Just Brynn

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2003-06-15T02:16:55Z

I've neglected this journal for awhile now. But I am back. So I've done alittle modeling stuff these past few weeks and its been great. I also am still with Brett, and hes just amazing.<3

I miss maggie :[

_brynn_rw @ 2003-05-29T17:23:00

2003-05-29T21:30:30Z

Things have been good, especially with myself and Brett. I never found myself liking someone so much, but hes so good to me and its what i need and want. He is someone I feel close to and well, yeah.. I love him. Hes been away on tour, and it kills because I miss him so much but talking to him everynight makes up for him not being here or me being with him. I can't wait til he has some time off, I'm going to take and kidnap him and we will go off somewhere where there is just us.

I got a modeling job, its crazy but i'm so excited. I cant wait to start and all the clothes. *laughs* yeah its something I've always wanted to do and now I am going to be doing it.

_brynn_rw @ 2003-05-23T15:59:00

2003-05-23T19:06:36Z

Im still here, I miss brettdetar a lot. But we talk still about every night for awhile. and Its been almost about two weeks and they have been the best two weeks ever..
Maggie where are you? We need to talk, I miss you. and well Ryan please dont be so down, you will find someone so great you wont know what to do with yourself and she'll make you the happiest man ever. It just takes time. But other than that, I just really miss Brett and hope he gets a break soon.

_brynn_rw @ 2003-05-16T17:39:00

2003-05-16T21:52:08Z

So, Brett left the other day. I miss him already and it hasnt even been that long. I guess I was just starting to get used to having him around and then he had to go. But I understand and the time he was here was nothing but great. He made everyday better and better. I'm really glad we are together, he just makes me feel better about myself and he knows what to say and when to say it. I sometimes dont have to say anything and he'll know what I'm thinking. The compliments he gives me every day is well something I'm still not used too, but it gives me a great feeling. I'm really happy with him, and I hope he feels the same way about me.
We watched the last episode of Dawsons before he left. I never watched it much anymore but when they started talking about the last episode I started to watch again and it was sad. I cried, and well even Brett did too. But I was happy that Joey chose Pacey. Even though her and Dawson have been through a ton of stuff, I just think Pacey would be able to do more for her.
Well I also miss Maggie so, I think I might have to go pay her a little visit before she leaves and goes out of the country with Ryan. I also might be getting a visit from ryan? but who knows. hes such a busy guy and a good friend. I want the first issue of "Ryan Gone Wild" *laughs* I call it.

Well, I'm going to go out and shop a little.

_brynn_rw @ 2003-05-13T12:10:00

2003-05-13T16:13:25Z

Brett thanks for the greatest couple of days so far <3 your the best. and I appreciate everything you've done for me so far.

AND! RYAN >:o on leaving last night without saying bye.

Mags, I love you too. :-*

i just want to thank you...

2003-05-12T00:20:21Z

Well, as of yesterday I've been with a really great guy. and who that may be you might ask well, its Brett Hes such a great guy, and we were talking and well he was saying how he missed me and couldnt stop thinking of me and everything and we went from there. hee, I feel like a little girl really. So, then since he has time off he flew out to LA and is visiting me for a couple days. I mean, you should have seen his face when he walked into the airport lobby and I waved. His face was almost glowing. But I'll stop with all of that. Then after we went out and ate, and then to a club for awhile. Hes so great to be with and makes me feel good about myself.

And when I told Maggie she almost jumped me she was so excited. I love that girl to death. and the greatest thing is, Kris and Brett are on tour together. So, it works out well.. i really want this to work, hes such a great guy and everything so im praying it works.

but.. enough of all this.. Im going out to dinner

just be happy for me okay?

where the hell is ryan reynolds.

why are there subject lines..

2003-05-10T20:00:05Z

Okay well.. I havent really had much to update about lately. I mean i had the flu for almost a week or two and it sucked all I did was lay in bed and watch tv and it sucked more when nothing was on the tv.

and if maggie doesnt win at the mtv awards I'll cry.she deserves it. <333 and It would just be great to see her win. Maybe Ry will win, too. and then it would be great.

congratulations to Joel and Judita, thats great. I'm really happy for the both of you.

I talked to Brett and well it was good to finally talk to him. I havent since his show and it was awful. hes a great guy.

hi to the sweetest person also, Tara

and well, my boyfriend is the best <3

well..

