Good job with the whole no power in the middle of 105 degree weather, STL.

I think tonight was pretty much needed for me to maintain my sanity. I met some of Sara's friends tonight.

I felt free-er than ive been in a while.
It didnt matter that they smoked, or were drunk and completely not like me. It was just nice to have no worries.

I think we should all just be friends.

FORZA AZZURRI! :]

I'm happy that one of my teams made it to the end. Portugal should have been there though. *sigh*

It's been a good week. It really has. It started off fantastic, I got to my low point in the middle, and now I'm back :]]]

I'm such a rollercoaster. Ahhh.

I guess I feel a little victorious now :]

Knowing that I spilled my heart out and I actually got something in return is better than what I originally thought he said...

...I just wish that he wouldnt play mindgames with me. Which is the hard part. I never know what he's thinking.

Blaaargh. Mmkay, I feel slightly less insecure now, and wont have to think about any of this anymore.

And its over. Its gotta be over.








Im out for the night.

why does my heart always hurt.
why do i feel so much?
why do i care so much?
if only for just one day, or even just a few hours, i could NOT feel and NOT care... if only i could be like the majority of people in this world... shallow, insecure, insensitive, stupid, uninsightful... it would be bittersweet.

i just want my heart to turn off.