i think i might be bipolar. i don't understand my emotions. i might be manic-depressive.

no need to elaborate.





my birthday is coming up in about 3 weeks, give or take a few. i think i might celebrate it by getting stoned as hell. so if you know of anyone selling, please let me know. :/

this is my take on last night's sharon when ryan agoncillo admitted he had a foot fetish:

sharon: so ano nagustuhan mo sa kanya [juday]?
ryan: alam nyo naman po na me foot fetish ako... e si juday po kasi mukhang paa....

i was in mcs yesterday checking out dvd's and happen to stumble on this pile of foreign artsy fartsy films. i didn't took notice at first. i was about to go home then but decided to just take a peek. to my surprise, second on the pile was a copy of science of sleep! i wanted to scream and jump up and down! that's probably how euphoria feels like. i can die now. i also bought a copy of solo con tu pareja, which is apparently alfonso cuaron's breakthrough film before y tu mama tambien, and a copy of pedro almodovar's volver. wait...... ok i can die now.

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it's funny how descriptions on the back of pirated dvd's (what do you expect) sometimes don't make sense. this is what's written for science of sleep, as is:

White-collar drudge by day.Genius by night-and any other time likable. clever Stepjane (Gael Garcia Bernal) dreams. Because it's on his magic carpet of dreams where stephane headlines stephane TV,builds a mighty cut-and-paste wonderland.pens a bestseller and sweeps the lovely girl next door off her feet and into his arms if only he could make his dreams(at least the last one)come true!

Michel Gondry (Eternal Sunshine of the spotless Mind) writes and firects this quirky quixotic, constantly inventive romantic fantasy of imagination vs. Logic, dreams vs. Reality.Wake up and smell the possibilities. The science of sleep is a movie to amaze, dare and delight you...and to whisper to the dreamer within.


not to forget the subtitles. on some pirated dvd's they are sometimes funnier than the movie itself. take for example the polar express:

dialogue: merry christmas!
subtitle: christmas festival happiness


and also hannibal rising:

dialogue: he knows something
subtitle: soybean cake something

dialogue: good morning
subtitle: good afternoon

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there's this sort of meme on the science of sleep website called what do you dream? it asks you multiple choice questions and somewhat interprets from there. mine says:

CREATIVE SAVANT
You are most unusual. You don't think like everyone else, and there's no reason you should. You have a rich fantasy life with lots of ideas and, yes, even visions cascading through your mind. Reality doesn't impede your progress, it simply keeps it on track. If you've found a way to channel your creativity, most people probably think you're brilliant. If, however, you're finding it difficult to distinguish between your fantasy life and real life for say - oh, 23 out of 24 hours - you might want to consider therapy or a career as a filmmaker.

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i can't download shit on aurgasms cause they mostly use sendspace and sendspace always says Sorry, the free service in your location is too busy. i don't want to upgrade to sendspace max because you have to pay for it. how can life ever be fun if you don't get stuff for free? woe is me!!! huhuhu

and why do they always change http to hxxp? i don't get the point.

naiinis ako ke tyra banks. feeling nya sya si oprah. naiinis din ako ke oprah so mas lalo na sa mga oprah wannabes. pag napapanood ko yung tyra banks show mas lalo akong naiinis. kasi kapag ayaw nya yung guest o takot sya sa guest halatang nandidiri sya at feeling nya sya ang laging tama. minamaliit din nya yung mga guest nya na hindi "up to her standards". pinapakita nya na friendly sya at mabait pero halata sa mukha nya na jina-judge nya yung tao. minsan nga sinasabi na nya ng harapan. kung ako yung guest sasampalin ko sya kasi disrespectful yung ginagawa nya. what a fucking bitch. naiinis din ako sa karamihan ng mga kano. feeling nila superior race sila and they can get away with anything. hindi ko alam kung bakit considering that their president is an idiot. duhbyah!

nagfre-friendster ako kanina at nainis lang ako sa isang babae dun. chineck ko yung profile nya at naka private sya. naka messaging off pa. naisip ko lang na parang ang epal nya. hindi naman sya sikat. feeling ko ang me karapatan lang na mag private at messaging off ay yung mga sikat. at yung mga friends ko kasi friends ko sila ahehehe.

