She Just Wants To Love...

Way Down, I'm going under, and I'm falling harder. I might break for you...

2005-02-27T18:45:14Z

COMMENT WITH YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE OR LYRICS TO BE ADDED!

(No quote/lyrics, no adding.)

Going FO

2005-02-27T07:56:52Z

Hmm...I think I'm gonna go Friends Only with this journal.

Sooo...yeah. If you read my lj and haven't added me yet, do so and I'll add you back.

All the entries that are up so far will stay public because I'm too lazy to go back and change them, but everything after today is going to be Friends Only!

....And, um...yeah.

Nobody's getting cut from my friends list (yet), so if you're all ready on my list, No worries!

♥

I almost wrote a song about you today...BUT I TORE IT ALL UP AND THEN I THREW IT AWAY!!!!

2005-02-27T02:01:55Z

stole this from l0st_inl0ve. Check our her LJ, because it's rad.

top ten things that move me the most
one] When people say something nice to me and I can tell that they really mean it.
two] Girl loses guy/guy realizes mistake/girl gets new, different and better guy books. Those kind of books are always so sweet, because someone who deserves to be treated better always gets what she deserves in the end. *girly sigh*
three] Seeing someone cry
four] Certain songs
five] Really good stories/poems
six] That nervous but excited, sweaty palms, fast heartbeat, butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling when you pass by someone you really like.
seven] Smiling for no reason other than not having a reason to frown.
eight] Having friends that are real. Ones that won't lie to you, even if the truth hurts. Ones that don't appear to be one way around certain people and different around others. Ones that are just...real.
nine] Playing piano
ten] Thunderstorms

ten things that bother me most
one] When people let their children run around restaurants/theaters/other public places while they're screaming and being obnoxious. People, would you kindly teach your children some matters or take them home?
two] having something you can never say
three] Having a million things you want to say to someone, but somehow not being able to say a single one to them.
four] Remembering that you forgot something, but not being able to remember what you've forgotten.
five] Feeling lonely
six] Having nobody to talk to when you need it the most.
seven] The color yellow.
eight] Putting everything you've got into something, only to have someone else ruin it.
nine] When people refuse to look at things from another angle and assume their always right.
ten] When people are dead set on believing in only things that have scientific proof. ...Just because it hasn't been proven yet, doesn't mean it's wrong.

ten things that scare me the most
one] The future
two] Losing the people I'm close to
three] Love
four] The possibility of being alone forever
five] Clowns
six] Fighting with friends
seven] Losing my dad
eight] Losing sight of things that really matter to me
nine] Heights
ten] Life.

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-25T22:10:00

2005-02-26T04:30:03Z

Firstly: Join my tag team if you love me. It's cool, and you can do fun things. http://www.taggedmail.com/welcome.html?aa=y6p7&a=1

Secondly:
I've felt like complete crap all day. I went to a Dr. appointment this morning and they drew blood. A lot more than they've ever taken out of me before...I don't know why they took so much this time. It's weird. But anyway, while I was waiting for the blood test results she did this thing where she pressed on my stomach with 2 fingers and tapped on her fingers with her other hand kinda hard.
Seeing as my stomach was dead empty, it hurt like a freaking mofo. No food since Monday night, with being sick and all that stupid stuff. My stomach won't quit growling either. GRRR.

But yeah, back to the appointment, when the blood test came back she said my potassium and hemogloblin were fine but something else was weird with it. I forget what it was called, but she said there was something present in my blood that indicated I was starving. *rolls eyes*

NO FREAKING CRAP, Lady! I'm SICK! I cannot EAT because I cannot keep food down!! I haven't been able to for FOUR DAYS! Thusly, I am STARVING! Duh... You think someone with a medical degree could figure that much out...but no.

Anyways, after my appointment I went to school *for the first time this week...oh yay* and felt horrible for the rest of the day. It took just about every bit of energy I had to make it up the stairs for each class. By 7th hour, I was ready to just pass out in a hallway somewhere to rest. And now I'm home, still feeling horrible even after I've taken my anti-nausea medication, zantac, and my antibiotic. My head's killing me, I just kinda feel weak all over like if I stand up I'm just gonna collapse, and all of my muscles are sore. Advil's not helping at all, so I'm basically screwed. Guess I'll just have to suck it up and deal with it.

...Yup. SO, now that I'm done with my Pity Party, I can get to the good part:
Tomorrow, Sarah and I are going to watch a ton of Disney Movies and get all nostalgic over them and love every minute of it. Aladdin, Lion King, Beauty and the Beast, The Emporer's New Groove, Hercules, Little Mermaid...Heck yes.

(Anybody I know in real life that reads this: You should come. It's gonna be great fun. I don't care if I like you/hate you/love you/forgot you existed. You should just be there, because it's gonna be rad.)

Okay, enough of that. Join my tag team, make me happy, and have a good night!

SAMBOB IS THE COOLEST PERSON IN THE WORLD AND IF YOU DON'T THINK SO: SHE IS! SHE IS A KAJILLION TIMES COOLER THAN YOU AND YOU SHOULD LOAF HER AND GIVE HER HIGH FIVES AND HUGS BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT AS RAD AS HER! SO PUT THAT IN YOUR JUICE BOX AND SUCK IT!

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-23T17:58:00

2005-02-24T00:38:56Z

What does your name mean? Hmm...Kristine is Greek for "Christ-bearer" and German for "Christian"
How old are you? 17
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? 17 going on 8 some days, other days 17 going on 50.
Describe yourself in 5 words: Random, lonely, short, stressed, rad/wonky
(I used a '/'...that makes it one!)
What are your worst qualities: I blame myself for everything, have low self-esteem, get upset about stupid things, do stupid things, think too much, and I'm annoying.
What are your best qualities: I try to make people happy (Well, I try my best, but sometimes my best isn't good enough. Sometimes people just have to be mad/sad), I'm a pretty good listener, and I know when to be serious.
How long does it take you get get ready in the morning: FOREEEEVER...I don't spend a lot of time getting ready, but I sit around drinking coffee and attempting to really wake up for about half and hour or so, THEN I get ready, which takes about 10-15 minutes.
~SLEEP~
Do you dream at night? Heck yes.
Do you remember your dreams? Usually.
Describe one: I'd rather not.
What time do you go to bed usually? Depends on how my day went. Anywhere from 10 to not going to bed at all.
What time do you wake up normally? 5:30-6:00
What time do you wake on weekends? 12-ish.
Do you find waking late nice or annoying? Depends on how you're feeling. If you're sick, then waking up late sucks and you just feel icky.
do you sleep with one pillow or two? One.

~SCHOOL~
Did you like school? A few parts yeah, but others NO.
Why/why not? I like seeing my friends every day, and I enjoy a 3 classes, but I don't like any of my other classes and I just don't "click" with a lot of people for some reason so I feel a little uncomfortable around them.
Whats was ur fave subject? Band. Yes...it's a subject.
Most hated subject? Algebra II
Did you have a fave teacher? Mr. Hanchette was the all-time best teacher EVER.
Ever had a crush on a teacher? No.
Were you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? English/Drama, I guess.

