urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie flash. carbon monoxide. 2004-01-26T00:40:53Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:43286 2004-01-26T00:40:53Z 2004-01-26T00:40:53Z ok. i am officialy moving to kingsandqueens_<br />i unadded everyone, and i'm just keeping this to my self to look back on. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:43245 2004-01-26T00:27:36Z 2004-01-26T00:27:36Z i was staring at the sky, just looking for a star<br />to pray on, or wish on, or something like that<br />i was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy<br />whose reality i knew, was a hopeless to be had<br />but then the dove of hope began its downward slope<br />and i believed for a moment that my chances<br />were approaching to be grabbed<br />but as it came down near, so did a weary tear<br />i thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag<br />Hunger hurts, and i want him so bad, oh it kills<br />'cause i know i'm a mess he don't wanna clean up<br />i got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold<br />hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love<br />and i went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb<br />looking for a little hope<br />baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine,<br />and a fail to kiss is a fail to cope<br />i said, 'honey, i don't feel so good, don't feel justified<br />come on put a little love here in my void, ' he said<br />'it's all in your head, ' and i said, 'so's everything'<br />but he didn't get it i thought he was a man<br />but he was just a little boy<br />hunger hurts, and i want him so bad, oh it kills<br />'cause i know i'm a mess he don't wanna clean up<br />i got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold<br />hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love<br />hunger hurts, and i want him so bad, oh it kills<br />'cause i know i'm a mess he don't wanna clean up<br />i got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold<br />hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:42968 2004-01-25T15:37:16Z 2004-01-25T15:37:16Z blair had a j-14 magazine last night and BANDCAMP was in it.<br />and one of the guys is wearing a wantagh summer recreation shirt. i nearly pissed in my pants when i saw this!<br />(@Q*&()&#(%^& urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:42518 2004-01-24T22:26:34Z 2004-01-24T22:26:34Z Opening Credits: What I Got by Sublime<br />Waking Up Scene: The Execution of All Things by Rilo Kiley<br />Car Driving Scene: California by Phantom Planet<br />High School Flashback Scene: Hey Jealousy by The Gin Blossoms<br />Nostalgic Scene: OK, I Believe You But My Tommy Gun Don't by Brand New<br />Bitter, Angry Scene: Torrid Love Affair by BoysNightOut<br />Break-up Scene: The Patron Saints of Liars and Fakes by Fall Out Boy<br />Regret Scene: Padraic My Prince by Bright Eyes <br />Nightclub/Bar Scene: How Soon Is Now by The Smiths<br />Sad, breakdown scene: Pictures of You by The Cure<br />Funeral Scene: The No Seatbelt Song by Brand New<br />Mellow Scene: A Slow Descent by Straylight Run<br />Dreaming About Someone Scene: Hold Me Tonight by Taking Bach Sunday<br />Sex Scene: Outrageous by Britney Spears for the dirty bits, but for the whole waking up next to eachother beaming part, definitely Lightness by Death Cab for Cutie.<br />Contemplation Scene: Just Like Heaven by The Cure<br />Happy Love Scene: Existentialism on Prom Night by Straylight Run<br />Happy Friend Scene: Mistakes We Knew We Were Making by Straylight Run<br />Closing Credits: The Future Freaks Me Out by Motion City Soundtrack<br /><br />and i talked again to LL today. love that girl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:42250 2004-01-24T19:05:11Z 2004-01-24T19:05:11Z i went to teen night last night because you know, there's nothing else to do in wantagh. i had a big fight/made up with amanda, these mean guys played a trick on me regarding chris, and i nearly got frostbite last night from walking to the school from wendys & sliding down the little sewer thing by the wetlands. & also nick and nicole are going out [?], carissa was hysterical, steve was being all horny & whatnot, lou was grinding everyone & people were acting like assholes. [hm jay?] but it was fun when me and kelsey danced to closing time. i love that girl. and eilis&amanda. :) also i had the best dream last night that i was in his arms & then i woke up. & i felt so cozy and warm inside & then i realized it would never happen. so that was a bad way to start my day. today is the girl's mid year so i'm going to that.