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I got a new journal its
xox_pullmyhair
so everyone add me n comment n i`ll add you back since i dun know how to do that friends only shiit...so yeah lol
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[23 Nov 2004|09:07am] |
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If I were a month I would be: October
If I were a day of the week I would be: Sunday
If I were a time of day I would be: 12:00
If I were a planet I would be: Venus
If I were a sea animal I would be: Whale
If I were a direction I would be: North-West...lol
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: A leg lamp.
If I were a sin I would be: Sex
If I were a historical figure I would be: Shakesphere
If I were a liquid I would be: liquid g
If I were a stone, I would be: a diamond
If I were a tree, I would be: weaping willow
If I were a bird, I would be: fLaMiNgO *_-
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: Marajuana
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a thunder storm
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a Piano or mabey a gee-tar!
If I were an animal, I would be: a kittie~
If I were a color, I would be: hot pink!
If I were an emotion, I would be: Pain
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a hot pepper!
If I were a sound, I would be: The sound that a water bong makes!!!!
If I were an element, I would be: FirE
If I were a car, I would be: a corvette so hot girls would pose naked on top of me
If I were a song, I would be: DrOpS oF JuPiTeR!
If I were a book, I would be written by: Agatha Christie
If I were a food, I would be: a donught!!
If I were a place, I would be: Verona
If I were a material, I would be: Lace
If I were a taste, I would be: Sweet
If I were a scent, I would be: Sugar Wafer by Tutti Dolci
If I were a word, I would be: Fuck.
If I were an object, I would be: a Louis Vittion handbag.
If I were a body part I would be: a eye lid
If I were a facial expression I would be: a honry looking smile!
If I were a subject in school I would be: lunch
If I were a cartoon character I would be: a betty boop
If I were a shape I would be a: a Star
If I were a number I would be: 21
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[21 Nov 2004|10:12pm] |
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ok well im not leaveing star tommorow like im supposed to but oh well...ill probably leave tuesday but yeah...i went shopping last night n got some pinstirpe pants n and shirt n some knee high boots with a 4 inch heel lol i <3 them!! they rock! and ive been thinking about some people alot lately n it makes me think of alot of shit i used to do and it makes me really wonder what the fuck was i thinking? i mean yeah i was high most of the time and i dont regret it..the past makes me who i am but sometimes i wish i would have just thought before i done some stuff...but yeah anyways...im dissapointed in someone ( no its not james or farrah) bc hes going down the same path i was and he doesnt realize it but its gonna hurt him in the future and the people hes doin this shit with arent his friends there his enmys but im gonna let him just make these mistakes and learn from then..he should have learned frommine but oh well.....
i guess im thru bitchin for the night..
no one ever comments anymore! :(
mUcHoS LoVeS!
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[17 Nov 2004|09:22pm] |
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AHHH I GET OUT OF STAR IN 3 DAYS!!!!
anyways! ive been extremly bored these past few days lol im goin to my dads next wednesday n im stayin til sunday i miss him so much...he has to go to court christmas eve..ill have to go n testify..which i really dont wanna do...
on the other hand....
im goin shoppin this weekend..i need someone to go with me tho bc i have to find somethin dressy bc on your last day of star you have to dress up eh..but its a good thing bc the you dont have to run! lol
my lil brother came over today n he was bein extremly nice to me lol and we watched pocahontas together.......he knows all the words too and the songs lol i guess it runs in the family lol...
i might be gettin a job after christmas break! i need one terribly tho i need some money i need to quit askin my parents for some but anyways ima go ill updat later
I BELIVE IN FARIES I DO I DO!!
oh yeah n tims goin to hell bc he doesnt belive in faries lol
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[12 Nov 2004|06:49pm] |
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mmk...
well i broke up with Trent...Dont ask what happend if you dont allready know..
Ive been really bored today!
My stupid fucking mother wont let me go to my dads house jus bc he got arested monday night...god shes been arested before n i have to fuckinglive with her..
ill update later..
I lOvE yOu AlL <33
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[11 Nov 2004|12:27am] |
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I had a sorta good day..
Other than the fact that Trent pissed me off so bad i was cryin n shaken..dont ask...
