i'll never make love in this town again

BACK!!!!!!!!

2005-05-24T21:44:38Z

finally an update!!!

so whats been going on with me since i've been gone:
- class ended for the semester.
- going to shows (he is legend, receiving end of sirens, thin dark line, ATFEH)
- working

today i have no school or work so i went out to best buy and bought some awesome sony headphones and Rounders and The Boondock Saints dvd's.

..and check out myspace- xxxx

-peace

_buried_a_lie @ 2005-03-19T21:16:00

2005-03-20T02:26:41Z

dear stephanie-

i'm so sorry for making you feel upset by me being upset. you deserve to be always happy. you are so beautiful to me. you have a gorgeous smile to match that gorgeous soul inside. im so glad i met you and so glad to be able to call you a true friend.

i know i messed up with this whole thing. i dont know why i didnt ask you out or told you how i truly felt about you. i never met someone before that totally took my breath away. whenever im around you i feel so happy. you are truly an awesome person.

my true feelings about you is that i want to be with you so bad. i know id treat you right, the way you ought to be. id do the little things that show you how much i care about you. i just love being around you, if i cant be i love hearing you voice on the phone.

i have never felt so passionate about someone as i feel for you. these last few weeks have prolly been the hardest for me in my whole life. the fact that the person who brings me so much happiness is someone i can't have. these last weeks, my stomach has been fulled with knots that feel like a empty gut feeling.

i just want to let you know that i will never be mad/upset with you ever. i have the most positive feelings about you that i have ever had. knowing that you are taken and that i screwed up what we had is a regret i will always have. i know you prolly dont want to here any of this but its so hard to keep it inside of me. thinking of you not with me bring tears to my eyes cuz i want that so badly.

in closing;
i care about you alot. i would do anything to make you smile when your having a bad day. its so weird feeling like this becuz ive never felt so alone in my life. you are amazing!

love you-
bryan

tired.

2005-03-16T03:17:43Z

ive been winning like crazy in poker. won a total of 20+ bucks.

It's only you, beautiful
Or I don't want anyone
If I can choose
It's only you
I shot the pilot
I'm begging you to fly this for me
Broken and bruised
Do you understand?
It's only you, beautiful
Or I don't want anyone
If I can choose
It's only you

work and my weekly dinner w/ steph tomorrow.

WITHOUT YOU

2005-03-13T23:58:09Z

It makes no sense to say
I am happy when you are gone
I love you too much to let you go
Without crying for what we have lost
When you are not here my fantasy is shattered
My dream is incomplete and partial
Life only has so many good days
And they all happen to be when I am with you
Everyday is made for us
Any day without you is useless
You are my morning sunshine
And bedtime story
Without your story I can never sleep again.

survey

2005-03-11T23:08:41Z

Name: Bryan
Do you like it?: Yea
Nicknames: BK
Screen names: buried her lies
Birthday: 12-11-86
Sign: ???
Location: Chase/Essex
School: Essex Comm. College
Status: single and lonely
Crush: Stephanie
Virgin?: no
Natural hair color: dark brown
Current hair color: dark brown
Eye color: hazel
Height: 6'1
Birthplace: Baltimore
Shoe size: 15

[ family ]

Parents: George and Kim
Siblings: younger sister
Live with: my dad
Favorite relative: Jeff

[ favorites ]

Number: 25
Color: gray, red
Day: anyday in summer
Month: June
Song: "Forever" by As I Lay Dying and "She's My Rushmore" by Everytime I Die
Movies: Saw, LOTR, Se7en
Food: Italian
Band: ETID, Fear Before the March of Flames, Norma Jean, Unearth
Season: Summer
Sport: football/baseball
Class: English
Teacher: prolly my current English 102, Prof. Dunnigan
Drink: Miller Hi-Life, Vodka
Veggie: Green Beans
TV Show: Kings of Queens
Radio Station: none
Store: Pac Sun
Word: ?
Animal: Dogs
State: MD or GA

[ this or that ]

Me/You: you
Coke/pepsi: coke
Day/night: night
Cd/cassette: cd
Dvd/vhs: dvd
Jeans/khakis: jeans
Car/truck: truck
Tall/short: shorter than me
Lunch/dinner: lunch
Gap/Old Navy: Old Navy
Lipstick/Lipgloss: doesnt matter
Silver/Gold: Silver
Alcohol/Weed: alcohol