2003-05-01T02:29:00Z

monday was great, I meet Kris, Now I know why Maggie talks about him all the time. He is a really sweet guy and I'm happy for them. I also met Brett, who is just awesome and the best. and yeah he saw my tongue ring, but lets not think sick things here people. *laughs* anyways but of their bands did really well and Maggie was a trip. She got so into it especially when Kris was out there, I can tell she really loves him.

Now I'm talking to the one and only kruek. yeah thats you ;x your great alright? and Im glad we talked since we havent for awhile and I almost died when I saw Ryan was on, hah. I havent talked to him for awhile. well hope you all enjoy my little update for the day.

woo..

2003-04-28T01:50:11Z

I see BRETT, MAGGIE and KRIS tomorrow! *smiles* can't wait <3 okay thats my two liner for you all. enjoy

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2003-04-23T18:53:56Z

Im cleaning out my journal.. redoing it all, might even disadd some people that dont update much anymore or just the ones that don't need to be on my list anymore..

May 1, I get to go see Brett from Juliana Theory. Its going to be good I cant wait.

Maggie, I miss you. Hope your having a good time and I'll see you monday :-*

wow.. guess what

2003-04-21T03:18:04Z

I'm in a really good mood. Hope everyone had a good Easter and got lots of candy ;)..

I am so in love with this song also.. m'mm :-*

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

sorry and um yeah, I feel really good right now. and maggie hope your fridays cleared. And Brett I think I found a good date to come see you guys play.. ill tell you more about it later. :D

what a night

2003-04-19T05:15:37Z

Well, the concert wasnt as bad as I thought It might have been.. We got there sort of early so we walked around and stuff. I have never seen so many twelve year olds in my life. I swear, and they're so damn loud also. SOO, we looked at the merchandise and I bought a GC tshirt, NFG tshirt and a couple other little things. my cousin is the biggest loser, and i swear she would have bought one of everything. She got one of the water bottles thrown in the crowd and was like "MAYBE! IF I FIND ONE OF THE BAND MATES THEY WILL SIGN IT' sometimes she forgets how old she really is. Just as long as she doesnt turn into one of the twelve year olds and start their language "OMG LYKE HEZ THE H0TTEST MAN ALIVE! I WANT LIKE 43854 OF HIZ BABIEZ" or anything like that it will be alright.

The first band, the disasters were pretty good and the crowd really liked them also. Then Less Than Jake, I really like them, I met them during the break between Good Charlotte and New Found Glory, they are pretty cool guys.

Then Good Charlotte came, they did really good. Lots of crowdsurfing and moshing, it was fun. I crowd surfed for the first time, kind of scary but I got all the way to the front of the audience which was neat, better view of the band. They all did really good. Girls were screaming for Billy and Benji the whooooole time. My favorite song was 'Riot Girl' and 'Bloody Valentine'

Then New Found Glory came on, they did awesome. I got kicked in the head *laughs* but it was all good. They really got the crowd going and everything. Jordan was going to "jump" in the water but then they said he didnt know how to swim. *laughs* then Ian started playing 'Loose Yourself' and some girls behind me were like 'nooo they are not singing that song, I will die omg..' I remember being little and going to concerts, but I was never like that. My favorite NFG is "glory of love" think thats what its called. I cant think straight right now.

I'm going to go and see brettdetar play and he asked me on a date, I said yes. He seems like a nice guy and I think it will be fun. who knows? guess I'll find out. I really don't know him that well, but I will soon enough.

I think I might have also, maybe, possibly started over being friends with benjilmadden, which means a lot because hes a good person to talk too about everything. And I'm really happy for him and Tony, they deserve the best and are meant for each other. I'm glad that its all working out for the both of them.

tony__lovato, obvisously you have issues.. All I did was say hi to Benji and that was it, sorry I was trying to be friendly. And I don't even want him like that. And maybe I looked at his subprofile like six times because I was bored and then um its called he updated it so I check that out also. Your really cool 'threatening' me and then blocking me. You have balls alright. Obvisously you cant see that Im happy for Benji and you. doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out. this was uncalled for :
mest tony lovato: 04/19/03 16:06 - beingbrynn [6]- fucking obsessed cunt. god, back the fucking fuck off. he doesnt want you, he doesnt like you, you annoy the fuck out of him. dont fucking IM him, well hes got you blocked but still. fucking whore. hes mine, all mine and only mine, you got that? he comes home to me, he belong in MY arms, hes MY husband, and im HIS, we're each others, all and only, fucking slut. go fucking whore yourself around you no-careered talentless whore.

joy

2003-04-18T17:44:30Z

I came down to visit my cousin in Ohio and shes like guess what we're doing tonight. and im like what? and she held up two tickets to the good charlotte/new found glory concert. AND Im like Greeeeeeeeeat. I get to see benjixamadden and joelxmadden and all the others. I bet you can guess how excited I am for this.

