I'm going to vomit.
Migraine.
Having to miss test.
The End.

This song makes me laugh SO HARD.


Punch you in the jeans
The lonely island


These days, a lot a cats is outta line
Seems to me, like they need to get punched
Yeah, but where you gonna punch em?
Yo, the choice is obvious
I'll punch you in the jeans
I'll punch you in the jeans
This is not a case of man vs machine
You think that you're safe, thought you got away clean?
I'll roll up on you smooth and punch you in the jeans
I got my fists clenched, gonna throw a haymaka
Rockin your slacks from here to jaimaica
Shake in your boots, cuz I'm the earthquaka
Bringin those jeans round here was a mistaka
I gotta vendetta, it's against your jeans (yeah)
Gonna put my knuckles up against the seams
They can be on your legs or on the clothesline
But when I see the zipper and cloth, it's go time!
And I'm zeroed in, I got the tunnel vision
Gonna cover you in shit like a ton of pigeons
Man I hate your jeans, I'm gonna bruise that denim
It really doesn't matter as long as you're in em'
Yo we'll punch your jeans, we've said it before
Best believe this is not a metaphor
Better watch your back, cuz we're on the creep
And we won't stop till your jeans are six feet deep!
Man I'll murder your jeans, I'll feed em to the fishes
Heres what I'd do, if I had three wishes
Punch your jeans, on all three counts
It would bring me satisfaction in large amounts
If I had three wishes I would do the same
We see eye to eye in this jean punch game
I'd lay em in a field, where there's chemical sprayin
But I'd punch em first, yo that goes without sayin (yeah)
Acid wash pleats or a nifty cuff
It's just another jean for my fist to stuff
Throwin fistacuffs, eat pants like bag lunches
Jeans pronounced dead
Cause of death?
Hecka punches!
Yo we'll punch your jeans, we've said it before
Best believe this is not a metaphor
You got somethin to say, we got the proper retorts
Beat your jeans so bad that they'll wish they were shorts
Gonna revise your Levi's with physical harm
Put divets in the rivets with my physical arm
Gonna beat those jeans, gonna dip em in slime
Turn your 501s into 499s
When I punch a jean I like to imagine a face
The fly is the nose and the balls are the base of the face
You got taste and it shows my man
God damn your jean brand got me throwin my hands
Gonna go back in time, find the man who made jeans
And choke him to death, if you know what I mean
Yo I know what you mean, so keep your jeans on a hush
Breakout, before you get bumrushed
Yo we'll punch your jeans, we've said it before
Best believe this is not a metaphor
So take off your jeans, and reverse the curse
Cuz we the best jean punchers in the universe
(It really doesn't matter as long as you're in em')x2

So I'm now keeping track of how my voice sounds as well as my weight.
I'm going to be giving Jeff voice lessons... so... time to get back in shape with it!
Gimme feedback yo G units!

I had a great night.
And now am having a TERRIBLE night.
Compare and contrast.
Oh yes.

Cramps are the devil.
Pretty much.
Glad my kitty is being all snuggly though.

I want my Paul-paul :(
At least I getz to see him this weekend.... provided the pass isn't closed.
PLEASE DON'T LET THE PASS BE CLOSED.

The first thing I need to remember being that I need to get over myself and quit holding people up to my own personal expectations.

For some reason, I'm having a really hard time grasping this concept.

I am not judgemental when it comes to other people's lifestyles now (or... you know... WAY less... I'm trying to see things from all sides... be... un biased... although in some situations... not gonna lie, REALLY hard) so I'm not holding people up to my lifestyle expectations, but I feel like I'm setting standards for my friends and loved ones... and I'm always really dissapointed when they fall short.

Its such a ridiculous thing to expect. I mean, I know everyone does it to a certain respect, and I don't expect myself to be perfect abou this or anything, but I do it WAY too often! I never quite realize that what my standards on how friends act toward eachother is just that... MINE. My friends have their OWN standards as to how they believe they should act with friends... Why can't I just get past this? I don't know whats so difficult for me to understand about it. ALSO that people have different means of communicating.

Some people prefer to stay silent unless they have something important to say.
Some people prefer to babel.
Some people prefer to make me thing of deep topics.
Some people prefer to try my patience.
Some people WANT to talk to me but I have to seek them out.