natapos na ko sa driving lessons ko pero hangang ngayon di parin ako marunong. lagi akong namamatayan ng makina. at naisip ko lang din, kahit naman matuto ako magdrive, di ko din alam ang pupuntahan ko. kasi wala akong sense of direction. pag pinagdrive mo ako papuntang glorietta/greenbelt/landmark/ayala di ko alam kung pano pumunta dun kahit taga makati ako. kahit na halos linggo linggo akong pumupunta dun at kahit na lagi akong hinahatid dun, di ko parin alam. siguro kapag ilang beses nako nagdrive papunta dun, chaka ko lang malalaman. pag kabisado ko na.

nabo-bore na ko sa buhay ko. minsan masaya, minsan parang gusto ko nang sabunutan ang sarili ko sa boredom. pero masaya.

also, katherine mcphee's eyebrows are annoying. i don't know why. and hilary duff's chin seems to get longer as she gets older. i also don't know why.

alas! this is the day i've so been waiting for, my last day!



8 more hours to go!

i'm so excited! :D

i heart you white ninja! :P

♥



source: white ninja comics

fifteen work days more to go and counting...






i'm so giddy! :D









[edit 2/12/07 1:51am]





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( supposedly i have no life. it has nothing to do with being a movie buff. nothing at all. and i'm not a movie buff. not at allCollapse )


and hbo will be showing mirrormask! i can't wait! :D

Starring: Stephanie Leonidas, Jason Barry and Gina McKee.

Bringing to the big screen any of bestselling author Neil Gaiman's novels is a huge challenge to visual artistry and computer graphics wizardry. On both counts, Mirrormask does not disappoint. Helena is a young girl who is sick of life in the family circus. She harbors a desire to leave and lead a normal teenage life. Her only outlet is the imaginary world she creates. Helena's mother falls into a coma when she wishes her dead. The remorseful Helena, in a dream, makes a journey through her imagined world of strange creatures and masked humans who closely resemble people she has encountered in real life. She meets the Queen of Light, who has also fallen ill. Helena realizes that she must travel into the Dark Lands to retrieve the Mirrormask, which will reawaken the Queen of Light and keep the Queen of Shadows and her forces from ruling her real and imagined worlds. She is joined by circus juggler Valentine in her quest for the Mirrormask.

Directed by: Dave McKean
Genre: Science Fiction
Duration: 1 hr 36 min

Showtimes:
Sun, 21 Jan at 7:00 pm
Wed, 24 Jan at 8:00 am
Wed, 24 Jan at 5:15 pm
Sat, 27 Jan at 12:20 pm
Tue, 30 Jan at 11:45 am
Tue, 30 Jan at 9:00 pm



[edit 7:38am] i just found out that this will be shown on hbo family. not on the regular hbo :'( *cries*

i told my supervisor yesterday that i will already pass my letter of resignation. i think i caught him off guard cause he didn't say anything. later on we talked about it. i told him that i needed to rest cause i'm getting really stressed out. i said i was tired. he said if it's just rest that i needed he can give that to me. he said he will talk to our manager to give me several months off. i told him that after the vacation i will take, i no longer wanted to come back. i said i wanted a different career. i said i wanted to have my normal life back. he said he will give me 'till january to think about it. and when i'm really sure about it, just give him the letter then.

i miss having time for myself. i miss sleeping at night. i miss family days and family outings. i miss night outs with the lowlas...

so i'm coming back. it's time to move on...



and i wish you all a very merry christmas :)

The Bottom Line

Your conservative side has been in power too long. Let your wild child out!

In Detail

Your conservative side has been in power for a long time -- so today it's time to let your wild child out! For inspiration, let your nuttiest friends lead the way toward a wackier life for a while. You need a vacation from organization, a break from the staid stuff of life, and an overall mood renovation. It's time to revisit your childhood and stop taking things so seriously. You can safely take a break from grownup responsibilities right now.

so this means that i need to go out and partey! i think this is telling me that i also need to experience sssssssss hahaha :))

i know i should be getting out there socializing. but i actually consider myself a non-social creature. except for some close friends and family members. plus i have very low self-esteem so i'm not the type to mingle. i even hate sales ladies/sales gents walking up to me and asking how the fuck they can help me. if i need your help bitches i'd ask.

