LiveJournal of Anthemis

I have never had an issue with programs freezing like I have in the last week on my new iMac. I just had iTunes, iPhoto, and Safari all freeze at once. Neither the force quit on the dock nor menu would quit any of them, so I had to hard restart the computer. The Finder froze a few days ago, so has Mail and Adium. I just turned it on and figured maybe I had too many programs opened, so I turned on iPhoto and nothing else, and it froze. I managed to force quit it, but this is driving me crazy. I'm not doing anything out of the ordinary and it will not behave.

The Apple store is offline for maintenance at the moment, but I got the one for $1,199. Should I take it back and pay the restocking fee and get the $1,499, faster one? I'd really rather not do that, but the guy who sold it to me swore up and down I wouldn't notice a difference between the two in speed and performance, so I settled with the cheaper one.

Yes that means I don't have time to go for nonsense like some stupid gay "pride" day, so people do me a favour and stop asking me if I will be going.

Firstly I already stated very clearly that I don't care, and am absolutely not interested in all these ridiculous activist crap.

Secondly of all, hello its WRATH OF THE LICH KING release!!!! You honestly think I will dump WoW just for a hot sweaty goddamn hot day in the streets?

So yes... no to pride day, no to dates, and no to sex. Serious.

WoW is life.

"A platform for all people, both able-bodied and those with disabilities, to showcase their talents and abilities, to raise funds for the less fortunate amongst us and in the process, enrich the lives of all by increasing self-worth, developing skills, and fostering the spirit of sharing and giving."


http://www.anationinconcert.org/


Admittingly, when Dave_sg_888 told me abt the ANationInConcert event, I didnt really care too much for the event.
I was thinking, "okay, so it's for charity and it's a platform for ppl with disabilities to perform with ppl without."


Fact is, David is a really nice guy and his fervor for the charity event is also readily evident.
That was enough for me to chio frens to attend this event, and when quizzed on why was I promoting the event, I said charity lar blahblahblah
Some friends said that they didnt believe in the cause, and I thought that was fine really. Honesty above all.


Other friends were curious or wanted to help, and so the bunch of us:
Keith Lunasea, Roel (Andy yc, I gave your donated ticket to Roel), Jason Uber, CC, Oliveroils, Peptide+I, KelvinChang, Maurice+Nigel, Steven Supra+Kelvin, Andrew ragnarok, Jeff wodypeck & Kelvin pu
attended the show not knowing what to expect.
Jason Uber queried "You mean the normal people act like disabled in the show ar?" :O LOL
Oh yea, Mike conan volunteered to help and he became part of the production team ;)


In the lighting, you'd not be able to tell that most of the people on stage were actually people who were, well, different.
(The participating organisations are Association for Persons with Special Needs, Handicaps Welfare Association, The Singapore Association For the Deaf, Singapore Association of the Visually Handicapped and so forth.)


It tugged at my heartstrings when some performers had to be led away by the stage crew, because it was only then did I realised that they were actually blind.
(I got programme booklets for everyone but I only looked at the pictures. Hehe.)

I thought the Wheelchair Ballroom Dancing stole the show with the cast in glitz&glamour, along with Madam Manta (Christina Sergeant) 's stunning performance. My frens loved Hannah Hammerhead (Karen Tan of Power98).


I thought about what the show meant to the audience, the people behind the scene and the performers. It probably meant different things to diff ppl (Duh myself.) Mother of a performing child, a volunteer with a big heart, or maybe just to add to one's resume. Whatever the reasons may be, all had worked together to put up a good show for everyone.

It was only when the show come to an end, when the lightings were up, that their disabilities were more visibile.
Damn the video that was shown @the end of the show. It was so touching lar. Gota control myself from tearing siah.


Looking forward to the ANIC in 2010! :)

I felt like 9 stallions unleashed after the exam ended, yesterday. Actually was quite drained yesterday after the exam. Met B for House Bunny after that. Hahahha I love chick flicks.


Today when I go to work and see the swamp of emails, i 疯掉. lolx. A colleague, quite a good frd, quitted and I inherited one major company in my portfolio. Hoot* It is abit hard to fathom a career change from finance to social work.

"It became very clear to me sitting out there today that every decision I've made in my entire life has been wrong. My life is the complete opposite of everything I want it to be. Every instinct I have, in every aspect of life, be it something to wear, something to eat - it's all been wrong." Some days, I feel like that.

Most days, I love my life. :)

Dave_sg_888 picked me up from home cos he heading down raffles place too
& I did lunchie wif Andy Luminosita @Pasta Fresca @boatquay.

It has been some time since I've last met him,
but I was in lala land most of the time cos I cudnt get any sleep yesterday.

Paiseh. Hehe.

Picked up a btl of Dom from him and headed home for a much needed nap.

At least I brought my gym bag out for a walk.

Hehe.