[ the past ]

What is the one thing you would change about your past?: letting other people how i feel about them.
Last thing you heard: ETID - Hit of the Search Party
Last thing you saw: this screen
Last thing you said: "ok"
Who is the last person you saw?: Dad
Who is the last person you kissed?: Stephanie on the forehead
Who is the last person you hugged?: Stephanie
Who is the last person you fought with?: Dad
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: Stephanie
What is the last TV show you saw?: Viva La Bam
What is the last song you heard?: ETID

[ the present ]

What are you wearing?: work pants and my work polo.
What are you doing?: thinking about her.
Who are you talking to?: nobody
What song are you listening to?: nothing
Where are you?: my room
Are you online?: duh
How are you feeling?: awake
Are you in a chatroom?: no

[ have you ever ]

Drank?: yeep
Smoked?: yes
Had sex?: yes
Stolen?: no
Done anything illegal?: yes
Wanted to die?: no
Hit someone?: yeah

[ other ]

Do you write in cursive or print?: usually print
Are you a lefty or a righty?: righty!
What is your sexual preference?: females
What piercings do you have?: none.
Any tattoos?: not yet
Do you drive?: yes
Do you have glasses or braces?: none
Did you like this survey?: sure?
What do you most like about your body?: my height
How many fillings do you have?: one
Do you think you're good looking?: no

[ fashion ]

Do you wear a watch?: nope
How many coats and jackets do you own?: a couple
Favorite pants/skirt color?: my volcom jeans
most expensive item of clothing?: express dress shirts and ties
Most treasured?: my dress shirts
What kind of shoes do you wear?: dvs'
Wardrobe consists of: jeans, and band tees

bayonetwork

2005-03-04T04:16:28Z

internet has been down for the last couple days.

saw norma jean and unearth tuesday. amazing show. the new norma jean cd is fucking amazing.

the show was awesome. best show ever.

left before atreyu = suck. got a norma jean shirt and a poster signed by them.

school today = blows.
work thsi weekend = sucks.

i still miss you!

my one and only

2005-02-26T21:51:25Z

have you ever talked to a person and realized that this person could be your one and only. i often think this about a certain girl. we share the same everything. she is probably the most amazing person i have ever met in my life. i care for her more than any single person not related to me. i have no idea how she thinks of me. its so weird. i love this girl with all my heart <3

_buried_a_lie @ 2005-02-21T21:43:00

2005-02-22T02:42:49Z

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

so lonely. i want you so bad.

brkdwn

2005-02-20T02:50:26Z

i bought the hellfest dvd. it awesome. i cant wait and actually go.

work sucked today. i was so tired and i had to work 630-3 and do pots all day.

came home took a nap.

i have to do the same thing again tomorrow.

__________

saw is a good movie.

all alone

the seduction

2005-02-17T00:54:09Z

i had work today.
i bought SAW yesterday.
i have class tomorow.

im bored.

happy v-day

2005-02-14T01:45:52Z

I never had no one
I could count on
I’ve been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin’
So tired of searchin’
’til you walked into my life
It was a feelin’
I’d never known
And for the first time
I didn’t feel alone

You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You’re right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend

You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend (my best friend)
You’re my best friend (my best friend)

happy valentines day

x

2005-02-08T16:49:35Z

I'll hold on to tonight till the moon light fades from your eyes
Cause after tonight things just won't be the same
I'm wishing tonight that the sun won't reach the sky
If I loose this dream tonight I'll be the only one to blame

Stars in your eye are the only thing I see
How sweet it is when true life feels like a dream?

It's hard to hold on when everything is saying "let go"
But I'm so afraid that if I turn my back you won't be there
You don't feel the same and your actions are telling me so
You're driving off tonight and I just want you to know that I care

Now I'm sitting here only able to realize one thing
The stars look much better when they're reflected in your eyes
Now I'm laying here just trying to go to sleep
Only one thought that tonight's one of the best I've ever had

foreverdown

i hate the winters in lexington

2005-02-07T23:45:42Z

to that someone who i miss terribly....

