:33:46Z

So this month was full of sadness and just let downs and sadly... felt depressed every fucking day but now im back :]. I realized that i cant be sad anymore cuz some poepl need my positiveness. When kei said "damn i miss you being positive.. i miss that side of you" i was just SOOOO UPSET at myself and you kno what... the funny thing is that i have "bad" days everyday lately... but it's YOURSELF that have to pull it together! being sad, angry, upset.. happy is what youuuu bring upon yourself and i kno it's hard to keep your head up and gasp for air, but we have to pull it togther. Even if shit happen to you, i now literally smile and say "oh well!" or "There well be better things coming!'.
And i have officially been ,AGAIN, realized that the best buds i have right now are the ones that i can really count on. when i was stuggling with my fathers issue, kei listened to me.. not even a word came out until i had finished...Monica had spoke her mind soo much that i have never seen her do... derek was very positive and gave me the BEST feed backs :], and of course Erin had the BESTEST solution and warmth. She didnt say "im so sorry" but was sooo straight up to me and really, i think we bonded much more. We have A LOT in common. Not only is she the ONLY person i can share music info, laugh about stupid shit, act imature with and hobbies match like crazy, but she is very caring and has the same personality as me of "fuck with my friends i'll fuck with you" or other in common shit but i dont kno something about her... she is theee only bestfiend that had stood with me after high school even tho she graduated 2 years before me. And my step father hatin gher guts.. we still manage to be really good friends and make time to hang out :] ANYWAYSSS enough about erin lol.
ALL i look froward to right now is spring break! im hella excitied! derek is coming home from berkely :] yay! Art bash! then maybe go to six eff with other kids and just chill :]
Oh and i get to be a senior agan for 3 saturdays cuz Drucker if filming for USC film project :] im so excitieddddd yay <3

I got a 100% on my art 2nd art project which is like IMPOSIBLEEEE usually to get in her class. As much as the teacher picks on my stuff to show as BAD examples, she loves my work so it's good :] Now she is gonna put two of my art projects in the foundation art exibition :] yay!

Anyways just want to point out that We can make pur days good even if it's going bad :] i kno and dont care for whoever reads this cuz it's like writing a journal for myself to let things out. but if ANYONE needs me :] i'll be here even if we arent connected in anyway. :]

haha!

2008-03-05T21:39:13Z

Spring Break i s on it's way :]

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Derekkkkk YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:]

2008-02-20T21:18:32Z

hi no hikari sae todokanai kono basho de sora miageta
雅-miyavi- feat. SUGIZO

hi no hikari sae todokanai kono basho de sora miageta
hayaokuri kumo no nagare wo me wo tsuburazu ni otte mita
kowakatta n da me wo tojireba subete ga uso ni nari sou ne

chigireta kumo to kumo no sukima wo tsunagu you ni kaze ga sakenderu
fui ni fukitobasare sou ni naru kedo
sukoshi kurai BURE wa kamawanai

tada mae dake wo mitsumete
massugu ni tada yuragu koto naku tsukisusumu no sa
sou sureba itsuka wa ano kumo ni mo oitsukeru darou

owaranai kono nagai michinori no tsudzuku saki ni
tatoe moshi zetsubou shika nakatta toshite mo
sono mukou ni yume ya kibou ga
kireigoto demo ii kara aru to shinjitetai ne
michishirube wa nai kedo mou jibun de tsukureru kara
me tsumutta mama demo mimi o sumashite aruite ikeru sa

soshite kudaranai tsumaranai kachikan ya henken nante kaete yaru yo

imi no nai kachi no nai mudana yume nante nai tte koto misete miseru
sou kawarazu ni kaete iku no sa oretachi no mirai darou?
kono te de tsukandeku shika nai no sa

dore kurai kono saki arukeba ii n darou
dono kurai ima made aruite kita n darou
furikaette mo hirogaru kouya to hateshinaku tsudzuku michi ga aru dake
kodoku na michi no ue de ima omou
tatoe jinsei ga itami ya kurushimi de dekiteta toshite mo
sore wo nuguu tame kimi to deatta no nara sore mo waruku nai sa
dakara mou sukoshi dake de ii kara
kono te wo hanasanaide ite kurenai ka

hi no hikari sae todokanai kono basho de sora miageta Translation lyric
Not Even Sunlight Reaches This Place feat. SUGIZO
雅-miyavi-

Not even sunlight reaches this place. Look up at the sky.
Without closing my eyes, I tried chasing the fast moving stream of clouds.
It was scary. When I close my eyes, everything seems to become a lie.
The broken clouds and the gaps between them. The wind screams so they can be connected.
I don't mind a bit of a blur, I'm simply looking in front of me.

