The Book Of Shadows

Life...

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 08:44:33 GMT

Well it's been a while since I've updated!! Let's see what's been happening... I moved in with Ally and Felicity while Ally's parents were away (and they're still away!!). I'm actually really enjoying it!! I love not having to answer to parents! I just wish that I could afford to move out, but with my friends coming over in October, and me wanting to move to Brisbane, go to Japan next year to see Brooke, it's just not going to happen for a while! The good thing is that my mother is going away for three weeks in August, so I'll have the house to myself, plus the car which will be nice!!

Let's see... it was my 24th Birthday last Monday and we had a massive party for it! It was an awesome night!! SO much fun, and way to much alcohol was drunk! Felicity made this magic punch which was amazing, however no one can really remember much of the night after drinking it! There are some photo's on facebook of me doing things, of Felicity and Ally doing things and we're all like 'What happened?'! Quite funny... however I have noticed that my memory seems to be going at the moment... don't know what's going on there, however I'm thinking it's due to my alcohol consumption over the past year and a half... I'm sure it will improve soon!! I will also try and post some photo's from the party! It was fancy dress of course! SO much fun!! My sister came, and I thought that she'd only stay for like an hour, but she stayed for ages, and then bought me a GHD for my birthday! Her coming to the party was enough for me, but to buy me the GHD was just amazing! I really did have a great Birthday! I'm of the opinion that one should celebrate their Birthday and not shun away from it! Might as well enjoy the short life that we have!!

What else has been going on... Hmmm... my Netbal team is coming equal first which is great, however based on points for and against we're third because we lost all our goals from our first game because we filled in the score sheet incorrectly! I mean it was the first week! The could have told us what we were supposed to do! Not nice! Oh well! Hopefully we'll get them all back and be at the top! I'm actually realy enjoying playing to be honest!! It's been good for me to join a team, and even though they're all my sisters friends, it's still nice because we all get along!

I can't wiat for my friends to come over in October! It's going to be so much fun! We're thinking about hiring a campervan to go up the East Coast! SO much fun! I'm saving my behind off at the moment in an effort to have enough to fund this! I'm optimistic!! There are all these places that we want to go to!! Going to be amazing!! We're also thinking about getting a tatoo to mark the trip! Have no idea what we're going to get yet, however I'm sure we'll work something out!!

All righty... I'm out! I'm trying to watch some Dark Angel music video's on YouTube, however my Dad's Broadband isn't as fast as I thought it was so it's taking it's sweet time!! Oh well!! Might go wash up!!

Hope that everyone is well!

TTFN

Life, the Universe and then... ME

Tue, 06 May 2008 09:32:34 GMT

Righteo... going through one of those 'The World SUcks' phases! Probably something to do with this stupid thing that comes once a month! So lets see... my agency found me this 'great' job that when I turned up for it I couldn't do! It was mainly accounts stuff, plus all this other stuff! SOooo I walked out of there after two hours! THEN... I get an email from the lady today with this other job, and that was just way out of my league, well I could do it, I just don't want to because it's WAY to much work and they were only going to pay me $21 an hour, and I'm sorry, but it was an Executive Assistant job and there's NO way that I'm doing that and getting paid nothing! So now I'm unemployed agian, totally lost nad have no idea of what's going on! I just wish that there was a way to look into a crystal ball and find out what I'm supposed to be doing! Coz I really have NO idea!

In exciting news, I'm having a Mix 106.5 Birthday Party!! Basically it's a 70's, 80's and new stuff party! Going to be amazing!! Ally is kindly letting me have it at her house! We were going to get either a jumping castle, or sumo suits, but they're to expensive, so we're making out own! Lol! PLUS Vodka Jelly Shots!! I think that we're all ging to be pretty drunk! But oh well... it's going to be good fun! Oh, other exciting news is that my Netball team won on Saturday! That was a good moral booster! I think tha tI played ok, and Ally and Felicity think that my sister and I are two of the better players on the team, so that's good!! Boosts my confidence! Apparently I'm not aggressive enough, so I'm trying to get more aggressive and fight for the ball!! 'Be aggressive, B E aggressive' (got to love Bring it On!).

In other annoying news... I told my father this morning that I walked out of that job, and how I wanted to find a job like the one that I had in England and he said 'I don't know why you bothered coming back' so that's really made me feel wanted! It's great how parents can sometimes do that!

I'm annoyed because I'm in pain, and the chocolate that I ate to rid myself of said pain isn't working, and now I've eaten all my chocolate stores! Not happy... oh well! I had better go and see if dinner is ready! My mother's cooking for me which is great! I just have to wash up, which is cool and totally fair!!

Laters!

~Jess~

The many goings on in my mind...

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 10:19:09 GMT

SO I've got SO much stuff going on in my mind at the moment that I am getting increasingly frustrated and as no one really reads this, I guess I can rant on here all I want! So coming home was so good, but now I'm bored with life! I thought it would be different somehow, however everyone has changed, or maybe I've changed and they don't go out! It's really weird! I mean Ally and Felicity go out, but they're going back to England in a little over a month, so I'll be back to boredom central! Not to happy about that one! I wish that I could go with them, however I can't afford it and my mother won't lend me the money for it. So upsetting, however I guess I should save it myself.

I'm SO looking forward to October because Ziggi, Michael and Sarah are coming over (hopefully) to visit and that's just going to be amazing! I really cannot wait and it is something to look majorly forward to! So I'm really quite excited about that one! It will be a welcome change! I'm also planning on seeing Ms Brookie in Japan next March/April which will be awesome! Now on that note, my mother made the best suggestion to me... why don't I go to England for two years after Japan. Now for me two years would be way to long, so I was thinking that I would go for the summer! SOooo my new plan is to work my arse off until March next year and go back to England via Japan for the summer and then I'll be able to play Softball which I really miss! SO much! Then I can also travel around Europe a lot! Which I'd love to do now... for some reason I didn't want to do that before! SO I'm going to try and save about $15,000 for my plan, and then when I get to the UK get a temp job and just use that money to try and live, and save the savings for Softball Tournaments and Europe. A good idea? I think so! I'm just feeling SO very lost at the moment and I think that going somewhere thats not here will help me a lot! I just don't know... I didn't get a job that I wanted and when I came back here I had everything sorted in my head, and now that I didn't get the job it's all gone pear shaped and I'm just sick of being here! I'm not enjoying myself like I should be! Life is supposed to be enjoyed and I'm feeling like I am not fulfilling that obligation...

I've just re-watched the entire series of Buffy and it's making me want to be an actress even more, but I just don't have the confidence to do it! Maybe going away will help me out on that one! I'm not to sure... I don't think I'm really sure of anyhting at the moment... I feel like a lost person, or lost child with no direction at all... it's such a horrible feeling. Someday it will all change, but for now I remain lost.

Laters

~Jess~

Long time

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 06:27:50 GMT

So kids... it's been a long time since I've written on here! I'm back in Australia now, but am raring to go off again!! But I need to stay here and be an adult! So my plan is to go up the East Coast of Australia with my mates from England in October, and then hopefully go to Japan in December to see Brooke! I've also applied to become a Probation Officer which I really want as it's so interesting!!

