OY VEY!!

A New Record!

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 17:26:38 GMT

So this is a new record for me! It's been almost 7 months since my last update. I've been on Gather a lot since (I get to earn points which I can exchange for Barnes and Noble gift cards or even money to donate to certain charities). I guess there is an update of my life in order here. I will try to make it short and sweet with the usual peppiness of my entries and the sometimes moaning and complaining that comes along with being me:

SCHOOL/WORK: I finished my Spring 2006 and Summer 1 2006 semesters with a bang...my grades were fantastic: A- in Transportation industries, A in sales management, B in Modern Jewish Thought, B+ in global supply chain management, B in international business, A in MIS and A- in entrepreneurship, all bringing my total GPA up to 2.887 which will hopefully turn into at least a 3.0 after my last semester of school which begins in January. I'm back at work now for 6 months until December. It isn't thrilling me as much as I'd hoped. They sort of screwed me over...I took the job under the impression that I'd have a position managing and running corporate and hospital books fairs in the New York/New Jersey/CT area. Well, about 3 weeks before my start date, they hired someone to do it full time so I got stuck being his assistant 90% of the time and doing cold sales the other 10% of the time. I hate sales because I'm driving around all the time and being the guys assistant sucks because I am getting no new skills...I'm basically doing retail which is pushing me backwards instead of allowing me to move forward in my career. My thoughts are that I'm getting paid pretty well for an intern and I'll be outta there in December. At least there is an end in sight. If the company chooses to have me back post graduation which is May 2007, then they will have to offer me a position in logistics or supply chian doing real work, none of this bullshit stuff.

FRIENDS: It has definitely been interesting since my return to New York in the beginning of July from Boston. My friend Ashley is in Nigeria for her internship so no more Magnolia/Au Mandarin evenings out in the city. I've been mostly hanging out with my three best girlies from Great Neck, Amy, Pia and Nicole...movies, dinners and maybe even a couple of cocktails here and there. Nothing too thrilling. Tonight I have plans with my friend Evan. He moved to a sick apartment in Hoboken last year overlooking the city. I'm seeing it for the first time tonight. I have plans with my friend Alex on Tuesday night. Again, nothing life altering going on here.

HEALTH: I began seeing a nutritionist recently and have lost some weight. I've been cooking a lot of salmon, veggies and chicken and eating much healthier overall than I was. No more desserts and no more random snacking for me. Also, no more coffee or soda. My one weakness now: green apple bubble tea. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to have it but I'd imagine it has a lot of sugar in it which is never good. I only have it every week or so now because since we don't know the nutrition facts, the nutritionist said to stay away from it whenever possible.

LOVE LIFE: Went on a date with a guy February 18 (Dave is his name) and we totally hit it off. Although more of a partier than I, we some how were compatible and lasted for all of 5 months before he realized I wouldn't be accompanying him to the bars and clubs in Long Beach over the summer. He said I was too mellow for me as far as going out. I'd rather go to dinnre and see a movie or show and he'd rather go out drinking and partying with his friends. He's 25 and was still in a frat boy state of mind. I was upset when we broke up for a very long time until I came to the conclusion that he dumped me for alcohol and parties. Dated a guy very soon after Dave and I broke up, Eric (not Michigan Eric) who is in law school. Well lets just say he was the complete opposite of Dave: I don't think he had many friends, if any, and he was just so dull and boring. He was also very needy for my time which unfortauntely because of work I couldn't give him. So I dumped him after 3 weeks. I've decided I need to find a happy medium between Dave and Eric. This would equal the Eric from Michigan, who I recently e-mailed to check in and see how he was doing only to find out he is apparently living with someone, which, as you probably very well know from past entries about him, did not thrill me. It is what it is and if it's meant to be than he and I will somehow meet somewhere in the future. So if you all know any tall, Jewish, decent looking, single guys, send them my way. :-)

In other news, my area of Great Neck had a blackout yesterday which caused me to be 2 hours late for work and to not be able to make my healthy lunch. I ended up having chinese food for lunch which is a big no no on my new diet. Oh well. There was nothing else available to me at the time. My mom and Jeff moved to the city to a FANTASTIC 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom complteely renovated by them apartment in the lower part of the upper east side. It's fantastic and gorgeous. I'm still stuck here in our old place in Great Neck. Oh well. I'll be ok. It's kind of nice being on my own!

Anyways, I think that's all of now and I promise to try and update someone more often!

CIAO!

AHH! SO BUSY!

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 17:22:29 GMT

So I realize that I said in my last entry that I'd be writing more often...and it has definitely been a couple of weeks. I jsut didn't realize how difficult my schedule would be! I spend every Tuesday and Friday in class from 8am to 5pm but leave my house in the morning at 7:30. The other days of the week are spent doing piles of reading, doing tons of homework, preparing for class presentations and studying for exams. I am writing right now because I don't have much homework this weekend and I am in between cleaning the apartment which I haven't even had time to do (I'm sitting on my couch while I'm letting my floors dry) and doing the rest of my homework and reading and presentation preparing. It's just so stressful. I've barely had a social life since I've been back at school! On top of that, I spend an hour and a half six nights a week at the gym but luckily I bring a textbook with me and can usually get a chapter of textbook reading done during the hour I'm sitting on the bike. Tonight I have tentative plans with my friend Andrew who was also on co-op in NYC when I was, just working with a different company. Tomorrow or Monday Ashley and I are going to the MFA to stroll around and be cultured women and look at art. At some point I am also going to lunch with one of the other Scholastic co-ops, Janet. Apparently she's not much different from me: not a big partier/drinker and according to her supervisor, she and I would make great friends. So I figured I'd give it a try! At least this weekend I actually have some free time to myself! Even though I'm super busy and certainly have a lot on my plate, I am feeling pretty confident at my grades. I think I will do well. I've been doing all of the reading and all of the homework and I'm ahead of the reading in most of the classes. So we'll see. I'm having every part of my body that can be crossed, crossed. My goal is to graduate in 2007 Cum Laude...with honors.

