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[Nov. 18th, 2009::01:15 pm] |
It's a girl.
Didin't expect that at all but that last couple days i've been having a feeing it might be.
I'm just really happy to finally know.
Bought some baby clothes, all pink. I can't believe I'm going to have a daughter. |
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[May. 16th, 2009::10:41 pm] |
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my "husband" dumped me over facebook |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2009::09:00 pm] |
i miss you, its been hard |
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[Jan. 31st, 2009::10:32 pm] |
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COACHELLA COACHELLA COACHELLA
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[Jan. 31st, 2009::05:43 pm] |
The past couple of days have been a flurry of emotion and distraction. It's been really hard to come down back to my life, I've been living the life of someone who isn't me. I've gotten so lost in this relationship, that Sabina didn't exist anymore. Not that sometimes it isn't fun to get lost and just live. But I took it so such a new level I don't think I could even explain it.
Right now I'm heartbroken. I didn't expect things to end this way. I didn't expect James to be the person he was. I feel entirely mislead and confused. And now that things are the way they are, I feel like I've lost any opportunity to get closure or settle my feelings.
I feel so alone right now. I'm trying to go out and make myself feel better, but as you will probably know its not easy.
Its one day, one step at a time. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2008::01:12 am] |
so much has been going on
one thing has been absolutly wonderful.
happy holidays! |
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[Aug. 31st, 2008::02:21 am] |
i feel like there is always a thousand things floating round in my head. idea, stories, songs, art, letters. it makes it impossible to concentrate in class.
i want to write stories, i have about ten ideas just right now. i just dont know how to go about writing them in a cohesive manner. i wan to write down a million things and hope someone likes them. but i also don't care. i just want to write for me, or about me, or stories that will make me feel like i am less empty.
i am such a cross points right now, and i feel like im being tugged into five different places.
1. i want to move away, so far i won't know anyone. i want to completly start over so my past somehow stops haunting me.
2. i want to stay where i am, im content sometimes. ive missed out on two years with hailey and cayden and caitlin and my dad. i love being around them, but i hate how i am and how stuck i feel.
3. i want to start my future with chris. i know im an adult, but thus far ive been lacking in serious decision making in that department.
4. i need to decide what im going to do with my life. the only two things i know i must have for certain to be happy is rain, and books. hopefully a job that involves books, just not selling them (uneless its somewhere special like "strand"). if i had those things, i think other satisfactions will come.
5. continue school to be a teacher. every wednesday night after my history class i feel so inspired and full, and so certain that's what i want to do. but what happens when it gets too hard for me? i wont have my college hitory professor to give me the confidence i need. i cant live like that. its not an option.
i need so much freedom right now, and i still need stability at the same time so i can find out where i need to be going.
i feel so lazy and slow. i need change. im craving a tattoo just so something will be different from today to tomorrow. i need to have plans to go somewhere. when i have something to look forward to i feel alive, i feel happy.
i hate to say this, but the only constant ive got going is reading and books. they are the best way fro me to escape and find a steady ground. unfortunatly even though i work at a bookstore i rarely deal with books at all anymore. its hard that something i love so much, something i worked really hard to find happiness with, isnt even part of my day to day anymore.
i miss having a friends, going out, and being social. now i just feel like this misplaced person who is stuck in this grey room where people are polite and tolerate of you, but never anything more. i crave adult contact outside of chris, and pierre. its impossible to make friends at moorpark because the majority of them are everything i cant stand. the only people i work with at barnes & noble are in their fities. not much for going out or having parties.
i know how to be a good friend. i know how to have good relationships. ijust forgot how for a while. and i know if im given a second chance i can prove im not that person i used to be, that im so much more now.
you have one life to live, make the most of it. |
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[Jun. 20th, 2008::06:28 pm] |
Don’t tell my sister about your most recent vision.
Don’t tell my family, they’re all wicked-strict Christian.
Don’t tell the hangers-on.
Don’t tell your friends.
Don’t tell them we went down to Ybor City again.
Don’t tell the dancers, they’ll just get distracted.
Don’t tell the DJs. They already suspect us.
Don’t mention the bloodshed.
Don’t mention the scams.
Don’t tell them Ybor City almost killed us again.
We are the theatre,
they are the people,
dressed up to be seated,
lookin’ upwards and dreamin’.
We’re the projectors.
We’re hosting the screening.
We’re dust in the spotlights.
We’re just kinda floating.
Don’t drop little hints. I don’t want them to guess.
Don’t mention Tampa, they’ll just know all the rest.
Don’t mention bloodshed
Don’t tell them it hurts.
Don’t say we saw angels, they’ll take us straight to the church.