Now... important stuff here peoples! My friend has just started up her own business! Basically if you have a photo of a loved one you can put it on anything, from Key Chains (now these arn't tacky ones, they're really good! I've just got one! They're metal!!) to clocks, to tiles! It's SO cool! The website is http://www.mmcreations.biz. It's such a good idea for presents etc! You can even get pictures put onto a puzzle, or even a chopping board!! Just SO cool!!

Righteo.. off! Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still alive! Hope that everyone is well! Not that anyone really reads this anymore anyway!!

Laters

~Jess~

Dream will be coming true!!

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 08:17:41 GMT

So my mother and I are going to Egypt next year! Not just for a week or something, but we're going on a 20day tour!! We're gong to meet in Egypt! I am SO excited about it! I can't wait to explore the country! I don't care that I'm going on an older persons tour! It's going to be awesome just to see everything! A life long dream that might actually come to fruition! Now all I need to do is become famous (in a good way) and then my life will be complete!

Right... just wanted to say that!!

Laters

~Jess~

As no one seems to read this anymore...

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 08:17:22 GMT

I thought that I'd write down some thoughts! So K cancelled on me the other night and I was a tad upset about that, but she did promise something to someone, and a promise is a promise. SO last night we went to the movies with mates from Softball and also my cousins and it was really good! You know when you first meet someone and you're like 'They're gorgeous' and then you meet them again, and they either look 10 times better, or 10 times worse then the first time that you met them? Well she look 20 times better last night! I guess because I hadn't seen her in a week and a bit! But boy was I nervous! I know that she wants to take things slowly, and I'm pretty sure that I want to take things slowly, but we still need to sit down and talk about what's going on! But I think that everything went ok last night, and at the end she kissed me goodbye. Rach said that I need to be chased (which is a new concept to me) which, to be frank is driving me up the bloody wall! However I'll try it that way for a while and see how I go. I think that I really like her, and as it's my first major crush since Nat, I'm also a little scared... But we'll wait and see because I'm not even hedging any bets that anything will happen because otherwise you just get upset.

In other news, works giong well! I'm reallyliking the people that I work with, and they totally accept me for who I am which is really good! We sit there at lunch time and discuss heaps, and lately they've all been helping me with my situation which is really good! I'm SO glad that I work at such an accomodating place.

Righteo.. I've got to go to the doctors this morning... oh joy... Hopefully I'm not to sick (have had 3 lots of blood works done, and a liver scan) but we'll wait and see!! Hope that everyone is well!

Laters

~Jess~

I got a date!

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 07:11:27 GMT

So.. just a short entry because as per suual I'm on here in the morning and need to rush off to work, but I have a date on Monday night! Why monday night you may ask? I'm going aways all weekend and it's actually my only free night next week! So I'm quite excited! But of course, I'm trying not to get to excited because I don't want to get hurt. But still.. I cannot help it!

I'm going away this weekend down south to see my aunt and my cousins which should be good fun! I can't wait!

Well I'd better go and dry my hair before work because it's freezing outside now! Ooo and WEAR pink today as it's National Breast Cancer Awareness day!! Hope that everyone is well!!

~Jess~

Random Thoughts

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 10:45:11 GMT

I'm now living with my friend and it feels SO good! Things are going well, though I know its only been a week lol! But of course we'll wait and see! We;re going to try and have a monthly chat about things, so that if tehre's anything that's annoying us then we can openly talk about it in an effort to try and not have any fights etc, because I don't want to lose a friendship! So yeah! Things are going well with me! Last night I managed to sort out my room which is good! I had the whole house to myself which I quite liked! But I think I was just in one of my weird moods last night lol! Where I just want to be on my own and sort things out in my head.

We went out Friday night which was good fun, and we were all like 'we have to have an early night' which of course didn't happen! We went for a nice 2am Chinese feast whihc wasn't actually very nice, but I think that's because chinese in this country isn't the best at all! But still it was good fun and we were all pretty hungry! Rather amusing really... we went out into the gay village whihc was, to be honest a dissapointment to me because there was NO one there that I remotley even liked... oh well! I guess time will tell on that one. Rach told me that we just went to the wrong places! So maybe next time!!

I'm feeling rather odd at the moment because I kind of feel like I'm settling at the moment, which makes me worry that it's gong to be five years or something like htat before I feel like I'm ready to go home... I've moved in and am paying rent and that's kind of scary as well! I've just got a new phone plan which is for 18months! Mind you, it's a good deal! Unlimited UK texts, and 500 minutes for £35 a month, plus a new phone whihc is worth like £500, so I am happy :) and everyone know's my gadget addiction problem!! So yeah, basically I feel like I'm settling down here and it's weird, but I know that eventually i'll go home, it's just when I feel right, and i really don't at the moment!!

Going on another walk this afternoon which should be good!! My Uncle just called me to see whether I want to come and as I was going to go anyway thought that it would be fun!! I can't wait!

Right, I should go and have a shower and get dressed etc... going to be colouring my hair this arvo as well, but I'm going blonde over purple, so I am somewhat concerned that it's going to go ginger, but we'll see how it goes!! Hopefully all will be well!! Hope that everyone is well!!

Laters

~Jess~

Lyme Park!!

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 10:02:50 GMT

Helloooo everyone! Wait for it.. I'm sick again! Well I'm at the end stages of this cold, but it's still annoying! I figure that I havent' updated this for a while and that I probably should do! So it's like September now.. this year appears to have flown past like nothing else!! So far I've managed to go around the outside of Continental USA as well as parts of Canada, go to the Xena Con, come to England, go to Spain, go to Scotland, get a car (well get given a car), make some amazing new friends, see some old friends... there's plenty more there, however one thing that I really missed about living in England many moons ago was the fact that we used to go walking every Sunday! So today... WE'RE GOING TO LYME PARK!!! I'm so unbelievebly excited! I woke up at like 8.30 this morning excited as anything and tried getting back to sleep but I couldn't so I'm now up!! I'm charging my camera in prep for loads of photo's which will be on my facebook no doubt!!

In other news... Spain was awesme! We had SO much fun there and I got to know my cousins a bit better as well as their partners which is good!! It's jst been really good coming back here and getting to know them all again!! It makes me realise the importance of family! I went to Edinburgh for a Softball Tournament, and let me say that anyone who hasn't been to Edinburgh MUST go! It's the most amazing city! I'm def staying here until at least this time next year so that I can go up agian because it was that much fun! The Edinburgh Festival was on which was great fun! We even went and saw Puppetry of the Penis which was quite amusing really, but scary at the same time... I LOVE my entire Softball team! I can't explain how great they all are... actually, there's this one person who i'm not so keen on because he's really homophobic and made his opinions clear to me the frist time he met me without realising that I was gay, so he's not on my list of 'friends' if you get what I mean. But they're all so friendly and supportive. Like one of the guys is helping me get into Marketing which is SO nice of him! I'm moving in with another one (who reminds me scarily a lot of Brooke which is probably why we get along so well to be honest), and all the girls on the team (coz it's a mixed team) we're all going to Ireland in January for a girls weekend! It's just SO weird that we all click the way that we do, but we do and it's awesome! So i'm not realy going to mess with it!