( look mama, i'm socializing!Collapse )


be still my ♥.

( BATEEEEEE!!!!!!!!Collapse )


~


this is long overdue but i'm happy for my brother cause he passed the board exams. even if we fight a lot and i don't really like him, he made me proud. congratulations engineer! :)

magtrabaho ka na bwiset! haha :))


~


in other news, bakit ang init parin kahit magpapasko na? parang summer pag kasikatan ng araw. hindi tuloy ako makatulog. gusto ko maranasan ang malamig na simoy ng hangin.


~


sana january na, para makapagpasa na ko ng resignation. sawang sawa na ko, i swear! nararamdaman ko nanaman ung pinipilit ko ang sarili kong pumasok. and i dread each fucking moment. each fucking second. i even hate seeing the office building from afar. lagi kong naiisip, putangina, eto nanaman, ayoko na. merong pinapasukan yung gf ng pinsan ko sa makati. part time lang tapos weekends lang ang pasok. at ang basic pay nya ay 14k. gusto kong lumipat dun. para pwede kong gawin yung gusto ko. marami akong panahon para magaral, magworkshops, magpaka-pretentious, o kaya magbu-business nalang ako.

i received this spam on my email in the office. i think it's a new version of pride and prejudice...

"we shall often meet, i hope, in hertfordshire."
"yes, she did."
another day i will do the same; i will sit in my library, in my nightcap and powdering gown, and give
"pray, my dear aunt, what is the difference in matrimonial affairs, between the mercenary and
"and if i had not a letter to write myself, i might sit by you and admire the evenness of your
conference with elizabeth related the event of the day before.
been deprived, by the folly and indecorum of her own family!
and beautiful jane and scatterbrained lydia.
elizabeth felt herself completely taken in. she had fully proposed being engaged by mr.
"my dear mr. bennet," replied his wife, "how can you be so tiresome! you must know that i am
and now i hope you are satisfied."
down to whist.
consequence to a father. and if you will stay another month complete, it will be in my power to take
are really angelic; i do not know what to say to you. i feel as if i had never done you justice, or loved
ceremony. if it be not so, let mr. darcy contradict it. besides, there was truth in his looks."
bennet to her daughter's room, in her dressing gown, and with her hair half finished, crying out:
"'tis too much!" she added, "by far too much. i do not deserve it. oh! why is not everybody as
"a thorough, determined dislike of me-a dislike which i cannot but attribute in some measure to
"he did not talk to me of his own arts," said fitzwilliam, smiling. "he only told me what i have
elizabeth would lead the way which the other as politely and more earnestly negatived, she seated
"if your master would marry, you might see more of him."


~

and i think i need to sign up on myspace because i want to see the pictures on this.

just for that.

but i'm thinking about it still because i said i would never sign up and be a myspace whore. i have friendster for that haha.

~

and how i'd die to be that dog.

*salivating*

~

( at patok parin sakin 'to hanggang ngayonCollapse )

her: do i seem like a jolly person to you?
him: yes, when you're happy.
her: do you know that most jolly persons are the ones who get depressed a lot?
him: ok.
her: im thinking it's just a facade so people wouldn't know how broken they really are inside.
him: thanks for making me feel really useless.





<\3 :(

i was riding the mrt on my way to work and i stood near the doors but close to the seats so as someone is sitting in front of me but sideways. there was this one woman, who was the one sitting in front of me, and she was like your ordinary office type woman in blouse and slacks. later during the ride, i noticed an insect crawling in her hair. i didn't bother with that but then i saw more. then i noticed white lice on other parts of her hair. then i freaked out. and i was thinking, what the hell woman?! you're too old to have kuto and lice! and my god, you're already even working! can't you at least afford a lice shampoo? or even a suyod at that?! and isn't that part of your life over yet? i thought that only happened to kids or young teens?! i guess not. i swear, i wanted to take that kuto and get a white paper and make tiris that kuto in the white paper.