Not wavering, just pushing straight on.
If I do that, one day I can catch the clouds.

At the beginning of this unending journey,
even if there's nothing but despair,
On the other side, even if our dreams and wishes are simple,
I want to believe it exists

There's no signpost, but I can already make it myself.
Even with my eyes closed, I can listen and go on.

So, change seriously useless, boring things like values and prejudice.
There's no meaning, no values. Show there's nothing like a useless dream.
Going changing and unchanging, is that our future?
There's nothing I can do but catch it with my hands.

How far can we walk to this destination?
How far have we walked until now?
Even if we look back, there's nothing but this endless wasteland
at the end of this journey.

Even if people are in pain and suffering,
If I wipe that away, meeting you wasn't something bad either.
So, just a little more is okay.
Will you not let go of my hand, and be with me?

Goes out to Derek!

2008-02-10T20:15:48Z

so this one i decided to write to d-money cuz i am VERY sorry for not calling you! man oh man oh man! i will tho! soon! =]

im doing fine. hope you are too! miss ya bunch and your gift is waiting in my closet lolll

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Stress. Break. Cookie time!

2008-02-06T21:16:04Z

so im ready to push shit behind for a couple of days cuz fam bam problems are fucking stressing me out on top of changing scheds... and im tired... but i hang with cullen on friday for my christmas present and then Saturday is cookie time with michelle! valentine cookies yay! and and sunday is study/hw sesh with Drucker =]

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ps. Fuck you step FATHER you neeed to calm down and get shit straight or your gonna loose mom and thats all you've got cuz im out foo!

meh

2008-01-30T04:32:03Z

So it's been a week since i came back from Japan and it was a great trip =] got to see m gma and glad she is doing so well. it snowed on new years and it was a great walk to the JINJYA ( temple?) made a wish there and bought fortune tellers and i guess it's a good year for me =]. I got to go to a samurai house and i learned a lot about my bckground and i appreciate it more and more everytime i go there =] went to hot springs and was beautiful. i spent most money on gifts but i got clothes too =]. i love it there... the only thing i missed was my friends and if i could bring all of them there... man i would LIVE there! But anyways i enjoyed it and i could talk on and on about it but i will stop.

So school started monday and i got the worst teachers... well i think.. 16 units and Japanese class is full of anime freaks and English teacher is a freak himself =/... and a hardass.... Art 2D is like full of freshmens... 3D was better cuz it was a night class... and night classes mean older students and i tend to get along with them older kids... so we'll see. Math.. cool teacher =] .. Asian art history... omg it's gonna be a challenge....

Im ready to learn! i feel refreshed and this sem. ima try to make more new friends! =] it's gonna be a tough one... i could feel it.. but ima give it my best since i have a 3.0 GPA already =[ need a 3.5 to go to Waseda University for a year!!!!!

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Before i get back to my comm speech =]

2007-12-10T16:31:09Z

SOOO im taking a break before i start doing my comm speech soo my weekend was crazy!!! <3
so you ask me, what was so crazy about it?
well... drucker and i went to coffee bean on saturday morning to work on my art final. he was able to sched. my film in his week so he helped me out... but so i made me crappy sign which i will post later =] i held up my sign on the corner of fashin ave. and hawthorn.... i got GREAT responses! a guy even kept cheering for me and honking hahah =] wata nice man, but so we decided that it wasnt enough so drucker was like "lets make this a journey of you walking around torrance.. making it a better place!" wow! wata idea! so we ended up going to delamo mall for an hour... me walking aorund the outside area.. going into starbucks and holding my sign.. yelling and smiling... drucker just filming me... then i interviews couple of kids and for the last part he wanted to do a shot of me standing while the surroundings went in fast motion so i stood in the middle of the walk ways of Macy's for about 5 min. right before his battery ran out, a dad and two kids come up to me and the dad says "ohhh how nice!! go give her a hug guys!" so the kids came up to me and gave me a huge hug =] thennnnn RIGHT after they left... two securities came up to us and was like "you guys are leaving right?" so were like like ya! and walked out... the lady 5050 kept following us and drucker kept being an ASS but the funny thing is that they cant do shit about it.. only kick us out... she walked us to our car and drucker acted like he was filming her and she was like "you better nto be filming me!" drucker was like "oh! im not!" lmao! and when she was kinda far he pretended to sneek back inside and he looked back was like "IM JUST KIDDING!!" and ran for it hahahaha...it was a fun journey i think and i my project is gonna be so cool =] thank you mr. drucker =] It was a great success and i think i made my point =]

