So..post number two, been signed off my work again for another 2 weeks, meaning that I'm not back until the 15th of December. Good in a way considering that I'm feeling really dizzy and..kinda confused a lot lately, which I'm hating. Due to the sudden increase of my medication apparently, further confirming my belief that GP's dont have enough knowledge of epilepsy. And the sick pay isn't exactly enough to live on, but less stress is good at the moment so maybe it's not all bad. Unlike previous employers my boss is really understanding about the whole thing.

Getting completely fed up though of being in this shite money situation, and being completely unmotivated. I left uni to try and have a less stressful year, giving me time to figure out what else I wanted to do. Since I've left I've done nothing but stress. Stupid fucking mix up with council tax bills meaning we owe rediculous amounts of money to these fucking arseholes who just seem to employ scouse cunts to tell me that I'm obviously lying when I say I have no money. Argh!!! (hmm...where did that come from?) Now my health is being a problem so I can't work leaving me around £500 short this month.

So... that leaves me in an interesting situation to say the least. I am fed up however of wasting time sat on my arse getting less enthusiastic and still feeling like I'm going nowhere. Ideally I'd just start again, go home, save some money and whatever. However that appears not to be an option either.. so I'm stuck here. In the long run this is only til March, then a large chunk of our bills dissapear and I can be happy Ainzlie. Until then I don't see myself feeling any better or any happier. But hopefully less stressful...that'd be a start at least.

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Well..it's been far far far too long since I've even logged in here. It's all very strange. Can't promise that I'm going to update frequently but I'll give it a go.

If anyone even reads this anymore that is...since I've completely neglected it I may need to start again!

In the end I decided not to go back to uni, decided to take a year out and work for a while. Which is proving to be the best decision yet as it means I can actually pay off the massive debt that I ran up in my one year of unemployed student status...but also it means that the seizures I've started having again aren't ruining my ability to pass exams.

No idea why my epilepsy has come back.. but since I pretty much collapsed this morning on the way to work it means that I need to get to the bottom of it pretty sharpish. No alcohol involved this time, trouble sleeping but that's not new. Nothing major to explain whats causing it this time. Cue feeling scared and unsure all over again.

Still unsure overall what to do with my life. Between money problems and now my health I cant help but feel I've gone backwards again...hmm, we shall see I guess. Time to be positive perhaps...at least I'm still alive right?

So..quick update.

The boys are out watching transformers and I'm at home with my vodka :)

Got a full time job with Nero (again). So far so good, pay is better, job is the same. I've worked 43hours this week so I am fucked!! But the money will come in handy.

Passed all the exams. Crazy. All over 60% too which is surprising (I think). Now the big question is do I stay on or....*blank*... hmm

Clearly that decision is no clearer!

Hmm...very drunk and distracted now. May leave it at that

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So..I may be back on LJ it seems..depending on the job front during the summer I may have loads of time on my hands!

Exams are over...unsure about how well I've done. I'm aware I say that after every exam but this time I'm actually really unsure about the results. Anyway...not to dwell on that! But my 1st year of Uni is over!! Crazy stuff. Now the question is do I go on to 2nd year??... Hmm. TBC

Not much to update on. Ayr on Thursday. Glasgow on Saturday. Ross Noble on Monday. Chas on Tuesday...and then..well..I dunno haha.

This was exciting then...

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So it's been a while. Busy with exams and general stressing. Should be back sometime soon. Hope everyone is ok and that you are all here when I get back.

Have I missed anything since I last posted? x

A completely unimaginative subject line considering I've got 2hrs of Ross Noble genius stuck in my head...but at the moment I am far too tired.

Last night was brilliant though, love him! So...today I spent another load of money booking tickets to see him in Edinburgh on the 1st of June, not just any tickets. SECOND ROW BABY!!!...last tour date as far as I know...wonder if anything will be the same!

Other than that I am pissed off at the lack of availability to a journal article I have to read for tomorrow...stupid website is "under maintenance"..like I have time for that! Grr...

That is all.

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Ok...I have a uni related dilemma...anyone who can help me with this will...get a cookie in the post or..something.

Having been studying psychology and going to Napier all I've ever been taught is harvard referencing. And having finally got to grips with it I now have a criminology module that wants numerical referencing with footnotes...Argh!!

I have no idea how to reference, and even though I've read through info on the Napier website I still have no idea what I'm doing.

Has anyone else used this system at uni? Can someone please explain it to me? I'm totally lost :(


In other news, the shower rail finally fell down earlier. Oops. Should probably try and fix that soon.

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As I sit here watching House I know I should start some uni work. But..as always I'm procrastinating. Not that I have time to procrastinate much longer. I've got two essays due in on the 9th of March. One of which I've started, and the other one is just mocking me. I've got a poster presentation on the 5th, although that's a group project and is mostly done.

If I can get past this next two weeks and get everything in and get an ok pass then I'll be ok for the rest of the semester. I think.

I got my assessment marks back, overall 61% for psychology, 62.5% for sociology and 66% for research (with a merit). Amazingly happy with that, not what I expected considering that I was incredibly ill and high on painkillers for the entire time that I was writing them.

Ugh...boo uni. Boo essays. This also means that instead of being able to have a chilled out weekend with sutekhian I'll have to grab a few hours in the middle of the night to write essays and research things. Great. Just what I want.

In other news, photoshoot went well. Pics still to be photoshopped in places but quite happy with how it went. We've finally got our MASSIVE backdrop too so that's gonna make it much better too. Woop!

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So, say you were meeting a new person, a new friend. And you wanted them to have some idea of what kind of person you are, and who you are. But you can't actually tell them in so many words. Instead, you have to give them a box, with 15 things in it for them to look at/read/listen to/taste/whatever. What would you put in the box?

1. My MP3 playlist
2. Shot glass
3. Condoms
4. Chocolate
5. Camera
6. Pictures of my favourite people
7. Teabags
8. Poi
9. Postcards from Ayr & Edinburgh
10. Postsecret book
11. Pulp Fiction DVD
12. DKNY perfume
13. Doc Martens
14. Psychology textbook
15. Weblink to my bebo/facebook/LJ


Oooh uni soon...better get ready!!

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A few things I've learnt this weekend...

A little wine is good for the soul, a lot of wine is fabby but may leave you with a headache

The best intentions to do uni work may not be good enough.

Do not read uni work when pissed

Saturday nights in Edinburgh are fun

One can drink a 1/2 bottle of vodka almost entirely by themselves

I love the grassmarket

I love Edinburgh (WOO)

9.5/10 strangers will high five you if you ask

If you ask two policemen politely they will also high five you (and not arrest you)

Opium is my new favourite place

I need to start watching what I say when I'm drunk

I need to stop drinking earlier

Too much alcohol + lots of moving around = dizzy and sick. Lovely.

I'm 22 in 4 days...this is bad

When reading uni work sober there is suddenly a whole lot more work that needs doing

No time.

Fuck.

Doing it all over again on Thursday.

RBS are rubbish. Srsly.

Uni at 2...hmm... that's all

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