They queue up for tickets
to see the performance.
They push to get closer,
lookin’ upwards with wonder.
We are the actors.
The cameras are rollin’.
I’ll be Ben Gazzara, you’ll be Gena Rowlands.
Sometimes, actresses get slapped.
Sometimes, actresses get slapped.
Sometimes, fake fights turn out bad.
Sometimes, actresses get slapped.
Some nights, makin’ it look real
might end up with someone hurt.
Some nights, it’s just entertainment,
and some other nights, it’s real.
They come in for the feeding,
to sit in stadium seating.
They’re holding their hands out for the body and blood, now.
We’re the directors;
our hands will hold steady.
I’ll be John Cassavettes;
let me know when you’re ready.
Man, we make our own movies.
Man, we make our own movies.
Man, we make our own movies.
Man, we make our own movies. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2008::11:19 pm] |
My new years resolution was to do something that scares me once a week.
This new year feels so different. A good different, like so much is going to happen.
( bright eyes ) |
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[Dec. 7th, 2007::01:34 am] |
Seriously, "Piece of me" by Britney Spears is one of the best songs of 2007.
Including, but not limited to:
Stronger
Radio Nowhere
Icky Thump
&
Four Winds
Also please make sure you see these following movies:
knocked up
juno
superbad
across the universe
enchanted
&
im not there
lets get together and discuss
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| all 10 thanksgiving FRIENDS episodes |
[Nov. 20th, 2007::02:41 am] |
season 1
"The One Where Underdog Gets Away"
Monica burns her first Thanksgiving dinner as the Underdog balloon gets away, Joey become a poster boy for VD, and Ross sings to his unborn child.
season 2
"The One with the List"
Ross must choose between Rachel and Julie and enlists Joey and Chandler's help in making a list of the pros and cons of each. Big mistake. He chooses Rachel, but she finds the list and gets angry with Ross. Meanwhile, Monica gets a job making food with a synthetic chocolate substitute called Mockolate.
season 3
"The One with the Football"
Emotions become the feast of the day when the gang plays a game of touch football on Thanksgiving as Joey and Chandler argue over who gets to date a model and Ross and Monica argue over winning in a case of sibling rivalry.
season 4
"The One with Chandler in a Box"
Chandler agrees to spend Thanksgiving in a shipping crate as penance for kissing Kathy. Monica invites Richard's son over for Thanksgiving.
season 5
"The One with All the Thanksgivings"
Past Thanksgivings are revealed. These include Chandler insulting Monica, Monica's accidental revenge, and Joey with his head stuck in a turkey.
season 6
"The One Where Ross Got High"
Ross is forced to tell Chandler why Jack and Judy don't like him. Rachel tries to make dessert. Joey and Ross try and get out of Thanksgiving when they are invited to hang out with Janine and her dancer friends.
season 7
"The One Where Chandler Doesn't Like Dogs"
Phoebe sneaks a puppy into the apartment; Chandler reveals why he hates dogs. Ross becomes obsessed with naming all 50 states in order to earn his Thanksgiving dinner.
season 8
"The One with the Rumor"
Monica invites a high school friend, Will to her Thanksgiving dinner. He and Ross started a rumor about Rachel having both male and female "body parts". Joey tries to eat an entire turkey. Chandler and Phoebe avoid work.
season 9
"The One with Rachel's Other Sister"
Amy, Rachel's spoiled, irresponsible sister, shows up for Thanksgiving. The gang argues over who gets custody of Emma if Ross and Rachel die.
season 10
"The One with the Late Thanksgiving"
Monica and Chandler grudgingly agree to host Thanksgiving. They get angry when their friends show up late (Ross and Joey having gone to a game and Rachel and Phoebe having taken Emma to a baby beauty pageant), but their mood changes when they get good news from the adoption agency. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2007::02:23 pm] |
the hold steady wednesday!
in other news, work owns me. |
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[Oct. 17th, 2007::03:27 pm] |
she was born on a brightened pier
to a gypsy mother and a bucket of tears
her good looks coulda sailed a ship
but her will alone coulda sunk it
funny thing about money for sex
you might get rich
but you die by it
it's gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call
tell me now what would you do
hanging back with the brutes
hustlin' a pickpocket
that's no way to get rich
it's gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call
business woman with good sense
if you live at all, you're gonna die by it
funny thing about money for sex
you might get rich, but then...
it's gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call
gonna be a close call |
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[Oct. 7th, 2007::01:22 am] |
1. School is useless
2. My cat needs to stop attacking me
3. I'm hoping to go to San Fransisco Oct 16-18 or 19. I would really like a driving partner or someone to travel with.
4. Holiday time is here! |
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