Just another..

Closing time..

2007-06-25T01:59:28Z

Well I've decided to finally put this journal to rest. I know I spoke of redoing things but I want to make a journal for Brian and I both. This will be a place for both of us to write and to inform people of our wedding and the other adventures along the way. If you want to stay updated and still want to be friends go ahead and friend me over there. Hope everyone is doing good and I promise to those who I friend over there that I will be active and reading again! MUAH!!!!

New username :

heatherandbrian

It's been awhile, eh?

2007-05-14T03:30:52Z

So, time has passed and things are beautiful. My uncle passed two weeks ago but I've become stronger and grown adapt to only being able to have those heart to hearts in silence now. I know that when I told aloud he can hear me, as do many other people.

Brian and I are moving along nicely, we have some small vacations planned. We're not doing anything big this year because we have to save for our Las Vegas trip next April (YAY!! I'll finally be 21!) and a few other things like debt.

Syn and Nayru, now known at Gator Mouth and Little Foot, are total and complete fools. They make our days that much brighter.

(Syn/Gator Mouth)

(Nayru/ Little Foot)
This weekend was the tattoo convention and a lot of ink was done! Megan got three (the Irish wedding band on her ring finger, a fat mudd flap chick with a rose on her right elbow pit and a chinese blossom with a fat mudd flap chick on the right elbow pit):

Brian got a kickass piece on his chest from GWAR :

Me and my mom got kinda matching tattoos today for Mother's Day. We got the triquetra symbols but in different versions which we hope will continue in tradition with my brother and sister also getting one. Mine is first and moms is second :

(All pictures in this post are copyrighted and taken by me, please do not rip them!)

THEN BRIAN PURPOSED TO ME! :D It is the smaller ring I wanted first that will go with my bigger one at our wedding. I'll have a princess cut with smaller princess cut diamonds in the kite style on the side to match it. I love it a lot and it was so sweet how he was all nervous. I knew something was up when he walked over to me, took my hand and where he had his shirt off from getting his tattoo his entire stomache was SHAKING. Then he got on one knee and my mom and Megan started crying while everyone clapped and crap. It was so fucking sweet, O M G. Our wedding date is October 31st, 2008. CAN'T WAIT! :D

And me because I'm random and I CAN. And guess what, NO I DON'T HAVE A CUT. And no I won't make one.

Cowboys and indians. I usually always win...

I'll update again one day, like usual.

Xoxo,

Miss Classy Cunt
(soon to be Mrs Gillespie Cunt , haha )

_balderdash_ @ 2007-04-01T16:11:00

2007-04-01T22:12:03Z

20th birthday is April 10th! I can't wait. We're going to Atlanta for 2-3 days this week just for the hell of it and throwing a HUGE keg party the 14th. Two kegs, lots of fucking people, good food and partying it up for 6 different birthdays. I think the cops may show up! HAHA. Anyways..hope all is well.

2007

2007-02-13T18:40:04Z

New apartment, new puppy, new car, new life.

And my layout SUCKS so you have to click the comment button to see the LJ cut and to see the cute pictures of the puppy and new car!!!!

This year has brought on many bad things which turned for the better. Yeah, maybe it was hard to find a apartment for the amount that could help us save money, but we have a very nice one. It is a 3 bedroom apartment with granite(SP?!) countertops, huge open kitchen, 9 foot ceilings, 2 big bathrooms, all 3 bedrooms have walk in closets and there are two in the master. There is so much space and doors it is crazy! I promise once everything finally gets settled I'll take pictures.

Brian also wanted a corgi, but after the long search and never finding what he wanted we found a puppy at the flea market. Usually we don't do this but we found a English Boxer who was the runt of the litter, she is half english bulldog half boxer. She'll get about 14 inches tall and she is amazing and spunky! Brian named her Syn because he is silly and a guy so whatever, haha. I guess I can't say much considering I named our other dog Nayru!

We were suppose to go to the Bahamas this year but that got canceled when we found out how much money it would cost in such a short time. SO we decided we'd grab 1,800 and go for 9 days down to Disney World. WELL, my car blew up and instead..I get a 1,500 (+ half payments each month!!!) two month in advance birthday gift from Brian! A BRAND NEW SCION!!!!!!!!!!! This is number 2069 out of 2500 of the Special Release serious 4.0!! AMAZINGGGG! It has carbon strips, flip flop camillion mazora paint, custom taillights, lowering kit, alarm, in dash ipod connector(SCORE!), pioner color changing cd player, custom floormats, large head room, awesome awesome everything! And excuse the pictures we have had really shatty weather lately and today of all days it is raining like a bitch! But I couldn't help but show everyone that MY LIFE ROCKS MORE THAN YOURSSSSSSSS! And maybe this leaves enougn money for a solid piece of gold for our anniversary. -winkwink-

We have put that every 78 miles on here! WE GOT RIGHT OFF THE TRUCK BITCHES!

_balderdash_ @ 2007-02-11T23:20:00

2007-02-12T05:22:23Z

AK:LJSLKNFLKSJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111!

So, thursday my car died on me. Boohoo. The transmission isn't locked up but it def doesn't need to be drove since there isn'ta drop of transmission fluid left. Go me, now we are not going to the Bahama's for my birthday, instead Florida for a 9 day vacation inside Disney world. NOT! Instead Brian puts down 1,500 on a 2006 special edition Scion xB! It is Mazora which is a chamillion paint, it has lots of perks and GAH I LOVE IT. And my birthday is in two months..early gifts are always the best. I"M SO EXCITED! Now I have a car note but hell I'm pretty darn happy about it anyways. Soon will come pictures!

Yadda yadda yadda..

2006-06-08T02:38:19Z

It's sad that I just now noticed that I am still depressed about the same things I was depressed about last summer. I haven't, in the past year, made one single move to make myself nor my life any better. And personally I do believe it is my own fault, and I'm not here to write about how it is everyone elses fault. Things have fallen apart infront of me and I don't seem to be putting them back in the right places. The past two days have been incredibly hard for me, I haven't slept and I've lost more weight from my eating habits. All I do is sit and beat myself up over the things I should have done by now and about how horrible of a person I am, inside and out. I feel completely and utterly emotionally drained from everything. I almost feel like more and more of me and decaying. And get this, on 6-6-6 my grandmother from my dads side came looking for me at my aunts house, saying she was "concerned" about me. I haven't spoken to any of them in OVER a YEAR. Why the hell be concerned now? I just don't get it. Why are they wanting to do this to me? Why are they trying to toy with me over and over? Didn't they do that enough when I was a child? Yeah well fuck them, I am grown now and I do believe I will continue not speaking to them. I mean is that selfish and hateful of me? Do I seriously have some messed up feelings? I do think I need to see someone, a therapist. I need to talk to someone, I want to talk to someone. I unleased everything to Brian today over lunch, I told him everything and he wants me to quit my job and rest. He thinks I'm under a lot of stress and is willing to pay my bills if I need just to get away for a month. I never asked for that, I know I won't do it. Sitting around the house and boohooing isn't going to help me in any way. I need to find someone to tell my everything to that won't judge me or tell someone or think I'm crazy. Because I'll admit 85% of my thoughts are odd and fucked up. Maybe it's my insecurities. I think those will actually end up kiling the only good part of me left. And that isn't too far from being gone. Blah blah blah. I'm so emo..and I can't fucking help it anymore!

_balderdash_ @ 2005-01-14T10:43:00

2005-01-14T16:48:05Z

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