<br /><br />PS; does anyone know what the hell is wrong with my journal? please help! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:41359 2004-01-19T02:50:28Z 2004-01-19T02:50:28Z <img src="http://img3.photobucket.com/albums/v13/applejax6290/for_little_sister.jpg"><br /><br />SORRY, my big sister is better than yours! <br /><br />i made this for her:<br /><img src="http://img3.photobucket.com/albums/v13/applejax6290/2bf76d97.jpg"><br /><br />YAY FOR THE HAWT DAWG[z]! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:40735 2004-01-19T01:17:14Z 2004-01-19T01:17:14Z <a name="cutid1"></a> <a name="cutid2"></a>stats.<br /><br />Your full name: jacqueline denise marie anderson.<br />Who named you? mom & dad.<br />Mom's name: bernie. <br />Dad's name: whose dad isn't named tom?<br />Birthday: 06.29.90.<br />Age: 13.<br />Astrological sign: cancer.<br />Sex : vagina.<br />Sexual preference: i ragazzi.<br />Grade: 8. <br />School: wantagh.<br />Ring size: like a nine. haha. <br />Height: 5'6''.<br />Hair length: long.<br />Hair color: light brown with natural blonde highlights.<br />Eye color: blue/green/grey.<br />Pierced: ears including caritlage.<br />Job: me? a job?<br />Best quality in yourself: i don't hold on to grudges.<br />Your worst character traits: um i speak the blunt truth apparently.<br />Your definition of a friend: someone that you can be so mad at for about 5 minutes and then be like "fuck this" and start cracking up again with.<br />Your best physical feature: people tell me eyes.<br />Color you are most like: green. <br />Celebrity you are most like: does snow white count? ;)<br />If you were president, what would you do first? booze for the children. um, i don't know.<br />Which tv show would you like to star in? all that! haha jack desena!<br />How long are you in the shower? on school days, about 10 minutes. on weekends, about 30 minutes.<br />If you are a girl, what makeup do you wear everyday? eyeliner and mascara. and burt bee's lip shit.<br />What is your worst fear? needles, leeches, anything that like, removes blood. i get faint-ish.<br />What CD is in your CD player right now? motion city soundtrack. what else?<br />What does your school look like? hollister&sean john&hot topic.<br />How many CD's do you own? good ones? like 5. fuck you kazaa.<br />How many people are on your buddy list? 112.<br />What's something you do that pisses others off? be honest. <br />Do you have any stuffed animals? i still do.<br />Do you have any bad habits? being honest. i see a trend here.<br />Where do you wish you could be right now? the beach.<br />What are you thinking at this very moment? hey, i need to cut my toenails.<br />Are you a vegetarian? like i could survive.<br />Time you get up: between 4:00am and 10:00am. <br />Time you go to bed: between 8:00pm and 4:00am.<br />How many pillows: one. <br />TV show you wish they would bring back: space cases, obviously.<br />Phrases you over-use: please calm down, dude, haha. and eilis says i use "that gay face" too much.<br />Who do you want to be? eilis of course. what?<br />Can you dance? like no other mother.<br />What do you do when you are bored? dance? um i don't think about these things.<br />Do you like where you live? it's better than seaford.<br />Do you get along w/ your parents? on the rare occasion.<br />Do you love your parents? of course.<br />What bugs you about your parents? um, my mom is kind of complusive and overprotective and my dad is ok except he agrees with her.<br />Do you look like your parents? i don't really see it. <br />Do you look like any of your friends? o'neill. <br />Do you respect your teachers? if they are worthy of it.<br />Do you have a car? sorry no.<br />What was your first car? shutup.<br />What cartoon character would you be? must i answer this when we all know the answer?<br />Most embarrassing CD in your collection: eh.<br />Most prized possession: i'm not really into stuff.<br />You treasure most: music.<br />You hate most: immature&ignorant&annoying people.<br />Biggest recent problem: me speaking the truth but, "in a harsh way." oh snap. <br />Something you are looking forward to: el hottie's house.<br />What are you doing this Friday? that's disclosed information.<br />What do you plan on doing in the next hour? tv.<br />The best thing that has happened today: i went to the disney store today and both the most amazing shirt ever and you are jealous.<br />Your #1 obsession: music. <br /><br />guys&dolls.<br /><br />Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? no/no/yes.