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__yessuhh @ 2008-09-18T09:09:00

2008-09-18T13:14:09Z

so i feel this needs an update cos its been soooo long and alot has happened that i wont be able to cover so i'll just say the basics.

so i moved outta rhode island. thats the main thing. went to wilmington, north carolina haha. well.. actually we are in smithfield which is the middle of nowhere, aka "hickville". we cant go anywhere without someone saying "where ya'll from?".. heaven forbid we say rhode island or massachusetts. laura has been saying mass, i just say washington state depending on my mood cos it is actually where im from. and they do not like yankees here! sometimes i will say rhode island though. i just hate that question cos im not really from anywhere. its funny.. cos as soon as we say mass or ri they immediately get some attitude. like "oh.. that explai.. nevermind." but whatevs. wilmington is a college town and there are alot of young people so soon we wont have to deal with that. we're staying in smithfield til we find an apartment we like.

the other stuff that has happened im not even going to go into cos its not that important anyways. just wanted everyone to know what state im in at the moment!

:)

__yessuhh @ 2008-02-08T16:08:00

2008-02-08T21:14:35Z

i had the interview today and it was kinda brutal. i bombed the questions cos they were those stupid hypothetical ones. but rebecca from officeteam tells me i pretty much have the job and im just waiting for one of her colleagues to call me which is supposed to happen on monday. if he's her colleague at officeteam then i know i have the job. but if he works for tuition management systems which is where id be working then i'm not so sure. its good money and lotsa hours and i need this so bad. im really really hoping for it.

my dad and i went and looked at this jeep for sale. im in love with it and he bought it. but with dawns money. andrew needs a car too. well.. he doesnt need one. he wants one. but since dawn technically bought it, that means its going to be andrews. he has insurance. i dont. its bullshit. if him and i dont at least share the car im going to be pissed like nobodys business. ive decided that if i dont get this job, and the car goes to andrew, im going back to california. no doubt.

so yeh i just wanted to update bout my job and car situation thus far. oh yeah, and i have an interview at united airlines next week. its 9.65 an hour and only 20 hrs a week though so id much rather have the data entry job. alrriiiight lata

text rehab

2008-02-06T07:46:15Z

i cant have unlimited texting on my phone for some reason so i can only have the max which is 5000. i've already hit 4700 for the month. how can i live off of only 300 texts til the 11th?!

what to do...

i have an interview at a temp agency tomorrow. this is good cos they will do the job searching for me and hopefully find me a good paying job. my dad and i are starting to look at cars. andrew and i are gonna have to share it which blows but its definitly better than nothing.
mmmm insomnia.
im gonna try sleeping now.

yeah

2007-11-11T01:34:13Z

this is pretty much the best thing since sliced bread

hahahahahaha

2007-10-26T22:40:07Z

worst song in the history of music?

"hot as ice" by britney spears. it's on her new album. if you want a good laugh.. listen to it. and listen to the whole thing. ohhh man.

i think this link should work...
http://www.projectplaylist.com/musicsearch?searchfor=hot+as+ice+britney

jfdsh

2007-09-16T00:17:08Z

"Across the Universe" looks like a really good movie. I want to see it so bad. The soundtrack is awesome.

ANOTHER dinner party tonight. Everyone's chattin in the dining room. I'd join in but there's alot of people tonight and I don't want to take up any room. I'm so fat. Seriously. I make myself sick.
I had an on the spot interview today at GAP. That'd be a rad job. If I get that job I'm pretty sure that I'd quit FYE. I wouldn't even TRY to do the two job thing. Not with having school work and shit. But FYE pays me more than normal so if GAP doesn't pay the equivalent or more than I'm gonna stay with FYE.

So I think I know what car I'm getting. We were talking about me just buying their lincoln navigator but Dawn says Andrew wants it (even though I know he doesn't). But I can't afford a dodge nitro. They say I have to get a new car and the only car I can find that's still pretty cheap is a scion xb so I think that's what I'm gonna be getting. Everyone hates those but I think they're super cute.

