Tiana ([info]__tiana__) wrote,
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Hi all. Despite a week of too much work, not enough sleep and a bit of a cold, I have prevailed and bring you sweet Spuffy goodness. Yay. After all the scary false Bangel pledges of devotion all over my f-list in honor of Down the Rabbit Hole Day (Don't ever scare me like that again, [info]awmp!), I bring you a big dose of Spuffy love. It's good for what ails ya. ;)

This next mega-drabble is in response to the request of the incredibly talented [info]evenstar_estel, which was:

NC-17
Canon-based, post-Not Fade Away, Angel S5+
The happy morning after Buffy and Spike have reunited.

My response:

See above. :) Also, this is a sequel of sorts to the mega-drabble I wrote for [info]slackerace not long ago, which can be found here. That one covered Spike's arrival on Buffy's doorstep post-NFA. This is the (happy) morning after...from Buffy’s POV.

Off you go!



Kiss After Kiss

I feel the warmth of the early morning sun heating the room around me. I slowly come awake, stretching my arms. My hand brushes something in my bed and I almost reach for the dagger under my mattress before it all comes back to me. His battered self, appearing at my door like a figment. A bloody, beaten figment of my imagination. Looking at me, his eyes the exact shade of blue sky I remembered. And then, falling forward and into my arms, a dead weight. An instant proof of the reality of my figment. I could feel him, smell him, nearly taste him.

And then, the waiting. Alone in my room with his still body, like I was attending a very private wake. Only I knew this body would probably wake up. Probably. Maybe.

Hopefully.

I open my eyes, locking them at first on the ceiling, studying the plaster. A sudden movement could pop the bubble. My hand is still touching him, fingers lightly brushing his skin. Taking a deep breath, I turn my head. The telltale blond hair makes me sigh in relief. He is really here. In my bed. Alive, no less. Well, not dead, not dust. With him it’s all a bit vague. More alive than dead. One of the things I lov -

“Mornin’, pet.” I realize my eyes had been locked on the curve of his bottom lip and I completely missed the opening of his eyes.

“Hi.” Nice. Very eloquent. Can I help it if having him look at me that way makes my whole body come to attention and sends my brain to monosyllabic city?

A quiet slide of skin under cotton and I feel his hand come around my hip. The weight of it resting there is a comfort. And again, the source of some major tingles. A light tug and he slides me closer, our lips almost touching.

He leans forward the last inch, that very tempting bottom lip brushing against mine. The little sound deep in my throat surprises even me. It’s just a little too perfect. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. The big loud shoe. And yet, silence.

Instead, the soft skin of his mouth brings the whole night back to me in flashes of gasps and moans and skin. He feels me smile into the kiss and moves back to look at me, blue eyes glinting. The aches and pains of the night are all over me, tender flesh still raw with it. But still, he is more marked, bruises and scars only days old. I know I should ask about those, but right now, another kiss seems extremely important. I move to him in a flash, pinning his naked body under mine. Ooh, naked. Nice. Pretty sure our clothes are somewhere over there. And there. Oh, and there.

I stretch a little, pushing the whole of me against him, enjoying the sensation of pliable skin against firm muscle. Curve against line. More curve than ever since I discovered the temptation of actual Italian food. If the way his hands course over those curves is any indication, he likes my new appetite. Resting his hands on my ass, he gives a little squeeze, making me push my pelvis against his. Oh! OH. Someone is awake.

I roll my hips again as I press my lips to his. The taste draws memories from deep dark storage in my mind. Of kiss after kiss, year after year. Building our - what, relationship? Love affair? - on top of thousands of these tender, biting, searching, deep, rough, soft kisses. I exert the same gentle pressure on his bottom lip which I know draws his mouth open just enough for my tongue to slide in. Breathing in time, pacing the kiss to a rhythm he knows despite needing no air. A nip to the end of his tongue, making him growl. It’s all there. Just like it was. Just the way I remembered.

And the way his hands convulse in connection with the growl, yanking me hard against him. The clash of our bodies. His fingertips dig into my hips, the sensation of ten little bruises rushing to the surface. Somehow, aim unerring, he pulls me over his cock and meets my eyes. Something in them gives him the go ahead and does he ever. Go ahead, that is. Entering me in a surge, the slick heat of me drawing him all the way in. God, I did miss this. I did miss him. More than I let myself think. More than I told anyone. He turns his head, changes the kiss to something primal and suddenly I am under him. The weight of him pinning me to the bed, our bodies joined.

He smiles down at me. Still, little has been said. We are finding our way back together through touch and scent and taste. The words can come later. Because now there is a later. For now, I’ll just be quiet and take him in. Literally.

The first furious drive of his hips makes me arch into him, screaming.

“Spike!”

So much for quiet.



Hope you liked it! Your feedback has been incredible and I really really thank you for it. Now...how bout some more? ;) *hugs*

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[info]vampkiss

January 28 2005, 05:23:36 UTC 7 years ago

Wonderful, as always! I love how you continued on from your other drabble. And this line;

Still, little has been said. We are finding our way back together through touch and scent and taste.