Congrats to Maggie on the nomination :-* I should be the date ;)

cough

2003-04-13T16:43:34Z

yeah, I'm still here.. After I had my visit to Maggie and Ryan and got home the phone rang at 3am.. I didn't want to answer it at first but then I decided to and thank god I did because I would have felt awful if I didnt. My mom was in a car accident and she really got off easy, the car isnt that bad damaged and all she ended up with was a fractured bone in her arm and a couple scratches and bruises. So, I stayed at her place for a little bit, helping out. My moms always there for me and it felt good to actually be helpful for her for once instead of bugging them for my own needs.

But, yeah so now I'm back home and just bought a whole bunch of new furniture and everything, I'm remodeling *laughs* and painting.. I can get carried away sometimes..

But Ryan (Reynolds), call me we still have to do something sometime.

thats about all for now

Hmm

2003-04-05T04:21:41Z

Well MTV aired the last episode of Real World and it was sad to leave and I will love all six of my room mates forever.. they had tought me so much in life and helped me learn more about myself and also I was engaged for a short term period but It just wasnt working for me and I had to break it off.. So yeah, theres something you might have not known about me.

But, now I'm on a plane to go see MAGGIE!, its Friday and she said I could come down and see her friday so I'm excited and am hoping to have a fun time. She's a great gal and Im glad shes my closest friend. And even though I'm deathly afraid of flying since everything thats happened lately with war and all but I'm on it going down to see Mags. So, it better be a good time.

Also, Ryan has to call me so we can do something sometime, whenever hes free.

But thats all for now.

[anyone want to help with some Icons, I got pictures...]

hmm...

2003-03-31T01:53:40Z

So, I've been sitting here all day trying to figure out whats wrong with me, and I can't but I know theres something wrong with me. Everyone else has something to hold on too, or someone to be with, they have something and well I'm here with nothing. its true.. I wonder why Im still even here, I have no friends and if they are my friends I feel bad for them, they just feel bad for me.. but anyways Im not going to be depressing anymore..

I might be late on this but one of the greatest people to me is here lauper_cyndi I love her, shes a great artist..

I need to get out of this house, and do something.. I'm wasting away here but who knows that might be a good thing for some people.. I signed up to livejournal in hopes of meeting some great people and dont get me wrong I did meet some great people- maggie, ryan, kristen, shanti, paul, rob, and nelly and you are all wonderful people.. but seriously I don't know how much longer I'll stay here.. :-\
it doesnt seem like anyone really wants me around.. maybe i'll fulfill someones wishes and make them happy by leaving.. god, im a loser....

and yeah Maggie I'm up for visiting you, if you still want me to come.. let me know.

WOW..

2003-03-29T20:45:36Z

Seriously, I go away for a little bit and I miss everything. Maggie and Sean broke up which is kind of sad because they were soo cute together and he was a really great guy but shes my friend and I have to respect her decisions for whatever she does and if thats what she wants then I guess thats what she wants. But Seann, I hope all is alright with you. Hmmm, I miss Maggie and Kristen SOOO much I want to go visit them sometime soon. I think that would be fun ;)

The last episode of Real World airs next week and its a pretty interesting one.. Steven is juat a damn whore. ;)

But, Im back from being away for awhile. Hope you didnt miss me that much...

:)

2003-03-16T22:24:25Z

Today has been a great day, I had lunch with two wonderful people, my "girlfriend" m_gyllenhaal and her wonderful boyfriend xseanmaguirex it was some of the best food I have ever had. And then we went shopping, One of my all time favorite things to do in the world, and it was even better because I was with Mags. I am really glad she found a great guy, she deserves one and all to have all the happiness in the world. Shes a total sweetheart and Im glad shes my friend.

