Sometimes I find myself looking at him, watching as he goes about doing his own things, unable to tear my eyes away. My heart twists- but not in an unpleasant way. It's that little twinge that tells me that I love him.

I find myself thinking about how lucky I am. Here is the man who loves me as much as I love him. The man who thinks I'm the most beautiful girl in the world and declares it like it's the simple truth. The man with whom I share everything with and loves me as I am.

In many ways, he makes me feel secure. He brings purpose to my life and gives me many reasons to smile. He makes me look forward to the future.

He makes me believe in forever :)

This Saturday, I will be flying back to Singapore and leaving my love behind again. This time, we're going to be apart for even longer than before. I'll have the whole flight back to think about it before being whisked away into the life of an adult. New job, new responsibilities, etcetera, etcetera...

The only thing I look forward to is seeing my friends again and looking for an apartment for myself (since I won't be getting married anytime soon, I absolutely refuse to stay with my parents until that day arrives. yuck).

I'm putting off packing my things until the last possible moment.... but let me check if my passport hasn't gone missing.............

....... okay good. It's still there.

See you soon, Muni :)

So it's been decided. I will leave for Germany. I still need time to come to terms with it, but at the moment, I'm quite glad I'm going. Living in this hellhole serves to remind me of the peace I will get when I'm out of here. Money-grubbing, privacy-disrespecting, constantly-yelling parents are what I don't want to live with for the rest of my life, and if I don't get out of here as soon as possible, I might never will.

So, dear God, please let these 44 days pass by as quickly as possible. Thank you!

My Wishlist

1) Maxi Dress
2) Winter Clothes
3) Back and Shoulder Massage
4) Nokia X3
5) Cool Winter Boots
6) Black Ear Mufflers