<br />What is his/her name? could you read that much? honestly?<br />What do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend? hair and eyes.<br />Guys w/ or w/o hats? right.<br />What is the first thing you notice about a person? their face.<br />Tried to get someone to see how you feel and failed: story of my life.<br />Thought you were in love: no.<br />What is your dream date? beach and night and copeland maybe.<br />If you had to get married right now, who would it be to? ashton kutcher, paul talty (what?!) and greg rom. hahahaha!<br /><br />last.<br /><br />CD you bought: don't remember.<br />Movie you saw in theater: big fish!<br />Movie you rented: i have no idea.<br />Time you cried: long time ago.<br />Time you showered: this morning.<br />Time you were sick: not really ever. except last year.<br />Phone number you dialed: my own to check ma' voicemails. there were 4, if you're wondering.<br />Words you said: "that's such bs."<br />Had a serious talk: i talked with el hottie about shit.<br />Missed someone: i miss jillian marcus!<br />Liked someone: err... now?<br />Hugged someone: today i guess.<br />Kissed someone: haha!<br />Been kissed: LYKE LOL!<br />Laughed: today.<br />Made someone laugh: today, i'm a funny kinda gal.<br /><br />what do you think about.<br /><br />Love at first sight: nah.<br />Teenage smoking: whatever.<br />Eating disorders: next question.<br />The opposite sex: they're okay if they aren't stupid.<br />Boys vs. girls (who has it worse): um, periods and childbirth. girls, obviously.<br />Friends: they're better than yours.<br />Family: yeah?<br />Music: um, my everything?<br />Suicide: baaad.<br />Self-mutilation: other than attention, what does it get you? sure i've thought about it, and was about to do it once (new years, yes, el, yes.) but it's really fucking stupid.<br />Drinking: is fun!<br />God: we be hanging every sunday.<br />Religion: i'm roman catholic. i attend mass every sunday & altar serve & lector. i don't mind it at all, really.<br /><br />have you ever.<br /><br />Smoked: yes for like ten seconds. and my dad gave it to me. at my uncle's wedding. and i was eleven. something wrong here?<br />Done drugs: no.<br />Had sex: no.<br />Been on a plane: every year?<br />Went swimming in the ocean: oh yes.<br />Been out of the country: yah.<br />Let a friend cry on your shoulder: yesh.<br />Fallen asleep in the shower/bath: i slept in the bath minus the water once.<br />Fallen asleep while eating: how can you do that?<br />Fallen asleep while watching a scary movie: um signs but it wasn't scary. right.<br />Gone to church: yes.<br />Read the Bible: yeah.<br />Seen Star Wars: yea when i was eight?<br />Helped someone in need: sure. <br />Been friends w/ someone no one else likes: yes.<br />Sat in a restaurant w/o ordering anything: yea.<br />Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: maybe.<br />Tipped over a port-a-potty: gross.<br />Prank called someone: "i am russian. i am very schexvy."<br />Gone skinny dipping: yes.<br />Said "I love you" and meant it: uh, no.<br />Broken the law: yes.<br />Been convicted of a crime: but of couse, no.<br />Run away from home: down the block. <br />Bungee jumped: no. <br /><br />your friends.<br /><br />Who are your friends: el, amanda, chel, jill, caitlin, sam, blah blah why name you all.<br />Best to talk to: el, chel. <br />You have known the longest: caitlin was a bitch to me from kindergarten until sixth grade.<br />Whose parents you know the best: el's.<br />You go to for advice: E.M.O!<br />Person you can confide in: i confide in very few people.<br />Knows all your secrets: nobody.<br />Keeps your secrets: people don't keep secrets, trust no one.<br />Who usually gives your secrets away: EVERYONE. almost.<br />House you sleep at the most: every answer is el, duh.<br />House you wish you could sleep at, but can't: um yeah.<br />Quietest: my friends are fucking loud.<br />Shyest: amanda, or is she just sticking to her morals? oh, the world may never know.<br />Best Laugh: blair.<br />Likes to make you mad, but in a funny way: little bitch.<br />Makes you laugh: jill!<br />Sticks up for you the most: ms. o!<br />Understands you best: see the above fifty answers.<br />Just want to kiss: hush. <br /><br />i went to the mall today. wow it was fun. and i had taco bell for the first time EVER and it is my love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:40623 2004-01-17T20:24:59Z 2004-01-17T20:25:51Z <img src="http://img3.photobucket.com/albums/v13/applejax6290/herlipstastelikealoadedgun.JPG"><br />i love my best friend. you're amazing and i love you. i hope our horoscopes [especially yours!] come true! & i can't wait to stay at your house for a week!