anyone who would treat a family member, friends even, like shit is beyond me...

what comes around goes around, asshole.




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in a lighter note, pot all around. my treat.

i think i might be bipolar. i don't understand my emotions. i might be manic-depressive.

no need to elaborate.





my birthday is coming up in about 3 weeks, give or take a few. i think i might celebrate it by getting stoned as hell. so if you know of anyone selling, please let me know. :/

this is my take on last night's sharon when ryan agoncillo admitted he had a foot fetish:

sharon: so ano nagustuhan mo sa kanya [juday]?
ryan: alam nyo naman po na me foot fetish ako... e si juday po kasi mukhang paa....

i was in mcs yesterday checking out dvd's and happen to stumble on this pile of foreign artsy fartsy films. i didn't took notice at first. i was about to go home then but decided to just take a peek. to my surprise, second on the pile was a copy of science of sleep! i wanted to scream and jump up and down! that's probably how euphoria feels like. i can die now. i also bought a copy of solo con tu pareja, which is apparently alfonso cuaron's breakthrough film before y tu mama tambien, and a copy of pedro almodovar's volver. wait...... ok i can die now.

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it's funny how descriptions on the back of pirated dvd's (what do you expect) sometimes don't make sense. this is what's written for science of sleep, as is:

White-collar drudge by day.Genius by night-and any other time likable. clever Stepjane (Gael Garcia Bernal) dreams. Because it's on his magic carpet of dreams where stephane headlines stephane TV,builds a mighty cut-and-paste wonderland.pens a bestseller and sweeps the lovely girl next door off her feet and into his arms if only he could make his dreams(at least the last one)come true!

Michel Gondry (Eternal Sunshine of the spotless Mind) writes and firects this quirky quixotic, constantly inventive romantic fantasy of imagination vs. Logic, dreams vs. Reality.Wake up and smell the possibilities. The science of sleep is a movie to amaze, dare and delight you...and to whisper to the dreamer within.


not to forget the subtitles. on some pirated dvd's they are sometimes funnier than the movie itself. take for example the polar express:

dialogue: merry christmas!
subtitle: christmas festival happiness


and also hannibal rising:

dialogue: he knows something
subtitle: soybean cake something

dialogue: good morning
subtitle: good afternoon

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there's this sort of meme on the science of sleep website called what do you dream? it asks you multiple choice questions and somewhat interprets from there. mine says:

CREATIVE SAVANT
You are most unusual. You don't think like everyone else, and there's no reason you should. You have a rich fantasy life with lots of ideas and, yes, even visions cascading through your mind. Reality doesn't impede your progress, it simply keeps it on track. If you've found a way to channel your creativity, most people probably think you're brilliant. If, however, you're finding it difficult to distinguish between your fantasy life and real life for say - oh, 23 out of 24 hours - you might want to consider therapy or a career as a filmmaker.

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i can't download shit on aurgasms cause they mostly use sendspace and sendspace always says Sorry, the free service in your location is too busy. i don't want to upgrade to sendspace max because you have to pay for it. how can life ever be fun if you don't get stuff for free? woe is me!!! huhuhu

and why do they always change http to hxxp? i don't get the point.

naiinis ako ke tyra banks. feeling nya sya si oprah. naiinis din ako ke oprah so mas lalo na sa mga oprah wannabes. pag napapanood ko yung tyra banks show mas lalo akong naiinis. kasi kapag ayaw nya yung guest o takot sya sa guest halatang nandidiri sya at feeling nya sya ang laging tama. minamaliit din nya yung mga guest nya na hindi "up to her standards". pinapakita nya na friendly sya at mabait pero halata sa mukha nya na jina-judge nya yung tao. minsan nga sinasabi na nya ng harapan. kung ako yung guest sasampalin ko sya kasi disrespectful yung ginagawa nya. what a fucking bitch. naiinis din ako sa karamihan ng mga kano. feeling nila superior race sila and they can get away with anything. hindi ko alam kung bakit considering that their president is an idiot. duhbyah!