So on Septeber 30th I'm moving out of my Aunts which is going to be awesome! I'm going to be a responsible adult (well as best an adult as I can be!) and have to pay rent and stuff! I can't wait!! I absolutely appreciate what my Aunt and Uncle have done for me to no end, but I feel that I really need to move out and start being an adult! Now.. what kind of a thank you present do you think I should get for them? I'm racking my brains, and have come up with a few things, but I'd like external opinions please!!

Rach and I went and saw The Bourne Ultimatum last night which I really liked. There were some really good parts in it, and I always like a government conspiracy movie!! Nat and Penny.. I REALLY think that you both would appreciate it. The stunts in it were amazing and I think that you would both get a kick out of some of them! Afterward we went and ate at this really funky Asian kind of restaurant whcih I really enjoyed, but didn't eat to much because I wasn't feeling well. BUT on a plus there was this really hot waitress there and, after much debate between Rach and myself I ended up leaving her my number! Hahaha it was rather amusing to be honest.. reminded me of the time when Brooke, Jaz, Alexia and I were out in Newtown and there was that hot bar chick at The Bank and Brooke gave her my number! Of course I never heard back from her lol, but the girl last night messaged me! It was cool, however of course had a girlfriend, so I'm not giong to mess with that idea again! But still.. It gave me this confidence that I thought I had lost, so I'm rather grateful to Rach for that.

Right.. I'm off to eat some breakfast in an attempt to try and get my mind of going to Lyme Park as I'm getting WAY too excited about it!! Hope that my camera has charged itself by the time we go to leave!!

Hope that everyone is well!! Missing everyone, but I'm afraid that I'm have WAY to much fun over here to come back anytime soon for good! BUT some people from Softball and I were thinking about doing a nice trip over in like 2009... so that could be cool!! But we'll see how things go because you should never plan to far in advance!!

Laters

~Jess~

Dancing

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 01:36:12 GMT

Yo yo readers of my journal! How are we all on this evening, well mornign? It's 2.20am and I'm on here because I know that I can't go to bed coz I'll feel like poo poo tomorrow! Stupid drinking! OH well... I know that I wasn't going to drink anything until I went to Spain, but oopsy! It's rude not to right?!?!?! I'm so happy with my life at the moment! I'm happy that Nat's happy, I'm happy that Penny's happy, I'm happy that everyone else is happy, but most of all i'm happy because i'm happy and i'm starting to learn and realise more and mroe about myself! Now a quick question for those who actually read my LJ... how do you know when someone likes you? I like this person right... however I'm nto to sure whether shelikes me... and there's all this other stuff... like i'm 99.99999% sure that she's straight lol! Oh well! one can lust, can't one?!?!?

Soooo tonight was awesome! Got to see Michelle, Linda, Maria and Natalie (not the ex obviously as she's in Austrlia!!) who are all fireds from school! We had a nice meal at Kro 2 and then we moseyd down to Bar Bar (I think that's right) and then went somewhere else and then we danced for ages! I may have gotten a little carried away and did some crazy dancing, but its all good!! I think I embarassed Maria and Natalie, but i'm sure that they'll get over it! I can't help the way that I dance, and to be honest, I don't really care because i was having fun! I've actually had an awesome night tonight!! I'm getting tired whih is annoying because I know taht I have to drink more water! I just can't beleive how early we came home! I was so busting my bad moves on the dance floor! I also cannot believe how much money i'm spending... i've realy got to cut back! So i'm not going to go out next weekend! I'm just going to do nothing and put the money into my savings and then be done with it! That's the main thing I think! However Liam wreckons I'll only ned about £200 for Spain, and seeing how I aleady have £100 saved, and plus $150 I think i'll be almost all right, so I'll just put away next weeks pay and then all will be sweet! PLUS I'll be getting paid the following weeked (before i go to Spain) and then the week after that, so that means more money!

Anyhoo... I'm off now! Just wanted to let everyone know that I'm going great guns over here, having an awesme time, and that i'm still alive! Oooo AND if your in England and maybe from other countries and want to vote for my friend in this playboy modeling competition, go to www.playboymodel.co.uk and click on Ria! That's my friend Maria and we want her to win!! Spanks people! Missing everyone in Australia and the US! Talk soon peoples!

~Jess~

Hmm..

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 10:01:14 GMT

Why hello everyone! Hope that everyone is well! I'm keep up here in good old England! Last weekend I went down to London to see Ally for her birthday which was loads of fun! I came back a brunette but it's all good! On the Friday night when I arrived we went to this AWESOME bar called The Redback which is SO much fun and plays awesome music! Ally works there so we got in for free which was cool and then we drank WAY to much and danced away! Then on Saturday it was Ally's Birthday and we, for some reason were up really early! We decided to go to Primark (this AWESOME cheap store where you can get SO much cool cheesy stuff) to get some 'outfits' for the afternoon pup crawl! We decided to be 80's aerobic instructors! So of course we looked awesome after gong through Primark and getting all the clothes! Long story short we ended up going on a pub crawl from Shephards Bush to Acton Town (otherwise referred to as Action Town) which was SO much fun, but I spent way to much money and drank way to much, but I had THE BEST TIME! So that's all that matters really lol!

So last nigth I stayed in and got some Indian take away because it's SO good over here! Plus it was my uncle and aunts 27th wedding anniversary (they've been married since they were 22 I think!!) so they went out so I decided to do nothing all ngiht! Good night in actually so I'm glad that I finally did nothing! Tonight I'm gong out with my old school mates which will be good fun! We're gong to dinner first and then kind of doing a pub crawl! So yeah... still having a blast! Missing some people at home, but as my mother pointed; I have such an opportunity to see everything! PLUS I might be going to Egypt with Ally and it's only going to cost me about £1000!! How cool is that?!?!?!

Anyhoo... must go and work out whether I'll be able to save £1000 in the time that I have.. we'll see I think! Hope that everyone is well!

~Jess~

Lazy Jess

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 16:02:49 GMT

Well I haven't updated in a while, so I probably should. I've just been so lazy! I quit the job that I had because it was crap and I dind't like it! So now my new job is just boring as anything because I don't do anything! Today I got to photocopy stuff! Oh well... at least I'm getting paid for it! It's good though because it's only part time, so I only have to work 4 hours a day. Granted I'm obviously not gettig that much money in, but I think for the time being I'll be ok. I've still got money from Australia if I need it, though I'm trying not to touch it so that I'll ahve something when I get back!!

So what's been going on... well my Birthday was great fun! I lost the sack races and the egg and spoon races, as well as the three legged races because I couldn't stop laughing! Damn those two bottles of Midori... it was SUCH a nice day! Like 27 degrees, it was as if the sun decided to just come out for me and it made me feel really good! Man United was good. I got a bear off Brian McClair which was exciting! We went out at night time which was really good fun and my Aunt came out with us as well! We had a great evening, though everyon was really tired from the days festivities (except me lol who was still going!!). The weekend after that I went to a party and Liam and China's which I wasn't planning on drinking at, but I did something stupid that made me realise I'm def gay, so I decided to have a couple of drinks and can't really remember much of what happened! I did have a sore neck for a couple of weeks. The injury apparently occured when I was dancing and then hit my head on the table that I was dancing on or near to... not to sure to be honest! Last weekend I went to my Aunts house down South for my cousins 8th birthday party which was a lot of fun as I just got a little drunk with my Aunt and some of her friends! Good times!! Of corse this was after the party with the parents of the children who came lol! I was sick all weekend though because Ive got a stupid cold, but as Liam explained, you just need to drink through it and you'll be right!