I really need to exercise. My foot hurts. I don't want to make it worst but I can't wallow in my fatness. Screw my foot, I'm working out tonight. My fave song on "Across the Universe" soundtrack.. "Something".
Amazing!!

HOT

2007-09-05T17:25:55Z

for teacher

...

2007-08-30T00:00:38Z

i dont know why i let things from the past creep up and bother me all over again.

i guess i just miss it all. and i miss the old me. the care free, all about fun, not so serious me.

and people i said 'good riddance' to have changed. and now it's too late to get them back in my life.

what happend to me? when did i suddenly grow up? i used to have so many friends and acquaintences and now there's no one. and the old me would have done something about it. i always want to be older and grow up but now i just want to go back.

um...

2007-08-24T02:10:02Z

the lighthouse next to my house is reeeally fucking annoying. Boooooop. Boooooooooop. SHUUUUT UUUPPP!!!

__yessuhh @ 2007-08-10T22:00:00

2007-08-11T02:06:38Z

i
cant
wait
for
school.

and i love that the credits are transferrable to a university. oh man. i cant wait.
it was soo cold today! 55 degrees in the summer?!?! wtf.
brown university is looking for cashiers in their bookstore. with my b&n experience, i think i have a shot!
i hope i can go apply tomorrow. might have to take the bus. scary! i guess it's 'no big thing' to take the bus around here.
man..on the west coast you were a looooser if you had to take the bus. so im kind of worried people will think im a loser... but andrew says its not like that around here. i wish i wasnt so worried about what people think of me.
meh

having trouble sleeping?

2007-08-09T00:56:14Z

then listen to 'pierrot the clown' by placebo.

im serious. perfect night time song. it helps me sleep =)

__yessuhh @ 2007-08-02T12:10:00

2007-08-02T19:18:55Z

i feel very content with life right now.

i know where im going. i know who i want to be.
i havent felt like this in a long time.

has anyone read 'the fuck up' by arthur nersesian? i bought it for the flight. alexis recommended it. his others look pretty interesting too but ive never read anything by him before. just wondering if anyone has an opinion on it. i also bought 'a tree grows in brooklyn' just because its a classic and ive never read it before. i feel like a fake working at barnes & noble when i havent read all the classics. but it seems interesting so hopefully its as good as everyone says. i bought the head automatica cd too. the propaganda one. decadence is so much better. i know its been out a long time but i stopped listening to them for awhile and im just now getting interested in them again.

i hate how tomorrow is my last day at b&n and they put me in kids. effin laaame.

guess what comes out tomorrow!!!............

THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM!!!

yyyyeeeeeaaa boooyyyy

__yessuhh @ 2007-07-31T12:36:00

2007-07-31T19:40:39Z

so this weekend was pretty fun. i got home yesterday. surprisingly my mom didnt cry. she did when i said bye to my grandma though. and it was an awkward goodbye because we were trying to rush through it so we wouldnt start crying and all that.

so basically..saturday we went and got tattoos. just little ones. i got an ankh on my inner ankle. i was torn between an ankh and an anchor. i love anchors but i went with the ankh cos ive always wanted something egyptian. so yeah.
then we went to the movies.
sunday we went out for breakfast with her boyfriends sister and mom. that was fun. we took pictures and went and saw another movie. his sister is way cool. then we were home for dinner and we did packing and stuff. yesterday i packed some more and then we went out for lunch and got our hair cut. then she dropped me off and picked up phoebe. that was it. it was a pretty good weekend.
3 more days til i leave.