~FRIENDS~
Do you have heaps of friends? I have a LOT of acquaintances, but 3 close friends.
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? Sort of an equal amount of each, a few more girls than guys I think, but I dunno. Guys are just easier to deal with. They don't create so much drama.
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? YES.
Have you ever lied to a friend? Yes. Sometimes you have to. There are certain truths some people just can't handle.
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope.

~FAMILY~
Do you like your parents? My dad, yeah. My mom...well, to put it nicely: GOD NO!
Ever run away from home? No, but I used to think about it a LOT.
Ever thought about it? I kinda covered this on in my last answer. Oops.
Do you have any siblings? Yes.
How old are they? 12
Do you feel your parents spoil you? Yeah my dad does when it comes to certain things, like music. I've got a cd collection that could put walmart to shame lol. Not so much when it comes to clothes and stuff though. He's a dude...he just doesn't get it.
Do you not get along with any of your family? My mom.
Do you have big family get togethers ever? No.

~Religion~
Do you have a religion? Christianity.
Do you practice it i.e go to church? Not as much as I should.
Do you believe in God? YES
Jesus? Absolutely
Satan? Yeah, I believe he exists
Heaven? Yes.
Hell? Yes.
If you died tomorrow what do you believe will happen to you? I'd go to heaven.

~Morals~
Ever taken drugs? No.
stolen? No.
shoplifted? No.
tried to commit suicide?
are you more innocent or guilty? Innocent, but I always feel guilty about some thing or another.
Would you date a drug addict? That's tough...If I was dating someone and they became addicted while we were together I wouldn't leave them for that reason. I'd stick around and try to help him, but I wouldn't go out with someone that I knew beforehand was an addict.
Are you racist? No.
Are you discriminatory to anyone? Nope. I dislike all of the people that I don't like EQUALLY! :)
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? Yes.
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? I try to be open, but with some things I just CAN'T be because of my own beliefs.

~Media~
Do you watch tons of tv? Nope.
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? Not to the movies a lot, but rented TONS.
Do you listento the radio often? Not really. Only in the car.
Do you read the newspaper? Sometimes.
Do you read magazines? on occasion.
Are you a couch potato? More of a computer-addict.
Do you use the internet too much? That...is the understatement of the century.

~Music~
Whats your fave style of music? I can get into pretty much anything lately. It used to be only rock, but I'm liking a lot more classical and pop stuff lately, and even some hip hop songs (NOT rap though), and even a few country songs.
Do you play an instrument? Piano and Percussion.
Do you sing? Yes.
Whats your fave band? WAY too many, so I'll just say Something Corporate off the top of my head.
Why? Piano and rock with great vocals all in one. Yay.
Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year: Maroon 5 - Songs about Jane, Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue, Letters to Cleo - Wholesale Meats and Fish
Why did you buy them? Because I'm a music addict.

~perosnality~
Are you funny or serious? A bit of both, but I lean more towards the serious side lately.
Creative or not? Creative-ish.
Logical thinker or lateral thinker? Both. It depends on my mood. When I'm hyper I'm waaaaaay out there. When I'm calm I'm annoyingly logical.
Are you outgoing or shy? Shy.
Are you lazy or active? I'm lazy around the house, but when I get started on something I go and go.
Have you ever been hyperactive? Yes.
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? Not so much anymore.

~Looks~
Are you happy with the way you look? No
What would you change? Be 40 lbs. lighter, hair that actually does what I want it to, different eye shape, smaller lips, better bone structure, tanner skin, blah...just everything.
Do you wear makeup regularly? I wear a bit more lately than usual.
Do you have a large wardrobe? Nah.

~Money~
Do you have a job? No.
Do you like it?
Are you a saver or a spender? Depends on my mood. When I'm in a bad mood I spend like no one's business.
Do you work hard or slack off? Early in the year I work hard, start slacking around December, but I'm usually back on track by March or so.
Ever had money stolen from you? Yeah
Are you always broke? YES

~Later in Life~
Do you want to get married someday? Yes
If so, what kind of wedding ring do you want? I don't know. Who's to say I'll get married for sure?
Would you have a theme for your wedding? Just your classic 'white dress in a church' wedding.
Could you love some one who has been married before? Yeah, I think so. If you really loved someone it wouldn't matter if they'd been married before.
Do you think you will marry someone you know now? I don't know.
What would your wedding song be? I have no clue.

BOLD the movies you saw.
Add three more to the bottom.