Me n Mandy wtached porn called "spiderbabe" haha it was soooo funny lol
Oh for those of you who dont know i got my hair cut..its up to my sholders n some of its up to mah chin..it looks awesome!<3
On the other hand... I get out of star in a week and a half!! :D
i cant wait
Well..ima go so byee i love you all <33
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[So, what makes you so special?]
1] What is your first and middle name? Jessica Renae
2] Why did your parents name you these names? Dunno
3] Where is your birthmark at? On my stomach
4] Do you even know why you have one of these? Nope
5] What are your measurements? [i.e. #-#-#] Uhh...I have no idea....
6] What is your one weird ability [C‘mon, everyone has one]? umm....im REALLLY flexable and i can pick up like almost anything with my toes
7] Describe your “style” when it comes to what you wear: i am myself..
8] Do you eat something that everyone else thinks is gross? salt n vinnager chips dipped in cream of chicken soup :D YUMMY
[Warm fuzzies]
9] Do you have a special someone? yEs!
10] What’s his or her name? Trent
11] What does this person do for a living? He cuts grass and he cuts down trees andmoves them to places
12] How does this he/she make you feel? He makes me feel lOvEd*
13] Name, in months, how long you have been dating: no even a month yet, but were workin on it
14] Was it love at first sight? No weve been good friends for allmost 3 years
15] The ultimate greatest thing about him/her is: Hes a great friend and he allways listens!
16] [A year passes.] Do you still see yourself happy with this person? yes
17] What do you guys do for fun? hang out
18] How long did it take you to say the “L” word to him/her? few weeks
19] How many serious relationships have you had? about 6
20] Name one song that explains a past relationship: umm...the reason...:( dont ask..
[Getting an edumacation]
21] What school do you attend? CCHS
22] How many students go there with you? about 1500
23] What grade are you in? 9
24] What do you like about going to school? Seeing mah buddies
25] Favorite class: lunch
26] What college/university are you going to afterward? dunno
27] Name a couple majors you are interested in: I dunno
28] What degree are you aiming at earning? I dunno
[Living quarters]
29] Do you live at home with your parents? Yes
28] Is your room big? No
29] What size is your bed? Twin
30] What color are the walls? PiNk
31] Do you have any animals in there? yes
32] Are you in your bedroom most of the time? yea
[Your cup of tea]
33] What is your all time favorite movie? PoChAhAnTaS!
34] Why so? because its absolutly amazeing hehe
35] Do you prefer Jay Leno or Conan O’Brien? MAURY bitch!
36] What are three things that you are obsessed with? Trent music FOOOD!!!!
37] What is your favorite CD at the moment? i dont own cds i b urn music off the internet
38] What celebrity do you think is the cutest? Tom Mark AND Travis!
39] What’s the last really good movie you have seen? Peter Pan but only bc it had TiNkErBeLl in it!
40] When’s the last time you cried during a movie? just the other night!
[Working your ass off]
41] Do you have a job? No
42] Where do you work at? Nowhere
43] What do you do there? Absolutely nothing
44] How long have you been working at this place? All my life
45] Do you see yourself working there for a while? Until I actually get a job yes.
I felt like spilling my guts so here it is haha
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[07 Nov 2004|11:40am] |
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Well..
Trent n James called me last night :D and I was so happy but we only talked for like 10 minutes and then when we got off the phone I played a game with my lil brother...this morning I woke up and my stepmom was here to get my bro even tho my dad has full custody of him she shes him once a month..which I dont like bc she cant even take care of herself..but anyways off that subject! James n Trent need to hurry up n come home! I miss them so terribly much!
I guess ill update later
lOvEz n hUgZ <3
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[06 Nov 2004|11:44am] |
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ok well Dallas hates me and im takein it so does Farrah...
But anyways..
i get out or STAR in 2 weeks :D i cant wait! but i dont know my general orders!! so i gotta study!