__yessuhh @ 2007-07-18T18:40:00

2007-07-19T01:45:37Z

so i put in my 2 weeks at barnes and noble. they were pretty cool about it and theyre gonna try and transfer me to the warwick branch.
i was supposed to work at juice it up today.
didnt show up. i was gonna call and tell them i quit but i felt bad calling and quitting and then ALSO being like "oh and by the way i cant come in today".
im a woos. i just didnt show up.

im working harry potter night [friday].
its gonna be crazy. lots of activities and such. and we get to dress up like wizards. which i probably wont do.
we set up a display today for the "get your picture taken with harry potter" booth. im officially the first one. haha. i want to put it on my myspace but it was taken with a polaroid and my scanners broken. so sad. i set it up with jenna. im gonna miss her. shes for sure the coolest person at b&n. haha and alexis. we were making fun of all the really cheesy erotic romances. we found one called "thug-a-licious" and "thug heart"
LAWL
we kept calling each other (cos we get little phones to carry around) and we'd quote excerpts. so freaking funny. we couldnt stop laughing and customers were like wtf. thugalicious had two naked black people on the cover and so to embarrass albani (who was working in music) as a joke we put a paper on it that said "hold for albani"
omg it was so funny.
im really gonna miss them

I LOVE

2007-07-18T01:00:50Z

LOVE
LOVE

andrew bird
<3

__yessuhh @ 2007-07-17T16:48:00

2007-07-17T23:51:50Z

im gone in 2 weeks.
i feel wierd though. like..thats so soon. i really hope barnes and noble can transfer me to the one in rhode island. im scared to quit. they wanted to use me more in the cafe and they like me and i really like all of them. it just sucks.
iogkujgkj
but oh well. thats life. i have to call juice it up even though i kinda dont even work there anymore.

i realllly want to put the song 'eye' by the smashing pumpkins on my myspace page but i cant find it. its def my fave smashing pumpkins song. i was looking at various smashing pumpking pages and one of them had that vampires will never get you or whatever song by mcr. and it said it was by the smashing pumpkins. i was like 'um..are you serious'
dip shit

__yessuhh @ 2007-07-16T16:32:00

2007-07-16T23:39:29Z

i called my dad today.
i told him im ready to move.
he said he's gonna talk to dawn and then he's gonna call me back.
they're not even going to be staying in rhode island. dawns been going to interviews all over the u.s. so we could end up anywhere. she got job offers in san jose and seattle but she turned them down. im curious to find out where we're going to end up.
i was staying here...thinking that there was going to be something for me eventually. either here or back in washington. but there is nothing. im going nowhere..doing nothing with my life.
i love working at barnes & noble but thats not a career. and maybe i can get transfered to one in RI. who knows.
my interview at 24 hour fitness went well. they get paid 9.50/hr. but since im leaving i kind of hope they dont call me for a second interview. i told joann that im gonna go to rhode island and she seemed almost relieved. i think we're getting sick of each other and i think she's been wanting me to leave..she just didnt want to say anything.
i just dont know what im gonna do about my dog.. and my phone. cos im on joann's plan.
whatevs. im gonna miss my mom and bro though. for sure. but thats what they have planes for.

ugh i have to get up hella early for work tomorrow. sucky.
haha joann was talking about the smashing pumpkins but shes kinda old and wierd and she keeps calling them "pumpkin squash"
LAWL
thats almost as funny as how she cant say "oriental". she says "ornamental"
and "rockweiler" instead of "rottweiler"..
silly

why

2007-07-12T02:44:53Z

has everyone stopped talking to me?

its like everyone went code red on me or something.
remember that episode of the jetsons? everyone went code red on george and nobody liked him all of a sudden. he couldnt figure it out.
thats what i feel like.

jkehrfeuknda,

__yessuhh @ 2007-07-02T22:46:00

2007-07-03T05:55:23Z

i just found out that everyone at juice it up has been talking shit about me. thats how it goes in california. its disgusting. if theres one thing i hate..its immature high school bullshit like that. im soo outta there as soon as i get another job. i still have barnes and noble but i still need two jobs.