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ps. if you dont kno who drucker is... he's my old long term sub from my english class last year 23 years old? i think , he was theee best teacher ever and now he is at USC for film and films skaters around cali. he'sa long time friend i think =] we have random lunch and updates on life at times <3 ANYWAYSSSSS that was my journey lollll

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Being lazy

2007-12-07T16:41:10Z

So0o0o0o i should be working my ass off for my major comm persuasive speech for monday.. but im really pooked...

Art final is coming up and our task is to make the environment a better place by using sound or motion.... the teacher was super excited about it and all but hmmm... it's so hard... i was thinking of makin random flyers and passing it out to random people that said "have a great day" or some shit or just stand on the busy streets and ho0ld up aa sign that said that... but i needa person to film me for a long time i guess... i dont kno... but im stocked!

so one of the sadest shit happened in class yesterday.. we were talkinf baout graes in my art class and kids strated to attack Ryan "teacher" out of no where
kid 1: "can i get my grade up?"
ryan:"well yes, we have the final, sketch book, and participation points still =]"
kid 2: "how can we get n A in this class?"
ryan: "well, im a hard graded.. i told you in the beginning f the sem. that i grade on how hard you work in class and the effort you put into it and i say to my self 'oh shit! i shouldve made that!'"
kid2: "DOES ANYONE HAVE AN A????!!!"
-class in silence-
kid 3: "you kno ryan, this is a lower division class, your suppose to grade us easy" -in a serious tone-
ryan: "....."
kid 3: "your not the student ... you shouldnt want to make the project... I JUST WANTED TO GIVE YOU THE HEADS UP AND REMIND YOU THAT"
kid 2: "I JUST WANT TO KNO WHO HAS N A IN HERE CUZ ITS IMPOSSIBLE!"

WTF?!!!! you guys need to calm the fuck down! obviously this s a fucking art class in college... your major is ARTTTT dont you attack ryan for the shit YOU are responsible for... your work isnt even that good... come on man.... UHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

!!!!!!GROW THE FUCK UP!!!!!

=] have a great day

Professor Guffey is Wayyy Tooo Funny! <3

2007-11-30T18:30:01Z

him and his OJ Gloves ahahahaha Dumb Dumb enlgish was madd fun... too bad it all ends today inlike 30 min. =[

Radon Campus Pictures <3

That's A Heart

hahaha it was a beautiful day <3

The Holidays

2007-11-26T22:43:33Z

School feels so slow right now and i want to go home but i guess i just have to suck it up huh?

This holiday... the only excitment was to hang out with derek! we just went with the flow and went down to Manhattan, then Redondo and looked at an open house hahahaha then went down to the Sea Life Lab =] JELLIESSSSS!
it was fun and really glad that i have kids on my side that will make time for me =] thank you derek <333

I Sat home and just relaxed... catched up on Japanese dramas... talked to my bestfriend Jan every night for a LONG ass time and that was pretty much it! cookie/ movie night this friday and watching Awake =] im stoked! and get to see jan <3 this si a kid i have been getting close to now a days. He is quite a friend =].

Thanks giving day got a couple text's and was sweet =] love them all thank you Kei, Jan, Monica, and Sarah =] you guys are the sweetest <33333

ANYWHO, my last english class day is friday =] but im sad cuz Guffey is the coolest professor around =]

This is it i guess =]

Another Random

2007-11-19T22:43:55Z

So i didnt get the book =[ cuz they couldnt find it! but i shall get it soon! <3

So here are my My Art Pictures....

