[Monday December 7 2009 1:10pm ] Last night*: yes. yes! YES! *photos not actually taken last night 3 | PANIC

[Tuesday December 1 2009 5:11am ] "If we make it to midnight without a flake this will be the first time in Toronto in more than 160 years we have enjoyed snow-free skies before December" - Courtesy of TheStar.com The snow was able to hold out for 5 hours. Hello, hello, weather record. And hello, hello, snow; it's about fucking time! 3 | PANIC

[Monday November 30 2009 8:25pm ] I'm working in the labs at school right now, and I am overhearing the most hilarious conversation. I don't really care that we haven't had sex, I mean I'm happy waiting. People get weirded out when I tell them we've been dating for 2 years and haven't had sex yet. and I don't really care if people are gay, especially if they have the balls to say they are. Whoa man, that's really cool. ___________________________________________ It is 8pm and I haven't eaten a god-damned thing all day. My stomach hurts, I have a headache, my shoulders are tense, I'm getting dizzy. I've been working in this computer lab all day and I have lost my ability to colour balance. My crit is next Tuesday and I'm pretty much just getting started right now. But things are different. Instead of constantly feeling discouraged, inadequate, stressed out, and wakingupeverydaywithknotsinmystomach andasinkingfeelinginmychestandtheburdenofseeinganotherday, I am feeling productive, creative, and excited. I hope this is the beginning of a new Amy George, because I'm getting preetttyyy tired of the old one. I haven't been myself for a long time. Recent development from across the hall: I found a dead body a couple weeks ago 3 | PANIC

[Monday November 23 2009 9:06pm ] Oh, and I guess I just don't know. PANIC

[Wednesday November 18 2009 2:44pm ] 1 | PANIC

[Thursday October 8 2009 8:19am ] My granola SERIOUSLY tastes like the Portuguese butcher beside us. WHAT THE FUCK, YOU ARE RUINING MY BREAKFAST. ps. Now I can't get Limp Bizkit out of my head. What a morning. 1 | PANIC

[Tuesday October 6 2009 6:26pm ] Last night as I was first falling asleep I had a lot of really creepy nightmares. Each one was like a scary little vignette. And in each one I was conscious of the fact that I was dreaming, and trying so so so hard to wake up. I wish I could remember them more clearly. I do remember feeling restrained, trapped, and anxious. A lot of weird faces morphing, things not making sense, and being otherwise confusing and horrifying. I would be having a nightmare, think that I woke up, get out of bed, and start yelling at Deaglan "Am I awake?! What's going on?! AM I AWAKE?!" and then more creepy scary things would happen. Every time I was stuck in this horror, I would try so hard to wake up. When I thought I woke up, nothing had changed. I was constantly falling between these dreams and being "awake". I couldn't get out no matter how hard I tried. I was writhing in bed and yelling and screaming but everything was muffled and no one could hear me screaming for help. I was crying and being suffocated and I was completely and utterly helpless. I was running down the hall of my apartment yelling WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP, punching my own face, jumping into a cold shower with all my clothes on; nothing was working. Trapped. Spiralling. Trainwreck. 3 | PANIC

[Tuesday September 22 2009 2:04pm ] Augh! You kissed a girl! That is soooo GAY! 1 | PANIC

