Im not worried.
Im just scared and excited.
This is a beautiful, terrible, wonderful, tragic life.
<3
That's all for now.
- Location:Ambo, working with Mike S. oh joy.
- Music:Layla//Clapton <3
Oh, you got it so bad,
when the only boy you know is your dad,
& girl you got it so wrong,
when you look into her eyes and all you really see is your mom.
Im going to take boxing lessons, maybe I can replace drinking with that.. & take my anger out.
Im excited.
- Location:K302<3
- Mood:
sore - Music:Energy.
I've had this lj for 4 years, alot has changed from the first time I wrote in it.
I miss everyone, and how could I have ever forgoten about Aimee?? I wonder what happened to that girl, id so go gay for her ahhhaa.
- Location:about to jump in the shower
Just got done a 24 hour shift, Keith & Andrew get to take people to church today if there are no other runs. Haha Your life sucks.
Anyway yesterday was uneventful beings as I was at work all freekin day and night, well I did help Yensi with his tae kwon do haha.
But I did look through alot of old live journals... I don't remember some of the things in there but from what I do, we had alot of fun and I would give anything in the world to be fourteen again.
Getting drunk all the time, My first love [what a joke lolll], Johns house, Ozzy BillBill Zachary Terrance, oh man...
- Location:Anywhere you want me to be.
- Mood:
nostalgic - Music:Saliva//Always
I <3 Joseph William Schultz
- Location:Base bunks with Yensi
- Music:something creepy
Im caught between young and old,
my bodys small but my mind is grown,
My soul explodes with passion,
My heart explodes with pain,
My mind with thunder,
My eyes with rain,
Its all too rapid,
Lightning quick like a bad habit,
But if you can catch it,
Be my guest grab it.
I have way too much free time at work to be sitting here thinking of shit like this haha but oh well im getting paid for it!
- Location:On my break at Genaurdis with MOB
- Music:Old men talking about b/p haha
DO NOT...
-make quick sudden stops when im in the back with a pt.
-ask me stupid fucking questions.
-tell me not to smoke in the truck, I will burn you.
-use the word "bro" more than once in a 24 hour time period.
-ask me to buy you lunch, if I have never offered... I don't like you.
-ask me what other people at work think of you, if you have to ask.. you should already know.
-if your stronger/bigger than me, don't make me take the top of the stretcher, are you retarded?
-try not to annoy me, I have a very short fuse.
-and last but not least do not annoy my pts! Im the one that has to sit in the back with them, not you.
/rant
- Location:workin dah cornas
- Music:something thug nasty
I love my job, haha.
- Location:On the street In the ambo.
- Music:please excuse my hands.
[You'd probably be one of the prettiest girls in the world if you were just happy.
You're already georgous.]
That was inspiring, really.
- Location:kSouth302.
- Mood: nostalgic
- Music:DeathCab
Im in a strange mood.
I did some shopping today,
That always makes Cecilia and I happy.
Im dressed like a girly girl right now, nice change of pace from lookin like a bull dyke at work =p
- Location:the apartment <3
- Mood:
cold - Music:Weezy, baby.
-hersheys with almonds.
-try to save me, not change me.
-hold my hand.
-make me watch scary movies no matter how much I protest.
-fight for me.
-fight with me.
-cuddle with me.
-get jealous, not crazy.
-drink with me.
-tell me im pretty, mean it.
-take me to get a tattoo.
-get to vip status with my daddy.
- Location:back of the ambo with a patient haha
Real advice, not selfish im-telling-you-this-cause-it'll-help-me-t
Im great at giving advice to other people, but for myself I just don't know.
You blame me for everything, you let me sit here and hurt... but still no ones arms feel better around me then yours.
- Location:bunk beds at work
Although I am completly a non-beleive in god or anything like that [dispite everything Christian/Joel/Sammy's parents try to put in my head] I find myself in my own head thinking.. please, please just help. So what I am wondering is, am I just afraid.. even though its completly illogical, that there actually is something out there? Or am I just subconsiously asking me to help myself?
- Location:k-302 bitchesss
- Mood: thoughtful
- Music:Jonas brothers mother fucker
I don't feel like im really here, nothing seems real, everythings out of focus.. like im just floating through life.
My mind is slipping, quite possibly due to this month-and-a-half long drinking binge I've been on, its getting out of control, im an 18 yearold alcoholic.. How positively pathetic, he's driving me to it really, and im still never going to end up like him. I've been picking up the pot thing this past week, its deffinatly not me. Maybe I don't know who I am right now.
Anticipation is killing me.
What do I do, where do I go?
I plan on taking 3 trips in november, december and january.. to jamaica, a cruise to puerto rico, and canada.. Possibly driving to canada if I have my license by then [acura integra, thank you fah-sha] also maybe florida all with my roomate Cecilia, cause we got it like that. At the rate we're going we can afford it. Anyway, since parts of life [not all of it] are going so completly dreadfull, getting away should help. Maybe I will reinvent myself, maybe I will find a new job and get away from everyone who knows every detail of my personal life, but probably not.. Im oviously not a fan of change, and im obviously not a fan of broken hearts.
- Location:Working in the amb-you-lannnccee
- Mood: nostalgic
My new apartment is the shit.
