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you know what?
i didn't ask to be born.
it just happend.
and i'm sorry that i was born,
or atleast
i'm sorry that my mother had me
'cause im obviously not
a good enough daughter for her
i'm not perfect.
i fuck up,
alot.
obviously i suck at life.
and.i.want.to.leave.this.house.so.incredibly.bad.
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one more week.
then summer
should be a good one
my mothers a bitch and thinks she knows everything about everyones life
and i hate my brother and his girlfriend.
florida in a week
its fucking needed.
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[09 May 2005|11:43pm] |
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i aint no hollaback girl;) |
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my weekend was fun:-)
friday:went out to the lakefront with beautiful people.
met new people, very funnny people.
won't go into too much detail about friday
but, let's just say i had some FUN.:);)
and i AINT NO HOLLA BACK GIRL;)
saturday:amanda and myself woke up around 8ish not feelin' so good. so we told each other what had happend the nigt before.
fell back to sleep.
woke up at like 12 or so and went to subway for 1230.
came back, then went to the mall.
i<3the mall.
saw michelle and pat there:)and i met christy!
wahoo.
so saturday i took like boo the koo naps.
i liked it a lot.
nothing to do saturday so i stayed home:)
sunday:mother's day.
i dislike mother's day,
because well i just don't like my mother
but it's all good.
daddy boiled crawfish and i went to courtney's
no surprise there.
then i went to church
i had a fun weekend.
doesnt sound to eventful
but, it was great.
so, i have to memorize this monologue thing for English.
yeah well i know 11 out of the 20 lines.
i do not feel like studying it right now, so i'm not:)
LATE TAKE-IN tomorrow:)
YAY!
i'll just study it tomorrow or what not.
OH! by the way. i'm actually happy.
i havent been fully happy for like 2 years now.
and the feeling is GREAT:)
14 more days until summer.
waiting patientlyyyy..
and im hearing that i will be spending a lot of vacation time with scanlan's.
it will be very eventful.
:):):):)i love life
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i find it very pathetic that my 45 year old father has a bigger life then me.
i'm at home on a saturday doing nothing, and he's out with friends.
this picture is messed up
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[03 May 2005|09:28pm] |
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Back in My Arms Again-KENNY CHESNEY |
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the fair was this weekend.
it was fun i guess
john came see me saturday
that was cool
this weekend should be cool too
i believe im going to montz?
yes, i believe so
and i believe miss amanda blanchard is coming?
along with christy ellen abell?
yes i do believe
and we might just have to throw a
veronica lynn buccola in?
yes, of course
im going to the mall this week.
i havent been in like two weeks. its a record.
i miss people
i miss a lot of people.
like 13 more days of school left
without exams
yay.
i<3it.
i probably wont write in here until the summer
cause i have a boring life
and i dont like writing about it
cause it never makes sense when im writing it down
k that was stupid and i dont know why i told you that. im leaving.k bye
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[27 Apr 2005|03:48pm] |
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WOWWWWW!
KENNY FUCKING CHESNEY.
ONE WORD.
A M A Z I N G!
i love love love love him.
it was incredible.
im speechless
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[22 Apr 2005|06:00pm] |
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this weekend should be F-U-N!
:)
i got burned last weekend.
it hurt.
and now i'm peeling.
it looks as if i have leopracy.
:-/.
and sometime next week i get my permit.
KENNYS COMING UP!:)
FOUR FRICKEN DAAAAAAAYS!
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[13 Apr 2005|11:32pm] |
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so this weekend was just supposed to be my father, amanda, veronica and myself. right?
right.
well yesterday, my mom found out that we were going and she was not invited. so she decided to throw her two year old tempertantrum and just ran out the house. yep she ran away from her problems. like she always does.
but, anyway back to the story.
so once she left, i started to laugh and i called my father. and told him what happend.
and for all of you who don't know my father, he's just an all around awesome guy. you can talk to him about anyhting and he just gives you what he feels. which is normal a "i don't give a shit" attitude. but in a good way. so i was talking to him about it, and i repeatedly told him "she's not coming." "she can't come" "i'm not going if she goes".(if your asking why its such a big deal that my mother doesnt come, its cuase shes a bitch and i do NOT get along with her. i never really have) and he specifically told me that she wasn't coming.
so im expecting a spectacular weekend with my father, amanda and veronica. along with my uncle and his wife. right?
wrong.
i fell asleep today, and i woke up at 930. my parents came home at 1030.
my mother bitched at me cause i didnt do the dishes(God forbid).
and she tells me that shes coming this weekend.
so i blow up.
i mean BLOW up.
things like that just PISS the fuck out of me.
i was just pissed.
i mean wouldnt you be? if someone tells you one thing and does another behind your back. especially if its your own FATHER?
so i bitch.
and bitch
and bitch
and bitch.
i hate this.
with a fucking passion.
and get this, she's only coming for ONE night.
WHY THE FUCK COME?
it's just pointless if she comes FOR ONE FUCKING NIGHT.
she's in her fucking mid-fourties and acts like shes 12.
she doesnt have to go, all she does is make everyone and their life miserable.
and the worst thing about this is, my dad tells me that.
that she makes things miserable for him.
but he still gives in to her.
and i CAN NOT understand why.
cause she knows no one likes her.
and she knows no one wants her there this weekend.
this is just gets me so undescribably angry.
why do people act like this?
and tomorrow i have to go somewhere with my father in the morning.
and normally i look forward to do things with him.
but, not this time.
i'm disgusted of him right now.
the fact that it was supposed to be an "us" only weekend.
and then go turn it around and tell my mother that she can come just makes me sick
to my fucking stomach.
you may think i'm blowing this out of porportion, but if you knew me and my mothers relationship and then knew me and my father's relationship, you'd think this is pretty fucked up too.
but, whatever. cause if she even thinks about talking to me this weekend, i'm either not gonna answer, or im not gonna listen.
possibly to either of them.
i just wish my dad would stick by his word and leave. so i can too..
