its never been normal. or maybe it's always just too normal, just normal. maybe i think too much. sometimes you have it, but you want more. you just keep telling yourself you dont have it. but maybe you do.

i would absolutely love anyone that would buy me the HOT FUSS album. i have a versatile taste ! i like synth-rock. mmm new genre. synthesizers are cool.

today was okay. ive been hating myself ever since yesterday. for some undefined reason. tuesday was perfect, somehow. and then it all came crashing down on me.

it'll be better than okay. hopefully.

mambo hates me. and maybe vice versa. it makes me confused. >.< i think i inherited my moms muddled hand/leg coordination. cha-cha was so much easier. oh god. im gonna fail the stupid dance test. and music was interesting. the choir teacher thought anthea and i were twins ! and she was so puzzled about it. cos when she was explaining something i saw her looking at us and giving the disbelieving look. hahaha and she kept insisting that we were twins and sth like same tan, same specs and same hair. dont know how many people have said that.

im sleepy. im gonna take a nap. and then wake up to watch the oc (: if only ORANGE COUNTY existed in singapore. palm trees, mansions, swimming pools, high schools for the rich and famous. clamour for glamour. hahahah. OOH. that can be a good heading for some persuasive leaflet thing. if it has something to do with glamour/style/class.

english test. im scared. i think i'll screw up. stupid situational writing.

ive become stupider, fatter and blahblahBLAH-er.

i need to go for a gig. i wanna jump in a crowd. i wanna scream in a crowd. attention's on everyone. the jostling's on but no one's caring. it's all about them.

the people we all look up to. and idolise.

how many times i have yearned to see a celeb. damn it. it never happens ! i think the only celeb i ever saw was amanda bynes outside the chinese theatre in los angeles. and she was wrapped in a furcoat which was really freaky looking.

and i miss the vegas neon lights. and i miss the carefree life in winter. and i miss airflights. an orange juice, a bite-size movie, the clouds. and i miss the beaches of cairns and the seas of the great barrier reef. and i miss anaheim. and we were so close to the oc. just a drive away. and we could relinquish it. get me out. i wanna travel underground in the subway the italian parisian, london way. HOLIDAYS ! 7 MONTHS AWAY...

i can wait. i can.

<33 ! hahah. have said this before but shall repeat again. the killers rule. they are the coolest las vegas band ever. and brandon is cute. and he has emo hairstyle and emo singing and emo songs and emo personality. EMO-NESS <3 ! suddenly emo-ness has settled in me.

fab. glam. emo. there are such interesting words nowadays.

busy mugging for geog now. AM GONNA FLUNK THAT SHIT. ahhh. ( more bitching )

i cannot flunk anymore SAs. been doing too badly. must do well for hist and lit. flunked those two crap tests. and i actually did so so so much better in my FA so i thought i wld be okay and in the end, wth, craziness.

I BLOG WEIRDLY. so unlike my previous blogging style. but thats becos i used to be a blogging freak. and now im not. which is good (: i think.

coming out of my cage and i'll be doing just fine.

i just cant look its killing me.

open up my eager eyes. cos im mr brightside.

and emo video ! hahah. ok that was so random.

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rah ! i can softball  (ahaha partially) ! was supposed to go swimming today but ended up softball-ing with glen,  ahaha its quite fun.

yaaargh.  hell gross. homework's crazily a'piling.  and fuck pts.  im shit at it.  ugh.  have been flunking all my SAs this yr. my gpa's gonna be damn low. oh hell. whatever.

im hungry ! DINNERRRR !