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i was walking in shangri-la mall, still on my way to work, then there was this woman dragging her feet across the floor. then the soles on her right sandal broke off. she did notice it because she looked back but then she just kept on walking. the people around her, especially the men, had puzzled looks on their faces. one even stopped and wanted to call out to the woman but then she was too far already. and me, i was just laughing my ass off.

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i know i'm mean. i know karma will beat the shit out of me.
or has it already?
yea, maybe it already is.

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and what happened to my beloved audiocafe? is this my karma? :(

Mga Bagong Balarila

1. BAKTOL - ang ikatlong lebel ng mabahong amoy sa kili-kili. Ang baktol ay kapareho ng amoy ng nabubulok na bayabas. Ito'y dumidikit sa damit at humahalo sa pawis! madalas na naamoy tuwing registration sa school, sa elevator o FX at sa LRT na hindi aircon.

2. KUKURIKAPO - ito ang libag sa ilalim ng boobs, madalas na namumuo dahil sa labis na baby powder na inilalagay sa katawan. Maari ding mamuo kung hindi talaga naliligo o naghihilod ang isang babae. Ang
kukurikapo ay mas madalas mamuo sa mga babaeng malalaki ang joga.

3. MULMUL - buhok sa gitna ng isang nunal. Mahirap ipaliwanag kung bakit nagkakaroon ng MULMUL ang isang nunal subalit hindi talaga ito naaalis kahit bunutin pa ito, maliban na lamang kung ipa-laser ito.

4. BURNIK - taeng sumabit sa buhok sa puwet, madalas nararanasan ng mga taong nagti-tissue lamang pagkatapos tumae, ang BURNIK ay mahirap alisin, lalo na kapag natuyo na ito. Ipinapayo sa mga may mga BURNIK na maligo na lamang upang ito'y maalis.

5. ALPOMBRA - kasuotan sa paa na kadalasang makikitang suot ng mga tindero ng yosi sa quiapo. Ito'y makipot na kasuotan ng paa, at manipis na swelas, mistulang sandalyas ito ng babae pero kadalasang suot ng mga lalaki,available in blue, red, green etc.

6. BAKOKANG - higanteng peklat, ito'y madalas na dulot ng mga sugat na malaki na hindi ginagamitan ng sebo de macho habang natutuyo. imbes na normal na balat ang nakatakip sa bakokang, ito'y mayroong makintab na balat na takip.

7. AGIHAP - libag na dumikit sa panty o brief. nabubuo ang AGIHAP kung ang panty o brief ay suot-suot na nang hindi bumababa sa tatlong araw at kapag tinapon ang panty o brief sa dingding, ito ay hindi mahuhulog pagkat dumikit na ng kusa sa dingding.

8. DUKIT - ito ang amoy na nakukuha kung kinamot mo ang puwet mo at may sumamang amoy tae.

9. SPONGKLONG - ito'y isang bagong wikaan na nangangahulugan isang estupidong tao.

10. LAPONGGA - ito'y kahintulad sa laplapan o kaya sa lamasan.

11. WENEKLEK - ito ang buhok sa utong, na kadalasang nakikita sa mga tambay sa kanto na laging nakahubad. Meron din ang babae nito.

12. BAKTUNG - pinaikling salita ng BAKAT-UTONG.

13. BAKTI - bakat panty.

14. ASOGUE - buhok sa kilikili.

15. BARNAKOL - maitim na libag sa batok na naipon sa matagal na panahon

16. BULTOKACHI - tubig na tumalsik sa puwet kapag nalaglag ang isang malaking tae. naramdaman ito kasi tumalsik sa pisngi ng pwet ang tubig sa toilet bowl.

17. BUTUYTUY - etits ng bata.

18. JABARR - pawis ng katawan.

19. KALAMANTUTAY - mabahong pangalan.

20. McARTHUR - taeng bumabalik after mong i-flush...


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