Project #7? "Utopian Society"

Final #2

Radom Piture with the "Motherless Baby" Sculpture made out of ceramics by the LB Grad. Student Gallery

Below is a picture i took from a book at the Murakami Gallery... haha we looked at this piece in Classs i LOVE IT!

My Heart Throbs when i see this... stopped by at the Japanese American Museum and this was the model of the Japanese Internment Camp =[
i gotta go back didnt have too much time to look through the whole place...

Anyone?

2007-11-16T18:14:34Z

I want this!!!! $39.95!!! =[
*sobbing*

HAH! Borders. Torrance. *IN STOCKKK!*
MINE. TODAY. =]
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What A Weekend...

2007-11-14T18:04:36Z

First off i wanted to say sorry to Jessica and Jesska for not being able to make it to whittier today... =[ im REALLY sorry!!! i guess jesska didnt get my text but it's not her fault cuz my phone iswhackkkk. ANYWAYSSS see you guys soon =] VERY SOONNNN

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Friday i went to a birthday partay for my friend Jan now 18!. i saw my "husband" Kpop Calvin there for like 5 min. and i guess he said hello to me but i didnt hear him since he was on the grass and i was playing pool which was not so close.... let me say this again ... I AM TIRED OF SHY KIDS!!! so i texted him the next day since janny told me that he said hi to me.. i said sorry for not hearing him and he said "lol you ignored me!" HEYY WTF?!!! i have a huge crush on this kid but i dont think anything will go down...hmmm....anyways... moving on... we played spin the bottle dare version hahah it made me feel like we are in middle school again or something but it was a blast... the bottle loved me i guess and i had to do shit with random people.. the only peopel i knew were my friend i brought along with me, janny and kpop.. so the bottle landed on me and people wanted this kid to do his favorit sex possesion on me?!!!!! WTF?!!! so anyways i was like whatever since it's not as bad as making out with this kid that i dont even kno his name or age andi wouldve said no anyways.... so he told me to lay down.. and i didnt even kno it was coming... he did it and it was funny. awkward but funny lol... then another time... people wanted the guy to lick cream puff cream off on my toes! ahahahah wtf again!!??? anyways it was sick but i dint have to do it so whatever!... so i owned playing pool and won all of the kids i played... and monica and i won basketball against janny and his lil bro. after monica and i left the drinking and smoking began so thats good i guess. Jan was so nice about it tho cuz he knows i dont do that shit and he waited until i left =] what a nice kid huh? but it's not like i would've cared, but the thought of it is nice =] it was fun meeting new kids i would never thought to talk to.. never talk to african american people so ghetto. but they were nice =]
Janny is a close friend of mine, he is out of place right now, exploring the world, but i worry for him... sucha smart kid, but his actions arent so great right now =[ im not religious but i pray for you buddy. My parents or mom doesnt like him and they dont kno we hang out but i think he needs me to be there for him right now. he's confused and i feel like he needs someone to just listent o him... am i doing the wrong thing? i feel like im getting myself into huge trouble, but thats who i am, i cant just sit there watching someone so sweet destroy himself =[

Went to finally watch the Heartbreak Kid with Michelle kim, and it was funny.. we have been feeling down for a while so it was a nice day off of that.

ummm... Moday night/ morning cullen drunk calls me and it was so awkward.. i dnt kno what the hell he is thinking but it made me feel weird. He told me how he liked me and we should try going out for a day, but i told him straight up im not down cuz 1. he's drunk 2. he's not my type 3. we are only friends 4. IT WONT WORK OUT... so i didnt like that... &$@$(@*) AT ALLL.... hopefully that wouldnt happen ever again. so im thinking of keeping my distance away fro alil bit.... it just upsets me... i dont like that shit... COME ON man! i think i's rud... for a day?! not i like i owuld go out with him or anything but if some girl liked this kid and he said lets juts secretly go out for a day without poeple knowing.... thats a shitty feeling...