Just lovely. :)

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 05:50:36 UTC 7 years ago

Thanks so much, hon! :)

Just lovely. :)

Aww, thanks. You're the best.

[info]jack357

January 28 2005, 05:49:54 UTC 7 years ago

Awesome! I loved it. Thank you. I've been tired all day and you woke me up.

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 05:57:04 UTC 7 years ago

Thanks! I'm glad I could help wake you up. :)

[info]sandy_s

January 28 2005, 05:54:21 UTC 7 years ago

Love all the visuals...all the elegant words you use to describe their connection but for some crazy reason...maybe I'm tired...this part was my fave:

Nice. Very eloquent. Can I help it if having him look at me that way makes my whole body come to attention and sends my brain to monosyllabic city?

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 05:59:27 UTC 7 years ago

Hee. You and I think alike, sweetie. Not to be immodest, but I also really liked this line. I think it sounds very Buffy. :) I always get excited when I think I've captured a bit of a character in the phrasing.

Thanks for the comments. You're a doll! :)

[info]sandy_s

7 years ago

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[info]deathisyourart

January 28 2005, 06:06:07 UTC 7 years ago

This line:
His fingertips dig into my hips, the sensation of ten little bruises rushing to the surface

And this line:
We are finding our way back together through touch and scent and taste.

Made me shiver in the best possible way.
This was really lovely; you just get better and better. ^_~

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 06:17:36 UTC 7 years ago

Made me shiver in the best possible way.

What a fantastic compliment. Just what I was going for. ;)

This was really lovely; you just get better and better.

And this, too? I'm wicked flattered. Thanks so much, dear! You've made my evening.

p.s. I've been playing with my [info]watchersdiaries assignment(s). Harder than I thought, but a fun challenge! Can't wait to see the postings. :) I meant to ask - should it be a purely report-like thing detailing the activities from a distance or a 'story'? Know what I mean? Or is any approach cool? (Can there be smutty stuff, too? Me likey.)

[info]__tiana__

7 years ago

[info]reesepieces

January 28 2005, 08:51:14 UTC 7 years ago

Gorgeous. Just gorgeous. I would quote, but I wouldn't know where to start.

And, having sung the praises of B/A/R today, I can say that this was definitely much needed and much enjoyed. ;)

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 14:50:29 UTC 7 years ago

I would quote, but I wouldn't know where to start.


Aww, you're so sweet! Thanks so much for these nice words. I so appreciate them.

And, having sung the praises of B/A/R today, I can say that this was definitely much needed and much enjoyed. ;)

Oh god. You poor thing. *pets you* That could cause serious emotional trauma.

[info]eyesthatslay

January 28 2005, 11:59:56 UTC 7 years ago

A quiet slide of skin under cotton and I feel his hand come around my hip. The weight of it resting there is a comfort.
*happy sigh* I love this part, it is so sweet and cozy!

Both parts of this drabble were great! I love that Spike finds his way back to Buffy after the final battle, and she takes care of him. Love, love, love it!!

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 14:53:20 UTC 7 years ago

*happy sigh* I love this part, it is so sweet and cozy!

*squeal* The very best thing about feedback is when someone notices the little things. I wanted this bit in there to show some sense of comfort and intimacy with them. A connection. And you liked it! It made you sigh! Writing fic just rocks. Thanks for telling me that. (See, this is why I try to comment on all your icons I take. I want you to know I notice those little things, too!)

So glad you liked them both - thanks again for giving me happy feedback. :)

[info]eight93

January 28 2005, 12:01:20 UTC 7 years ago

and you continue to write more post-nfa! (: yay i'm glad

Pretty sure our clothes are somewhere over there. And there. Oh, and there.
heehee

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 14:54:30 UTC 7 years ago

Yay for post-NFA! I think I'm addicted to it.

Pretty sure our clothes are somewhere over there. And there. Oh, and there.

Thanks for giggling here. I can never resist a bit of humor. :)

[info]annabelle528

January 28 2005, 14:36:54 UTC 7 years ago

Loved this! Very sensual imagery!

I think this line was my favorite.

We are finding our way back together through touch and scent and taste.

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 14:56:50 UTC 7 years ago

Thanks very much!! :)

We are finding our way back together through touch and scent and taste.

Glad you liked this line. A couple other folks commented on it too, which is always a great feeling. :)

[info]jamalov29

January 28 2005, 15:12:49 UTC 7 years ago

Just read the two drabbles , and it was just wonderful.

In ' Only one ' , a great balance of emotions : fears , tenderness , love..Buffy was caring yet vulnerable , and the picture of Spike just finding the strength to go on her doorstep and then collapsing , all bruised , that was so touching.

This second part was just lovely : that you pictured them silently connecting , making love whereas their eyes were conveying all the things left unsaid.. just marvelous!
The ecstasy of perfect surrender , hers to him , his to her..