01. Night at the Roxbury
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love, Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill, Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. Basketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Saftey of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. The Crow
48. The Princess and the Warrior
49. Seabiscuit
50. Hard Core Logo
51. Phantom of the Paradise
52. Zardoz
53. Lost in Translation
54. American Beauty
55. Big Fish
56. Starship Troopers
57. Starship Troopers 2
58. The Lost Boys
59. All About Eve
60. Showgirls
61. Swept Away
62. Star Wars: A New Hope
63. Black Hawk Down
64. Elizabeth
65. The Shawshank Redemption
66. Four Weddings and a Funeral
67. The Sound of Music
68. Notting Hill
69. Scotland, PA
70. Oxygen
71. Ringu
72. Shrunken Heads
73. Legends
74. About a Boy
75. Lilo and Stitch
76. Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
77. Pitch Black
78. Maid in Manhattan
79. Willow
80. Secret Of Nymh
81. Throughly Modern Millie
82. The Cutting Edge
83. Anna and the King
84. The American President
85. Save The Last Dance
86. Grease
87. Dirty Dancing
88. Mad Love
89. Lantana
90. Kiss the Sky
91. Braveheart
92. Dark City
93. SLC Punk
94. Memento
95. In America
96. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
97. The Wedding Planner
98. Empire Records
99. Edward Scissorhands
100. Almost Famous
101. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie
102. Star Trek Generations
103. Beyond The Mat
104. Transformers: The Movie
105. Scary Movie
106. X-Men
107. Ghost
108. Changing Lanes
109. Hangman's Curse
110. Broken Arrow
111. Mona Lisa Smile
112. Moulin Rouge
113. The Ninth Gate
114. Emma
115. The Name of the Rose
116. Top Gun
117. Heartbreak Ridge
118. U-571
119. Ghost Ship
120. Johnny English
121. Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights
122. The Fifth Element
123. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
124. Holes
125. The Pianist
126. Amelie
127. Road Trip
128. Miracle
129. Center Stage
130. Spider-Man
131. Exorcist
132. Omen
133. 8 Mile
134. Son in Law
135. Stepmom
136. Dr. Strangelove
137. Full Metal Jacket
138. Lolita
139. Little Shop of Horrors
140. Annie
141. Rocky Horror Picture Show
142. Being John Malkovich
143. Monty Python & the Holy Grail
144. Street Fighter Alpha: The Movie
145. Under the Tuscan Sun
146. The Four Feathers
147. Gosford Park
148. Bubble Boy
149. Without a Paddle
150. Labyrinth
151. Shrek 2
152. Spider-Man 2
153. X-Men 2
154. Ever After
155. Great Expectations
156. Orgazmo
157. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
158. The Matrix
159. Underworld
160. Anchorman
161. Leon: The Professional
162. The Cooler
163. Head (1969)
164. Bridget Jones's Diary
165. Albino Aligator
166. Chasing Amy
167. The Usual Suspects
168. The Shape of Things
169. 13 Conversations About One Thing
170. Hero
171. Rules of Attraction
172. I (heart) Huckabees
173. Farenheit 9/11
174. Akira
175. Garden State
176. Ghost in the Shell
177. Kissing Jessica Stein
178. Sailor Moon: Super S
179. Adaptation
180. Punch Drunk Love
181. Mulan
182. Napoleon Dynamite
183. Pleasantville
184. Rat Race
185. Blue Crush
186. In Good Company
187. 13 Going on 30
188. Elf
189. Life Is Beautiful
190. Cruel Intentions
191. Princess Mononoke
192. Mallrats
193. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
194. Fight Club
195. Phantom of the Opera
196. First Knight
197. Alexander
198. Real Genius
199. Secretary
200. Quills
201. Detroit Rock City
202. Beetlejuice
203. Thirteen
204. Trainspotting
205. The Texas Chainsaw Massacre
206. Weird Science
207. Mean Girls
208. The Bourne Supremecy
209. Dodgeball
210. Meet the Parents
211. Meet the Fockers
212. Troy
213. Saw
214. The Passion of the Christ
215. Ray
216. Collateral
217. Coach Carter
218. Assault on Precinct 13
219. Hitch
220. Finding Neverland
221. National Treasure
222. Million Dollar Baby
223. Cellular
224. The Terminal
225. Mr. 3000
226. Head of State
227. Blue Streak
228. National Security
229. Rush Hour
230. Rush Hour 2
231. Shanghai Noon
232. Shanghai Knights
233. XXX
234. The Fast and the Furious
235. 2 Fast 2 Furious
236. The Last Samurai
237. Van Helsing
238. Ocean’s Eleven
239. Ocean’s Twelve
240. Men in Black
241. Men in Black II
242. I, Robot
243. Harold and Kumar go to White Castle
244. Zoolander
245. Rose Red
246. The Silence of the Lambs
247. Hannibal
248. Red Dragon
249. Prophecy trilogy
250. Interview with the Vampire
251. Queen of the Damned
252. Pi
253. Ichi The Killer
254. Suspiria
255. Spun
256. A Beautiful Mind
257. Nightmare Before Christmas
258. The Butterfly Effect
259. White Noise
260. Alone in the Dark
261. The Aviator
262. American Psycho
263. Die Hard
264. Die Hard 2
265. Die Hard with a Vengeance
266. Batman
267. Batman Returns
268. Batman Forever
269. Batman & Robin
270. Resident Evil
271. Resident Evil: Apocalypse
272. What's Eating Gilbert Grape?
273. Blade
274. Blade II
275. Blade: Trinity
276. The Blues Brothers
277. Blues Brothers 2000
278. Ghostbusters
279. Ghostbusters 2
280. Clue
281. Raiders of the Lost Ark
282. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
283. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
284. Street Fighter
285. Super Mario Brothers
286. Gremlins
287. Gremlins 2
288. The Addams Family
289. Addams Family Values
290. Superman
291. Superman II
292. Superman III
293. Superman IV
294. South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut
295. Beavis & Butt-head Do America
296. Ed Wood
297. Donnie Brasco
298. Pulp Fiction
299. Face/Off
300. Con Air
301. Mission: Impossible
302. M:1-2
303. Escape from Alcatraz
304. Speed
305. Speed 2
306. Go
307. The Godfather
308. The Godfather Part II
309. The Godfather Part III
310. Manhunter
311. UHF
312. Mortal Kombat
313. Mortal Kombat: Annihilation
314. Saving Private Ryan
315. The Relic
316. Enemy at the Gates
317. Home Alone
318. Home Alone 2
319. Home Alone 3
321. Happy Gilmore
322. Billy Madison
323. The Waterboy
324. Little Nicky
325. Dirty Work
326. Tommy Boy
327. Black Sheep
328. Death Wish
329. Pecker
330. Cecil B. Demented
331. The Shining
332. Carrie
333. Pet Cematary
334. Pet Sematary Two
335. The Terminator
336. Terminator 2
337. Terminator 3
338. Ned Kelly
339. Kate & Leopold
340. Mystic River
341. I Am Sam
342. Joan of Arc
343. 50 First Dates
344. Atilla
345. Timeline
346. Titanic
347. Reign of Fire
348. Legends of the Fall
349. The Mask of Zorro
350. Rudy
351. Signs
352. The Village
353. Gladiator
354. The Bumblebee Flies Anyway
355. The War
356. Gothika
357. Se7en
358. Hairspray
359. Love Me If You Dare/Jeux d'enfants
360. Maria Full of Grace
361. Vampire Clan
362. Once Upon A Time in Mexico
363. A Soldier’s Girl
464. Ong – Bak: Thai Warrior
465. Rigoletto
466. Stargate
467. A League of Their Own
468. The Boondock Saints
469. Platoon
470. The Lion King
471. Cabaret
472. Aladdin
473. The Music Man

Hmm...

2005-02-22T22:56:48Z

Okay, I guess I lied.
I'm not going on hiatus from LJ, because I spend too much time staring at the computer screen to not spend time on LJ.

Things suck a lot right now...I guess I've been dumped (and I gotta tell ya, I'm feeling slightly less than peachy), and rather than thinking rationally and taking time to think and calm down and give myself time to stop crying and really put things in perspective, I did something really really stupid.
I shouldn't have done it, and in the end it didn't help at all...so what did I do? I did it again in the morning; and all I've got now that it's done and over is a sore throat, bruises on my stomach, and a wicked stomachache. I feel really really terrible. I thought I might actually be over all of that, but I guess I'm not.

But I've talked with 3 different people now, and each of them have done a little bit to help, and I've decided that no matter how lonely, rejected, and stupid I feel from all of this...I'm going to try to not let it get to me so badly. Because I stayed up literally all night crying - and what did it get me? ...Nothing. Did throwing up until there was nothing left and ending up with the dry heaves for half an hour do me any good? - Other than getting me to stop feeling for a short while, no. It didn't. All the feelings came rushing right back once I was finished, so it did me no good at all...And I feel really stupid because I did it again this morning. It was like I couldn't stop myself; kind of like I was outside myself, watching myself do it. I just wanted to make it stop hurting for a while...

But what's done is done, and I can't un-do it and I can't make people feel things that they don't so there's no point in tying to. I guess there's really nothing to do but try to get over it and hope for the best and pray that he still wants to be my friend- because without him to talk to I'll go nuts.

aaand, a ton of surveys stolen from forgotten_story, because I have nothing better to do with my life...