My baby is gone to Loiusanna with James until Mondy morning there gone to see James mom..AnYwHo I miss him allready lol and its only Saturday
but since theres nothing to talk about ill update later!
lOvEz n HuGz
<33
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[03 Nov 2004|09:18pm] |
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:( I just called Trent and his lil sister was like i dont feel like going downstairs so ill get him to call you back gah lee that pisses me off lol anywho..Ive had a good day me and James are on good terms again. :) anyways..lol ima go since theres nothing to talk about
I <3 TrEnT*
<3 and everyone else too
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[02 Nov 2004|04:50pm] |
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I miss my baby so much!! but i`ll get to talk to him tommorow..Well we got a new kid today and i found it that its Bubba!! i havent seen him since like August..lol and i asked him what he did and he said he pulled a kinfe on someone and i was like well..lol I`m grounded from the phone for the rest of the night :( i wanna talk to Trent sooo bad...This morning my mother apoligized for what she said last night..But i know she doesent mean it...Well i`m gonna go now...EVERYONE CALL ME TOMMOROW!! lol
<3 i lOvE yOu aLl!
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[01 Nov 2004|09:48pm] |
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me and my mom just got into a huge fight bc I was talking to Trent (for the 1st time today) and she was tellin me to get off the phone bc it was after 9 and i got off and we got into it about how she treats me like im fucking 8 and then it ended by her calling me a slut and telling me to get out of her face..
i hate my mother when shes like this i just wish that shed quit doin all the shit that shes on..it really bothers me how she thinks i just fuck every guy i see when ive only slept with 3 people...and i just need a hugg i miss my baby i only talked to him for like 30 mins tonight anf prolly wont get another chance too until wednesday then hes gonna come and see me friday or saturday or something i dunno yet and i havent talked to James in like 5 hours which i really need to bc he allways gives me advice when my mother gets like this..thanks James i love you (in that friendly way) and to top it fucking off i have sandbag pt in the fucking morning..
well la de fucking da.
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[31 Oct 2004|12:16am] |
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awe gah lee im so happy me and Trent are goin out now..he asked me out tonight we went trick or treating lol he dident dress up tho and he met my family :/ there kinda odd..but they liked him :D yay and he was watching his stupid football game and not paying any attetion to me he was just sittin there screaming at the tv and when id say somethin to him hed tell me to hang on or just kiss me n be like hold up just one minute the only time hed talk to me is when they stupid commercials were on lol and then we ate some food n talked n stuff he kept thinking i was mad at him but i wasent!
AHH MY FICKING PHONE LINE IS DOWN but im sure itll be on tomm when i get up! i hope it is bc i need to call muh baby! awwe!! i love how Trent calls me baby ah god i lovve it soo much!! well i guess ima go to bed now since im tired! i love you all..
oh and the anomynos poster can kiss my ass bc i dont put guys over my best friend bc trent has been my best friend for a while so i have noone to put him over or to put over him.
OMG THE STRINGY THINGS BROKE OFF MY WAND!!!
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[29 Oct 2004|11:51pm] |
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i feel like shit farrah n james said alota shit to me..not sayin what so anyways..
Trents comeing over tommorow around 12 or so i cant wait im so excited i get to see him!!! im startin to really like him alot!! lol the other day he told me that me n him were gnna have children someday n they would be prettier than james' and farrahs and i was like haha yea but anywho..im going to bed now i love you all..yes even the ones who make me fell like SHIT!..byee
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[26 Oct 2004|06:55am] |
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well..
:) i wen t and got a coatume today ARHH im gona be tInKeRbElL!! and Trent's gonna be PeTeR pAn! and its gonna AdOrKaBlE yep lol well ima go for now ima guess
im sorry Farrah..i dident realize i was doing this to you i dont wanna hurt our friendship bc were so close and im sorry if i ever hurt you i never meant to and i wish you and James the best fo luck-i love you
everyone else.MY COSTUME CAME WITH A WAND OMG i have a wand...
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[24 Oct 2004|08:28pm] |
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my nose hurts..i broke it i forgot to put it in my last entry but my little brother head butted me and i heard it crunch and blood started gushing out of my nose and my dad ran and got towles and then my other brother took me to the bath room and shoved my head under the facuet and i couldent breath..it was terrible my nose hurts so bad i sneezed today and blood came out it hurts soo much its unreal..
AnYwAyS*
im talking to Whitney,Jay and Kyle right now
well i guess ima go n find me somethin to eat
i lOvE yOu aLl* expecially you(you know who you are!)