Softball tournament this weekend which is quite exciting!! It's where you put your name down and then get randomly assigned to a team! Unfortunately I'm with no one I know, but that's cool because it just means I'll make more friends! Ooo and you get extra points at lunch time (coz it's abig picnic) if you have things like cucumber sandwiches, PIMMS (gross stuff), A butler and silly things like that! It just made me laugh!! So that should be a great day! Then at night time I'm going out with a mate for her birthday (who is also playing softball) so we're all going to be exhausted by the time we get out lol! Oh well! Just have to have a few "pink lemonades" during the day to keep us energised!!

Hope that everyone is well!! I'm going well apart form my cold! I have a phone interview with Flight Centre tomorrow which will hopefully go well!! Then off to Spain in 4 anda bit weeks which is really exciting! Best be off!! I need to start cooking dinner as I said I would tonight! We'll see how it turns out!

~Jess~

EDIT:: I forgot to mention that I'm NOT going out tonight! First night off in YONKS! It's great... what do I do?

Training With United!!

Thu, 31 May 2007 12:36:59 GMT

Ok, so this Saturday (my Birthday, just for the record!!) I will be TRAINING WITH SOME POEPLE FROM MANCHESTER UNITED!! That's right! Training at their grounds and everything! My new boss asked me along/I asked why I wasn't invited and he siad it's coz I'm a girl and I got angry and he said he was only joking and said that I could come! So yeah! That's what I'm doing on Saturday, along with everything else! Quite exciting really!!

Hope that everyone is well! I'll let you all know how I go!

~Jess~

Pictures

Mon, 28 May 2007 20:51:39 GMT

Hey everyone! I felt that it was high time I did a picture update! I won't do too many, just a few. I know that they should be behind a cut, but I can't remember how to do them as it's been so long and I also can't really be bothered to be honest! So that's why I'm only putting two on here!

Me with a bear in San Antonio
Me with curly hair
Me with curly hair again!

So.. it's my birthday this weekend! This past year has gone so quickly! I mean I remember my last birthday like it was yesterday... it's SO weird! It was a good one as well! So what am I doing this year? Well I've decided to have a fun day! So Ally's coming up from London for startrs! So I'll go and meet her at the station, then we're going to go to a local park and we're going to have a 'Big Kids Party'! There's going to be sack races (though probably garbage bags...), egg and spooon races, three legged races! It's going to be fun which is what I want! I'll get to hang out with friends and family and we're all just going to be going nuts! We're going to be having fairy bread as well which is going to be great ooo and also lolly bags! I know that it's quite childish, but it's what I want to do and I think it'll be fun!! Then at night time we're going out to this place called Pun-na-na or something like that! My cousin is organising it all so we'll see!! Then Sunday we're all going to Lyme Park on a walk which is going to be like old times over here! I'm quite excited about it all!!

In other news... I've been searching for a job for about 4 days now and still nothing, so I'm in a bit of a 'no job depression' but I'm sure I'll swing out of it! I just need to really pimp myself out there and hope for the best! I did have an interview the other day, but I am SO underqualified, that I don't even know how I ended up with an interview for it! But I did manage to get a few laughs out of the interviewers which was good! They said that I cheered them up on a Friday afternoon so I guess that's a good thing! At least I managed to cheer someone up :) So tomorrow's job is to find a job lol! Well I'm gong to all the Temping agencies that I know of! And then hopefully I'll get something!

Friday night was a good night actually! I met up with my friends from school here and we all went out! I'm trying to go through a de-tox at the moment due to the excessive amounts of alcohol I seem to be consuming over here, however that lasted about 5 minutes lol! But I had an awesome night! Just chilling with everyone! It was such a good night... the only thing was that I couldn't dance because we just went to bars in Chorlton! Which is apparently quite a good lesbian hang out, though I didn't really see anyone interesting. The best thing was that I somehow only managed to spend £10 all night... which I don't get at all, so people must have been buying me drinks or something! Then Saturday I caught up with B and T and their friends from London! Good to get my Australian fix! We hung out and their friends are really nice! Then Saturday night I stayed in... it's really weird, but I find it weird now staynig home on Friday and Saturday nights... I never used to feel weird, but I do now! But at least here I have heaps of people to go out with and we all have a fun time! Everyone thinks I'm nuts over here though, but it's just who I am!

Anyway... I guess that this is a long enough entry now. Sorry for taking up your friends pages. Oh and I know I've put weight on... that's America for you, however I am currently losing it! I've lost 3.5" of my waist already just from doing these exercises... plus all the sport I'm doing! Oh and what do you all think of my hair long? I like it at the moment and I'm keeping it blonde for a while coz I like it! Hope that everyone is well!!

~Jess~

Greetings from England

Sat, 19 May 2007 13:02:35 GMT

Heya all... so i've been a little lazy and haven't really gotten on here. Well more to the point, I just haven't had the time! I'm in Manchester at the moment where I will be until I get back from Spain. Did I mention that I'm going to Spain in July? Well I am!! Going to be good fun! I'm going with my cousins and thier partners (well only two cousins but yeah...)! We've only got one way tickets and will come back when we feel like it! I'm really enjoying myself at the moment. I don't have my parents telling me what to do all the time, I just feel free to try and be myself. I'm going through a few internal issues as everyone does. I don't think that I really like my father... He's an arse and I've got to learn to accept that eh's never going to be the man that Iw ant him to be... so tough there! Other things like moving on.. wondering about my sexuality etc. Like I know what it is, it's just hard for me bceause as much as I try ad not fit in; I like to with certain things, but I guess I won't. But yeah... thoes things going through my head!

It's been SO good though catching up with all my old school friends! Alittle weird at first, but now we go out quite a bit and it's just been good! Ireally should post some pictures I think... sorry, been a alittle slack in that department. I'm in the process (well I will be come Monday) of finding myself a job as my funds are starting to run low a little! But I guess that's what happens when it costs $10 for a drink once you convert it! I still cannot believe that I am here! It's SO cool! The weathers getting me down alittle, but I guess the people are making up for it! They're accepting me for who I am!

I am SO annoyed that I haven't been on here lately because if I had then I would have known that there was going to be another Xena Con in two weeks... ON MY BIRTHDAY! I mean what a present that would have been, but alas I cannot go which sucks beyond all belief. I had SO much fun at the con this year, and really want to go next year, but i'm going to wait until 2009 I think. I'll ask Leila to get me a gold class ticket for 2009 and I'll be there! So look out poeples! I'm sure that I'll be seeing some old faces again which will be good!

Been to London a couple of times which has been good! I saw Ally the other day which was SO good because I haven't seen her in SOOOo long! It's scary! We had dinner with a few of my other friends which was fun! Briony who I worked with in Canberra, Nick and Campbell who i met on Contiki and Briony's boyfriend! It was a good night, and I'll tell you what... off licences are great!