Its all so different.
I should start putting together personality trait folders about all of my friends and family.

How uniquie would that be?

"Case study number one acts very angry when I prod them about touchy issues...."
Yes.
Thats right.
They would have case study numbers.

Not only am I mildly intollerant,
But I'm a nerd.

At least I'm trying to make myself better.

OH, great little thing from class today. Dr. Tetzloff was talking about text messaging, which launched him into a conversation about his ex, who apparently is the only one who ever texts him, so he then launched into a disscussion about romance and technology... he was talking about a friend who did E-harmony (and apparently was very technologically inept)  and he started dating someone and thought it was going GREAT, and one day got a text message breakup.... he said to us "You guys live in a time when EVERYTHING is done through text messaging, and you have all those little phrases, so its like....."Oh, btw, I'm breaking up with you, lol"  Technology is MEAN!"

For some reason this had me rollling.
I really do quite enjoy this teacher.

So my dress finally came...

Its extremely comfy.
It hides my fat well.
But its very.... not in style. LOL.

I walked into sara's room and said "SARA! look at my pretty new dress!"

Her response?
Oh yes.

"you look like you're from the olden days!"

oy

I guess I was born in the wrong time period.

EDIT:
In other news, I'm starting to see a change in myself that I'm very thankfull for.
In eating better, and in begning a new and busy schedule, I've noticed myself looking better, feeling better, holding myself taller (yes, thats right, I'm improving my posture) and I've been talking to more people (which is really important to my development as a person) I think I'm even making a friend or two in my classes!

All in all, over the past two weeks, I've become a much happier person. i'm hoping it keeps up.

PISSED that they ganked project playlist from myspace.
Now I have to rely on MYSPACE music.
Crap.
Very crap.
Because they ONLY things I can put up is current music.
Re-freaking-diculous
God knows I listen to a lot of old shit.
That makes me laugh.
I hate these people.

Today so far... I've got up...and gotten out of bed.

 

What more do you people want from me?!

Lie.
I'm eating breakfast.
So that wasn't all.

:)

GOOD DAY SIR.
Ers.... and MADAMS.

So REALLY have to do something about this cavity.
Made a dentist appointment today.
I am just really not looking forward to sitting in that chair and hearing whats going to happen to my mouth.
My appointment is for Wednesday at two 'o clock.
Hoping they won't need to pull it or anything.
That would be sort of a bitch.
But its the weirdest cavity I've ever had.
Its deteriorating... BUT my tooth does not really hurt....
Well NOW its kind of hurting
But somehow I think its because I'm focusing on it.
Hypocondriatic behavior once again.

Trying not to let it get to me.
I've gone this far without really doing anything about it.
And its not really helping that its the tooth right next to my wisdom tooth which is still coming in somewhat, so every time my wisdom tooth hurts or I feel something funny on IT I think its the other tooth.
Good news is, whatever the frick is going to happen will most likely happen on wednesday... or at least I'll find out whats going to happen.

Other than this, life is quite good, having fun with Paul out here in Ellensburg but looking forward to coming home tomorrow.
It's about 20 degrees colder here than in monroe.
And I don't do the best with really cold weather.

Tomato soup time!

Was shocked that Twilight was actually good.

It was obviously not up to par with the book
The Casting I felt was off
Some of the scenes were really different
Lines were different
A little bit more cliche
A little more DRAMATIC

However I felt the integrity of the plot line was kept in tact so I therefore find it to be a good movie.

I DEFINITELY have cavities.
I should make an appointment to see the dentist.
For sure.
Its pretty disgusting actually.
I can actually feel two of the cavities.
To my tounge they feel like gaping holes.
I know I've got more, but those most definitely need to be fixed.
The funny thing is, most of the time when people's teeth have cavities, they hurt.
Mine don't hurt.
Is something wrong with me? haha
probably.

EDIT:::
Now its like... freaking me out. I feel like my mouth is a cavity.
Did I mention I stress easily?
RAR. I'll be supprised if I can sleep tonight.
I think its tylenol PM time.

That my left ear is going to fall off.
I couldn't handle the pain.
So I took my cartilage peircing OUT.
And now it hurts WORSE.
Althought its a million times easier to clean.