<br /><br />countdown-thirteen days.<br /><br />i think the journal is gunna be more public now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:40418 2004-01-17T18:17:54Z 2004-01-17T18:17:54Z what song, if any, reminds you of me? put this in your journal, the answers may suprise you! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:39967 2004-01-15T22:04:45Z 2004-01-15T22:04:45Z to do list<br />1;buy cds: the strokes, rilo kiley, blondie etc. this is what deleting WInMX does to you.<br />2;babysit, hand out more flyers.<br />3;save up money for digital camera.<br />4;get new mobile.<br />5;get hair cut.<br />6;start preparing&whatever for staying with eilis.<br />7;figure out what i need help with in italian so chelsea can properly tutor me.<br />8;go to the library and get books.<br />9;return books!<br />10;go to thrift store and buy things for play.<br />11;write letter to catherine.<br />12;get things together for jackie o report.<br />13;jess' present.<br />i really hate having 5 dollars to my name. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:38681 2004-01-11T14:37:00Z 2004-01-11T14:37:00Z <img src="http://img3.photobucket.com/albums/v13/applejax6290/8b08bac4.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:38311 2004-01-11T02:31:23Z 2004-01-11T02:31:23Z last night was the lock-in. we went to the gym around 8 and saw lots of people. and until like 12 we did religious stuff. then we went to wantagh lanes. and we caught lesbians in the bathroom stall. UM EW. we got bored so we rolled like four balls at a time and the got stuck and me&caitlin were trying to get them and the BOWLING NAZI started yelling at us on his microphone. he's like, "ok people, we're bowling for 20, 25 dollars, alrig-GIRLS! GET AWAY FROM THE FOUL LINE! GET OFF THE LANE! STOP THROWING THE BALLS!" seriously. that was like i think one in the morning? correct. on the way back i fell imitating john & his quarters. and then we hung out and i got eyeliner all over my face! you fuckers. then i fell asleep around 4 and people put like markers up my nose and stuck my hand is cold water (it's luke warm, asswipes.)and moved me. it was a fun night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:33530 2003-12-24T22:21:38Z 2003-12-24T22:31:30Z <b>QUOTES OF 2003.</b><br /><br />These won't make sense and might not seem funny. Too fucking bad. It's really just for my friends.<br /><br />"I sneeze when I'm horny."-Me.<br /><br />"I got so frustrated, I did a flip!"-Eilis O'Connell.<br /><br />"Get the bag off the table!"-Amanda McNulty (followed by a spew of Cup Noodles from Jill.)<br /><br />"Don't kiss a drunk guy."-HAHA PAIGE ZISSER. Long story, don't feel like telling you. <br /><br />"WHAT THE HEEPE?!?"-Wantagh Middle School's whole 8th grade.<br /><br />"ANOFE"-Eilis O'Connell. (Really said some idiotic things this year.)<br /><br />"Don't be a fool tell him to rub his tool!"-Eckerd employee.<br /><br />"Well see there's Frankie, and he's bad. But not Freddie."-Jessica Lenoble. (UM UGH!)<br /><br />"...And Raffy will be like, yo."-Eilis O'Connell.<br /><br />"Whozzz Youzzz Calling On Zthat ZCell Phone?!"-Me.<br /><br />"Percent Banannas!"-Chel.<br /><br />Thats all I can think of. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:32968 2003-12-24T17:54:16Z 2003-12-24T18:01:50Z friends cut. don't bother me if i cut you, i just don't like you or pass over all your entries. <b>un-add me please.</b><br /><br />and steph, sorry about your grandpa. i love you!<br /><br />merry christmas eve. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:29240 2003-12-14T01:31:55Z 2003-12-14T01:40:28Z I want you to post anything that you want anonymously.<br /><br />Post something random on your mind, a story, a song I should download, a film I should see, a recipe, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, a photograph, a question - anything. Post twice if you'd like (hell, you can post 40 times as far as I'm concerned), and then put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say. You can say whatever. Tell me I'm the ugliest thing ever. Tell me you love me. Whatever. Just post.<br /><br />ANONYMOUS=THAT MEANS DONT SIGN YOUR NAME urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:_aperfectlie:26334 2003-12-06T02:13:55Z 2004-01-15T22:20:19Z <img src="http://img3.photobucket.com/albums/v13/applejax6290/protected.jpg"><br /><br />you have to comment and add me first!