nagfre-friendster ako kanina at nainis lang ako sa isang babae dun. chineck ko yung profile nya at naka private sya. naka messaging off pa. naisip ko lang na parang ang epal nya. hindi naman sya sikat. feeling ko ang me karapatan lang na mag private at messaging off ay yung mga sikat. at yung mga friends ko kasi friends ko sila ahehehe.

natapos na ko sa driving lessons ko pero hangang ngayon di parin ako marunong. lagi akong namamatayan ng makina. at naisip ko lang din, kahit naman matuto ako magdrive, di ko din alam ang pupuntahan ko. kasi wala akong sense of direction. pag pinagdrive mo ako papuntang glorietta/greenbelt/landmark/ayala di ko alam kung pano pumunta dun kahit taga makati ako. kahit na halos linggo linggo akong pumupunta dun at kahit na lagi akong hinahatid dun, di ko parin alam. siguro kapag ilang beses nako nagdrive papunta dun, chaka ko lang malalaman. pag kabisado ko na.

nabo-bore na ko sa buhay ko. minsan masaya, minsan parang gusto ko nang sabunutan ang sarili ko sa boredom. pero masaya.

also, katherine mcphee's eyebrows are annoying. i don't know why. and hilary duff's chin seems to get longer as she gets older. i also don't know why.

alas! this is the day i've so been waiting for, my last day!



8 more hours to go!

i'm so excited! :D

i heart you white ninja! :P

♥



source: white ninja comics

fifteen work days more to go and counting...






i'm so giddy! :D









[edit 2/12/07 1:51am]





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i never thought that this would ever happen to us. my mom, dad, sister and nephew had a car accident earlier. an armored car fell down from the skyway landing on part of the car in front of us and part of our car. one person died and some were rushed to the hospital. my family's ok but we are all in shock. our windshield smashed and the radiator broke. i'm sure you'll get to hear this on the news.

i'm still thankful that nothing happened to them or else i wouldn't know what to do. they were just inches away from getting hurt but i'm so glad and so thankful they came out ok. my dad is still in the police station until now and this happened around 5:30 in the afternoon.

i called the office and told them i woudn't be able to come to work. a lot of my co-workers texted me asking if we're ok.


i know i need to get out of my comfort zone. and i know that i should tell people that i love them more cause you never know what will happen tomorrow.

i'm so thankful for my family and for my friends and the lowlas.


i love you all ♥

( supposedly i have no life. it has nothing to do with being a movie buff. nothing at all. and i'm not a movie buff. not at all )


and hbo will be showing mirrormask! i can't wait! :D

Starring: Stephanie Leonidas, Jason Barry and Gina McKee.

Bringing to the big screen any of bestselling author Neil Gaiman's novels is a huge challenge to visual artistry and computer graphics wizardry. On both counts, Mirrormask does not disappoint. Helena is a young girl who is sick of life in the family circus. She harbors a desire to leave and lead a normal teenage life. Her only outlet is the imaginary world she creates. Helena's mother falls into a coma when she wishes her dead. The remorseful Helena, in a dream, makes a journey through her imagined world of strange creatures and masked humans who closely resemble people she has encountered in real life. She meets the Queen of Light, who has also fallen ill. Helena realizes that she must travel into the Dark Lands to retrieve the Mirrormask, which will reawaken the Queen of Light and keep the Queen of Shadows and her forces from ruling her real and imagined worlds. She is joined by circus juggler Valentine in her quest for the Mirrormask.

Directed by: Dave McKean
Genre: Science Fiction
Duration: 1 hr 36 min

Showtimes:
Sun, 21 Jan at 7:00 pm
Wed, 24 Jan at 8:00 am
Wed, 24 Jan at 5:15 pm
Sat, 27 Jan at 12:20 pm
Tue, 30 Jan at 11:45 am
Tue, 30 Jan at 9:00 pm



[edit 7:38am] i just found out that this will be shown on hbo family. not on the regular hbo :'( *cries*

i'm selling gadgets, you might be interested.

ipod mini blue 4gb. hardly used, mint condition for 6k.