Had a date last Sunday...lasted only an hour. It ended weird. I wasn't thrilled anyway. And that was the end of that.

So there is this new networking site called Gather (www.gather.com) and it is absolutely amazing. Unlike MySpace, Friendster, or whatever else is out there, Gather is based upon having intelligent conversation and thought with intelligent people. It's not correspondence like "oh my god you are so hot can I get down your pants." On Gather, people publish thier thoughts on current events, love, world issues, politics, religion, culture, art, movies, theater, restaurants, basically anything, and you can give your thoughts on those things back. For instance, I published on Gather my recipe for Penne ala Vodka. People have already made it and loved it. There is also a daily topic which you can giveyou opinion on such as "Does Oprah's Book Club sway your reading choices? Do you think that the book club is a good thing, or a bad thing?" As you search the site, publish articles, make comments, and receieve comments, you earn Gather Points, which, when the site is fully up and running, you can use at online retail outlets as if you'd use frequent flyer miles with an airline. It's a great way to network and find people with the same interests and I highly recommend joining. If you do, let me know and we will connect so that we are in the same network, and I will subscribe to your postings! My name on there is Arielle K. so please feel free to messege and connect (intelligently, please).

Anyway...the floors are dry so back to cleaning.

Ahhhh!

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 23:41:28 GMT

So first day of classes wasn't as bad as I thought. The morning classes were good. I met some new people and am in classes with some people I knew from other semesters. And the breakdown:
INTERNATIONAL BUSINESS: Only 10 people in the class. Got paired with this guy from Puerto Rico who seems pretty cool.
GLOBAL SUPPLY CHAIN MANAGEMENT: Good class and in a group with Ashley and this girl Kali who I was in a group with in an earlier class. Plus we are in a group with one another girl, Japhia who Ashley was on co-op with in Cleveland.
TRANSPORTATION INDUSTRIES: Also a good class. In a group with Ashley, and this girl Arienne. Also this guy Matt who is in a lot of my classes...nice guy but loud mouthy. OMG then there is this guy who I got to talking to, Steve, who is so hot. We got to talking and it turns out he transferred to Northeastern from the Merchant Marine Academy. So he's also in my group (YAY!).
MODERN JEWISH THOUGHT: This class is going to be the DEATH of me I think. It's philosphy mixed with modern Judaism. Like I really have time for any of that philosophy crap. UGH!
SALES MANAGEMENT: This class is good and the professor is decent except he speaks in monotone and reads off all of the notes he wants us to take word for word so it gets kind of boring. He cracks jokes but in his monotone way. Oh well. The class seems like it'll be easy so I'm not going to complain (plus I sit next to this really hot guy who I got to talking to...he's foreign which is so sexy!)

Anyway...nothing else new in my life. Hmm...made some penne ala vodka tonight. Getting kind of sick of it. I'm off to start the load of homework listed for Friday. G'night!

HELL BEGINS TOMORROW!

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 03:02:46 GMT

So tomorrow classes start and I had an o.k. last day before classes overall...

The morning was spent relaxing then going to the gym. Afternoon was spent with Ashley seeing Match Point (which was EXCELLENT) and having dinner at Cheesecake Factory. Bad "thinking about Eric" day, though. I really want to see Curious George when it comes out next month and I know he'd see it with me when no one else would :-( Anyways...gotta get to sleep! Early wake up tomorrow! G'night...

So disappointed...

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 23:15:23 GMT

So I made fettucini al fredo tonight and it did not come out quite as I had hoped. I definitely won't be making it again (unless I find another recipe). Anyone know of any good recipes that are easy? If so...please comment! I'm a college student trying to save $$$MONEY$$$ by cooking! Anyway...that's all I have to say for now. Hope everyone has a fantastic Saturday night!!!!

"In my head your voice. You've got all that I need and this make believe will get me through another lonely night..." - Anna Nalick

Yes, folks, I am still alive...

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 01:54:47 GMT

So it's been about four months since my last update and a pretty smart guy told me I need to start writing in a journal because it helps let out feelings. And I said "I already have a journal." So he said "well, why don't you write in it?" So I've decided to go ahead and write in my LiveJournal. I'm back at school so I'm hoping I'll have a ton more time to write regular updates. Work has finally ended in NY and I'm back in Boston to start my Junior (4th year) of classes here at NU. And below are my life updates:

WORK LIFE: Finished working at Scholastic. Had an INCREDIBLE internship once again. Got involved with another department and went on a business trip to Memphis, TN which was amazing. (Memphis wasn't amazing, the trip was!) It's 99% certain that I will be working for that other department for my last internship and then again when I graduate which would be AMAZING. How many college students can say that thier internship company sent them on a weeklong business trip, all expenses paid, and will be hiring them upon graduation. Not many. So sorry to brag but it's been an amazing six months and I had to announce it to the world!