I miss kristin_kreuk <3

and affleck, I get to meet him soon.

!!!

2003-03-16T02:06:27Z

I guess I should update on something, the other day I was sitting around at home looking up stuff when there was a knock on my door. So I went and answered the door and there was ALTON. So we hung out and caught up how we have been since everything. He's such a sweetheart and like a brother to me. It was really good to see him, he makes me laugh so much and also makes me feel good about myself. Just the sort of thing I needed at the time.

I MISS MY MAGGIE!!!!!!!!!! I just needed to say that because I havent talked to her in the longest time. and Kristin either! I miss them much :( *sob*

Well, until later thats all I really can say.. look for new icons. heh :)

Happy Birthday to You Guys..

2003-03-11T20:37:58Z

Well I havent updated for a while and todays Joel and Benjis birthday so I just want to wish joelxmadden a happy birthday and hopefully he has a good one. And to thank him for being a good person, I appreciate it. And hope your day kicks ass. And a happy birthday to benjilmadden a happy birthday, even though we're not on good terms I thought I should wish him a happy birthday and I hope he has a good one and that him and Tony make it last.

Now, Im off to LA for a month :) Its going to be great. So I will update more later

yeah..

2003-03-05T03:06:34Z

its tuesday which means if you watch it, then Real Worlds on tonight. Be sure to check it out for new shocking things on the roomies. Yeah, I think I died off the show haha but thats alright. Trishelle sleeps with enough men for all of us. And I mean it, someone called me a slut?! Look at her. Theres the comparision but im out..

Im terribly bored. someone needs to come visit me. :(

Subject lines suck...

2003-03-04T02:37:37Z

Today I was at my friends house and she asked me what I wanted in life and I realized that I really dont want anything besides someone in the long run with me. I want a guy who will treat me nicely, isnt that bad looking, funny, and someone I can trust. Because trust is a big value factor these days. I dont want someone who will use me and then leave, maybe I am asking for too much. I also want to go to Paris *laughs* I dont know why, I just really want to go there. I'm not a really picky girl and even though it may shock people I havent been with a lot of guys either. In the last two years put together I have only dated two guys. I guess when it comes down to all that I just want to make sure I can trust the person and everything, because I hate getting hurt by a guy. and I made a list of things i like: wearing guys shirts, sunsets, sunrises, cuddling with someone, beach, sleeping in, sweaters, bubble baths, hot coco, drummers, making someone smile, someone making me smile, and theres more but you know I dont want to take up too much space on your friends list.

[EDIT] so, I feel a little better after talking to joelxmadden, hes a pretty good guy and good to talk too. Just dont let him by any wild animals while your still in Australia ;) But, I just want to thank him for talking to me.

_brynn_rw @ 2003-03-02T02:20:00

2003-03-02T07:35:11Z

I redid this entry leaving stuff out and also because I got tired of some peoples bullshit. So yeah, its a fresh post.

"Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
And nothing’s gonna make this right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
We can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect.."

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2003-03-02T04:12:37Z

Brynn is ____.

If I were alone in a room with Brynn, I would _______.

I think Brynn should _____.

Brynn needs ______.

I want to _________ Brynn.

I guess people should have told the whole truth instead of trying to make me look like the bad guy, but I guess thats how I'll look forever. But I guess since I took care of it and dissadded him then.. I dont know. I just know the whole thing got turned around on me and I thought he was a friend and now I see how shady some people are. and it hurts.

a few things...

2003-02-26T20:52:53Z

This weekend I had a really great time, Ryan came and well we did some things. I had a blast and I learned a lot of things I never knew, how like now I want to learn more about history. Thanks Ry *laughs*. But, then he made me watch myself on tv, hah, I should whip out his movies next time he comes out! ;) But if you want to see the more in depth of what our weekend was like read his update on it-http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?journal=ryan_reynolds&itemid=41351

thanks for an awesome weekend Ryan, sorry about the weather. I know it sucks.

So thats not much, but they actually showed me on real world last night! :D and I am now turning into the BIGGEST
Smallville freak, Michael Rosenbaum (spelling?) drives me crazy for some reason. and Kristin, well what could I say? shes hott ;)

And I got the newest Good Charlotte cd earlier when I went shopping and Its like the number one cd now. I love it.