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[23 Oct 2004|07:17pm] |
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Nicole opened her mothers make up drawer.She struggled with clasps and camoflaged locks.She ran her fingetips over eye shadows,she toyed with mascara wands.She twisted lipsticks out of gold ribbed containers and brought them to her nose.Everything smelled so rosy.She wonderd how much longer she could stomach this quiet lonly place.
She went for the eyebrow tweezers.She picked out a pair of cuticle scicors.She opened cabinets and more drawers,slid back the slideing door to the bath tun and gatherd a sharp boquet of instruments.There was so much to choose from:orenge sticks and nail files,saftey pins and pink plastic razors,hair accesories and hot roller clips with the rubber ends bitten off.
In a way the tools were beautiful.So many points begging to be touched.It was a pleasure she doubted anyone else could understand.In this room,Nicole could appreciate the good stuff.
wow..thats really moving, it really reminds me of myself when i used to do that shit but i havent since July..
otherwise..i`ve been at my dads house all week i had alota fun i might be moveing out there..i havent really decided yet tho..i want to stay here but i also wanna move out there this is so hard..i really like it there i mean i can be myself and they dont say anything about it and if i just barley show who i really am when im here my mom has a fucking duck fit..and when im there i can smoke in the house and my mother doesnt even know smoke.
If i do move im gonna miss everyone so terribly much!
I`m trying really hard to decide soon bc ive only got 6 weeks left to decide bc my mom said when i get out of star i could live here or there and it wa smy choice my dad wants me to live there n my mother wants me to stay..
gah lee...
Dallas i could never forget you how can you say that youve helped me when ive about died,we never talk anymore and whenever i call your allways busy or with someone or gone.When you tell me to meet you at the movies you allways run off and leave me or you get in the car with someone or you just dont pay attetion to me.
We need our saturday night bowling back..we need the TeRrIfEcK tRiO back! :(
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[15 Oct 2004|07:46pm] |
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Nothin`s really goin on except..me n Mandy got itno a hugh fight..dont ask..
Nathan might come to my house tommrow! :D but im sick of everyone saying hes gonna use me..but i know he wont bc hes just not like that..and i miss my Farrah! i miss her so muchs! i only have 4 weeks of star left which is 20 days n i cant wait n then ill get to see everyone again YAY!! :-D i cant wait! i might go to my dads tommrow i miss him,i havent seen him in 3 weeks..i might bring someone with me! YaY* lol im a dork! anyways..
I`m so0o bored i cant do anything til i get out of star then thank the lord ima be gone every friday n saturday! and prolly sundays too lol i think the first thing ima do is go to the movies n see Jay n Farrah bc i miss the so terribly much! :-(
Robin invited me to go to a haunted house with her n Brett this weekend n i wanna go soo bad but noo stupid fucking curfew! gah lee anyways..
i guess i`ll quit my bitching since thats all i ever do i lOvE yOu*
<33
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[14 Oct 2004|07:51pm] |
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♥Jessica and ♥Nathan | - Plan to conceive twenty-eight thousand pre-paid kids.
- Enjoy it when they chat at the most inconvenient times.
- Are like two peas in a pod, but not genetically.
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hahaha i thought thats was so0o0o funny!!!
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[13 Oct 2004|03:55pm] |
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i broke up with wil...dont ask if you dont know..
well i had a relitivley good day although i did like 25 push ups in the wet grass with mud on my hands n i ran laps but anyways..
STAR isent that bad..its actully kinda fun,everyone thats been there exagerrates about how bad it is but its really kinda fun lol you might htink im stupid but it is..