FAMILY LIFE: Jeff has officially moved in. The city apartment is taking FOREVER to get finished because they literally wripped apart the whole place. It has definitely been interesting but awesome having him in the apartment with us. Mom started a new job which is cool. Hmmm...nothing else too exciting going on. Sorry. Oh yeah, they've also asked me to work part time from Boston should I have free time.

SCHOOL LIFE: Waiting for the semester to start (it begins on Tuesday). Taking 20 credits which include two supply chain management classes, one marketing class, one international business class, and a Jewish studies class. Each class is four credits. It should definitely make for an interesting (and busy semester). Not to mention working part time and making sure I hit the gym at least 5 times a week...AT LEAST!

LOVE LIFE: Ahhh yes! The exciting yet sad part of my life. That's why I saved it for last. Still in love with Eric. I think I always will be which is terrible. But I've come to the realization finally that for right now I cannot have him so I have been dating, although I haven't been as happy with other people as I was with him. By the way, he never did answer that e-mail I sent him back in August. I was dating a guy seriously, Rob, for about 3 months. He is three years younger than me and goes to the Merchant Marine Academy in my town. He was fantastic but we were on different levels in every way...it just couldn't going anywhere and certainly was not something that was going to last. Had a good time though, and it was certainly a good experience. Been on a few dates since then but nothing has caught my interest 100%. Spend new years with one of them, FANTASTC cook but TERRIBLE teeth. I don't get it...everything is awesome about him but his TEETH!!!! UGH! If anyone knows a nice, good looking, JEWISH, honest, funny, TALL guy with GOOD TEETH, let me know! I'm tired of going on these ridiculous dates and going out with this ridiculous guys and having these ridiculous relationships. It's a waste of my time. Oh yea, he has to have a decent job also. I have a lifestyle to uphold. ;-) J/K That was the Great Neck Jewish girl in me coming out. My last attempt at contacting Eric will be a Happy Birthday e-mail on January 19. If he is a rude asshole and doesn't respond to that either then I'll officially be done with it.

Anyway, like I said, I should be able to update these much more often now that I'm back in Boston. LATAZ

"It's so hard knowing that the closest thing to my perfection is so far out of reach..."

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 01:21:14 GMT

You Are 23 Years Old

23

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

I'm back...

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 18:46:52 GMT

I know...it has certainly been a while since my last update. Well...it's been an extremly busy couple of months. All I do is work or sleep. I never really go out anymore unless it's for a family thing. I know, it sucks but none of my friends are around this time of year. They are all on thier way back to school or on vacation or doing something while I'm here working.

So I miss Eric like you wouldn't believe. I want him back and I don't know any other way to get him back unless I move to Michigan, which is something I certainly won't be doing anytime soon. He's everything I ever wanted and I hate the fact that he isn't a significant part of my life anymore. In fact, he really isn't any part of my life anymore, except the part of my life that is my memory and shattered heart. I cry abuot it everyday and if I don't keep myself busy, he's all I think about. I e-mailed him the other day telling me everything I'm feeling: sadness, anger, scared-ness (is that a word?), and happiness. Happiness only because I know what I want now except that I've become so incredibly picky, that nobody is good enough (except Eric). It was a medium sized e-mail that I sent on Thursday. I still haven't heard back from him. I had a dream last night that I drove all the way from New York to Michigan and spent the day lounging by the pool with his family, and playing with his nephew, Austin. For some reason though, he wasn't there. HE did end up coming for dinner and we cuddled the rest of the night and talked and....can't tell. I just miss him terribly. He's the only person I can see myself being with now and in the future. "It's so hard knowing that the closest thing to my perfection is so far out of reach," is something a cast member on Real World Austin said and it brought me to tears because Eric really is the closest thing to my perfection and he couldn't be farther out of reach than he is. There is really no way I can have him unless I move there, which, at least for right now, I cannot do. This is the worst feeling in the world. And there are so many things, everyday things, that remind me of him.

Anyway on to other things. Yesterday I want to Kids Day at the US Open with Jeff and his grandchildren. We had so much fun. The whole time I was there though I kept thinking about how I invited Eric to the US Open with me should I get a set of tickets from Jeff. Now who will I take?

OK I'm finished ranting about my love woes. CIAO

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 22:38:51 GMT

How come just when things are calminig down, shit hits the fan? I swear, the drama never ceases....
As I am pulling into Barnes and Noble today my phone rings and who is it? Mitch!!! I KNEW he would call when I got home. So we are hanging out Tuesday night. Nothing will happen. I won't allow it. He doesn't want anything serious. I want something serious. I guess I can have fun until something more serious comes around. I dunno. More than wanting something more than just a fling, I want Eric. I want Eric more than anything else in this world. And the worst part is, I can't have him. As we speak, he is in New York spending time with his family and I can't see him. It is definitely too weird to speak to call him. We speak online something. I got the picture backf rom when he came to visit. It is the best we-took-this-picture-ourselves picture that I have ever seen. We just work together. I miss him more than anything. Not a day guy by when I don't think of him, when I don't want to call him and just talk about everyday "nothings" or everyday "somethings." Ugh...I'm starting to cry.
New subject...
Work starts in 2 weeks. In the meantime, I'm seeing doctors and spending time running errands and relaxing. Life as a whole is pretty boring.

In life, your script has already been written for you and living is either about reading the lines as they're written to be who you are, or about rewriting the lines to fit who you want to become.

