||[Mar. 4th, 2012::11:55 pm]
I think Holly has been slowly weaning herself. For the past week I've noticed that she only nurses twice a day, once when she wakes up and once right before bed. Usually for about 10 seconds at a time. So sad, I think I'm heartbroken. All I want is to make it to the 2 year mark, which is 9 days away so I think I will be heavily encouraging her to continue nursing till then. I know my big goal was 2 years and in the beginning it seemed so far away, but now that its here I wish we could go longer. I'm really really not ready for it to be over. I tried to express some milk in the shower and I got one drop on each side :( I think I need to go to therapy or talk to someone about how sad it makes me. She's my baby! I don't know when or if I'll be having another one and this has been such a special bond. I am not ready.|
Words of encouragement? I know I am soooo fortunate to have made it this far with the support and encouragement i've had, and especially since so many moms don't even make it to a year. I know I did what was the very best I could do for her with the extended nursing as long as we did. UGH, just not ready.