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[11 Oct 2004|07:37pm] |
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OH MY GOD i hate star..its hell i ran like 35 laps today...which is like 5 miles...n i go tin trouble..for talking bc this stoopid kid wouldent shut up n i told him to shut up n tthen i got in trouble for it n then..i got home around 6 bc i went with my mom to the doctor! :( i hate it whens shes sick..but anyways..gah i hate it so much i just wanna fuckin die when im there..a buncha peole i know are there liek monica n leslie n allie n desrie n steven n james n robin n yea most of those peole aee at reach tho the only ones at star are monica steven n james n robin! but i guess its kinda ok to be there with someone i know!
well ima goo <33 JeSsIcA*
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[09 Oct 2004|01:16pm] |
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soo do yall like the new background?? thank you sam for fixen it for me! well mandy n wil came over last ngiht it was fun!! n wil had to leave at like 7:30 so me n mandy watched saved haha it was so funny it was realy good tho n then we wwent to sleep about 1 or so n i woke up this mornin n mandy pused me off the bed n bout broke my whole body but i have to break my foot before i go to star(which is monday) gahlee mandy wouldent push me down the stars so i guess ill get wil to haha well i guess ill update later!
<33
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[08 Oct 2004|10:35pm] |
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o0o0o0o0o im so happy Wil came over hehe so did Mandy!!!! we had funn aha with 2 n's yeprz! im so happy im just all giddy n extra giggly! soo theres nuffin to do so ill talk to yal later!
<3333
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[07 Oct 2004|06:49pm] |
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ok..
i have 25 days of star(boot camp) and i also have to do 25 days of a drug consling and testing program which will suck big hairy old men balls.
otherwise i am very happy! Wil asked me out and i bout pissed on myself!
i will never do drugs again and i most certinaly wont bring them to school...it was a stupid descion and i was stupid for doing them..i just wish i could take back every moment of it..
except for the part were Wil held me and made me feel better
warm october nights you came
& .c ud dle d. next to me baby
our noses brushed [so close ] i
wished it was our souls drifting
off to sleep i could hear the
l i t t l e s n o r e s you made
watching eyes //shut tight ; like
doors to __ something sweeter where you rest \
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[04 Oct 2004|02:54pm] |
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ok well if you dont know now..you will...i ran away saturdayaround 9:30 or soo and got my friend to come n get me so i went back to her house n then we were gonna leave but she dient wanna go so i left and went to another friends house and then we went to wall mart at like 3:00 in tha mornin and haha it was fun and then we went back there and went to sleep around 4 or 5 and then at like 8:30 this mornin farrah called me and wa like dude your mom called my house and all this shit and shes gona get the cops and verything then my mom got the # were i was sttayyin and started bitchin at me then they found me and it was pure hell....
on the other hand...the school decided not to file those police reports on me.. :D
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[01 Oct 2004|03:21am] |
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welll people..i got busted....the school busted me with 2 concealed weapons n being under the influence of a controlled substance..like the dumb fuck i am i have to be addicted to sumthin..and i got busted with it..i cant go to school until monday and then i have a conference and its not gonna be pretty im in so much shit right now,im over my head and be able to breath for a while now..soo i guess yall can just call me sometime cuz i duno if ill be on the comp for a while..853-0835...and chris im sorry i dident call you ..you know i would if i would have gotten a chance<33 i love you! and...they took up my cell phone and read all my text messages so..yea n now my mom has it and i had to admit to everything even stuff that dident relate to morphene like sex n my personal bisnuess so they really invaded my privacy a bit to much this time..and im quitting everything and pretty soon i might start gettin drug tested...i have to go now i love you all so much! <33
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[29 Sep 2004|10:39pm] |
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...im sick of being lonely im sick of being alone and im so tired of life..im tired of boys useing me and then just breakin up with me n i feel like nobody loves me or cares about me anymore i wanna feel loved again bc i never feel loved anymore i just feel...drained
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[26 Sep 2004|12:49am] |
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oh wow i had a AwEsOmE night it was great i saw Jacob...well he kissed me...:( i know he doesent love me but anyways..i met a guy named billy hes pretty cool i got his # but missy likes him and shit and i met a guy named brandon he kept on stickn his hands in my pockets lol and me and farrah rode around with matt and michael for like 2 or 3 hours then they were goin to springville to take care of some shit so they dropped me n farrah off at the movies at like 7 and then we talked to sheryl and josh for a while then we just chilled with everyone and i left about 10-30 or so and when i got home blake called me and told me he was gonna come n see me 2morrow since we dident do nething today and he had to go to his dads house so hes gonna come see me tommorow and if he dont then jacob is..gah i miss him...oh and hes got a girlfriend...well im gonna go now since my life is Oh~sO~bOreingG..i love you alls <333
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