I'm out. Peace.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 03:04:49 GMT

So I am lying in bed. Thank god for wireless internet. I'm just not really tired at all. I am for some reason on an extremely "off" sleep/eat schedule. I have been eating crazy late lunches which have been causing me to eat crazy late dinners i.e. 10pm. Then I go to sleep at like 11 and sleeo until like 10 the next day. Weird. Hopefully after finals I'll be on a better schedule.

Tomorrow is study day. Tuesday is my final and I really need to kick its ass! I have no done as well in Organizational Behavior as I had hoped so I need to make sure I do well on the final so I can get a low B in the class (hopefully).

Did I mention that I now absolutely HATE basketball? Ever since Eric (even last year) it has become one of those sports that I can't watch without thinking about him. He has floor seats to all Pistons games and when we were together I used to watch for him on TV when the games were televised. Now, everytime I watch basketball, and especially the Pistons, I get sad! :-( And the problem is, I actually like watching basketball!!!! So the whole ordeal sucks because now basketball makes me sad. It was the kind of thing I watched when there was nothing else on but I always watched the finals. Ugh. I hate boys. Why must they ruin absolutely EVERYTHING?!??!? I think of Eric A LOT...I know...it's bad. But it is just one of those things that it's like, we want to be together but God is doing everything possible to keep us apart. And I have one picture in a roll of film that I need to get developed of us. And I have been putting off getting it developed bc I don't want to get that picture back because I know I am going to cry when I see it. UGH! I guess I have to do my best to move on, date other people for now, and see what happens in the future. Maybe the fact that Bill Laimbeer is coaching the Knicks next season will bring Eric to NY more often. (Bill Laimbeer is Eric's dads best friend.) UGH!

So I am going home on Thursday and I am totally psyched about it. I CAN'T WAIT!!! And Iwill have a couple weeks off before I start workinig which is good. Of course, they will all be filled with doctors appointments but oh well. At least those will only take up an hour of whatever days they are made for. Then I am free as a bird! I'll definitely hang out with Amy and Nicole a lot...and meet Emily in the city. And Dave wants to make plans for when I get home. And I met this new guy so hopefully I'll get to go out with him soon. He seems really nice. We shall see!!!

Hmm...what else is there? Oh yea! I have to make flight arrangements to go and visit Steve. Mom said she'd pay for the flight so it is just a matter of making the reservations. I'm thinking the second weekend in August. But that's hurricane season! UGH! It's always something!

Well...I'm off. I'm tired and have a long day of studying ahead of me tomorrow. Goodnight all!!!

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 01:48:50 GMT

So I coughed for 2 weeks and when I went home this past weekend the doctor said I've had bronchitis for 2 weeks. So he gave me an antibiotic and I am better now. I have decided, however, that the Northeastern health center is STUPID!

Anyway...went on my date with Dave on last Friday when I was in New York and we had a great time. Did some shopping...I got a red Prada cashmere/silk blend sweater and a Prada navy satin skirt and then at Century's I bought 2 pair of Juicy velour pants (same ones I already have in 3 different colors). So I did alright. He did not buy anythinig (except for lunch).

I miss Eric. I miss speaking with him. I am constantly thinking of him. I don't know what to do. It is absolutely impossible for the two of us to be together but I just feel such an empty part of my heart. Ugh. If only I lived in Michigan or he lived in New York. This fucking sucks.

So it was so hot in Boston last week that I ended up buying an air conditioner. Of course, the past two days gave been 50 degrees. The weather sucks too.

Oy...ok...this is a depressing entry. I'm gunna go. CIAO

UGH!!!!

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 17:38:44 GMT

So...after more than a week of being sick, I am am coughing like a maniac. I've been to the school health center twice, the first time seeing a nurse who was so flakey I thought she would kill be, the second time seeing a doctor who told me I had a virul cough which was being made worse my allergies. So she persribes to me Tylenol with codine for the cough and Zyrtec for allergies. The cough is still here after taking those meds for 24 hours.

In Eric news...there is no more Eric and I. Here's what happened:
Eric told me 4 days after he left about how his family has been looking into taking over a casino in Reno for the past few months. He was not sure if it was going to go through which is why he never told me when he was here. He said that if the deal goes through, he would be the one going to Reno since he is the only one in his family business with no family attachments. He apologized profusely for not being up front and honest with me. I told him we would discuss it when he knew what was going to happen. I checked on all different travel sites, the cost and travel time to get to Reno...basically there are no non-stop flights from New York to Reno which would make my travel time 9 hours and the cost would be $500 plus for a roundtrip ticket. If the deal goes through, basically, it would be impossible for me to come visit him there. Two days later (2 days ago) he said that it was definite. The deal in Reno was going through. We talked for a long time about different possibilities and then mutually decided it to be impossible. Besides the fact that I would be unable to visit him in Reno, he would have no time. He'll be in Reno working on the weekends, and home in Michigan working during the week. It is just absolutely impossible. We ended on good terms promising one another we would still speak, online AND on the phone, and call one another if we are ever in eachothers areas. Granted, I probably won'y ever me in Michigan but whatever. That was out agreement. So I am happy with the way it ended. It was friendly. I was upset for the night, crying a lot, but by the time I woke up the next morning (yesterday) I was fine, realizing that this is really what was best in this situation. Who knows what may happen way down the road in the future. Oh well.

Friday I have a date with Dave, the pre-med student who goes to Trinity College. He is from CT and $$$$. He is such a sweetheart. So we shall see.

I am sitting in class waiting for it to start...how fun! This is my "Jew class" aka Women in Jewish Culture. This class would be so much better if the teacher wouldn't be so flaky. Oh well.

