Devo Dave-

I still await THE CD....

Dayna Sternberg
c/o Trailer Inns RV Park
15531 SE 37th ST
Bellevue, WA
98006

Ok- I haven't just said this..but...
We are out of $$- everything cost way more than we had planned and with D not getting a job in the first week, we are getting desperate. Even if we could find a decent place to live- we couldn't come up with 1st, last and various fees/deposits.. I have lousy credit- so trying to find $ to borrow isn't working out very well. I am contacting various help agencies and haven't had any luck.

That is 98% of the reason I am depressed and crying every day. I ask myself why we came here?? I wish I could go back and change my mind about this move.

So...someone who at one time meant so very much to me...found me via Facebook. I look at his picture and wonder what magic he had and where it has gone. He was my first love- but we were only friends- even though he often played at there being more. Gah- tons of memories surfaced when I saw his name. And of course it had to happen on a rainy, grey day. A day that already had me swimming in a melancholy fog.

Dennis does not have a job.
For various reasons he stopped going today.

Bah

Living in the rv park is getting to me.
I'm depressed, stressed and full of strange thoughts.
I want a bathroom of my own. I want to be able to take a long soak and read.
I'm sleeping a lot- today it was around 14 hours.

Dennis has a job!!
He starts Monday.

Sunday the 7th- D and Dad spend the day working on various stuff- changing oil, cleaning parts, replacing other stuff. Evening BBQ with family.

Monday the 8th- My uncle Randy replaces the alternator!! Woo Hoo- road ready.

Tuesday the 9th- the real move begins. We leave Casper around 9am- but due to a really bad accident- spend 30 minutes sitting in traffic...
We head north on I-25- not much to see- flat and windy. We make it to Buffalo by 1 and stop for lunch at a little diner on main street. After lunch- we walk the street and stop in a little antique store and a pottery/art gallery. The antique store was really overpriced. I find it hard to believe that a clock that I own several of is worth over $100...
The pottery shop had some nice stuff- lots of work by my college ceramics prof- Lynn Munns. I should have bought something but was trying to not spend $ and to not have more stuff....
We left Buffalo and made it to Billings, MT around dusk. We located a KOA and decided to stay there- we could have had a hotel room for the same price :( D and I were all ready to hit the pool/hot tub and get the road dust washed off- but they were both closed??!!

Wednesday the 10th- we took off around 9am and stopped at the Old Geezer Casino for breakfast and thrills. It was this tiny little place behind the gas station- I think max capacity was 75... I had a really good biscuits and gravy for $2.50 and won around $30 on the keno machines. It was rainy and overcast and cold all day. The drive would have been great in a car- but the weak rv pulling a car made the trip slow and difficult. The scenery was beautiful- I have pictures to share someday....when I have my computer set-up and all that stuff.... We made it to Missoula and decided to call it a day. We also decided to get a hotel room. Taking a long hot bath has never been better- I took 2!! :)
Sleeping in a real bed was awesome!

Saturday, September 6th- Wake up in parking lot of Ft Collins Walmart after a very uncomfortable night- mostly due to stress related asthma attack(s). Try starting the rv and getting a move on. It starts okay and after warming the engine for a bit- we take off. We make it to the intersection in the parking lot and it dies. Won't start... Push the rv and tow dolley (or is it dolly??) back about 30 feet into a space. Had to remove the car- which, due to the angle fell off the dolley and took off part of the front bumper.Call my daddy up in WY and he drives down to help us. Turns out the mechanic had hooked the back-up gas tank to the main/only fuel filter(!)- so we fixed that little problem and got a new gas cap that sorta fit. We also had to get a new tire- odd size of course- $115.00!! We hooked the car and dolley to my dad's truck and took off for WY. made it around 7pm. I have never been so happy to be at my parents house. D slept in the RV with the cats to help them adjust- that and he hates the guest bed at my parents house- it makes his back angry.

Forgot to mention that the dash lights went out on Friday night and the ALT light began glowing an ominous red color....

