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[14 Aug 2008|08:29pm] |
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So I have calmed down a tad since my last entry. I am staying with <3Mom<3 she does drive me insane though. Especially today because I have a HORRIBLE hangover and she seems to pester me most when I am PMSing or feeling shitty. I still love her and always will. Anyway, I decidedto write Jackie back the lady at Tre Salon who wanted to interview me. I went to the interview yesterday and they want me to come back tomorrow to get a better feel of things the Tre Salon way :0) I am excited to do this even though I don't have a car and I don't know if I am going to work there or if I am leaving (still confused about things) but I just know that trying to stay as productive as possible will keep me sane. The mercedes papers are being fed-exd to Jason's house and I pray to God that he hands them over and I get to sign them. I want a car. Not necessarily a mercedes because I could care less but I don't know if I should be real dirty and go down there and get it without him knowing and just say sorry you got to do what you got to do and sell the mercedes get a different one and my own place. Or If I should go down there with him see how I like it even though I know I don't like him. Then try to leave or if I should just stick it out 110% by staying with my mom not taking the car or anything from him for that matter and starting from scratch as if I just got out of highschool or something. Asking for rides and shit. Sounds sucky and like that route would be the most genuine and life changing blah blah blah but sometimes you have to be a little devious to get ahead quicker in life. I am not that kind of person but I put my self in a predicament where I have to be a little greedy right now for myself.Hmmm.... im going to contemplate this until we are supposed to leave for Palm Beach and let things fall into place and whatever feels right at the time then thats what im going with but until then im going to try and take it day by day. He has done alot for me and he may be a little weird and have a temper but I am weird and a bitch as well I don't know why I despise him so damn much but I think about Mikhail who has no respect for me! I went to Mikhail first when I was stressed and he wanted me to sell drugs for him to "earn" money instead of being there for me he wasnt even there emotionally but you know what he is right when he told me "Stop worrying about guys do your own thing and take care of yourself" which is what im going to do.
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[12 Aug 2008|02:08am] |
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So basically I got that "amazing" massage therapy job that I always wanted. (screwed that up) cause i was partying so much. Lost my job at Aroma's as well! I was freaking out about money and Jason told me he was moving to Palm Beach during that time I was so stressed it sounded like a fabulous idea!! I moved out, sold my car (b/c I apparently have a new one there) I moved into his house, turned down 2 great job offers and I stressed myself out so bad to the point where I don't know if I want to go or should I stay here and start from scratch? I just need some me time! I miss my family :0(
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[09 Aug 2008|09:22pm] |
Okay , so I had a bladder infection that I didn't know what to do about so I waited , and now it has progressed into a kidney infection . Very painful . But it is easing up on me now , so its not too bad .
My wallet was STOLEN last night . It had $80 , my license , my atm card and a lot of other shiiiit .
Sucks so bad .
Max is wonderful though . Things are good with him ha
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