So I am going home tonight...BUSY BUSY weekend! Tonight I am having coffee with Cliff (long story but we began speaking again through a very funny situation). Tomomrrow I have my date and at night I have to pick up my grandma. Saturday I have a doctors appointment and Jeff's 60th surprise party at night. Sunday I have a free day and out with Nicole and Amy at night. Monday is another relax day and I go back to Boston.

Anyways...more people are starting to show up to class so I am off. CIAO!

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 01:44:20 GMT

So the weekend with Eric was absolutely fabulous. We had a wonderful time. But there is something missing. He is very distant. Never really calls. Never really IMs. I think I'll give it another week and see if he is a little more aggressive them say something. Especially since it is long distance, the whole communicating thing is super important. At least this time I have the upper hand in the situation.

School has been going ok. I am not doing as well in my organizational behavior class as I had hoped. But as long as I pass with AT LEAST a C I will be happy. I should get at least that.

I am sick...well Eric got me sick. He had a cough and said it was allergies...clearly it was not just allergies. I had not voice yesterday and today it's getting a little bit better but I am still coughing up my lungs.

OY...so someone in my building set her oven on fire. The fire department came and went but it took forever for the alarm to shut off. It is so friggin' loud! Blah. So many people moved out of my building so there were not a lot of people waiting outside with me. I was so oddly dressed though. Oh well.

Anyways...I'm babbling so I am going to not "blog" anymore. Enjoy the weekend...I know I'll be inside recovering from this goddam cough! CIAO

WOW

Mon, 30 May 2005 14:39:37 GMT

So a lot has happened since May 11th (my last update). Sorry I haven't been updating but I am just so busy.

In boy news: I went to Mitch's senior ball and it was so much fun. We had a fabulous time. Unfortunately, however, I had to tell him that I didn't want to see him anymore because he really is not treating me the right way. He never complimented me when I was there especially after I was dressed for the ball. He never paid for anything. He didn't come get me or drop me off at the airport. After he graduated and got home, he called me 5 days after I left Allentown...when he was with a friend and he could only talk for a second. I was pissed because I'd rather him call when he can actually talk. Why does he only call when he has no time?!?!?! So when I brought that up to him he said "you should have been happy I called. I was out. Most guys wouldn't have even called." Oh well. Bye Bye, Mitch. Good news: remember Eric from Michigan? Well...last Sunday night he IMed me and said breaking up with me was the worst mistake of his life. To make a long sttory short, he flew to Boston and his currently asleep in my bed. He has been here since Thursday and is leaving later today. We are doing a trial run to make sure we are able to see one another and then we will be deciding how we want to handle the situation. I'll probably head out there in July at some point. We shall see. My grandma won't be happy about that.

In school news: Two classes. Each meets 2x a week. Each day each class is 3.5 hours long. My Tuesdays and Thursdays are hell but I make it work. Lots of reading and frequent tests but somehow I am doing ok. It's almost over though which I am sooooo thrilled about!

In family news: Robin (Jeff's daughter) got engaged! YAY! She and Richard will probably get married in a year. OMG So exciting! I am dying to see the ring. I am going home in 2 weeks for Jeff's 60th surprise party so I will see it then. My grandma broke her foot so she's been kind of laying low the past couple of weeks. Nothing new with my mom at all. She is her usual self.

Hmmm...I am trying to think of anything else that's new in my life!!! So boring. Just looking forward to getting back to NY to start working.

Hopefully I'll get to updating soon! BYEEEE

OMG SO LONG

Wed, 11 May 2005 23:27:12 GMT

So I haven't written in a loooong time...or at least what feels like a long time. Here are the updates:

In the Mom and Jeff front: They found an apartment in NYC on 57th between 2nd and 3rd so they will be moving probably in October. It is 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom, fabulous kitchen and lots of windows, 19th floor. It is sooo nice! I can't wait because I get to have the Great Neck apartment all to myself meaning I move into the master bedroom and have my own place! NOT BAD! (I also get the car) WOOHOO! I surprised my m om on Mother's Day and flew to New York. I made her day :-) She was so happy to see me and she said it was the best Mother's Day present EVER! WooHoo!

In the school front: My grades were pretty good for last semester...C+ in Supply, A in writing, B- in marketing and B in finance. My GPA went up which is always good. Currently, I am in my summer 1 semester and I am totally swamped with work...even though I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, I have two classes per day and each class lasts 3.5 hours so my class days get kind of crazy but it is also nice to have a couple extra days off. So far, I like my classes...I am taking Women in Jewish Culture and Organizational Behavior (Human Resources)

In boy news: I go to Mitch's senior ball in less than a week and I am more psyched to see him then to necessarily go to a dance. I was kind of angry because he doesn't think any of his friends are going to come get me at the airport and I thought that maybe he would offer to pay for the cab ride for at least one way but that did not happen. It is just a bit upsetting. He is just showing no interest and I got mad at him last night but he said that he is super busy and he IS looking forward to seeing me but he just doesn't think/talk about it all of the time. Ugh...I dunno. I guess we will see what happens.

In Steve news: STEVE VISITED LAST WEEKEND and we had SO MUCH fun! We watched some Seinfeld, went to the Children's museum, went for kosher chinese food and rented Shawshank Redemption. We had a FABULOUS ;-) weekend! Hopefully I'll get to go visit him in Florida soon.

Anyways...nothing else to update on I don't think so...CIAO

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 00:17:15 GMT

10 things to get a girl to fall for you....