Tuesday, kei and i went to eat lunch and we talk about just life... it was nice because i dont have people to talk about shit like that anymore... everyone is busy or some are just far away. so we went down to redondo beach and sat on the bench and talked about what we will be doing in ten years... it was sucha sad topic. i dont kno why but ya.. so he talk to me about how he hung out with A.T. and how she is jealous that kei is so close to me... wtf?! S.P. said the same shit... why are people getting jealous?! ... huh.... it just pisses me off cuz i dont even like A.T... so annoying... and never got a good vibe from her... she always made me feel awkward in class last year... hand to work it out cuz it was "gotta work this out" class but boy ami glad i dont see her anymore... and how kei told me just pissed me off "oh so whoa re hanging otu with now? YOUR BESTFRIEND JUUUULIEEE???!!!" EYYYY FUCK YOU BITCH! go make new friends... FUCK!

so i guesss that was my weekend or whateva....

Im really excitied about Mr. Derek Oye coming home next week!!! =] i miss you kido! we are gonna go to the getty (hopefuly if we have time)!!!! =] we need to just talk i have so much to tell you =] i think you will be a solution to my emotional state right now ahahahahaha! fucckkkk i sound like i have a bipolar case or something...ANYWAYSSS see you soon!

Tomorrow is my art field trip to the MOCA and im taking monica and michelle kim with me =] it's gonna be fun yet not fun.. but heyyy!

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Peace!

ps. i kno it's random but... i IMed Razo thinking he wouldnt remember me from like 4 to 5 years ago and i juts said hi and he totally remembered me!!!! wowaaa!!! anyways! we have been having great convo! i never really talk to him baout radom stuff..... but h'e so open... it's weird yet nice i guess... haha good times with the old band saving daylight =] it brought back memories when i was a freshmen at La Serna High =] hanging out with radom kids... and doing to their shows and riding in the stinky big van with tony, chris, razo, and that one singer i never knew his name ahahaha.

Barry Mcgee is AMAZING <3333

2007-11-09T16:35:40Z

So now that i am getting more and more into the arts, i was looking up random stuff online about artists. I found the most amazing artist... and i dont kno what is up with this guy, but i was reading about him online, and he is from San Fransisco named Barry Mcgee <3 grew up in SF and started off atstreet graffiti. He is influenced but the hardcore and punk music scene. He now doesnt consider his work as a graffiti but he just makes amazing work.. he doesnt only do the aerosol arts but uses his spray painting skills to create his pieces =] it's just amazing!!!!

I really want to go to his galleries =] I want to meet him.. i dont kno what is up with him but his work just amazes me lol

and now, i am getting more intot he underground rap... now too much yet, but if you know any artists tahta re bomb... hit me up! im really intrested! Check out Fort Minor song "kenji" it's for all of the Japanese kids <33333 it can really make you think.

What Is Art?

2007-11-07T16:39:18Z

So in my Foundations of 3D class we had to read up on a article of this Japanese artist named Takashi Murakami because we are gonna go on a fucking field trip to see his work next thursday at 5:30pm at MOCA in LA. ANYWAYSS, i dont like his art, mostly that OTAKU shit with pornographic anime shit which creeps me out, but his other works seems cool i guess, neon mushrooms? huge smiling dasies???? well i think he's a fucking man on crack, but ya... we were having a class discussion on how our teacher's, ryan's, freinds went to see his gallery and it was full of shit. Frame work that isnt executed well and his work is done so quick whihc looks shity... but he is making a grip of money on it, he wroked with Louis Viton and collaborated with Kanye West, Marc Jacobs... huh.... i just think it's fucking filthy. In my opinion he's a sell out.

So going on... Ryan asked what ART was... and the class went around talking about it.. some said it was something that would sell and make a grip of money off of (BULLSHIT), some said it was anything, like me, and others just pulled shit out of their ass. So Ryan called on me so i thought for a while and i said... "I think that art is anything anyone thinks it is. I mean Anything can be art. it's the way people see things. People may think a random sculptures are a piece of shit, but then some may think it is a wonderful piece... i dont think that art has to sell, many artists make stuff because they want to express their feelings, i mean music is art too. There is no right or wrong ansmer to it."
Then my friend Bryan and i talked about it on the way to our cars, and we both agreed that art is L.O.V.E., we were talking about music, and many sell outs like CoughMURAKAMIcough, and other bands like say, to me, most radio played bands are full of shit. They once began making music from the heart, but now many believe that just because they had one song on one album that sold a grip, they can make shity shit and sell them... and the sad thing is that many people end up buying them. Trends and Fads are fucking over rated! But anyways, to me Art is love and it comes fromt he heart. There are many many MANY meanings to one piece even though the artist may have made it through one thought. i believe that art is the way we use our minds, There are no right or wrong answers to it.