All righty... I should go. It's the FA Cup final today whcih is quite important here, and I'm supposed to be meeting up with some friends from school for lunch/early dinner! So tat will be nice! Oooo and my hair is gettig SOOOoo long! It's past my shoulders now which is a lot for me! So I'm growing it to Dark Angel Season 2 length and then I'll see how I go! Oh, and it's staying blonde for a while because I prefer it lighter! I hope that everyone is going well! Hugs to everyone!

~Jess~

In New York...

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 05:51:38 GMT

..on Wednesday! So I'm in New York State, which means that I am closer to the "Big Apple". I'm only going to be there for a couple of days before flying down to Orlando to see my dear friend Ronald! I wrote a mass email to people with what's been going on with me, so I figured that I might as well copy and paste it on here incase people are not on my mailing list...

Yes I am still alive! Just rather exhausted, but luckily for me I'm with Beckster now, so it's rather relaxing here! She has a lovely home, and her husband, son and herself have made me feel very welcome which is nice! I am currently in the process of trying to find somewhere to stay when i'm in New York and it's driving me nuts! Hahaha I guess that I just don't want to spend a tonne of money on accomodation! Plus, i'm only going to be there for a couple of days... so I really need somewhere that is central as wel as VERY safe!! It's really annoying me!!

So anyhoo... what have I been up to?!?!? Well I went to Toronto to see my cousins that I have there! It was really cool finally putting faces to names! A little annoying when you know who they are, but have NO idea what they look like. And as I have found in the past, pictures are always SO misleading! So it was good! I really liked Toronto. It's somewhere that I could see myself living... the only problem is the freezing cold that is down up there! It was like -10degrees CELCIUS! I can honestly say that I have never been in weather that cold before! It was just insane!! So what did we get up to? Well on Friday Janet and Danny picked me up from the bus station (a nice, short 19 hour ride!), then we went to run some errands before going to their house which was lovely! Then I had a nice shower which is always good! Then Danny and I took Cleo for a walk where we met Megan! My cousin who is just a little bit younger then me, only by like 6 months or something. She's so cool, and I felt that we got along really well, so I hope that we will continue to stay in touch. On Saturday night we went out and had a couple of drinks which was really nice and we went to this really cool restaurant where you get like this card as you walk in and just put everything on it and then pay on the way out (because this place had SO muhc stuff lol). It was kinda bad though becuase you didn't realise how much you were spending hahaha! Oh well! Still had a good time! I've got some photo's from my time there which of course, when I get the chance I will upload them all and send them out! On Sunday we went to this really cool place, that reminded me of a lost part of a city! So we stopped there, had a beer and then went home! Then Monday I went exploring in Toronto and then got my flight off to Halifax.

Enter Halifax adventures! So I get to the airport in Toronto and find that my plane has been delayed by an hour which was fine, because I just sat and read my book and bumed around and tried to call a few people back home... I was stressing because I didn't have my other cousins phone number, but managed to get through in the end. So I didn't end up getting to her house until about 11.30pm which I felt bad about, but Sheilagh said that she usually stays up that late anyway, so it was fine! Then we stayed up chatting for a little bit and then I went to sleep! Got up early in the morning to have breakfast with Sheilagh and then got ready to go and explore the city. For a capital city it wasn't that big, but it made my life a lot easier for it! I managed to find this really nice pub and had a "pub lunch" (of course not as good as the proper ones in England!) adn then went on exploring and ended up at the Art Museum because they had this AWESOME show on Ancient Egypt! It was amazing! Apparently I made quite an impression on one of the ladies that was there because I kept on asking questions, and then she was asking me questions about where I was from etc and she told me how I was very brave for going off on my own travelling etc! Then, on my way out, the lady at reception told me about hw she was raving about this girl from Australia. Now I'm not one to know much about Art, but this lady thought that I was VERY interested lol! So then I got back to Sheilaghs and then we went over to one of her friends' house for dinner and a suprise baby shower. They were SUCH lovely people there! It was SO cool and very kind of them to welcome me into their house not even knowing me! I had a really good evening there! Then on the Wednesday I met my cousin Claire whom I apparently looked a lot like when I was younger! When I first saw her, she looked a lot like my mother and I got a little fright, but alas that went away after a few seconds! She told me that I looked a lot like my mother which made me laugh because that's exactly what Sheilagh said to me when she first saw me! So we spent the afternoon together which was realy nice and she was telling me a few sroties about my mother!! That made me laugh!! Then Sheilagh picked us up and we went to visit my (Great) Aunt and we had a nice dinner with her. She didnt remember who I was, but that's ok! We still managed to chat a lot which is always nice! Then I got to meet my other cousins who are more my age and I stayed with them for a couple of hours before heading back to Sheilaghs SO tired! We talked about all kinds of things which was good, and it was pretty exciting to finally meet them both! I also got to meet one of their friends who just made me laugh all the time because I just could not understand his jokes!

On Thursday morning I said goodbye to Sheilagh which was sad because I really like her and wish so much that I culd have stayed with her for longer. I went and met up with Claire agian for morning coffee and we chatted away which was nice! I then went off to the airport and got my plane to Toronto and met up with Megan for dinner. This is about when I was told that my sister was sick (please keep her in you thoughts people!!!). Well they don't know what's wrong with her and she's now been in hospital for about two days and they're doing all kinds of tests on her... I just hope that she's ok! I called her when I got off the plane and tried to cheer her up, but ost of the time i had tears coming down my face because I just wish that I was there to give her a big hug and tell her that she'd feel better. But I couldn't :(

Got a little sidetracked there... so Megan and I met up and we went out to dinner which was really nice of her because she had been workin all day on her placement and then came into the city to meet up with me, and then she went home and slept because she had to work the next day. But we had a nice chat over dinner... well I did most the talking like usual!! Then we said goodbye and I went to get my bus down to Geneva to see Beckster!

Enter Geneva! So I got to my layover place called Rochester where I waited fr about 3 hours for my connecting bus and it just starting to snow like crazy outside! I have NEVER seen anything like it! It reminded me of those days when it really pours outside in the Mountains! From when I got there and to when I left there was a good 7 cm of snow everywhere! It was alittle insane! I managed to get through to Linda to wish little Nic a happy birthday! And we spoke for a little bit, and then I attempted to sleep for a little while. Then I got my bus here and Beckster met me at the terminal and we came back here, where of course I had a shower because I felt icky! Then her husband came home from work and I met him! He's such a nice guy! He has his priorities right! His family is the most important thing to him which i think that some people need to learn! I also met Christian, Becky's son! He is SUCH a little character! So smart for his age and he's full of great come backs! It's SO funny! Of cours I just laugh at him and encourage him!

