I can see why some of you hate me for doing this. If I looked at it from your perspective, I'd feel the same way you do. Please understand that I have my reasons for doing this, and I didn't intend to involve all of you. I thought that if I did not friend anyone on here and didn't comment anywhere else, this journal would remain in the shadows. Yes, I had hoped a single person would find it through their own actions, but not thousands. I did not think that that someone would come here and submit the address to a website with such a large following.
The other reason I am writing here is because I want to record my own thoughts and issues, as a way of providing myself some mental catharsis. I didn't really think even one person would stumble across this, so this reason was my main motivation.
I want to apologize for the misunderstanding. I hope that some of you may not despise me as much anymore...
I am left with the descision of continuing in quiet, or going on with the journal despite what it has turned into. I have decided to keep going. If nothing else, maybe I can clear my good name with some people and not be remembered so negatively.
In the future, I hope I can provide some of you with some backstory about why I am suicidal, as a lot of you have asked.
As a side note, the picture posted on the website responsible for bringing you all here...does he look 23 to you?