Thank you if you read this and sorry if i bothered you in anyway

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"Im Gonna Fucking Punch You In The Fucking Face"... is what i feel

2007-11-05T22:35:22Z

I dont kno.. but i have been very angry with something for a quite a long time now.. i dont kno what it is... but it's bugging me and i feel like ripping someones head off... this weekend i didnt do anything.. just sat home and worked on my COMM speech about sleep and watched japanese dramas... Ryan and Justin asked monica and i to go paint balling with them so i'm really stoked for that. =] maybe it'll refresh my mind. All of these sad feelings keep coming back and i wanna see my old friends again. which are only like two. Jess and Jesska. I can drive now but i have no time to go down to Whittier... school is draing me but im not even tired of it yet... i think i just need something to boost up my day which woul dbe grewat if i could see the boos =]... Parents been letting me go out more and it's great.

This friday is my new friend's lil bros bday partay at his house. (i met him from my summer job across from me. I dont kno any of Jan's friend.. Gardena high =/... so im takinf monica with me... his lil bro is so cute and turning 11 years old.gonna buy him spiderman 3 wii game =] i hope that good. i dont kno wtf these kids like these days... so yess... maybe i'll make new friends there if they are cool... i dotn kno... kpop is gonna go but im over him for now ahahaha. it's been like 2 weeks since i last talked to him. But he doesnt give me that WOW feeling anymore.. hahaha... anyways im gonna stop talking about stupid stuff now

bye

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ps.
DLed the "new" Radiohead cd.... it's goood like pablo honey and their weird electo shit =] thom yorke is amazing =] wish i could see them live.

My Lovely weekend =]

2007-10-29T16:30:31Z

Friday was my Saw 4 Night and I liked it... even tho many people i talk to said they were dissapointed =[ but more gore than 3 and the kids i went with wanted to leave after the first 10 min... but ended up staying =] i have to say it is my favorite movie =] I guess i am a October Baby lol! Before the Saw movie, ryan came over cuz his class got cancelled, we watched A Night At The Museum and i like it. I decided that if i were to become something besides me.. i would become an Neandrathal cuz they are just goofy as hell!

Anyways.. On the way home Stac brought drama again and didnt tell us that she was going to a partay after the movie so when the movie ended the boys ate sushi and stac was just pissed off and wanted to go home.. but i drove so she couldnt go home... all she did waas complain to me.. but i kinda just ignored her ass. FUCk the world does nyo revolve around you! Anyways... again... On the way home.... we almost got into a serious car crash... and no joke... stac was crying and ryan hit his head on the window... so the story is that ryan yelled to me when i was driving that there was a spider on my window... and so stupid me tried to multi-task and killed it... but then when i killed it... i lost contorl of my steering wheel... as i turned to the right, the car went totally right towards the poles.. and when i turned left... it went towards a diffrent car and i couldnt take contorl.... it was the scariest shit ever.. and honestly... we could've died... =[
i felt so shity after wards and ryan tried to calm me down but i felt so bad... im sorry... i leaned my lesson and im gonna be a good driver now...

So on Saturday went to go buy my jacket for Japan cuz it's gonna be cold and i have no jacket to keep me warm... so i went and bought a Holister Jacket! omg! i would never buy it but eyyyy mom wanted me to so i just did.

Sunday i worked on my 3D Art Project all day =] ot looks great so im rpoud of it <3333
Picture Below

so what i had to do is make a small object 3 times big and a large object 3 times smaller.

My other part Projects =]

this one is made out of Foam and we had to carve out a histoical thing.. going on today int he world so i picked Global Warming

So for this one, i had to choose a 3D recycled object witha 2 demension and make the 2D into a 3D. Proud to say that i got a A on this =]

This one is called Miniture something lol i forgot the name but i had to carve out an object that represents the USA witha bar of soap =] so much fun@ And again a A on this =] I picked out corn because the Native Americans settled to america first and they brought corn to us.