So I am lying in bed. Thank god for wireless internet. I'm just not really tired at all. I am for some reason on an extremely "off" sleep/eat schedule. I have been eating crazy late lunches which have been causing me to eat crazy late dinners i.e. 10pm. Then I go to sleep at like 11 and sleeo until like 10 the next day. Weird. Hopefully after finals I'll be on a better schedule.

Tomorrow is study day. Tuesday is my final and I really need to kick its ass! I have no done as well in Organizational Behavior as I had hoped so I need to make sure I do well on the final so I can get a low B in the class (hopefully).

Did I mention that I now absolutely HATE basketball? Ever since Eric (even last year) it has become one of those sports that I can't watch without thinking about him. He has floor seats to all Pistons games and when we were together I used to watch for him on TV when the games were televised. Now, everytime I watch basketball, and especially the Pistons, I get sad! :-( And the problem is, I actually like watching basketball!!!! So the whole ordeal sucks because now basketball makes me sad. It was the kind of thing I watched when there was nothing else on but I always watched the finals. Ugh. I hate boys. Why must they ruin absolutely EVERYTHING?!??!? I think of Eric A LOT...I know...it's bad. But it is just one of those things that it's like, we want to be together but God is doing everything possible to keep us apart. And I have one picture in a roll of film that I need to get developed of us. And I have been putting off getting it developed bc I don't want to get that picture back because I know I am going to cry when I see it. UGH! I guess I have to do my best to move on, date other people for now, and see what happens in the future. Maybe the fact that Bill Laimbeer is coaching the Knicks next season will bring Eric to NY more often. (Bill Laimbeer is Eric's dads best friend.) UGH!

So I am going home on Thursday and I am totally psyched about it. I CAN'T WAIT!!! And Iwill have a couple weeks off before I start workinig which is good. Of course, they will all be filled with doctors appointments but oh well. At least those will only take up an hour of whatever days they are made for. Then I am free as a bird! I'll definitely hang out with Amy and Nicole a lot...and meet Emily in the city. And Dave wants to make plans for when I get home. And I met this new guy so hopefully I'll get to go out with him soon. He seems really nice. We shall see!!!

Hmm...what else is there? Oh yea! I have to make flight arrangements to go and visit Steve. Mom said she'd pay for the flight so it is just a matter of making the reservations. I'm thinking the second weekend in August. But that's hurricane season! UGH! It's always something!

Well...I'm off. I'm tired and have a long day of studying ahead of me tomorrow. Goodnight all!!!