Come hang.
I miss the medic class =[
I have a cool couch though so life is killa' sweet, oh and this hott jawn computer haha.
<3
9.19.05
- Location:Dah Apartment
- Mood: cold
- Music:Girl-posi+ive
Loves me some eye candy.
<3
9.19.05
I think i got my hott back.
<3
9.19.05
Paramedic class
<3
First day was today, and im lovin it.
Hopefully I will have this ambition for the whole year and a half.
Im very happy with the people that are in my class..
I would have hand picked all of them to be with for the next 18 months.
[except that one annoying girl that looks/talks like a man]
=]
Nine.Nineteen.Oh,Five.
<3
First day was today, and im lovin it.
Hopefully I will have this ambition for the whole year and a half.
Im very happy with the people that are in my class..
I would have hand picked all of them to be with for the next 18 months.
[except that one annoying girl that looks/talks like a man]
=]
Nine.Nineteen.Oh,Five.
1) Using FOOD names, spell out your name:
Alvacodo
Noodles
Gravy
Ecstacy haha
Lemon
Apple
2) What song makes you cry?
What hurts the most
3) What do you like to listen to before bed?
Clapton
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'1
HAIR COLOR: Blonde
SHOE SIZE: Eight
PIERCINGS: Tongue, Ears, Nose, Eyebrow, BellyButton
TATTOOS: Wrists
r i g h t - l e f t ? Righty
PANTS YOU'RE WEARING: Pjs
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Ericas Prank Calls
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Smoke..
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Cold
d o - y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESs?: Sometimes
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Smoking, Biting my nails
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Sometimes
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Intervention
MAGAZINE: Cosmopolitan
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Drink
h a v e - y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: Alot
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: Kinda
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Yep
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: Nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yep, Who hasnt?
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: My dads
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: lol almost
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yup
l o v e
CHILDREN: Not yet!
BEEN IN LOVE?: Yup
r a n d o m
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Incubus
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Teal or Red
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET: Probably none i just download
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Yesterday
PART TWO
1. Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work? Spit on it haha
2. Have you ever puked at a bar or club? Nope
3. Have you ever dated someone you met online?: lol no
4. Have you ever smoked pot at a concert?: Nope
5. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a best friend of the opposite sex? Yes
6. Ever been involved in a hit & run?: nope
8. Have you ever been on a blind date?: Ew, Yes
9. Are looks important?: Yes lol
10. Do you have any friends that you've known for 15 years or more?: Yes
11. By what age would you like to be married?: 25
12. Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them?: Yes
13. Have you ever sacrificed yourself so your friend can get in good with a person of the opposite sex?: Yes.
14. Have you ever drank milk that was past the expiration date? lol ew no
15. Are you a good tipper?: Yeah
16. What's the most you have spent for a haircut? I get muh shit Fo' free
17. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? <33 haha.
18. Do you know all the words to the first verse of Ice ice Baby?: Who doesnt?
19. Have you ever had crispy bangs?: lol!! no im not thug!
20. What was the worst style of the 80's?: I dont know lol
21. Have you ever peed in public: Always
Alvacodo
Noodles
Gravy
Ecstacy haha
Lemon
Apple
2) What song makes you cry?
What hurts the most
3) What do you like to listen to before bed?
Clapton
a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'1
HAIR COLOR: Blonde
SHOE SIZE: Eight
PIERCINGS: Tongue, Ears, Nose, Eyebrow, BellyButton
TATTOOS: Wrists
r i g h t - l e f t ? Righty
PANTS YOU'RE WEARING: Pjs
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Ericas Prank Calls
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: Smoke..
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Cold
d o - y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESs?: Sometimes
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: Smoking, Biting my nails
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Sometimes
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Intervention
MAGAZINE: Cosmopolitan
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Drink
h a v e - y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: Alot
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: Kinda
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Yep
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: Nope
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yep, Who hasnt?
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: My dads
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: lol almost
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yup
l o v e
CHILDREN: Not yet!
BEEN IN LOVE?: Yup
r a n d o m
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Incubus
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: Teal or Red
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET: Probably none i just download
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?: Yesterday
PART TWO
1. Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work? Spit on it haha
2. Have you ever puked at a bar or club? Nope
3. Have you ever dated someone you met online?: lol no
4. Have you ever smoked pot at a concert?: Nope
5. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a best friend of the opposite sex? Yes
6. Ever been involved in a hit & run?: nope
8. Have you ever been on a blind date?: Ew, Yes
9. Are looks important?: Yes lol
10. Do you have any friends that you've known for 15 years or more?: Yes
11. By what age would you like to be married?: 25
12. Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them?: Yes
13. Have you ever sacrificed yourself so your friend can get in good with a person of the opposite sex?: Yes.
14. Have you ever drank milk that was past the expiration date? lol ew no
15. Are you a good tipper?: Yeah
16. What's the most you have spent for a haircut? I get muh shit Fo' free
17. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? <33 haha.
18. Do you know all the words to the first verse of Ice ice Baby?: Who doesnt?
19. Have you ever had crispy bangs?: lol!! no im not thug!
20. What was the worst style of the 80's?: I dont know lol
21. Have you ever peed in public: Always
- Mood:
annoyed
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