[Friday September 18 2009 2:37pm ] hahah yep. 5 | PANIC

[Friday September 18 2009 12:16pm ] It is unnaturally cold this September. I'm a little bummed out. I think our summer was what - 3 weeks long? And I'm being generous. I don't hate it though, because I do LOVE fall weather, but like - come on! Back at school. Um, I sort of didn't do too well in one of my classes last year, so I have to take it all over again which sets me back an entire year. SUCKS. My fault though, I had it coming. It's a bit of a reality check - here I was coasting through school thinking I can get away with not doing the assignments. Even this summer when I knew what was going to happen, I still lived in this little world of denial because I thought "it's cool, I'll talk to someone when school starts, I'll figure something out!" No Amy, you failed a major class. You have to take it again. Man up. So here I am trying to be a little optimistic about it. I still haven't told my parents, and there's no way this is something I can keep from them. Balls. It's going to be an awkward conversation, but hey. Life! I'm going to use this year as best I can - I'm going to try so many things and I'm ACTUALLY going to do my assignments, as bullshitty as they might be. It'll be fine - being around a different group of people with different styles - hopefully I can like, expand my horizons or something. Besides the whole 'being held back a year' thing, the reason I'm most upset about all of this is that I won't be with all my friends through this fun and exciting and stressful adventure called Fourth Year. They're my support system. We all work together so nicely, we all feed off each other creatively, and when shit gets sour, we are all in it together so it makes it alright. I won't really be part of those late-night, last minute shoots where everyone sort of tries to get their shit done together, and we are all there helping each other out. Everyone is so stressed out but full of creative power and adrenaline, and no matter what you know you're all in it together. I feel so separate from all of that. Like I'm in a little life-raft floating away from the ship, but still sort of lingering on the horizon just close enough that I can see what I'm missing. CAN YOU GUYS HEAR ME? 2 | PANIC

[Thursday September 17 2009 11:55am ] We have fancy pants labs at school 4 | PANIC

[Saturday September 12 2009 2:18pm ] Huh. Never thought about that. 1 | PANIC

[Friday September 11 2009 4:13pm ] I'm going to a staff party on Monday, and it's Super Hero themed. I'm going as Professor Chaos and my friend Jaclyn will be General Disarray. Part one of Costume Preparing complete: 7 | PANIC

[Wednesday August 26 2009 3:42pm ] My past two days, illustrated through shitty webcam: On Monday I went back home because I had a dentist appointment. Filling number 4 out of 3 this summer! I was also supposed to take my G license test, but there was a dispute with the labour board and they are striking or something. I hung out with a bunch of old friends from high school times and then I turned into a fish The End. 1 | PANIC

[Saturday August 8 2009 1:47am ] nobunny loves you! PANIC

[Wednesday August 5 2009 4:12pm ] Last night I was biking along Bloor street to get to the movie theatre (Humpday! So silly and great), and around Bloor and St George, my cycling was brought to an abrupt stop by A FUCKING CAR DOOR THAT OPENED INTO MY BIKE! Ahh, the coveted Door Prize. I win! I'd been waiting for that day for a loonng time, and all my hard work had finally paid off. Ugh. I didn't get banged too badly, a little bit of road rash on my elbow and knee, some bruising, but my right shoulder is pretty god damn sore, and I can tell that I'll be getting a beauuuttiiful purpley-red bruise in a day or so. Sucks. I was really shaken up when it happened, and since I don't like confrontation, I was ready to just be like "fuck you man, WHATEVER!" and bike off, but Sarah and all these people from the street were like "yo wtf man! you crazy! you so crazy! akshdjhwg!" and everyone was pushing me to get his "information", but I was all "ah what huh who!" and the dude was getting SO defensive about it, and he finally gave me his phone number and told me to call him if shit happens. I didn't test it out, it could very easily be a fake number. Oh well, I feel pretty much fine, my bike is in working order, no biggie. My neighbours recently broke up (getting divorced), and it's really fucking sad. Right now she is knocking on their his door trying to talk, and, ugh, I just want to go out to the hallway and give them both hugs, and tell the both of them that everything will be alright. I can't imagine going through that - break up x 1,000,000! :( I hope they remember they used to love each other, and I hope that will make this process a little bit easier/more civil. 4 | PANIC

[Sunday August 2 2009 10:14pm ] 3 | PANIC

[Tuesday July 28 2009 5:35am ] The apples are bigger up here PANIC

[Friday July 17 2009 3:30pm ] uhhhhh the best? 6 | PANIC

[Monday July 13 2009 4:18am ] This is Cora, also impressed with shitty webcam. She made this FUCKING AWESOME necklace for me, it's a hippo with a pearl in his mouth. No big deal or anything. webcam is like a shitty digital camera that is ALWAYS plugged in. Bonus. Hi get used to my stupid face pls. 2 | PANIC

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