Lailie Aviya Posey
Born: 4/4/12 at7:55pm
Weight: 9lbs 2oz. Length: 20 1/4
Doctor: J. Barnes

I do believe I am completely in love with this little new born and I don't even know why. I didn't even want anymore kids but with her ....as much as she messed up my body coming out. my whole body hurts, when I pee it burns, I can't poop right, my vagina feels open and she ripped the inside of it leaving me with 2 stitches. She stays up all night leaving me with 2 hours sleep.....on survival mode.... even though I'm going through all this. I look at her and in all honesty I say "she was worth it" and I'm happy Brendan bagged me for another. With that being said, in all honesty... I could of done without. lol

Waiting for my doctor to allow me to work out again so I can have my body back and maybe end up doing this all over again? We will see if Brendan still wants more after this one.

It's only been 1 week since she's been born and as happy as I am to care for this adorable baby. I'm in need of some out of the house time and most of all in serious need of spending time with my husband. I feel separate from him since Lailie has been born. I'm drained every minute of the day and when he gets home from work he is drained. So we bum around the house caring for the baby until bed time and baby is right there ready to NOT go to sleep. Which means I'm up caring for her and he's asleep cause work in the morning. We haven't had sex since I was 7 months pregnant and now sex is off limits til my body heals. Mainly, I miss my body and I miss my husband. I know I will get my body back in time with a lot of hard work and my husband will always be there. Everything will be okay, I just have to get this out. :)

So it might be a girl. Ultrasound lady said that's her guess about what she saw/ didn't see during my ultrasound, but included that it is also too early to see what the sex is. I had a feeling it was a girl all along so it wouldn't surprise me. Only bad part about having a girl is Brendan and I .....we don't exactly agree with girl names. We agreed we want a girl name that starts with an "L" but we don't agree on any girls names with L. I also consider Olivia, Tabitha, Even the name Ryan :x but Brendan of course hates those names. I remember when I was pregnant with my first born I had no clue what I was planning to name her until the very last month it was going to be Sophie, even then I didn't tell anyone. I didnt tell a soul what her name was planning on being. I just said oh maybe this name or that name. It wasn't until she was born I said her name will be Sophie. So I am in no hurry to figure out a name for this one. I'll probably let Brendan pick the name since it is his first and he is the one excited. As long as he doesn't choose a name a cannot stand, of course. There are some names out there that I wouldn't NEVER name my little girl.


Taylor swift is coming to Texas soon and I will not be there. :( Oh well John Mayer should be touring soon and I always told myself his concert will be my first concert EVER. So I will cross my fingers that he comes close to this town such as San Antonio, but he NEVER DOES!

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Also, Sophie will be moving in with Brendan and I in August. Since the school year is up and she can enroll in a school close to our apartment. So each paycheck I've been buying stuff for her room. I'm excited to decorate her room as much as she is honestly. I got some wooden letters at Walmart and some wood paint. So Brendan, Sophie and I painted them. it's adorable.

I was in the hospital for a few days. Due to reasons that I wont talk about. I dont like being in hospitals. Today I begged my doc to let me go home. He agreed as long as I stay in bed and only get up for restroom and food, Not to be stressed ... with a long list of others. Well, I get home and I freak out because the room is dirty. I cant sit down until everything is clean. I have this obsessive cleaning deal. I started having an anxiety attack... To make a long story short, My boyfriend called the nurse, Im packing a bag and going back to the hospital until Monday.

Monday they are inducing my labor and Im having the baby. The doctor said I will then be 37 weeks, and she can breath on her own. She will be safer outside then inside of me. :/

Wish me the best <3

_________________IM 20 YEARS OLD TODAY.
and I dont want anything besides a flower.

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