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i took my exams all last week, i hope i did good. prob not, butoh well. candace and i skipped 3rd and went to the mall for lunch, and thursday her and i went to megans graduation. it was really sad, i mean it could've been me up there.. but dumb ass me had to fail 6th grade. it sucks i'm like punshing myself for something i did when i was like 11 or something... and i'm paying for it now. everyone i grew up with was walking, it was weird seeing kimmie, shane and everyone.. i spent the night at brads all last week b/c his ma was gone. <3
i was gonna go to beach week with candace megan and everyone, but i had my company picnic on sat and then i had to go back to work today. i wish i couldve gone, i might still go if i can, but thursday i'm leaving to go to frisco so we'll see. i miss everyone! its so weird everyone being gone. ughh its driving me crazy.
shana and i arn't close anymore and theres acouple reasons why, but whatever. it sucks but i guess she isn't who i thought she was?
i saw lindsey riddle last week. =) i think we're gonna hangout soon. i missed her so much!!
last tuesday was my friends graduation dinner, i couldn't go b/c its tuesday, date night. brad and i have been going since feb!! every tuesday. i would have loved to go if it was another night. but it was tuesday and i couln't break our tradition. sounds stupid. but i mean idk.. but i mean i guess thats selfish or something.. but to me its not b/c in some ways we only hangout when her and her boyfriend break up so its just not very fair for somone to expect me to change plans with brad when we only hangout when she has nothing to do, if she actually answers the phone... i mean we were best friends last year, and then they go tback together, and then we never really hungout, and then now its summer again, and yup it happened again, and i'm not upset or anything, i mean i'm glad we 'were' close again, but i can't be expected to break plans. thats not me. i don't break plans.. even though brad and i have been through hell and i should never put him before my friends.., hes still there everyday to talk to. to listen to.. i mean hes my best friend. the only person i talk to every single day! he answers the phone when i call, he calls back.. i mean isn't that wat friends are soposed to do..? i love her!!!! , i do. but i guess i'm selfish for not wanting to change plans.. 1 out of 7 days.. and its that 1 day. i mean its not like it was her graduation and i was invited or anything... and the funny thing was is i got her the cutest pair of earrings a shirt and a card.. and i had been calling her everyday last week so i could hangout and give it to her and she never answered, decided to tell me today after acouple voicemails, texts and ims later.. as usual.. that she was upset i didn't go.. maybe i'm stupid? idk.. but i mean shes mad i wasn't there for her, she says she has no one.. but she does, she has her bestfriend.. why does she need me? she would have me anyday everyday if she actually called.. i love my friends and i'd do anything for them.. but i mean u have to answer ur phone or at least call me back.. i mean i call her all the time, she never 'feels' like hanginout.. i mean why do i wanna keep calling someone when i know they eaither 'working' 'with so and so" or 'doesn't feel like it' yet i still call? 2 or three times a day.. and never get any call back. after acouple days later i ask 'why r u ignoreing me'!!.. i think i am stupid... i think i try to hard to keep friendships there? friends stay in touch. call eachother back.... i mean when u go and hangout with someone else, but then tell me you've been with ur parents all weekend.. or tell me you've had no time in days to call me i just find it hard to belive and replying to a text message or a call.. thats takes .5 seconds is impossiable.. idk maybe i'm searching for some kind of frienship that doesn't exsist...? i don't think its much to ask but obviously it is if i've never found it. i guess i'm lookin in all the wrong groups of people.. she says we're not friends anymore so whatever.
megan is completly obsesed with forrest and i'm glad shes happy but, everytime i call her shes with him.. everyday. and we had plans last week and she decided to go with him. =/
damnit doesnt anyone NOT have a boyfriend and can hangout!!? or at least not hangout with their boyfriend everydayyyy?
last saturday was my company picnic.. i invited lindsey, but she had work? so i invited brad.. and he brought his little brother. and my little brother too. it was so cute =) free snow cones and cotten candy every moon walk in va was there.. haha dunkin machine. it was awesome..
sunday was fathers day. oh god.. it was stupid. i hate my step dad. so happy fathers day to him! my real dad wheer ever he may be is probably with a thousand and one kids drinkin and smoking away his stupid life. ugh. i hate fathers day. last that night i went to brads uncles with him at sandbride. we went tubin on the boat.. and to the beach. it was fun, a twist to fathers day.
i'm leaving thursdayyyyyyyy
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