(_) ever smoked marijuana
(_) been drunk
(_) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) stolen a car
(_) been to Japan
(_) played mailbox baseball
(_) ridden in a taxi
(X) been in love
(X) been dumped
(_) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(_) been in a fist fight
(_) kicked someone's butt
(X) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(X) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_) gone on a blind date
(X) lied to a friend
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(X) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) had sex
(_) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(_) had a crush on one of my Live journal friends
(X) slapped someone I loved
(_) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(_) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(_) Been on a plane
(_) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(_) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been snowboarding
(_) Met someone in person from the internet
(X) Been moshing at a concert
(_) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(X) tried killing yourself
(X) taken painkillers
(X) love someone or miss someone right now
(_) walked a tightrope along train tracks
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel
(_) had a tea party (real and imaginary)
(X) flown a kite.
(X) built a sand castle
(X) gone puddle jumping
(X) played dress up
(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work/school
(_) climbed a volcano
(_) used a fake id
(X) gone ice skating
(X) watched the sunset
(_) felt an earthquake
(X) touched a snake
(X) slept beneath the stars
(_) ridden on a camel
(_) climbed a mountain
(X) played "clue"
(X) had a sleepover
(X) been tickled
(_) seen a UFO
(X) told a lie
(_) been robbed
(X) been misunderstood
(X) been fishing
(_) snuck into a movie
(_) consulted a psychic
(X) petted a reindeer/goat
(X) won a contest
(X) been to a zoo
(_) seen your mom cry at a funeral
(_) run a red light
(_) been suspended from school
(X) been in a car accident
(X) had braces
(X) felt like an outcast
(_) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja vu
(X) touched a starfish
(_) danced in the moonlight
(X) hated the way you look
(X) jousted/sword fought/jedi lightsaber
(_) witnessed a crime
(_) been spit on by a llama
(_) pole danced Not for real, haha
(X) met anyone famous
(X) questioned your heart
(X) been to the circus
(_) been to jail
(X) laughed during a sad scene in a movie/tv show
(X) played with an etch a sketch
(_) eaten caviar
(_) been obsessed with post-it notes
(X) hated your computer
(X) owned a pet
(X) made a banana-split
(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
(_) had a midnight picnic
(_) been to the opposite side of the country
(_) swam in the ocean
(X) felt like dying
(X) cried yourself to sleep
(_) laughed in the middle of church
(_) stepped on a nail so that it went into your foot Does glass count?
(_) made homemade ice cream
(X) actually enjoyed your classes
(X) used a magic 8 ball
(X) made a flower chain necklace or other type of jewelry
(X) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils
(_) seen a moose up close
(X) sung karaoke
(X) paid for a meal with only coins
(X) done something you told yourself you would never do
(X) played air guitar
(X) tripped up the stairs
(_) had a crush on a family member (Ewww)
(X) made a mud pie
(X) made prank phone calls
(_) seen a broadway show on broadway
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) danced in the rain
(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
(_) been kissed under a mistletoe
(_) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
(_) made a bonfire on the beach
(_) crashed a party
(X) gone rollerskating
(_) cut down a christmas tree
(_) play p dittle
(X) had a wish come true

Seven things in my room:
1- My lamp
2- My Stereo
3- My bookshelf
4- Pictures of my friends
5- TV
6- Dresser
7- Me

Seven things to do before death:
1- Go to college
2- Get married
3- Have Kids
4- Get better
5- Be okay with myself
6- Be Happy
7- Do something crazy without caring about the consequences or feeling guilty afterwards, and enjoy it.

Top seven movies:
1- Girl, Interrupted
2- Center Stage
3- Moulin Rouge
4- Chicago
5- The Princess Diaries 1 & 2 (Shut up. What girl DOESN'T want to be a princess?)
6- The Notebook
7- The Nightmare Before Christmas

Top seven things you say most:
1- Chya.
2- Huh?
3- Mmhm
4- Yup
5- Don't!
6- I dunno.
7- Ouch.

Seven facts about you:
1- I'm a complete Hopeless Romantic. Mushy things make me melt.
2- I usually feel very lonely.
3- I had my appendix taken out.
4- I like writing in LJ because I can get my feelings out without getting a writer's cramp or having to say anything to anybody directly.
5- I hate confrontation.
6- I second guess myself too much.
7- It takes a lot to upset me, but once I'm upset I go nuts. It sucks.

Seven things that make you sad or mad:
1- My body
2- Being alone
3- Lies
4- Some memories
5- Sad movies
6- Grades.
7- People.

DO YOU:

Smoke?: No.
Read the newspaper?: Sometimes when I'm bored in study hall.
Pray?: Yes.
Gone skinny dipping? Nope.
Had a medical emergency?: Sort of.
Had surgery?: Yes.
Ran away from home?: No, but I thought about it a LOT.
Played strip poker?: No.
Beaten someone up?: No.
Been on stage?: Yes.
Slept outdoors?: Um...not really. I've slept in a van.
Pulled an all nighter?: Yes. Many times.
If yes, what is your record?: 2 nights
Ever made out with a stranger?: No.
Been on radio/tv?: Yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?: Yeah
First kiss?: I've had it, and you don't need to know the who/where/when.

Pepsi or coke?: Whichever as long as it's diet.
Chocolate or vanilla?: Chocolate.
Internet or phone?: Internet

ARE YOU:
Suicidal?: No
Stubborn?: As stubborn as the day is long.
Open-minded?: Most of the time.
Arrogant?: Hopefully not.
Patient?: Depends on the situation.
Hyper?: Sometimes.
Nice?: I try.
Happy?: Not so much anymore, but I try.

Shave your head for $1000?: No. Add a bunch of zeros and we'll talk.
Like candles?: Yeah
Believe in love at first sight?: Yes.
Believe in forgiveness?: Yes.
Want to get married?: Yeah
Want to have kids?: Yeah
Ever want to adopt kids?: I'd rather have my own.

ABOUT YOU:

[three words that sum you up]: Stubborn, Lonely, Bored

[jewelry worn daily]: My rings.
[wallet]: Pink with a black cat on it.
[coffee]: YES.
[shoes]: Very good things.
[cologne/perfume]: Who cares?
[clothing you have on]: Jeans and my sweatshirt from the play.

—IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...—
[cried]: Yes.
[bought something]: No.
[gotten sick]: Yes.
[sang]: No.
[eaten]: No.
[been kissed]: No.
[felt stupid]: YES.
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: Yes.
[seen someone you have a crush on]: No.
[had a serious talk]: Yes.
[missed someone]: Yes.
[hugged someone]: yes.
[argued with a parent(s)]: No.

—SOCIAL LIFE—

[best girl friends]: Sarah.
[best guy friends]: Jason...well, that is if he wants to still be friends with me.
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: Noooone right now.
[hobbies]: Blah.
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]: Depends on who.
[like being around people]: Sometimes.

LAST PERSON WHO

. Slept in your bed: Me
. Saw you cry: I don't let people see me cry.
. Made you cry: Jason.
. You shared a drink with: Danny - My mocha frappuccino too! :(
. You went to the movies with: Jason.
. You went to the mall with: I Dunno.
. Yelled at you: Haven't been yelled at in a while.

HAVE YOU EVER...

. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: Yes.
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Sort of. It wasn't that crazy.
. Wish you were the opposite sex: About once a month. :)
. Had an imaginary friend: Not that I remember.

. What book are you reading now: The Witching Hour - Anne Rice, The Truth About Forever - Sarah Dessen.
. What's under your bed: shoes.
. Favorite sport to watch: I dont' care.
. Siblings: My brother.
. College plans: I don't know. Whichever place will accept me and give me financial aid, I guess.
. Piercings/tattoos: Ears.
. Do you do drugs: No
. Do you drink: No
. Who is your best friend: Sarah.
. What clothes do you sleep in: Pj pants or boxers and a T-shirt
. Where do you want to get married: I don't know. Who says anybody will want to marry me?
. Who do you really hate: Me.

STUFF

. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: I guess so...
. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: Yeeeeah.
. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: No.

. Song thats stick in your head a lot: "Stop Crying Your Heart Out" - Oasis.
"Konstantine" - Something Corporate.