Why would I need a season 6 of Ats or a season 8 of Btvs?
You're here.

Now onto reading all those awe-inspiring drabbles. ( I would be glad to friend you)

[info]__tiana__

January 28 2005, 19:44:24 UTC 7 years ago

Wow, these are really lovely comments. Thanks so much for telling me what you liked about both. :)

Why would I need a season 6 of Ats or a season 8 of Btvs?
You're here.


This is a huge compliment! Thanks very much!

( I would be glad to friend you)

Please do! :)

[info]awmp

January 28 2005, 22:16:55 UTC 7 years ago

that was beautiful! as always.

(Don't ever scare me like that again, awmp!)
heee, sorry *looks guiltily* ;P

[info]__tiana__

January 29 2005, 03:43:36 UTC 7 years ago

Thank you very much. I'm glad you enjoyed it!

heee, sorry *looks guiltily* ;P

You should look guilty! I read your post and thought either I - or you - had suffered some kind of head injury. Thank goodness it was all a joke. Whew.

*still washing the taste of Bangel out of her mouth*

[info]evenstar_estel

January 28 2005, 23:48:42 UTC 7 years ago

That was bliss and everything I'd hoped for. I'm a sucker for them in bed too, all cozy. Thank you!

[info]__tiana__

January 29 2005, 03:45:19 UTC 7 years ago

Yay! I always wait patiently for the person who requested the fic's feedback, since it is really important to me that you like it! So, yay! :) I'm so glad it was what you hoped for. You're very welcome! Just keep sharing your paintings. I just love them.

[info]kskitten

January 29 2005, 00:10:16 UTC 7 years ago

Yes, I liked.
Happy Spuffy is so needed, thanks. It's very true to their relationship that you let them reaquaint with each other through touch. It all felt nice and comfy, coming home to something you know so well. Makes you go quiet and drown in that familiar embrace.
Guess it's a Xander: "warm in the night when I am right in her tight ...embrace" embrace. That's a good one too.

[info]__tiana__

January 29 2005, 03:47:11 UTC 7 years ago

*sigh* Yes, yes, YES. They've always been better at touch than talk, so I thought I would go with that theme here. Let them find their way back to familiar ground. Glad you saw that and liked it! *hugs*

[info]priscellie

January 29 2005, 00:54:40 UTC 7 years ago

Thank you so much for continuing this! Your language is just delicious -- I'm hard-pressed to pick out a specific example that stands out above all the others (though the other commenters have done a good job), as the entire fic is just so powerful. There's a real tangible, visceral, sensual tone to your descriptions that seem very appropriate for a Buffy POV. Well done!

[info]__tiana__

January 29 2005, 03:48:57 UTC 7 years ago

There's a real tangible, visceral, sensual tone to your descriptions that seem very appropriate for a Buffy POV.

Truly lovely praise, indeed! Thank you very much. Descriptive writing is such a goal of mine. I love to paint the picture with words and I'm beyond happy when someone says I've succeeded, so thanks!

:)

[info]angstchic

January 29 2005, 02:13:40 UTC 7 years ago

You are probably gonna find this strange, but I really think the fact that she was focused on his lips while he slept, did the most for me. I liked that she was seeing him in detail and focusing on *seeing* him. And although your sex scenes are anything but a blur, but that part lets me know she was paying attention to the detail of Spike. 'Bout time. :P

[info]__tiana__

January 29 2005, 04:01:55 UTC 7 years ago

I can always count on you to find something small and significant in the fic. I think you have such a nice attentive way of reading stories. I'm so glad you had time to read this one!

but I really think the fact that she was focused on his lips while he slept, did the most for me.

I'm loving that it did. Lots of people liked different things about this one, which thrills me to no end. I wanted to push away the talking (as much as I like me some snarky dialogue) and draw a very narrow picture in this fic. Intimate, returning to touch and the familiar. Show what is good and comfortable and thrilling in Spuffy. And god, they have kissed a million times in their history. So, the lips are where it starts...
And I love your comment on Buffy really *seeing* him. That's a lovely way to describe it. I wrote this one in third person and switched it to Buffy POV to boost the intimacy of it.

I'm already rambling, so I might as well continue...I've tried different approaches to how Buffy would react to seeing Spike again post-NFA. This is one I feel very close to - less talking, more reacting. More visceral reaction to each other. I want Buffy to see what she has missed, to really feel it. And something about wanting to kiss him showed something so sweet and simple. Looking at his lip and remembering a thousand other kisses, tracing their history there. (This is turning into its own little ficlet!) It's significant that it is HIS lip because just locking onto it takes her back through their kisses. I'm such a diehard romantic.

So, yes. :) Thank you, as always. Your comment let me wander further into my thought process behind this one and off into another tangent. Thanks for sparking that in me! *squishes you*

p.s. I picked up this lovely icon from [info]crackers4jenn because I loved the way she caught the moment where Buffy is looking at Spike's mouth before she kisses him. Very appropriate, eh?

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