1. Hugs from behind *
2. Grab her hand when you guys walk next to each other. *
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her. *
4. Cuddle with her *
5. Dont force her to do anything. *
6. Write little notes. *
7. Complement her. *
8. When you hug, hold her in your arms as long as possible. *
9. Say I love you.....and mean it *
10. Pick her over ur friends.. no matter what*

Girls, if you think one of these is sweet repost this.

Guys, repost this if u would do any of these

So much to say...

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 00:06:58 GMT

So I have not updated in about 10 days so here I go with all the updates of my EXCITING ahem boring life.

I have been working since last Thursday at Scholastic just doing some training and miscellaneous work for them...nothing too exciting.

Sunday night Mitch came over for Passover dessert and we just relaxed afterwards for about an hour. I miss him. But I don't necessarily miss him as much as I miss talking to him and calling him and his sense of humor and the way he made me laugh non stop or the two hour nightly conversations. He was like my last call of the day. I haven't had that last call in about a month now and I totally miss going to sleep with that "feeling" of contentness in that part of my life. And I totally understand he's busy. But in a sense, I just need to see some form of him caring even a little bit so I know he hadn't lost interest. We may know that we are pretty or sexy or smart but sometimes it's nice to hear it from the guy you are dating...but I haven't heard that from him once - since December. And on top of it, I have this date with Dave tomorrow for lunch in the city and I feel guilty for going! And I know I shouldn't because I am almost 99% sure that Mitch is out hooking up an dating other girls but for some reason it just does not feel right to go out with somebody else! ARGH! WHY AM I SOOOOO TORN?!?!?!?!?!

Anyway...I'm going back to Botson Sunday. Not quite sure how I feel about that. On one hand I wanna go back and get back to classes and away from the nagging mother and grandmother. On the other hand, I want to be in New York because it is just sooo much better in so many different ways.

Oy...ok I'm off. I want to go relax. Until next time..."that's the way things are." - stolen from a man I admire...

CIAO

Que Sera Sera...

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 17:34:20 GMT

...Whatever will be will be.

That's my new motto. I realize I cannot plan or wait around for things to happen. I just need to do what I want and be what I am and whatever happens, happens. On that note...I have a date next Saturday (4/30) with a guy named Dave who goes to Trinity College...super smart, super cute, tall, Jewish (grandma will like), super nice, and well to do (which is never a bad thing). He is from Connecticut so we are going to meet in NYC and spend the day having lunch and walking around the city. I'm excited. I can't wait around for Mitch to say he's ready to be exclusive. I need to live my life, and hopefully for Mitch, I suppose, I don't find somebody I want to be with.

By the way, I am home for two weeks. THANK GOD! I got an A in middler writing and I found out yesterday I got a C+ in supply chain...wish I could have done better but the professor was being an asshole about some homeworks he claims I never gave him (which I did). Should be a pretty busy two weeks...going into the city a lot and then of course there is Passover and the Last Week CD release party and the Kelly Clarkson concert. And next week I am going into work for three days which should be nice. Money is always good.

I get to see Mitch Sunday night...he is coming for Passover dessert. He won't be able to make dinner because he has plans of his own. Should be fun.

Hmmm...I don't know what else to say. My life is boring, and probably will be until the end of the week. Tomorrow I'm doing something birthday/mother's day shopping. Oy...more money out the window. I'm going broke!

Anyways...you all better be outside enjoying the fabulous weather. If you are inside reading my LJ, you had better be at work (ahem Steve) or you had better get outside PRONTO!

CIAO

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 03:11:59 GMT

He just apologized...

Mitch: hey, I just got back from the gym and am gonna hop in the shower now, but I just wanted to say that if I was a dick before or w/e thats my bad and Im sorry. Overally things have been nuts in a variety of ways lately, and this weekend is, in some respects, the worst so far. Its totally not u, Im just really kinda on edge right now w a lot of stuff and I get cranky and stressed and stuff sometimes, w everyone pretty much, def not just u. so, I guess Ill ttyl or tomorrow. take it easy, babe. g'night.

:-)

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 02:58:09 GMT

Why am I letting him totally bring down my day? WTF?!?! My last final was this morning...I am THRILLED! I got a B on my finance paper...SOO HAPPY about that. Had a relaxing afternoon :::sigh::: I hung out with Emily Segal tonight and we had the best time. We went to Stephanie's for dinner and then just took a walk and went to Starbucks. Why were she and I never friends in high school. We get along really well. We have so much in common and it looks as though we'll be hanging out a lot more when I get back from my two week break. So anyway...then I call Mitch as I'm walking home. He was on the phone so I said I'd call him back. When I got home he was online so I asked if he was still bus and he said no but he was going to the gym. So I said I'd call in a couple hours. Well...take a look at the convo:

Me: Hey babe off the phone?
Mitch: Yeah but heading out to gym
Me: oh
Mitch: I gotta blow off some steam
Me: yea
Mitch: I'll be careful with my arm, chill
Me: you know I worry :-)
Mitch: yea, u and half the rest of the planet
Me: haha its just bc I care about you :-) I'll try you in a couple hours I guess then
:::a couple seconds go by:::
Me: WAIT
Mitch: ?
Me: before you leave...I have to ask...
Me: plans?
Mitch: OMG Ari...seriously...chill w that. I'm gunna pop a blood vessel
Me: I'm sorry :-(
Mitch: its k, just chill w it...this is an extraordinarily hard weekend for me, so u just gotta chill a little right now
Me: With everything? should I not call you this weekend?
Mitch: Just generally chill a little
Me: I don't really understand what i've dont besides ask for plans. i wish i understood :-\
Mitch: Its just a general thing...Im cranky and stressed and pissed and frustrated and upset. so you do the math. lol
Me: ok. I'll let you be tonight. if you wanna chat latere you can call me.
Mitch: yea, aight. Im gg to the gym. Ill ttyl. 'night