Daily Tarot 9/22/08
The Tower card suggests that my alter ego today is the Survivor, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

The move details:

Tuesday September 2nd- Smartboxes were scheduled for a morning delivery. Didn't show until 3pm. Helper didn't show to help load anywho...
We loaded one box 95% of the way by 7pm. D had watch duty and went out every 2 hours to check that our crappy neighbors weren't messing with/stealing anything.

Wednesday September 3rd- loaded other box. Wait for pick-up. Did a bit of cleaning.

Thursday September 4th- set off to get the RV and go pick up the tow dolley at U-Haul. RV broke down on the way there- had to pull off 6th ave over by some ghetto b-ball park and D spent the night in the RV to keep the gangsters away. Day Wasted.


Friday September 5th- spent $200 to have mobile mechanic come "fix" problems. Picked-up tow dolley and got car loaded by 5pm. Waited until 7 to leave Denver. Cats on Rescue Remedy and only sorta mellow. Driving RV- pulling car in the dark is SCARY. Stop for gas outside of Ft. Collins. RV making odd noise and losing power. Get lost trying to find a place to pull over and spend the night. End up in the parking lot of Walmart in Ft Collins. We have lost one of the gas caps and use a tank top and dome duct tape to close off the opening.Try to sleep but they are piping music in the lot 24 hours. Pee in parking lot- twice. FYI- Walmarts allow up to 5 days parking/camping in their lots with no hassle. They must think you'll buy stuff there...


The story will continue.....

We are going to look at this place today:
http://seattle.craigslist.org/see/apa/836117579.html

I really think it would be a great place to live. I like the feel of the neighborhood and hope that it is okay on the inside....

We made it yesterday. Trip took much longer than we had thought. Had to get the RV fixed- new alternator and fuel pump and filter. I'll post long update soon- limited computer access.

SmartBoxes- aka pods- didn't show up until 3pm. So much for a morning delivery :(
This puts us about 6 hours behind schedule.
We still got one of the two completely filled.

Rescue Remedy for Pets is the BEST.

Your Daily Tarot

Today's Card- The Six of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in transition. I have what I need and am willing to trust the process order to move on, seek refuge or new opportunity. I'm not willing to remain where my perceptions are invalidated by being vulnerable I must rely on guidance to move in a new direction or trust that I can make it or be led to security and new hope. 'Wherever you go, there you are.' I am empowered by perseverance and my virtue is survival.

Eerie and accurate:

Sunday:
Your Daily Tarot

Today's Card- The Eight of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in space. I am true to myself and will only regret the chances I don't take to seek or follow my hearts desire. I turn away from or make a clean sweep of that which does not honor or sustain my passion and love, and in this, I am not afraid to be alone. I am empowered to move forward or make space and my gift is letting go.

Monday:
Your Daily Tarot

Today's Card-The Five of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in a crossroads. I am not alone. I intend to let go of despair or nostalgia and I choose to make peace with loss or express mourning in order to move forward. I release the rut of regret and the fear of tomorrow to make way for forgiveness, pleasure, beauty, and hope. I am empowered by my conscience and my gift is forgiveness.

Selling off more stuff:

I really had to wrestle with my need to keep this and the need to not have a ton of stuff to move:
http://denver.craigslist.org/fuo/816494903.html

I was going to refinish it- replace the hardware- perhaps put glass in the door to the cubby...

Oh well- my loss- someone's win

The sound of Gidget's tongue licking the bubblewrap is like nails on a chalkboard.
Why on Earth she likes to like plastic is beyond me!! Do your kitties do this?

Making a to-do list makes my brain freeze up.

Here's my done list as of 3pm:

Packed 2 boxes of artwork/supplies
Picked-up prescriptions
Went back on Cymbalta %)
Went to not work to get boxes and turn in PTO requests
Found cool rock shop- looked at pretty crystals
Had lunch with djsin
Made reservation for tow dolly
Made reservation for Smart-boxes

I may pack a few more boxes this afternoon.
I have E-bay and Etsy stuff to pack for tomorrow's post office trip.

Moving means...cleaning out the cupboards and making all sorts of strange meals.
It also means- I made muffins.
and lavender bath bombs...