So we went out for lunch with her parents and then came back here and packed to go to Niagara Falls. We left here about 3.30ish which was good and got there about 5ish I think it was. We of course got stopped on the border and let me say... I was rather impressed with the Canadian Border person! Quite goodlooking :) So we got through no problem and found our hotel which was SO nice and roomy! Oh and did I mention that we were staying at CLIFTON HILL?!?!?! We then walked down to the Falls. They were mostly frozen! It was SO beautiful!! I tried to get some night time shots, but they didn't turn out, so I do have some whch of course will be uploaded later! Then we went to this nice place called The Rainforest Cafe where there are all these fake animals around which was really cool! Christian realy like it! I did as well of course being the child that I am lol! Then on Saturday we went to this really cool place, kind of like an op shop and I was in op shop heaven! It was awesome! Of course I'm saivng my buying for New York, but this place was still cool! Then we got this really cool card thing that came with all these included attractions etc and I was realy impressed! We got like 15 game tockens and got lots of tickets for Christian, got to go on a couple of rides (one kept breaking down, so we got to go a few times), we also got to go to The Wax Museum and also on the Ferris Wheel! Josh and I also went to Draulas (I think it was called) this indoor spook house kind of thing! It was really cool, but quite scary lol! Josh got a good laugh out of me being scared! We then ordered pizza in and just relaxed!

Sunday we went and got some breakfast and then went to this store that was going bankrupt, and there was a "sale" 60-80% off stuff... well let me say! You would not believe their idea of a sale! Things were still like $400!! I was just in shock! So we left thre pretty quickly and then drove over the border (US border people are REALLY scary. "Make sure that you're out of the country by this date. Can I please see you ticket? I need proof that you're going to leave...SCARY) and went to this Mall which was HUGE and it had a Cheesecake Factory in it (that place ROC's!!) which we were all too full to go to! Then we walked around for alittle bit and went home! Today Beckster and I went to this cool Glass blowing factory and got to make our own cookie jrs. Mine looks slightly dodgy! I was triyng to be too creative me thinks... Becky's look SO cool! We then got to see how they actually blow the glass which was nice... but then the guy destroyed his work... weird! Tonight we went to the movies to see "The Number 23" which was actually really quiite good! I got to meet some of Becky's friends as well which was cool. Now I'm just typing the end of this and am rather relieved now that I have my accomodation booked for New York!

I must bid everyone goodnight! I hope that everyone is well. Please keep my little sister in your thoughts! I just wish that I could give her a big hug, but I'm over here, so I cna't. But I know that my mother will do for me!! I will try and get some photo's out! We'll see how I go! Off to NEw York in a couple of days and then to see Ronald which is going to be awesome! Love to everyone!

Love always

Jess

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"Girls kick arse. It says so on the t-shirt"

Okies... so that was my long arse email! If anyone from here wants to be included on that let me know, because I've beena little slack with the updating, but emailing I'm a little better at!

Hope everyone is well!

~Jess~

Long time... here's what's been going on!

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 20:57:57 GMT

So lets see what's been going on. I went on my Contiki tour and got REALLY sick! So I still have a bad cough which isn't very good and I am still a bit snotty. The tour was really good, though I didn't really fit in very well with all of the people because they're all (according to me) alcoholics! I couldn't believe that they would go out night after night and just drink! It's an insane waste of money that can be spent on other things! I made some good friends though, who also didn't really get into the partying! I got to see SO much which was great. I went to San Diego which was beautiful. I caught up with Jen, the American exchange student that was over in AUstralia at our school. Do you remember her? She said that I can go and stay with her when I get back to the west coast which was nice! I also went to Tijuana in Mexico whcih was a lot of fun! BUT I don't like Mexican food from Mexico! I like the Old el Paso stuff that you can get back home! Oh and NO WHERE here (like restaurants) has veggies! I mean it's really weird! I feel SO deprived! So then we went to Scottsdale in Arizona (Jennifer Aniston lives there, but alas I did not see her). We saw some of those HUGE cactus thingos... I think hat they're called Sedona's or something like that and I have pictures, but this computer doesn't have a USB port in it, so I can't send them! But be warned that I will hopefully soon be able to send them! Then we stopped at Sedona for lunch which was nice and we were playing this game on the tour to get to know other people where you had to "assasinate" them (joking around of course) so no one would do anything on their own... like they wouldn't even go to the toilet! It was rather amusing! Then we went to the Grand Canyon and it was BEAUTIFUL! It reminded me a lot of Australia which made me even more home sick! It's really weird actually! So yeah, it was beautiful there! Then we went to Vegas (where I've already been) so it wasn't really all that exciting for me really! Then onto Bass Lake which was so good and where I got this horrible cold! And it was freezing there! Oh and did I mention that it was snowing at the Grand Canyon?!?!!?

So Bass Lake is near Yoesementi National park which reminded me of home AGAIN so I got a little more home sick and all I wanted was a hug to make me feel better (you know when you're sick and you just need a loving hug?), but didn't get one, so I still need one! So we did a little hiking there which was good. Then I got to San Francisco, and although it's a beautiful place, I wasn't really a HUGE fan of it! I got to go to Alcatrez though which was SO nice and I really enjoyed that one! I also went to the Palace of Fine Arts which was SO beautiful from the outside, i just sat and starred at it! Amazing place, it really was! And then yesterday I left there to come here to Seattle. 22 hours later on a bus! It wasn't actually that bad because it was mostly night time, so I can't really complain all that much. I didn't get murdered, stabbed or shot which is also a major bonus in my book! I did meet some interesting characters, but who doens't right? SO I am now in the city where Dark Angel was set and there's only ONE main thing that I want to see here and that's the Space needle! So I am only here for two days... then onto Chicago on a nice, short two day bus ride!

Sorry if you're on my mailing list and have already read this! I just copied and pasted it from my email! Hope that everyone is well! THought that I should update!

~Jess~

Happy New Year

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 01:06:48 GMT

Yes... it's that time of year again to make those resolutions that some people never intend on keeping. I myself do not usually make them; the last one I made was the grow my hair to my shoulders and then I could do whatever I wanted to do with it. So I grew it to my shoulders! Very good self control on my part, and I think that's more what I got out of the whole resolution exercise. So this year... I am doing a few more self control resolutions. I am growing my hair to my boobs so that I can kind of have Jessica Alba's hair in Season 2 of Dark Angel, I am going to try and exercise more and eat more healthily. That's all. Things which I personally think are attainable! I will be going travelling in 10 more days and I have a feeling that I will be doing a lot of exericse then (mainly walking), when I get to the UK I am aiming to join a soccer team and play for them! In regards to eating more healthily, I am trying to work out how to do that when o/s when I'll be eating out a lot. So I think that I am going to try as hard as possible when in the US, but once I hit the UK, it's going to be serious. The thing is that I refuse to go on a diet, and also I am not saying that I do not eat healthily now, I just have cravings for chocolate and satisfy my cravings. I am going to try my hardest to resist those cravings! We'll see how I go! So they're not really life changing or anything!

So what did I get up to last night? Well as nerdy as it sounds, Peter came over and we played Neverwinter Nights all night! Until 4 this morning actually and I had SO much fun! It was something different, that I really enjoy! I managed to get my character up to being a shifter, so I cna change into animals... the majorly exciting one is a Dragon, though he does't do as much damage as the bear, so I am usually the bear! AND I have a panther as a side kick! It's all very exciting for me! So tha's what I go up to! No drinking, just intense junk fooding! Now I am just waiting for Peter to get up so that we can play more lol! I am now addicted which is really bad.