. Band(s): Blink 182, Jet, Fastball, Something Corporate, Oasis, Green Day, Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Crossfade, Switchfoot, Relient K, Bowling for Soup, Sarah McLachlan, Aslyn, Guns n Roses, ACDC, Yellowcard, Nightwish, Maroon 5, Ash, Alkaline Trio, Keane, Howie Day, Ben Jelen, Tsumani Bomb, Dropkick Murphys, Mad Caddies, Thrice, Aerosmith, etc...
. Color: Pink

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-21T23:03:00

2005-02-22T05:06:43Z

Um...Guys?

I'm going on another hiatus for...a reason.

I won't be posting for a while, because anything I post will just stupid freaking sad crap, and because I don't know whether to be angry or to keep crying or to scream and throw things and have a fit or to just stop feeling all together.

Bye for a while.

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-21T19:58:00

2005-02-22T02:01:28Z

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Grr...

2005-02-21T05:28:19Z

I hate anybody who does not suffer from cramps so bad you could cry!

Needless to say, I've had a very very VERY bad day...

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A TRUCKLOAD of quotes.

2005-02-21T04:24:26Z

My computer's being COMPLETELY reformatted sometime this week, so I've gotta stash anything on it that I want to keep some place...so this is where my quotes are going!

Feel free to pick through them/steal some, but I'll warn you...this is EVERY SINGLE quote I've got saved on my computer, and they're in no particular order whatsoever.

Every girl wants prince charming
and while he may be nice and all...
I want a guy who will
come up from behind &
put his arms (around) me
and whisper * in my ear
that he. loves me.
and he lays awake at night, just
thinking about me
a guy who will call at like..
3 a.m. just to tell me
how much he misses me
he'd come over just .after. we
get off the p h o n e
cause he wants to know how
I'm r. .e. .a. .l. .l. .y doing..
because I said I was fine
but we both know i was l y i n g
he'd.. kiss .. me on my forehead
and tell me everything's
gonna be a. l. r. .i. .g. .h. .t
He may not be .prince charming.
to anyone else
but in my eyes..he'd fit the part.

And its that feeling I get every time his face comes into view. The way my
body tingles as he touches my skin. It's the way he loves me, it's how he
loves me. Its just him, anyone else but him would be completely wrong.

and it's funny how a lot of things don't matter anymore.
the things that used to matter you barely care for.. and
every night spent staring at the pink cloud strafed sky..
knowing that your the only one who can save yourself,
and wishing you'd someday find someone else who could be your savior.
getting sick and tired of staring yourself down,
and seeing nothing but the flaws..
and thinking of the creature in your dreams..
who gave you that sick twisted feeling you love so much..

she don't want no one around
she don't want anybody to see
what she looks like when shes
down ; cause the truth's a sad
place to be

its hard to look in the mirrior these days
when everyone has everything
thatd you'd rather be

I have a favor to ask, I'm hoping it's not too much. After all, you said you'd always be there for me, so here it goes..don't like her. Don't pick her. Don't be with her. Anyone but HER. It hurts me too much. If I could possibly fit one more thing in there, if it is ok with you, maybe, just maybe, do you think you could fall for me?

it's funny how bad as people make me feel i never seem to cry but when i think of how much you mean to me a tear comes to my eye.

Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; And all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart.

Did you ever notice that people give up on love as they get older? When you're a little girl, all you want to do is fall in love. Then when you're a teenager, every guy you meet you think is "the one". Than when you're an adult and you have been hurt from the breakups as a teen, you're not interested in love anymore. You just don't want to be alone, so you settle for someone you might even know isn't your soul mate. I know so many adults that aren't truly where they want to be. I just try to think about what they might have went through to make them settle for second best, and I hope that doesn't happen to me.

i smile because when i cry it doesnt help when i cry' all it does is make people ask me if Im okay, i would love nothing more than to punch these people. Im sitting' here crying, but yes i am perfectly happy i mean come on give me a break, obviously I’m not fine.

i asked Jesus how much he loved me. he opened his arms THIIIS wide, and died on the cross. - unknown

love is when you are kept awake at night
with thoughts of him & `when sleep finds
you, he is waiting there in your dreams' ..

I saw a shootin star and thought that I should make
a wish - but then I thought of you and relized -
my wish already came true * I have you <3

i sometimes feel a little jealous iinside
imagining someone else could please
you more than me. i guess it's my
insecurity actin up a bit because i no
im not the most beautiful most fun or
even the most exciting person u will
ever meet but i do kno that no matta
how hard and long yu search you will
never find a girl who loves u as much
as i do ! <3

i am a hug just waiting to happen

The greatest thing in life is a first kiss gone wrong...It gives you a chance to practice to make the next ones great.

It's easy to love him, but hard to tell him.

Everytime she laughs, she hopes he's watching...not so he will see she is happy, but so maybe he will fall for her smile as hard as she feel for his.

"Everybody loves me, and I intend to keep it that way" - Crue Intentions

"Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life, you don't have to live forever, you just have to live" - Tuck Everlasting

"Don't ever let anyone make you feel like you don't deserve what you want" - 10 things I hate about you

"So you want a heart? You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable" Wizard of Oz

" If you stand in front of the mirror holding one dozen roses, you'll see thirteen of the most beautiful things."

"I don't want to be the next somebody. I want to be the next me."

TAKE CHANCES...
-tell the truth.
-date someone totally wrong for you.
-say no.
-spend all your cash.
-fall in love.
-get to know someone random.
-be random.
-say "Ilove you".
-get angry.
-be the first to say i'm sorry.
-scare yourself at least once a day.
-sing out loud.
-smile often.
-dance in front of the mirror.
-laugh at a stupid joke.
-cry.
-get revenge.
-tell someone how much they mean to you.
-tell an asshole how you really feel.
-let someone know what they are missing.
-stalk someone.
-black mail.
-laugh till your stomach hurts.
LIVE LIFE...

For once in my life, I actually
feel like I mean something to
someone.

When a guy sweeps you off your feet, REMEMBER: he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass.

"Those nights when you can't sleep, you just might be in someone else's dreams."

You’ll never see the stars if your always looking down.

+"Maybe it was wrong, but upon my life, I will never regret loving him."

Here we lie in this beautiful mess of tangled sheets & beads of sweat. with my heart in your hand & my neck in the other; should i be scared or should i come closer? But it's still beating & i'm still breathing. You haven't hurt me yet.

Half of knowing what you want is knowing what you’d give up for it

- " i'd never lie to you
[unless I had to]
- i'll do what I got to -
[unless I had to]
- i'll do what I go to -
[the truth is]
..u could slit my throat..
..*..and with my one last [gasping] breath
*i'd [apologize] for bleeding on your shirt... "

- " *..maybe it wasn't [good enough] - but i [gave you] all i could.. "

Girls should put their hearts in God so guys have to go to him to find them.

'because once upon a time, we were best friends. & yes, there's been alot of bad stuff in between. but none of that matters right now, okay? you need me, i'm there. anytime, anyplace.'