fuck that shit.
people need to grow the fuck up.
at least siobhan quit so i dont have to be around her. but it bugs me cos they say stuff like that to kristina who's my friend so it just makes me wonder what she does in that kind of situation. if she just sits there and agrees or what.
b&n is way different though and im glad that i like at least one of my jobs.

its hard to understand california people. its like a way of life here. to talk shit about other people. to make fun of them cos they're overweight, or don't have friends, are disabled, etc. i had to go through stuff like that in like 6th grade but other than that i've never had to be around people like that. washington is so different. everyone is so accepting there and friendly and no one was ever made fun of (to my knowledge at least). it makes me miss washington even more. i wonder what the people are like on the east coast. probably not any better than the people here.
im so glad i wasn't raised in california.
this really isnt even all about the people talking shit about me at juice it up anymore.
just this way of life...i could never get used to it.

__yessuhh @ 2007-06-28T21:05:00

2007-06-29T04:16:11Z

wow.
i kinda feel like a dipshit. couldve told me. but oh well. im stupid for getting worked up over it but i dont know. just kinda stings a little bit.
update on my foot.. i have gout. yes. i have gout. at effing nineteen years old! now everyones gonna think im an alcoholic. but you can get it from too much protein and caffeine as well. i have been drinking a ridiculous amount of coffee lately. i have to take 4 days off work which sucks. i hope that doesnt reflect badly on my part. i like b&n and im scared that they'll think im irresponsible or something for needing a few days off. doctors orders though. what can ya do?

kristina and i were gonna go to disneyland tomorrow but since my foot is bad we're just gonna have a girls night cos her boyfriends out of town. dinner and a movie and whatever else we might end up doing. i dont know.
joann got a new computer. yayy. now i can check myspace. we hooked it up but her keyboard wasnt working. so joy let us use hers. its nice having myspace again =)

__yessuhh @ 2007-06-01T11:41:00

2007-06-01T18:44:57Z

juice it up is lame AND anal.
i want to quit but i need it as my second job.
shanon and siobhan put in their 2 weeks so theyre not gonna be working there anymore. which means im not gonna be able to work with any cool people. except carols pretty cool but she closes and i open. so dumb.
b&n is going pretty good =)
cant wait to get a new car. scion xb! i seriously dislike my neighbors aveo. its a 2007 but it still feels like im driving an old car.

my computer broke so i went to the library
and...myspace is banned.
wtf
that was all for nothing.

washington =( i hate being so far away. i was planning on visiting but im scared that if i visit..then im going to want to stay and it will make leaving so much harder.

__yessuhh @ 2007-05-27T05:06:00

2007-05-27T05:10:04Z

uhh yeah my computer fucking sucks. Why am i so wierd about emotions and touching? And heaven forbid someone gets close to my face. Im so wierd. I dont know why im like that. I keep going through my life history to figure it out and i come up with nothing. Hmm. Its realllly pissing me off. Hmm k see ya. Oh and georgia rule is actually a really good movie.

__yessuhh @ 2007-05-20T20:17:00

2007-05-21T03:20:19Z

=)

mm yeah thats it for today

yay

2007-05-15T02:53:22Z

i got the job at barnes and noble.
i start next week.
i dont know what im gonna do about this having 2 jobs situation but i'll figure it out.

so yeah. yay =)

__yessuhh @ 2007-05-13T22:00:00

2007-05-14T05:09:34Z

i think i have too much emotional baggage. or something.
too many problems.
i scare all the boys away.

from now on im not going to talk about my personal life with guys i like or whatever. i'll keep it my business only. i'll make stupid small talk about the weather or some shit and not get personal.
=/

i put diff pics up on myspace of me and family and some from the cruise. i hate that i dont look like my pics. its like im deceiving people. sorry but i really dont look like that. yeah its me and i didnt change the pics or anything. but idk. i just dont really look like that.
hope everyone had a good mums day