Hope that everyone had a great New Years! Or is having one as may be the case for some people!

~Jess~

Fun in the sun

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 11:06:56 GMT

Okies... so today I went to Manly beach and OMG did it decide to be a nice day! I am so burnt it's not even funny! I really should take some pictures of how burnt I am and put them on here! It's really bad! BUT a good day was had! I bought a volleyball set yesterday and we set it up and played for a while... then it was lunch time and then cricket! So much fun, and the best part was that I was with some friends from a completely different circle of friends and I really enjoyed myself!

Hahaha... so boxing day was great fun! My mother cooked for us (meaning my sister, her boyfriend and myself) and it was SO nice! She was so intoxicated it's not even funny!! SO lunch/dinner was really nice! Then I raced back up the mountains to go to Katrina and Matts birthday celebrations and proceeded to get slightly intoxicated there! It suck because they're going away today overseas for six weeks and that means that was the last time that I'll see them for a while as I am leaving in like FOURTEEN DAYS! So exciting!! Then I came home and went to sleep. Yesterday I had to go and help my supervisor (the one that I have/had a crush on) pack down all the Santa stuff. So that was fun because we just talked the whole time, and let me tell you something... she is SO smart! She'll start talking about something so passionately and just by looking at her eyes you can tell what she's going to say! It's amazing! I think that my crush has grown more into something else now because I REALLY enjoy being her friend and just ebing able to chat about things. It's just awesome and I am SO grateful to her because she has made me finally realise that I am ready to get back out there and that I have gotten over Nat (though one is NEVER fully over their ex's I don't think). She also taught me something which I LOVE! "Assume that every woman is gay until proven otherwise" I really like that philosophy! So then we had our work Christmas party for Santa photos... and only Tais and I went hahaha but it's all good because we had a good time! Well I know that I did... but we were laughing the whole time, so I assume that she did! We chatted about so many different things it was just awesome! I actually really miss having someone there to talk to. Poor thing probably by the end of it was like "Jess, just be quiet" because as tose who know me I do tend to talk quite a bit! So had a good night!

Now I am just exhausted and want to go to sleep! It's my sisters 21st birthday on Saturday and I have to make her a music video otherwise I will be shot... so that's what I am doing tomorrow! Oooo and I got to speak to Brooke tonight and Gods do I miss her! BUT I've got to think that one day we'll be off travelling around Europe together! So it's all good!

Off to sleep now! Hope that everyone is well and had a great Christmas, and have a great New Years!

~Jess~

I am still alive!!

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 03:27:30 GMT

I know, I know! I haven’t updated in forever… I have just been so busy! So here’s a quick run down of what’s been going on! At the moment I’m at work, so I can’t post any pictures apart from the ones from the work Christmas party… I’ll only post a few though… or maybe one because to be honest I don’t really like them. I’ll see how I feel in a bit! So basic run down:

-Been working too much! Now that I am working at both Santa photos AND Ericsson it’s taking a slight toll on me and my ability to do anything other than nothing and work. I am in the process of making a travel blog so I will let everyone know the details of that when it comes! Had the work Christmas party last Wednesday and had a few drinks… Thursday I was feeling like poo poo and had to work 12 hours! So needless to say I wasn’t going very well by the end of the day! I managed to survive which was good and then just crashed when I got home! The on Friday night I went to Canberra (in the evening) for my old works Christmas Party which I was invited to! So I got a little drunk there as well. Then on Saturday I went and saw The Canberra Xena Gang which was a lot of fun, and when I saw Leila and Hayley and smelt the “Leila” smell I got some tears in my eyes because I miss the old times! So that was good fun there… then I got the bus back up here and had to work on Sunday! Then Sunday afternoon I met up with some friends from school at Bents Basin which was really nice and even better because it didn’t rain!

- This is my second last day at Ericsson and it’s GREAT! I cannot wait until I finish up here and then on Sunday will be my last day at Santa Photo’s and then I won’t have to work again until April next year which is awesome! So I am VERY happy about that one! I managed to hit my savings target as well which is great and I just hope that I won’t have to bail anyone out next year, though I doubt that I will! Did I mention that I am going to be seeing LUCY LAWLESS live in concert?!?!?!

- I went to Brisbane on the 4th of December for a week which was a lot of fun! I got to see Katelyn and everyone and it was sad leaving there because it really does feel like my second home up there! I cannot wait til I move up there! It should be good fun! So we went to Wet’n’Wild which was good! I met someone that I chat to on MSN which was awesome because I got to meet her partner and their daughter who is SO cute it’s not even funny! Oh and I got my nose pierced which was really painful but I like it! I also got to see Katelyn’s new horse who is SO cute! She’s only about a month old now and she’s going to train her up to do all this cool dressage stuff! Very exciting! So yeah… I had a blast up there and didn’t really want to come back here, but life goes on and I have to remember that I am a big girl now! No longer a teenager!

So it’s only 20 days until I leave this great country on my soul searching mission! I am going to write a novel about it, and have actually already started which is pretty exciting! It should be good and I will try and post it on here… this is of course if it gets knocked back when I try and get it published! Ok… I can’t really be bothered uploading these photo’s… I will at some point. Probably next week when I have time to but as I am at work and doing not much and can’t find the photo’s I have decided that I’ll just bombard everyone next week with them! I hope that everyone has a great Christmas! If anyone has any questions about what’s been going on with me then reply to my post. The reason why I haven’t posted much is because people don’t seem to reply to my posts… anyhoo! All good!

Merry Christmas everyone!! Happy New Year as well!

~Jess~

Long Time

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 04:52:00 GMT

Yes, I do realise that it's been a while! Shte hit the fan with a few things and it wasn't cool... basically I didn't end up going to my cousins wedding because I thought that I should tell my dad and he told me that if I went he'd never talk to me again... so yeah... emotional!! However... I thought that I might upload some pics for everyone to see!!

Last weeked Brooke had a going away thingo coz she went to Japan on Thursday (missing her already)... so I've got a few from that... not too many today otherwise it'll be over load!! Yesterday was Craig's engagement party, so he decided to use the camera on my phone to take some pics!! The phone was set on sports (so it took like 10 in a row really quickly!!) so I've got most the sports ones!!

Click on the link

Random me 1

Random me 2

Random me 3

Random me 4

Random me 5

Brookie and I

Alexia and I

Simone, Brooke, Myself and Rohini

So that's about it! Hope that everyone enjoyed!!

Apologies to people on my flist. To be honest I have not had a single chance to read up on everyones entries, so if there's anything major going on could you please post it in a comment and I will go and read and catch up and hopefully try and help you out, or just give you a giant virtual HUG!!! I just havne't really been up to doing anything as I am SO exhausted. I just said goodbye to my best friend and I don't know when I'll see her again, however she is having a BLAST in Japan which is GREAT!!!! Then in 28 days I'll be in Brisbane!! AND in 2 months and a tiny bit I'll be in the States which will be great because I'll be out there on my own and I will be off venturing the world!!

Laters!!

~Jess~

Photo's!!