~Don't say you love me unless you mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it...~

~Never give up if you still want to try. Never wipe you tears if you still want to cry. Never settle for the answer if you still want to know. Never say you don't like him if you can't let him go.~

~And when there seems like there is no one left to run to in this empty world of ours, you can come to me and I'll be your shooting star. You can tell me your dreams, I can't promise that I can make them come true. But I will be there to pick up the pieces of your broken heart if your dreams happen to fall through.~

FiND THE 0NE Y0U CAN BE Y0URSELF AR0UND ` Y0U CAN SAY
WHATEVER Y0U WANT .. Y0U CAN LAUGH - Y0U CAN SMiLE : )
Y0U CAN SCREAM » Y0U CAN HUG // Y0U CAN KiSS *' Y0U CAN
FiGHT & MAKE UP AT THE VERY END 0F THE NiGHT . . BUT Y0UR
STiLL ABS0LUTELY CRAZY AB0UT EACH0THER | <3

iF i HAD F0LL0WED ALL THE RULES, i W0ULD HAVE
NEVER G0TTEN ANY WHERE <33
MARiLYN M0NR0E

They didn't agree on much. in fact they rarely agreed on anything. they fought all the time & they challenged each other everyday but, in spite of their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.

There are heroes and there are legends. Legends get remembered, but heroes never die. Follow your heart kid, and you'll never go wrong. (The Sandlot!)

Find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, and a heart that will love you at your worst. Then you have found true love.

We're old enough to know better but we're still too young to care

*A friend is someone with whom you can really be yourself. One who appreciates the good in you, overlooks the bad, and brings out the best in you. With a friend, you can share a laugh, a secret, a viewpoint, a success or disappointment, and a complete assortment of problems large and small. A friend is someone who understands silences as well as words, one who lifts you up and never lets you down, who makes you feel it’s a pretty nice old world after all. a friend is one who knows all about you and loves you just the same

theres a
d e f i n i n g
moment in e a c h friendship
when you find out if they are your true friends or not
and after that you either have a
-- r e a l f r i e n d --
.... o r o n e l e s s t h i n g t o w o r r y a b o u t ....

It's hard to answer the question
w h a t ' s w r o n g ?
when -nothing- feels like it will
*ever* be okay again

..in a way i'm kind of glad I left friends or lost them along the way and found the new.. and thankfull i got a few of the orginals..it helped me find whos true and will be there for you..friends that will last me a long time.. <3
..and all her friends tell her, she's so pretty---but she'd be a whole lot prettier, if she smiled once in a while--

They say when you are missing someone that they are probably feeling the same. But I don't think it's possible for you to miss me as much as I'm missing you right now.

*I miss you a little, I guess you could say.... A little too much, a little too often, a little more every day. - John Michael Montgomery

*I don't like missing you, but I love having you to miss.*

Begin today! No matter how feeble the light, let it shine as best it may. The world may need just that quality of light which you have. -Henry C. Blinn

"A true culture of life cannot be sustained solely by changing laws.
We need, most of all, to change hearts."
-President Bush

come to me... The only broken-hearted loser you'll ever need</3>> almost << always forgive, but never forget..
learn from your mistakes, but never regret..
people change, things go wrong, always remember...
LiFe GoeS On... = )

STICK AROUND; i'm not the kinda girl you wana leave.

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone & so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me

laugh alot - forgive always - and love
like you`ve never been hurt because every
second you spend angry or upset is a second
of happiness you can never get back

when something unexpected happens you
just gotta pick it up and run with it

tired of givin you my all
and you continously let me fall

lie to me , i promise i`ll believe

*maybe its not supposed to end up happily ever after but for once, just once, i want to live in that fairy tale world & feel what it feels like to be loved.*

*Stop looking for Prince Charming. Cinderella's already got him.*

*if i was gorgeous; perfect, and could get any guy in the world id still choose you *

*if i had a snowflake for everytime i thought about you... we'd never have school*

Love isn't about the hugs n kisses
It's not about the "I love yous"
Its about the chills that run down your spine
Its that pain you get when he walks away
And you don't know why
it takes a billion people to complete the world but it only took Y0U to complete mine. <3

you completely stole my heart and i hoped you wouldn`t let go. i never really told you this.. but you had me the second you said 'hello.'

i love the way my fingers just fall into yours i love how your taste still lingers on my lips after that special good night kiss. i love how whenever i go to call someone i automatically dial your number. i love how you look at me with those gorgeous eyes and then you smile that sweet smile. and i know right there, that you will always be mine. i love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go. i love you more then words could ever show.

the way i feel about you i just can`t explain. it`s the way my heart beats when i hear your name.
if i had to pick one thing in this world, i'd pick you. because even then i'd have everything.

he's the kind of guy that makes me love my name.. just because of the way he says it.

Looking back on the first day I met you
All I can remember is being
- b r e a t h l e s s -

I told him I was afraid of falling
and he whispered [ well, I have wings ]

Because of you I laugh a little harder
Cry a little less
And smile a lot more!

I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of what I’ve seen. Of what I’ve done. Of who I am. But most of all, I’m scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life the way I feel when I’m with you

Before I met you I never knew what it was like
to look at someone and smile for
- - n o r e a s o n - -

Someone asked what I saw in you
My only answer was e v e r y t h i n g

xOx. --------------------
the smile on my face..
the twinkle in my eyes
the day dreaming I do
it is all because of you
--------------------- .xOx

Have you ever loved someone so much it made you cry?
. . . . . . . . . I have . . . . . . . . .

Anyone can make me smile
anyone can make me cry
but it takes someone special
to make me smile when
there’s already tears in my
b i g b l u e e y e s

If I had to choose whether to breathe or love you. I’d use my last breath to tell you “I love you”

Love is all that I need and I found it right there..
- - [ in your heart ] - -

you look in my eyes and im screaming inside that im sorry

·· Beautiful Girl with pretty eyes. A hidden heart of
hurts + lies ·· She sits up in her bed at night + cries.
It`s hard for her to realize ·· love isnt all weak in the
knees + butterlies ·· l[ i wish i could make you mine ]l

Someone once asked me *do you think it’s
possible to love someone forever?* and I
thought of the way I love you and said
- - - * forever isn’t long enough * - - -

trying to be someone that you know your not
it gets harder everyday

all the lonely days
there's no one left to love
you wish life would go away

one of these days you'll realize that no ones got your back
you watch out for yourself and you make it on your own </3> only the lyrics are messed up

you want nothing when you're trying to forget
the something that was everything *

life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass
it's about learning to dance in the rain* <3

learn from yesterday
live for tomorrow
hope for tomorrow

if there was nothing to lose
why would you have held on so long?

nothing last forever &&we all know
hearts can change

i bet you'll never remember
the things i'll never forget *

you never see the hard days in a photo album
but those are the ones that get you from one
h a p p y s n a p s h o t t o t h e n e x t

with insomnia.. you're never really asleep;
& you're never really awake.