Eventually I'll get that side re-peirced.
But honestly, I'm slightly hypocondriatic... and... I don't want to die.
Much less be in pain.
Although pain I can handle.
It's the thought of death that freaks me out a bunch.

So just in case you didn't already know, I've been VERY taken with books by Orson Scott Card lately.
Well over the past few months really, they were just interrupted by much work and other books (Twilight and its companions especially)
BUT I feel SO strongly about these books that I am going to recommend them.

This is the order you need to read them in.

1) Ender's Game (MUST READ THIS IF NOTHING ELSE)

2) Shadow of the Hegemon
3) Shadow Puppets
4) Shadow of the Giant

5) Speaker for the dead
6) Xenocide
7) Children of the Mind

There is also "Ender's Shadow" but I don't feel like reading it to be perfectly honest. Althought I'm convinced I would love anything Card writes... I just don't want to. At least not right now. And its not necessary to read the rest.

Although to read 2-4 OR 5-6 Ender's game is not a necessity... and those two sets althought intertwined are not necessary to be read togthr either.... HOWEVER.... read them. All of them. In the order I said. At least if you're bored. You will not be sorry.

I will warn you that although the shadow series is captivating... it hasn't got that ZING or at least it doesn't make you think as much.
If you get bored with the shadow series, or you just don't want to read that many books, jump straight to 5, 6,  and 7 after you read one.

I promise these books are amazing.
They quite possibly beat out harry potter in being my favorite series.
I mean, harry potter was great.
But it DETERIORATED.
These books just keep getting better.
I'm surprised the fanbase isn't bigger.

As much as I love politics, It gets old, and then somthing like this comes accross my line of vision, and I get to double over laughing making me remember why politics are so much fun.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLVSURlFoQs

Funny that I'd feel the resolve today of all days.
Very funny indeed.

Ok, enough posts from loser me.

I'm lucky.
I started sifting through my mounds of crap.
All the little bits of memory.
And really, even the things I once viewed as bad, were really good.
I actually have life experiences now.
I'm not as sheltered as I once was.

The funny thing is, as happy as I am about things that have occurred
They don't weigh heavily on my mind anymore
And as happy as they make me
There is no way I can explain it to a single soul without them viewing me as nuts
And completely sadistic.

But I'm the type of person who loves her memories.
Who will randomly hear a song, and get that warm fuzzy feeling
Knowing it was a situation gone sour
Or a short-lived moment
Or something thats still continuing
Knowing I may have at one point lost something
But have that thread to still remember how wonderfull it was
Or how wonderfully it turned out

It's nice.
Its comforting.
The one thing I can always count on is change.
And those memories I get from the change.

Paul left for school this morning...

I am currently in un-charted territory.

Everything that happens in the next two months is all me, and me alone.
I'm not so sure I like that.
I'm so used to having SOMEONE.

And I guess... I still have people...
I have mike
I have Jeff
I have... my co-workers?
The girls SOMETIMES (everyone is so busy)

They all have lives that are totally their own though.
So more or less, its all me.

The only question now is... what do I do next?
You'll probably be getting more updates now, thats for sure.

Mike has recently moved in, Ari is gone, Paul leaves in just a few short days, and I HAVE INTERNET! Only thanks to Mike. He apparently can't live without it so he got some.

I can't believe that I only have four more days with Paul. Time goes by too quickly. I am going to be SO BORED. Or on the other end of the spectrum, maybe I'll get a life? Maybe I'll actually make friends? As it is I feel too guilty hanging out with people.

Robin is even gone. In ENGLAND. For freaking half of the year.

I'VE BEEN LEFT!

Ashley's back at least now, so that gives me at least one person to hang out with. I mean other than mike.

In other news, searching for a new job again. This one doesn't pay enough. I need more money. I went rampant with my credit card a while back and haven't really gotten the chance to pay it down, much less OFF. LAME.

I've been applying for secretarial positions. I loved how my mom was like "Don't you actually have to be good at english to get one of those" HA. Thanks mom. She's slightly right, but I also know how I get when I want something, which means eventually I'll land a job I want anyway. But also knowing me, I'll be tired of it before long.

Ick. Sleep time now. Work in the morning. Who knows if I'll ACTUALLY be able to sleep though.