I don't get it. He's so cold. I wish I knew what was going on. He is such a closed of person. It hurts. It hurts that he barely shows any affection. He never texts me or e-mails me anymore and he never ever compliments me. It's kind of annoying sometimes. Even though I know I'm pretty, it's nice to hear it from the guy you are dating sometimes. I told him that on the phone last night. Ugh. I don't know why I let him do this to me. I shouldn't let him! I should know that I enjoyed my evening and had a fabulous day. The semester is over and I am going home for two weeks and I have such a great break planned. I just like him.

Oprah was saying on her show today that women melt when they hear Tom Cruise say "you complete me" to Rene Zelweger in Jeryr McGuire. And Oprah was saying also how that's wrong. A person should be complete before meeting the love of thier life. A relationship should be two complete beings coming together to make an even more complete couple. Not two incomplete people coming together. And I see what she's saying...you need to be completely happy with yourself, before you can be successful in a relationship. It's kind of like the last ever thing Carrie said on SATC:

"I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic. Those that are old and familiar. Those that bring up lots of questions. Those that bring you somewhere unexpected. Those that bring you far from where you started. And those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you YOU love, well, that's just fabulouos."

It's amazing. A person really need to be complete and love themselves before they can be loved. It is so incredibly true.

Anyway...enough with the depressing stuff...only 3 more weeks until Steve comes. I'm psyched. YAY! Hmmm...what else. Oh! 2 days until I go home! YAY!

Ok I am exhausted and need to do some thinking but as always, writing in the journal helped me get my thoughts into writing. THANK YOU NICOLE FOR GETTING ME THIS!

Goodnight, moon.

Oy...

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 18:06:07 GMT

So I was 99% of the way through my update and I deleted out of the window by accident. FABULOUS! So let's try this again:

The weather is absolutely BEAUTIFUL today! I have all of the windows in my apartment open...oh my goodness...it is ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS! Too bad I can't be outside the rest of the afternoon because I have work to do.

I am SOOOOO incredibly psyched for Steve to come visit May 6-8. It is such a shame that we never became friends like this when he actually lived here. We are going to do so much when he's here...Kosher chinese food one night for dinner (because I am a Kosher Chinese food virgin)...Zaftig's deli of course one day for brunch and we are also going to this Japanese restaurant in Brookline somewhere. I forget what it's called though. I'm thinking may going to the aquarium would be fun...we shall see I suppose! YAY! He will be my first realy visitor (besides my family)!

So Mitch's senior ball is May 18th and I am going. I bought a beautiful ABS simple black strapless gown that is kind of gathered at the side. For shoes I bought a pair of black Steve Madden flip flops with silver embroidery. I really did not want the height. I figured if Sarah Michelle Geller can wear terrycloth Mella flip flops with a Vera Wang wedding gown, I can certainly wear beaded flip flops with A.B.S. I am excited to go. It should be fun. I am kind of upset though because Mitch has been so un-conversational lately. I have to pry to get him to talk about how his day went. It's like I ask him questions and he's like "yea." I don't think I have heard him say more that "yea" in about 3 days. Ugh. WTF?!?!!?

ABS GOWN

STEVE MADDEN FLIP FLOPS

Hmmmm...last night I went out to dinner with Jon. We were supposed to go to Cheesecake Factory but the wait was 70 minutes. They would not even give us a beeper for 20 minutes! We ended up going to Typhoon instead. Sooo YUMMY!!! We shared veggie lo mein and beef teriyaki skewers then I had some sushi and he had some weird black bean spicy chicken. We took a walk and ended up in Barnes and Noble where I bought a Sex and the City book. Just what I need.

So I am sitting here waiting for dining in to delivery a turkey club sandwhich and fries from Joe's American Cafe.

OK...time to go. I have nothing more to write about. CIAO!

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 03:10:17 GMT

YAY! Steve is coming to visit me from Florida May 6-8 AND I will be Mitch's date for his senior ball! I am psyched. I am going gown shopping at Chestnut Hill mall tomorrow with Ashley! I am psyched! May is going to be a fabulous month!

So my mom and Jeff were sitting right next to Regis last night at dinner so that was pretty cool.

In school news: I have officially bound my middler year paper...meaning...I am finished with the class! Woohoo! Just three more to go! Thank goodness! Marketing is coming along fine...we are almost finished with out project. I have one more SCM exam on Wednesday so need to study for that this weekend as well as a finance final next Friday. Oy vey...so much studying for finance!!! Even if I get a C on this final I can probably pass the class with a B. Not bad not bad.

Hmmm...nothing else really. Oh yea! I'm on a gym kick which will most likely end shortly. But I have gone almost every night for the past 2 weeks except for 1. Not bad at all! Gotta get in shape!

Anyways...I'm off...I'm tired and I have to rest up for a long day of shopping tomorrow!

CIAO!

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 16:49:54 GMT

So I know I have no updated in a couple of weeks. I have just been so incredibly busy with school and some other stuff going on.