take love <3* multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of
forever and you still have only a glimpse of how i feel for you

the crack in the concrete remind me that no matter
how strong you are.. you can always break </3 things change, friends leave and life doesn't stop for anybody the hardest part isn't finding what we need to be, it's being content with who we are. i would trade ten thousand tomorrows for a single yesterday. being with you is like a scene from a dream in heaven people change-things go wrong-but you've got to remember- life goes on rumors are vicious. talk is cheap. words are malicious. secrets you should keep. gossip is fake and i'll make the deepest cut so learn from the past and keep your mouth shut it didn't use to be goodbye until we were falling asleep at the keyboard at 2 a.m... but now not even a five minute conversation comes easy.. you can't hide behind make up; it just runs with the tears </3 you're no good at lying & i'm no good at comebacks i'll be your best kept secret & biggest mistake it doesn't matter how i paint it any picture of you is perfect * laugher is timeless imagination has no age dreams are forever be you... those who matter don't mind and those who mind, don't matter --in the end we will remember not hte words -- -- but the silence of our friendship -- I'll love you forever, I'll love you for always...How lucky I am to have known someone who made it this difficult to say goodbye.. A Moment Frozen There In Time Still can't believe you're gone. I'll love and miss you forever. You are apart of me, the heart of me sgniht ta kool uoy yaw eht egnahc ot tog ve'uoY (<---Read this one backwards) And when my smile gets old and faded Wait around I'll smile again I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head where I would impress you with every single word I said. you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all... You told me that you loved me, I started tearing down those walls. I really started to trust you but you set me up to take the fall. You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs. and i dare you to forget the marks you left across my neck from those nights when we both found at our best. now i could make this obvious and you, you could deny me all in one breath you could shrug me off your shoulders. seem to stop my breath, my head on your chest waiting to chave in, from the bottom of my hear your voice again . . . never caught my breath, every second I'm without you; I'm a mess... some 'friends' will ask you why you're crying, but best friends will know exactly why and then go kick his ass. Gotta find a way Yeah, I can't wait another day Ain't nothin' gonna change If we stay 'round here Gotta do what it takes Cause it's all in our hands We all make mistakes Yeah, but it's never to late to start again Take another breath And say another prayer And at any time if you are thinking of me, you can be sure I'm thinking of you.-Unknown & the best that you could hope for is hardly the best Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Now I lay me down to sleep Pray the lord my soul to keep If I die before I wake Pray the lord my soul to take It was the end of something simple & the beginning of everything else. Open fire on my burning heart I've never been lucky in love It gets in your eyes, its making you cry I've created a mess, acted on feelings emotions will drive, but I'm not steering I sit here & think about everything That has happened this past year & not a single tear runs down my cheek. Maybe it’s because I’m too hurt to cry, or maybe I’m just too mad at you, or maybe just maybe it’s my hearts way of telling me this isn’t over yet. You had me. You had me 3 months ago and you left. It has nothing to do with me, it is about you, and it is always about you. What you need and what you want, you know.. it seems that you only want me, when you can't have me. You like the chase and thats all. So you know what, you can have it. - the OC Because I'd be a different me, with a different you...if that's what you need When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you Don't you know I feel the same I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way no matter how they toss the dice it had to be; the only one for me is you; and you for me; so happy together i can`t see me lovin' nobody but you for all my life "a brand new night with the same old stars. l o s i n g h o p e i s e a s y." "so hard to be so close to you, so hard to turn a w a y" x So it took me by complete surprise... x x When my heart got lost in the those deep blue eyes.. x x He's not at all what i was looking for x x He's M_O_R_E x *-* More than I dreamed of.. more than any girl deserves.. I couldnt ask for more..than a love like his.. *-* no matter what, I love you. If the sun has faded away I'll try to make it shine There's nothing I won't do When you need a shoulder to cry on I hope it will be mine Call me tonight, and I'll come to you And you know very well I can't keep my hands to myself How far do I have to go to make you understand I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't keep on giving, go on living like the way things are So I'm gonna walk away, and it's up to you to say h o w f a r. "With love and patience, anything is possible" To have someone you can laugh with, someone you can cry with, tell your secrets to. To have someone who wont judge you, someone who just loves you. No matter what they stand beside you. Some people arent lucky like us If there ever comes a day when we can't be together -- keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever (Winnie the Pooh :)) If I leave here tomorrow, would you still remember me? For I must be travelling on, now, cause theres too many places I've got to see.(Lynard Skynard, duh!) Maybe we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think of us in return. Where it began, I can't begin to know, but I know it's growing strong. And when I hurt, hurting runs off my shoulders, how can I hurt when holding you? <3 :-D "Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you do, lie in the arms of the one you love, steal away from bad company, cheat death, and drink to the moments that take you breath away."

Everyone download this

2005-02-15T23:13:34Z

Everybody MUST download this song.
It's tre cute.

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you,
I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie; it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than you'll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
That's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

Quotes...

2005-02-15T04:39:02Z

I went nuts with quotes again.

Forgive me.

When things get hard...
take a bath.
Taking a bath won't change anything, but..
when you are in the bathtub,
you are not responsible for anything -
you are wet, for expample, so no one can ask you to do anything..
you can't do homework in there, because your papers will get wet..
you can't answer the phone..
or read any e-mail..
or assignments..
or..
..maybe it should be a long bath...

Some days.. you've just gotta forget it all ..and dance!

Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you'd might as well be happy!!!

you have to take the
good with the bad, smile with the sad,
love what you have, remember what you had..
>> almost << always forgive, but never forget..
learn from your mistakes, but never regret..
people change, things go wrong, always remember...
LiFe GoeS On... = )

*if I were gorgeous, perfect, and could get any guy in the world, I'd still choose you *

And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older and you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened.

"Friends are the people God gave us to keep us company... Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us..."

"A friend is someone who knows all about you... and loves you anyway."

A great friend is someone who makes your problems their problems just so you don't have to go through them a l o n e .

if yOu LooK iNsiDe a GirL`s
[*.H - e - a - R - t.*]
yOu`D sEe HoW MuCh ShE
:'ReaLLy': criEs
y0u'll finD secrets hidden,
Best friends, and Lies
. buT . whaT .y0u`LL . See . thE . Most .
is hOw
[ HarD ] it iS to sTay [ ( strOng ) ]
when Nothing`s right
anD EveRythinG is wrong

“Some people wear their smiles like a disguise. Those people who smile a lot, watch their eyes. I know because I'm like that a lot. Everything seems ok, and it is, until it's not.”

Ever since I met you,
Nothing's been the same.
Now you got me putting hearts
Around your name.

Sometimes it hurts a lot more
To smile in front of everyone
Than cry all alone..

Eventually all of the pieces fall into place.
Until then, laugh at the confusion, live for the moment,
and know that everything happens for a reason.

If you love someone, show them, tell them every day, because quite frankly, you dont know how many more days you'll be able to. . .

i don't care where we are going
as long as i'm going with you

they say that love goes anywhere, in your darkest time, its just enough to know its there...

**Learn how to be happy with what you have while you pursue all that you want.

[we'll share the joy..] - *falling in love can bring -
and no one can tell me i'm [too young] to know -
because - [i love you so..]

perfection is impossible,
but i think sometimes i'm lucky enough to get something so close to it that its unbelievable.
seems almost impossible.
like i shouldn't deserve it.
but i must have done something right because now I have you.

*shrugs* Some of them are sad, but I thought they were pretty, but for the most part they're cute ones and I like them muchly. ^__^

V-Day

2005-02-14T03:58:25Z

Well, guys.
Tomorrow's Valentine's Day.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Hooray. Luff all my buddies muchly.

-__-

2005-02-10T22:31:08Z

People have just taken it too far.
It's one thing to be stupid and annoy people. It's a completely different matter to spread rumors about someone who's never done anything to you!