I played tennis on Saturday with the SIS folks (and Bert). My friends, you know how bad I am with stuff that requires hand-eye coordination. And of course I did not disappoint with my lousy serves and ridiculous misses.

BUT it was a lovely time because we ATE ALOT! Hee. I think we played like less than an hour of tennis but spent 2-3 hours eating! Woot! Thanks to Jocelyn, we had a fantabulous meal. -beams- There was also beer, so I was a very happy girl. :) Unfortunately, my shoulder (yes, only one) got sunburnt so now I have extremely unbalanced-looking shoulders. Sigh.

The night was spent with my hunny, mostly at winebar downing beer and laughing at people. We were really evil but I blame it on the boredom. And I think we have come to the conclusion that we are NEVER, EVER to attend another Readysetglo event because really, nothing good ever comes out of it. (I think we also concluded I am reading too many blogs but that's another discussion for another day.) But I love spending time with my hunny. Really. When are we going Botak Jones?

The point of this all is to remind me not to be a hermit and that weekends should be spent having fun with good beer, yummy food, and great company. Because life is short, time is finite, and emo-ness does nobody any good.

All forms of miracles occur with some form of forgiveness

Currently, I am feeling a great sense of resentment. It is the feeling of being deceived, and bought into a misrepresentation. Regardless, I paid my price.

Forgiveness is the choice of ceasing to feel resentment, and give up demanding for restitution. It is a process, meaning it takes time. Forgiveness, though a choice, is not always easy. The degree which an event affects an individual differs, and hence affecting the duration we take to forgive.

Can I say I am a master for forgiveness? No. I can only say I know, and am consciously working to forgive people who I perceived have done me wrong. Usually, the people hardest to forgive are the people closest to you. And, who is closer to you than yourself?

It is time to embrace forgiveness when you are constantly wallowing in self pity, being avoided by friends (because they do not enjoy being around you), having anger management issues, and trying to numb the pain through addictions such as food, drugs, smoking, or drinking. In short, it is time to embrace forgiveness when you are constantly feeling miserable in life.

Since forgiveness is not easy, why forgive? Although we can live we resentment, we can live a lot better if we choose the path of forgivess. Forgiveness will free up our energy, as we do not need to devote energy to our resentment. We will be able to devote the energy to improve other aspects of our lives. Furthermore, there are also biological benefits, including better anger management, lower risk of heart attack, reduction in chronic pains, fewer depression symptoms, and the list goes on. If we choose forgiveness, we will be able to run our lives with more love and compassion.

Forgive does not translate to forget. The harm done cannot be undone, and will remain as part of your life. True forgiveness means you acknowledge the harm done, and let go of the grip on it. Forgiveness is a process, and a commitment to better life. The first step towards forgiveness is to acknowledge the pain, and value your choice of forgiving. Slowly but surely (if you are committed and working on forgiving), the pain will be lesser. You will see a gradual improvement in the relationship. For instance, I have been constantly working on forgiving my parents, and miraculously, our relationships improved. However, forgiveness does not always translate to reconcillation. Sometimes, after you have forgiven, the parties will move on with their lives happily.

How to forgive? You can explore the harm inflicted, and look deeper into the issue. Why is it affecting you so much? Usually, it is linked to some of your values and beliefs. Therefore, forgiveness will change some of your old patterns of beliefs. Some of the harms might remind you of an old wound (which have not healed), and it is time to heal the old wound (through forgiveness). Interestingly, forgiveness can go a long way back. You can then visual the person who had hurt you, and tell the person mentally "I forgive you", and spread love to the person if you can. Speading love is more difficult, and will usually indicate that you truly on the path towards a better life.

Similarly, if you are the person who had done the harm, all you can do is to forgive yourself. Sometimes, we work to forgive everyone that has done us harm, and forget to forgive ourselves. We tend to be more strict with ourselves, and 'beat ourselves' when we do not perform up to our expectations. Forgive yourself, for everyone is innocent.

Is there an end to forgiveness? Frankly speaking, I do not know. Sometimes, certain pains still surface even though I thought I have fully forgiven. I know I have more forgiveness to do

JZ

After the hectic weekend, it is time to sit down and consider my career options. I have two offers (help to boost SMU's statistics): KPMG tax or EY audit. In the end, I decided to choose... KPMG!

KPMG feels more real and energetic. Furthermore, I like the executive director who interviewed me. We spend about 30 minutes talking about yoga and vipassana. And, with looming economy, it is best for me to sit tight first as I need to service my study loan.

SPH also offered me options in marketing. The offer came at the launch of Tabla!, during PBD Singapore. Since I will start in Februrary 2009, I can go and do an internship with them from December 2008 to January 2009.

JZ

presenting dirrtysean's tweets...