School, despite that fact that I'm crazed with stuff, is going well. I god a 37/50 on my second finance exam but with the curve it equals a B- so I should get at least a B in my finance class which is soooo nice. For middler writing I am just waiting to get back two assignments and then I will be officially finished and the paper will be ready to bind. Marketing is stressing me out because we have very little time to do a whole lotta stuff. But I guess there are six people in our group and we will be able to handle it. Supply is going ok. I have to start studying for the next exam because I need to kick butt on it. I did not do so well on the last exam so I need to bring my grade back up. I have, however, been participating so hopefully that will bring my grade up to a B for the semester. If I can get all Bs and an A in middler writing I would be soooo incredibly happy. I need my GPA and QPA to go up. We shall see I guess.

Mitch has been so busy this past week. I barely got to speak with him which kind of make me sad. But it seems like his schedule is lightening back up which is nice. I am psyched to go visit him in 2 weeks! I can't wait. I have all my new sexy Spring outfits...I'll be IRRESISTABLE!!! ;-)

I am very proud of myself. Out of the past 8 days, I have gone to the gym 7. I go from about 9:30 or 10 and stay for about an hour. I have to get all hot and sexy for those IRRESISTABLE Spring outfits.

This weekend was fun. Friday night I cooked a FABULOUS dinner for Brian, Joe, and Ashley. For appetizer I sliced up fresh mozerella and fresh tomato and put basil and balsamic vinegar on top. Oh my goodness...it as so YUMMY!!!!!!! For main course I made penne ala vodka and it came out better than it ever has. For dessert, Ashley made an apple crisp and that was also better then I have ever tasted it. Brian and Joe broguht over a bottle of red wine and a bottle of white wine, and vanilla ice cream for the apple crisp. It was a WONDERFUL night with FANTASTIC friends!

Mom and Jeff stil have not found an apartment in the city. Although there are several things in their price range, the co-op boards are being pains in the asses. Oh well. I am sure they will eventually find something. I am not worried.

Anyways...I have some stuff to do before I start getting ready for my group meeting this afternoon. CIAO!

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 20:39:39 GMT

I AM SO GODDAM FRIGGIN BORED! Everybody is home for Easter and I think I am the only one left in Boston. I have absolutely nothing to do. My Friday night activity was going to the gym and it will probably be my Saturday night activity also. ARGH!

So I am kind of pissed off. Mitch has a sort of date tomorrow night. His friend has a date and the girl isb bringing her friend so Mitch is going also. Ugh. I act like I don't care with him but I do. I mean, he knows I care but I don't get upset until we hang up the phone. I DON'T WANT HIM TO GO ON ANY DATES WITH ANYBODY BESIDES ME!!!! Ugh.

Ok I have go to because I am getting upset just thinking about the whole Mitch situation. Ciao.

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 22:37:08 GMT

So today has been boring than ever. I am kind of off. It's weird. Well...here's what happened:

Yesterday was going FABULOUS-ly. My finance exam wasn't as hard as I had thought although I am a little iffy about the definition problems because I was studying the equations so much that I didn't study any of the other stuff. But I at least think I passed which makes me happy. Me passing this finance exam makes me thrilled. So after my exam Ashley and I went tanning. Tanning is my new thing. I figure if I do it once a week or once every two weeks everything should be ok and I should have nothing to worry about. And I only stay in for 10 minutes. I relaxed at home for the rest of the afternoon until...

DUN DUN DUN :::in that threatening tone::: ...

I called my grandma to ask her if a jar of Mott's applesauce was still good if I had it since January. Once I decided to throw it out, she asked if I had a living well. Yes...she asked a 20 year old if she has a living will. I said no but I can see the importance of it as I am no longer a minor and should express my medical wishes god forbid something should happen to me and I am in a vegetative state. She said I should see my friend's dad who is a lawyer but I said it is a personal thing and I would rather not see anybody who is a friends parent or who is friends with my mom. Well...she got mad and said there is no need to spend hundreds of dollars with a lawyer. I said I did not want to discuss it anymore but she kept going. I kept saying, "I don't want to discuss it" over and over again. Finally I said that I'd hang up if the topic did not change and it didn't so I hung up. Then she called me back and said that I should not hang up on her and then she went on about it again. I said I didn't want to discuss it again and she hung up on me. Then I got so upset that I went for a long walk. I called my mom but she fell asleep in the middle of me telling the story so I called Jeff. He calmed me down...
And the things he said were so true. He said that I am twenty years old and my grandmother needs to understand I can make my own decisions. She holds money stuff over my head to control my life: who I date, what I do, who I hang out with. It's getting ridiculous and it is making me angry. I was SOOO MAD last night. I called her when I got home from my walk up Newbury and back down Boylston and apologized only for hanging up on her. She said "you'd better" and then started going on about it again and I said I didn't wanna discuss it and that I am going to sleep. And then she said goodnight and that was it.

The whole issue started with that lady down in Florida. I have my opinion on that and I am not going to state it here, but one thing I do have to say is that I don't think it is fair to her for her entire life and pictures of her in her nursing home bed should be plastered all over the news. Doesn't her family want her to have any dignity left? If she were to do soon, she should die with dignity...not having her life being argued about across the country.

Anyway...today was relaxing. Evan came over and brought sushi for lunch...fun. Other than that, I just relaxed today. I got my white Seven bermuda shorts in the mail today and they look so cute. I should get my J. Crew tanks and flip flops on Friday or so. We shall see.

Tonight I am relaxing. I don't have any homework due this week and the homework for next week that I wanted to do, I can't do because my English professor did not post the examples on the BlackBoard site. Oh well.

I am off. CIAO