I hope that your heart is always warm.
I gave you the best that I had.
You pased on my letters
& passed on the best that I had.
-dashboard

what can i do?

2005-02-06T19:49:20Z

i cant wait to make more money.

i ordered tix for:
-norma jean w/ unearth
-matchbook romace w/ from first to last

both shows should be amazing,

off to work. then superbowl.

go patriots!

What can I do? I was supposed to love you. What can I say?

lights out on division st.

2005-02-06T04:35:17Z

got a promotion at work. now im doing stock for the whole building. i cant wait to start.

today at work i found out that a person i really care about is now dating someone. i am not mad at this person, i was upset at first but we talked about it and now im on good terms with her. i really care about her alot.

i guess its just my luck.
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sleepy

2005-01-30T07:49:03Z

so tired.

leave love.

a thousand steps

2005-01-25T18:35:07Z

new layout.

comment if you like....comment period, i dont get many comments anymore and it sucks. i wish people left some.

anyways, ive been off work so much its nice but i want to get back to teh daily grind. class starts soon.

leave me love <3

_buried_a_lie @ 2005-01-22T10:42:00

2005-01-22T15:43:15Z

this snow is fuckin coming down hard. i have to shovel soon. sucks.

got drunk as fuck last night over at bryan dark lines. good times with friends.
sorry if i called you.....

top 5 bands at the moment:
5. unearth
4. as i lay dying
3. norma jean / the chariot
2. fbtmof / he is legend
1. every time i die

i am hollywood.

2005-01-21T19:36:53Z

new layout. i like this one a lot.

my ipod is getting fuller and fuller.

the he is legend cd is fucking amazing. everyone go get it.

no work for like a week.

party at the dark lines tonight. woot.

snow 2morrow

sundays

2005-01-16T20:28:57Z

last night was my work's holiday party at martins east. it was really fun. i met up with a lot of people from work and just hung out. i drove over joes house and he drove me, natalie and kevin over to the place. i brought alchol to drink before we went it. it was cool hanging out with some friends

i went home with steph. she drove me to joes to get my truck then i drove back to her house and we watched without a paddle. that movie was funny. she also let me borrow 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind'.

i got home around 230am.

now watching some football. GO VIKINGS AND COLTS.

she will be loved <3

im a jerk

2005-01-13T22:45:40Z

recently i have hurt someone who i really do care about a lot.
i didnt know how much i cared about you until you were gone.
its my fault and im sorry.
you have probably moved on and i have lost you forever.
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Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want
And don't take this from me
Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me now

Wind strong in my face, I'm still staggering through
I'm closer to the ground than I will ever get to you
Dirt deep beneath my fingernails, I'm gripping to the floor
I'm searching through the world, always looking for something more

Just wait and and see, you're everything I want
And don't take this from me
Just wait and and see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me now

And these cold winter nights, without you next to me
It feels like twenty below
Frostbite on my heart
This pain and suffering are feelings that you don't know

Does it feel like, feel like twenty below?

and then came then

2005-01-11T21:00:00Z

havent updated in awhile....

what i have been doing?:
-working.
-poker.
-went to rosewood (old haunted mental hospital)
-hangin with friends playin madden.
-drinking.

i also downloaded a couple cds for my ipod.
-the chariot
-the blood brothers
-nevea tears
-the sleeping

that about it.

_buried_a_lie @ 2005-01-04T22:28:00

2005-01-05T03:27:26Z

i love my ipod.

anyone want to do anything this weekend?

thse walls are getting smaller

2005-01-03T02:11:42Z

i just added like 400 more songs to my ipod. i love this thing.

awesome night last night.
watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. seemed really good.
<3

jet black new year

2005-01-01T06:50:25Z

this new year started good with no work. brent left for bryan's so i couldnt go there for fireworks.

i went to a kegger with bob, lost in beer pong once. got drunk. got home before twelve cuz bob was going skiin the next day. nobody to kiss when the ball dropped. saw people i havent seen in awhile. good night today.

Ten seconds left.
until midnight.
nine chances to drown ourselves
in black hair dye
eight faces turned away
from the shock:
seven windows and six of them
were locked.
five stories falling
forever and ever.
three cheers to the mirror.
now there are two of us.
Can we have one last dance?