• 18:31 my tummy says... *gurr*gurru*gurrr* #
• 19:29 feels no colour today. #
• 22:52 takes a bow #
• 08:49 notices a lot of cuties at the gym today. #
• 08:49 feels like a player of the game of life. #

xoxo sean

"In 2002, the international break dance bboy scene witnessed moves unlike ANYTHING they had ever seen. After Expression Crew won Battle of the Year with their legendary showcase
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZsrTxM...
and their sickening power
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ih4-Jh...,
South Korea dominated the break dance scene for three years with their unique style and jaw-dropping power, and inspired a new generation of bboy's worldwide.

To this day, Korean bboys continue to innovate and give their hearts and souls to the art.

If I make a new version of this video, I would include more pure style clips, as well as these specific clips:

1) Bboy Darkness and Soulsoy from Gambler vs. Terror Bunch at St. Bruiec
2) Mind 180 vs. Rivers Crew
3) Maximum vs. Rivers
4) Expression Crew and Caballeros Crew @Munich
5) Hong 10 Red Bull BC One 2006 Trailer
6) Anything from the new Gambler Crew

All these clips can be found on YouTube and are guaranteed to entertain.

Also check out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pl80UW...

Morning of Owl is the sickest unknown bboy crew out there. I should have included more of them. "



fwah. see how they dance :O
*eyes open bigbig*

The art of Moneygami
http://art.commongate.com/post/The_Art_Of_Moneygami

Miao~`

Show Me the Moneygami
http://art.commongate.com/post/Show_Me_the_Moneygami

Woof~`

Hasegawa Yousuke
http://www.ne.jp/asahi/fickle/flickers/noguchi/menu.htm

How George Lucas made Starwars

I INSIST that everyone explore the Action for AIDS website http://www.afa.org.sg/

Cos a friend dont even know there is anonymous testing around,
and another friend that didnt know what to do when he was tested positive.

But dont ask me questions abt sex. I nono. I ish bergin.
Explore the website instead. See blow too. I mean below. Hi freudian slip :P




FREQUENTLY ASKED QUESTIONS
http://www.afa.org.sg/faq.asp

eg. What is AIDS and HIV infection?
How is HIV Spread?
How do I protect myself from HIV Infection?


OTHER RESOURCES
http://www.afa.org.sg/otherresources.asp

eg. Wearing a Condom
10 Tips for People Newly Diagnosed With HIV


GET TESTED - ANONYMOUS HIV TESTING HERE !
http://www.afa.org.sg/anonymous.asp

eg. For Anonymous HIV Testing:
Anonymous HIV Testing & Counselling Clinic
Anonymous HIV testing in 4 steps

For information and counseling services:
AIDS Information & Counselling Hotline
Information on Post Exposure Prophyylaxis (PEP) – by DSC

I finally saw the "white van" abt which the uncles warn every1 in the forum . The 1 i saw was not exactly white - it was light blue. The guy beside the driver shouted out to me n asked if i wanted to buy hifi. Sure, i want hifi but not from them. They looked more like pork/durian sellers to me. What do they know abt hifi? Could it be recycled 2nd hand hifi? 2nd hand can b gd. Or could they hv imported lousy hifi from China; hifi with unhealthy additives that hv certain frequency range - maybe in the ultrasonic region - tuned up so much tt our hearing, brain and nerve functions will b imparied when exposed to it? hifi tt sound impressive in the 1st 5-10 mins but will the listener develop fatigue after some long hours of listening?

There can b important lessons learnt in hifi: knowing what you want, how to get it, and getting things to match. match - just like people. some equipment can b more fussy; some can b rather immune to small changes.

It brings out creativity: the middle-age uncles experiment with squash balls cut into half, IKEA chopping boards, steal their wives' pumice stones to serve as equipment footers, stick coins all over their rooms n on the equipment, run the risk of being electrocuted by meddling with the power supply, hang their drool-stained pillows up on walls in between speakers - all in the hope of achieving better sound. I have nothing against their actions n i often turn to hifi forums for gd amusement. And i believe the sound changes with any work done on power supply and the room. there's no voodoo. the rules of physics, or the physics we know, do not change, or do they? wad abt the unknown?

mind-boggling youtube somehow takes the mind in another direction. It is gd distraction from shit; shit ppl; shit faces; pure shit. Shit fertilises plants. yea. no choice. shit.

If anyone's interested:

http://oscpaexamblog.blogspot.com/

(Not my blog - I passed ~ 18 months ago.)

hmmmm met a few guys recently. if their words are true, i feel very fortunate. other wise, i simply find myself gullible. owell.

this is for those who don't know this...

i will not be posting anymore remixes, new tracks and other music related stuff on dirrtysean anymore. all new post will be posted at a brand new community dirrtyremixes.

you can either "join the group" or add it to your "watch list".
i may make it members only in the future.


latest remix posted:
Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part
Brandy - Right Here (Departed)

latest music videos:
Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part
Britney Spears - Womanizer
Beyonce - If I Were a Boy

coming tomorrow:
Britney Remixes
Michelle William Remixes


http://community.livejournal.com/dirrtyremixes

yea.. shameless promo!