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 22:51:07 GMT

Morning all! I've got this great nack of now sleeping in until... 7am!! Oh teh joy of it all!! So yesterday I went to Canberra to get the rest of my stuff from Nats and I got to see Pen as well so it was good! Mum and I were on SUCH a tight schedule it just wasn't funny, however I managed to get in a cup of tea with Nat and Pen before going onto our next destination!! It was good to see them both again! I do miss them! And as I was sitting there drinking my tea.. a little nervous as you get!! I was thinking "I'm glad that she's now happy! Hopefully we'll remain friends." Now I realise that this is going to be hard, but ya know what? I don't care! Life isn't meant to be easy so this isn't going to be an exception. Yeah she made a mistake, but we all do right? I know this was a rather large one... but who doesn't!! SOooo I actually felt rather good leaving there because I realised something: I know what I want from Nat now, and it's her friendship. I know that I should hate her and have these horrible feelings towards her and I don't really. I may get angry sometimes, but I think it's more with the situation than anything. And I feel like i'm supposed to be feeling something, like anger and I don't.. so I think it's the situation and myself that I get angry with! So at least now I know what I want! I just hope that i'm right!!

So then... I GOT TO MEET MORE COUSINS!! These ones are on my mothers side! OMG... talk about cool!! Maggie has the coolest hair and I want it! AND I can have it because she has the Henry hair like I do!!! SO we all just sat and chattd for AGES! It was SO cool! However, she's thinking about moving back here from England in February next year (so I won't get to see her when I'm in England because that's where she's living)becase she want's to go to Uni and be close to her mother and Brother who live here... so I don't know what's going to happen there! Time will tell I guess!!

Anyhoo... and enjoy!!

This is Maggie, Brendan and I!!

This is Brendan, Maggie and my mother

This is them again!!

So anyone notice any family resemblences? Isn't it weird how we're all cousins!! I just find it great!! All this family! I'll be meeting their father in Canada next year which will be fun!!

Also below are some pictures from Kat's party last weekend! There are heaps, however I'm just going to put up these two coz I like them!!

This is Katrina and Linda! Katrina was the one that got married, and Linda is my best friend! Well more like sister! I've known here for as long as I can remember!!

This is Linda and I! Though we both don't really look too much like ourselves lol!!

So let me know what you think of the photo's!!

Alcohol = not so good

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 22:40:46 GMT

Well last night was great! until... i found out that some of my friends were sending Nat msg's and I was just like WTF is going on here? Then I get this msg from her saying "Consider yourself left alone..." and I was SO confused... so I called her in my extremly intoxicated state... i feel awful for what's happened and now I'm stressing that she won't talk to me ever again... what to do? I haven't really been able to sleep. I woke up at 5am after going to be at 3am and I really just cannot seem to sleep because I just need to talk to her about it all. But I'm going to hold off calling until about 10am so that she can get some sleep! I've got a killer headache and am not feeling 100%. The good thing is that I haven't thrown up yet and if you know me, that's really good. I did manage to hurt my wrist somehow... i think it was when i tripped over the curb, however I can't pin point how it happened. It was great to see everyone again last night, like pople from high school and everything, andwhat was even better... the people that I didn't like weren't even there! Everyone was rather intoxicated, and we were trying, well everyone except for Linda and I was!! to finish the 5 kegs that were there. Linda and I somehow managed to get trhough two 4 packs of cruisers and then we went onto the UDLs (hahaha I know! SO year 9 party drinks!!).. so between the two of us we went through a fair chunck, and considering we both don't drink all that often we did a pretty good job! We started drinking about 4.30pm and didn't stop til about 1am... I was SO suprised that I wasn't passed out by then!

Ok... I'm going to go and have a shower as I can't seem to sleep and then I might grab some breakfast... try and get rid of this monster headache of mine... watch a movie and then try and call Nat and then fit my sisters smoke alarm for her and then go home back to my mothers house. Good news is however that it's not as hot today! I will update with photo's from yesterday when I can be bothered to upload them!

Laters

~Jess~

PS... Nat's I'm really sorry about my friends... they're just worried about me! And they are good friends, they have really been here for me over the past two months which is what I've needed more than anything.

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 01:24:34 GMT

Yes, I realise that I haven't updated in AGES... it might have something to do with my hectic social life that seems to have become since moving back up here! Every weekend since I have been back I have been busy!! My next free weekend, like so that I can have time to myself isn't until the middle of DECEMBER! That's right people... December! So what's been going on? Well my Grandparents have been here so I've been trying to see them as much as I possibly can! So the other weekend I was up the Mountains seeing them. We had this huge BBQ thing here with all Dad's freinds and with Grandma and Grandpa and it was such a lovely day! We all had a good day! Then that night Iw ent over to Lindas for the NRL Grandfinal with the intention of watching the game, instead Linda, Katrina, Vicki, Sharon and I all just sat and talking for AGES! Then the guys came out and they joined in! It was a good night! Then on the public holiday Grandma, Grandpa and I went off to Windsor and I got a dress for my cousins wedding that I'm not supposed to see, let alone go to his wedding!! So that was nice! Then last weekend I went to Newcastle to meet my other cousins who is AWESOME! I met her three children as well and they all loved me! Hhahaha I don't know why children seem to latch onto me, but they do! So I stayed there... had a couple of beers then came home! Don't worry... I was sobered up by the tme I drove! Then on Sunday my mother and I went on a 9kn bush walk! That's right!! 9km! It was really good, thougha little windy!! Then I've just worked all week! Now today is Katrina's wedding party! She got married in Fiji and didn't tell anyone and now thy're having this HUGE party! So needless to say much fun will be had by all!! I'm going to be pretty intoxicated I think! Next weekend I'm off to Canberra to get the rest of my stuff from Nat's house AND my cuosins are going to be down there as well! These ones I'm allowed to see! One is visiting her mother from England and the other Canada! So I'll be meeting them and then hopefully next year I'll be able to catch up with them as well! Shuld be a great day! Then Sunday is another BBQ for my Grandparents because it will (according to my father) be the last time that I see them! However the weekend after that is my cousins wedding! Soooo that will be fun! The weekend after that is my other friends engagement party... I can't even think further than that weekend! Too hectic! But I am really happy now that I'm back up here! I forgot how much I enjoyed my independence! It's also making me realise a few things about myself and about Nat and I's relationship which is good! Won't go into those now though! I'm in a great mood! Just not too happy about this bloody 39 degree heat that seems to have decided to come! Anyhoo... must dash off to my sisters house! To be honst I haven't had time to read anyones journals so I'm sorry if anythng major has happened and I haven't read it. If it's something that youy want to talk about leave it in a comment or call me! That is for those in Australia :P

Laters!

~Jess~

Graduation!!!

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 08:31:16 GMT

So yesterday I had graduation!! Thanks to the people who wished me luck. Under the cut are some pics of me and my family and friends! Let me know what ya'll think!!

This is my sister and I!!

This is myself with two friends!!

MY motehr and I!!! Notice the similarities?

My Grandparents and I!

And finally... lil old me :)

It was just good to spend the day with my family... my mother and father didn't argue once which was SO good and we all went out to dinner together with my grandparents and it just meant so much to me! Such a lovely day. I got a little upset about something which I'm not even going to mention merely out of fear that I'll, again say something wrong.