Peoples' sense of values must really be hitting an all-time low. So anyways, there's this girl at my school, and she's really nice to (literally) everyone. I've never heard of her doing anything mean to a single soul...and anyways there are these people talking about how she's pregnant (JUST because she's been wearing sweatshirts lately...) and saying all of these mean things about her.

It really pisses me off, because she's never done anything to these people, and here they are saying horrible things about her behind her back!
And honestly, just because someone's been wearing baggy sweatshirts does NOT mean they're pregnant. How can you be so stupid as to assume such a thing? Did it ever cross people's minds that she could be cold??? Seeing as it's freaking FEBRUARY IN MINNESOTA?!!!! But nooo, that could NOT be a possibility. Why?...

Because people are morons...and the more of them I get to know, the more I love my cats.

GRRRRRRR

2005-02-10T02:17:59Z

GRRR.

So, apparently someone figured out the password to my livejournal and while they were in it they added me to a few different communities, and posted some rather unkind things - saying they were me!!!

GRRRRR.

Whatever. It's over and the entries are deleted. I'm pretty sure I know who did it, but no matter. My password's completely impossible to guess now, and I'd just like to give people a heads up.

If you got any mean comments or anything like that, it wasn't me and I apologize on behalf of the moron that did do it.

On a lighter note, I kind of like one of the communities this person who will remain unmentioned made me a member of, so I think I'll stay in it...

But seriously dudes...Getting into someone's LJ just to make mean entries and such???

It's very juvenile. Not Cool.

STOP IT!

YAY!

2005-02-08T04:11:47Z

I'm very happy today.
My mood's just very...perky. upbeat. feliz. joyous.

Something along those lines anyway...
I freaking LOVE days like today where I'm just in a good mood for no reason at all and have tons of energy and just can't quit smiling.

Happy Happy Days. WOOHOO. And even a free Snickers bar, cute e-mails and a free 12-pack of Diet Vanilla Coke on top of it all.

Yeesh, I just got the whole shabang today.

*Feels warm and fuzzy inside*

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-03T20:14:00

2005-02-04T02:18:06Z

Your Inner Gangsta by crash_and_burn

What is yo name?

Yo gangsta name be

Mad Nazty Nizzle

You ride around in a

A pair of 1962 Roller Skates

Yo gang

The Adjective Nouners

Yo shoes be

Chuck Taylors

Yo dubs be dis big, fool

2,184

How much money you got?

$4.48568489134747e+26

How gangsta are you, bitch?: 78%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-02T20:44:00

2005-02-03T03:00:18Z

Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
You dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want
Since you been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you been gone (since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want

Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone

Yeah yeah, so this has got no connection to anything that's going on in my life right now, but it's a good song and I've constantly got it stuck in my head and it makes me just want to burst out singing along with it every time it comes onto the radio!

This week's just not improving at all. I swear if I get one more thing of even SLIGHTLY bad news I'm going to stay in bed and cry all weekend.
Why can't anything go RIGHT for once?! People are stupid and aggravating!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRR.
And on top of it all, I've got a whole ONE person online on MSN, so I've got just about nobody to talk to. Blah.

I'm going to put on fuzzy, warm pajamas, wrap up in a fluffy blanket, eat choclate, and be emo.

:-(

_autumn_last @ 2005-02-01T20:38:00

2005-02-02T02:48:39Z

You'll never see the stars if you're always looking down.

Blah. It's just been one of those days, guys. One of those days where nothing bad really happens, but you just kinda feel like crying anyway.

But yeah, don't worry. I'm not gonna get all emotional on ya and cry. It's just that cry-ish feeling...if that makes any sense whatsoever...which it doesn't.
-Moving on to the next point.

Click here. and sign my friggen guestbook!
I'll ♥ you forever.

And you can even read my annoying poetry! YAY! What more could you possibly want out of life?!

@#$!

2005-02-01T04:12:01Z

You know what really pisses me off?
...When I start getting random messages on msn and e-mails telling me Jason's cheating on me. I don't now who is doing it, and I don't know why, but I really wish they'd stop it.

First of all, I know he wouldn't do that to me. If he wanted to be with somebody other than me, he would break up with me (I hope...I'm assuming I know him well enough to know he'd at least be honest with me. He's a very respectable, honest person, and if he liked someone else I'm sure he'd tell me.) And there's also the fact that I love him, and if he wanted to be with someone else, I'd want to know, because I want him to be happy; even if it would mean being happy without me.

...But yeah. All-in-all I know he wouldn't cheat on me. But it still hurts that I've got people e-mailing me and sending me messages telling me that he is...and also saying some things that would make sense if he were. But yet again, I'm going to make the point that I TRUST HIM, and not these stupid people who are telling me these things.

And if you're the person sending the e-mails and messages - PLEASE STOP.

Advice on life.

2005-01-31T22:16:09Z

I stole this whole dealio from here.

Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all of your money. Fall in love. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you even though they may not say it back. Sing out loud. Laugh till your stomach hurts. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone that they are your entire world. Let someone know what they are missing. Live life to the fullest. Live in the moment. And remember that life is all about chances... So you might as well take them.

Wait for the guy who would do ::.anything.:: to be with you, the one who makes an ordinary moment seem m a g i c a l, the kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the boy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the boy who makes you -s-m-i-l-e- like no other, and when he smiles you know he needs you. Wait for the boy who tells you that he d|r|e|a|m|s about you. Wait for the boy who puts you at the -center- of the universe because he wouldn't want it any other way...

Someone out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you `f`l`o`w`e`r`s` when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to go see it. You'll put his picture in a frame by your bed. He'll call you to tell you goodnight before you go to sleep just because he was thinking of you. He'll look into your eyes and tell you that you're the most beautiful girl he has ever seen, and for the first time in your life...You'll believe it.

Wait for the boy who pursues you, the one who wants to show you off to the w o r l d when you are in sweats and have no makeup on, and wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe, because obviously he's at the center of yours.

Quotes

2005-01-31T07:21:37Z

I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours.
-Nicholas Sparks, "The Notebook"

So you want a heart? You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they are made u|n|b|r|e|a|k|a|b|l|e
-Wizard of Oz

It's hard to look in the :.mirrior.: these days
when everyone has everything
that you'd rather be

she don't want no one around
she don't want anybody to see
what she looks like when shes
down- cause the truth's a sad
place to be

Someone once asked me *Do you think it's
possible to love someone forever?* and I
thought of the way I love you and said
- - - * forever isn't long enough * - - -

You watch her walk down the hall; big smile, laughing, seems so happy. You would never guess that she goes home and cries herself to sleep every night.

Dudes...I'm bored. Say something amusing.

_autumn_last @ 2005-01-30T19:20:00

2005-01-31T01:23:26Z

Stupid people.

2005-01-30T06:17:06Z

Ignorant people who say "There's no God because you can't prove he exists." really bother me.
They're hypocritical.
They can't prove that God doesn't exist any more than we can prove that he does. So you know what? They can just shove it!

Click me. I'm full of opinions.

and while you're at it, go look at Chelsey's page and pray for her!
Clicky.

_autumn_last @ 2005-01-29T11:48:00

2005-01-29T17:53:48Z

I'm in a very happy mood, and I don't know why.
I just woke up happy today.
I like it when that happens.

The End.

♥,
Kris