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[11 Apr 2005|06:22pm] |
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softball is finally OVER.
and I AM GOING TO THE F'N BEACH THIS WEEKEND!:)
ah!
with amanda and veronicaaaaaa.
and my father.
just us.
this is gonna be shitless fun.
MMHM!
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[04 Apr 2005|11:22pm] |
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do what you want.
just dont fuck them.
or fall in love with them..
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KENNNNNNY CHESNEY IS ALMOST HERE:):)
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[03 Apr 2005|01:35pm] |
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hm hm hm, this spring breakkkkk.
started out pretty shitttyy..but i liked the ending.
had drivers ed practically the whole spring break
and this weekend was fucking AWESOME.
had some fuuuuun.
:)
and amanda dyed my hair.twice.8-)
♥ ♥ ♥
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this spring break sucks.
i'm not tan yet.
nothing great has happend, yet. hopefully SOMETHING will.
and now i'm taking drivers ed. ALL DAY. how fricken boring.
easter was just easter. went to church w/ courtney and the rest of the family. then went back over there and stayed till like ever. then i went out to eat with tj and my grandfather.
softball is almost over. which is awesome.
and after this week, only 8 more weeks left.
which means NO MORE ST CHARLES CATHOLIC FOR ME:)
fucking rihgt.
then the summmmmmmmmmmmer:):). and florida should fit in there somewhere with the girls. mhm mhm.
parents came home today, blah.
cindy and tj leave for VA soon. thank you God.
tomorrow after drivers ed. i believe i am going to the mall. i need bathing suits and some sunglasses. cause SOMEONE broke my other ones. fucker. but it's okay, i was planning on getting a new pair anyway.
also, i need some more jeans.
cars i would like: mazda3 or mazda6 charcoalcolor. mmhm.
( mazda tres )
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[22 Mar 2005|03:35pm] |
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hm hm, haven't talked to the ol' LJ in a while.
let's see what's up.
school has been school, except for last week. we had exams. they were eassyyyyyy. even thought i failed algebra. but i always do so it's not a shock or anything.
only two more days left until springbreak. im so excited. even though i have drivers ed for FOUR days. but i need it before june. but the weekend before we go back to school CINDY IS NOT GOING TO BE IN TOWN. just me and the jimmsters. yayyy. this is by far the greatest thing evvvveerrr.
hm hm hm, today was swell. why? because i saw the two men that i love today. VIC and NOLAN. ah i miss themmmmm and LOVE LOVE LOVE THEM.
pce.
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[13 Mar 2005|01:36pm] |
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i just got back in from tanning, and i realized i NEED NEW BATHIN' SUITS.
but i don't think i'm ready to get any just yet, i'm gonna wait till spring break.
this weekend was straight.
nothing exciting.
i have to go study for exams.
softball is almost over=:):):):)
and schools almost out,:):):)
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[12 Mar 2005|01:43pm] |
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[06 Mar 2005|10:33pm] |
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lets see,
i went to the mall yesterday w/ adam. looked for hours for clothes. found THE PERFECT OUTFIT. it was awesome. these ADORABLE plaid shorts with an orange polo. but did we get it? NO! very upsetting. Mrs. Kelly thought it was too "loud". whatever that means. i thought it was precious. outfit number 2.different pair of plaid pants, with a teal polo. still doesnt like it, so we dont get it. outfit number 3! camouflauge shorts for adam and a camoflouge skirt for me with an orange polo. STIL DOESNT WORK OUT. so basically we're down to zero ideas. so we call up britt, and MAKE SURE that we can wear shorts. come to find out we can't. so we said fuck it. outfit4.painters pants w/ a white polo. nope didnt work. outfit5. kahki's with a colored polo. think we're done? nope. finally lastly, the one thing we did NOT want to wear, JEANS. but of course that's what we're wearing. boring jeans. boring outfit. boring boring boring.jeans and a white polo with white flipflops. how SUCKY. but whhhatteevver. hopefully adam will go for the idea of scrubs. put a little spunk into the outfit. well that was that. i came home, and i forgot what i did. tony called me to see if i would like to go over to his place. didn't have anyone to go w/ so i decided to stay home. i fell asleep early and woke up late this morning. i liked it, alot. went to the mall again with jessica.and i got capris, a polo shirt, two pairs of cute earrings and some sunglasses. had some nice talks with my father. i heart him times 4738294732. he is my life/only guy that makes me happy.:)
got home chilled, ate crawfish then went to church. had r.o.c night, i dislike going there. i just go for the people. after r.o.c night i went to courts, where john brought us to TB(taco bell). went back to courts, ate our TB, then john and katie brougth me home. twas fun. now i'm here, about to go to bed.
goodnight.
holla twice.
my heart hurts.
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[05 Mar 2005|11:22am] |
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last nigh i went out to eat with courtney, michelle and the rest of the scanlan's. ate at smitty's, or something. i had crawfish.:) slept over at courts. like old times. it ended up being an extremely good night. i love you, both! woke up around like 930, hopped into court's bed fell asleep again till about eleven. got my stuff together and came home. in about in hour or two i'm goin to the mall with the adster to get shit for sadies.
wahoo.
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