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Aug. 30th, 2009

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DreamTown.

 I woke up in the middle of the night from what can only be described as a nightmare. Why? Because it was horribly vivid, from scents to images, and I couldn't fall back asleep afterward. Here's the gist.

I was picking Evan/Tuvia (the boyfriend) up at the airport. He was stressed out and as he was getting in the car he lit a cigarette. I don't know where he'd been on his trip, but he was suddenly smoking, and me -- being an asthmatic with allergies to smoke -- told him to put it out. He refused, and was really grumpy with me. So I drove off, door flying in the wind. Him standing there in the rain. I was throwing him a welcome back party at home, and I got there, and he returned about 20 minutes later. He got into the house, yelled something at me in front of everyone, and then lit up. I begged him to put it out. I told him that I didn't want him to smoke. And he did it anyway. I started crying. I said, "it's me or the cigarettes" and he said "You expect me to choose you over the cigarettes?" I cried some more. People comforted me, told me he was out of character and being weird. I cried some more. 

Then the dream got weird and I ended up washing Madonna's kids clothes in a sink in the house while everyone partied around me. Evan worked the crowd with one of those beer hats on his head. I was still crying. He'd broken up with me for some damn cigarettes.

What a weird dream. I feel like I didn't sleep at all as a result. And I took a nap just now, too. What a weird sleepless night. 

Mar. 10th, 2007

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Here is now.

Here is the future. I'm looking forward to it.

Today: Work till 10:30, meet up with Adam formerly of Silverhawk Aviation fame, sleep.

Tomorrow: Work till 8, buy milk and food for the week, thank G-d for not having to shop at the Safeway again, sleep.

Monday: Work till 7:30, take break for appointment to get woman stuff in order, relax and pack, sleep.

Tuesday: Eye appointment at 10:30 a.m., get new lenses, work till 1 a.m., sleep.

Wednesday: Work till midnight, thank G-d to not have to work these hours ever again, pack, sleep.

Thursday: Adventure one last time to SoHo in Dupont for Torah + Coffee, pack, visit Heather in Baltimore for "goodbye," sleep.

Friday: Wake up, finalize packing, muddle around nervously, clean up, go to Dulles, pick up Ian, pack up car, leave Washington indefinitely.

Drive, drive, drive to Chicago. Where I will reside indefinitely. Eat Hot Doug's. Sleep. Celebrate everyone's favorite Irish-themed holiday. Sleep, indefinitely, with future.

Wake up Monday, start looking frantically for jobs, when, she really realizes, she is unemployed and needing funds to pay for Hebrew classes and train tickets to get to shul each week. And to buy her boyfriend, whom she loves more than matzoh with cream cheese and jelly, pizza.

It begins!
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