2nd generation ipod nano silver 2gb. just bought last november in japan. also hardly used, mint condition for 7k. i will include a blue leather case.

aiptek mini PocketDV 8900. complete package, good as new for 10k. ( specs )

i told my supervisor yesterday that i will already pass my letter of resignation. i think i caught him off guard cause he didn't say anything. later on we talked about it. i told him that i needed to rest cause i'm getting really stressed out. i said i was tired. he said if it's just rest that i needed he can give that to me. he said he will talk to our manager to give me several months off. i told him that after the vacation i will take, i no longer wanted to come back. i said i wanted a different career. i said i wanted to have my normal life back. he said he will give me 'till january to think about it. and when i'm really sure about it, just give him the letter then.

i miss having time for myself. i miss sleeping at night. i miss family days and family outings. i miss night outs with the lowlas...

so i'm coming back. it's time to move on...



and i wish you all a very merry christmas :)

i received a text just a few minutes ago. my high school classmate and friend passed away due to leukemia. i was speechless and numb when i read it. she was too young.

i remembered the time when i used to call her up on her cellphone and talk nonsense. this was the time when cellphones weren't widespread yet. and that texts were unlimited if you paid the quarterly sum for it. and that being prepaid meant you will buy the load only for calling purposes. i wasn't much on calling then so normally my load would last 'till it was about to expire. and before it expired, i would call her. we'd talk about nothing and everything. she wasn't my best friend but i considered her a good friend. i can't help but feel sad and mad at the same time. it is so unfair!

yesterday i received a text saying that she was in a coma at makati med. i still had hope left then. i was thinking that she will get better and everything will be alright.

( this was also emailed to us last september )

when i was in high school one of my dear classmate passed away too. we just graduated high school then. soon after, the sister of my classmate, which was also the classmate of my brother, passed away too. those were already traumatic for me. and now this.

i was lying in my bed dazed. staring into nothing. i was in deep thought. and what kept going through my head were those past experiences, happy and sad.

i came to a realization that life is indeed too short and that i am one lucky bastard to still be here. i was thinking about things i kept complaining about. like my job, my family, my manager, my weight, my skin condition and the like. and i thought to myself, i don't have the right to complain about those things when always, there are things and situations more serious than those i complain about. so this is a slap in the face. telling me to wake up. telling me to treasure life. telling me to cherish moments. this is my wake up call...







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you will be missed, my friend.
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The Bottom Line

Your conservative side has been in power too long. Let your wild child out!

In Detail

Your conservative side has been in power for a long time -- so today it's time to let your wild child out! For inspiration, let your nuttiest friends lead the way toward a wackier life for a while. You need a vacation from organization, a break from the staid stuff of life, and an overall mood renovation. It's time to revisit your childhood and stop taking things so seriously. You can safely take a break from grownup responsibilities right now.

so this means that i need to go out and partey! i think this is telling me that i also need to experience sssssssss hahaha :))

i know i should be getting out there socializing. but i actually consider myself a non-social creature. except for some close friends and family members. plus i have very low self-esteem so i'm not the type to mingle. i even hate sales ladies/sales gents walking up to me and asking how the fuck they can help me. if i need your help bitches i'd ask.

( look mama, i'm socializing! )


be still my ♥.

( BATEEEEEE!!!!!!!! )


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this is long overdue but i'm happy for my brother cause he passed the board exams. even if we fight a lot and i don't really like him, he made me proud. congratulations engineer! :)

magtrabaho ka na bwiset! haha :))


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in other news, bakit ang init parin kahit magpapasko na? parang summer pag kasikatan ng araw. hindi tuloy ako makatulog. gusto ko maranasan ang malamig na simoy ng hangin.


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sana january na, para makapagpasa na ko ng resignation. sawang sawa na ko, i swear! nararamdaman ko nanaman ung pinipilit ko ang sarili kong pumasok. and i dread each fucking moment. each fucking second. i even hate seeing the office building from afar. lagi kong naiisip, putangina, eto nanaman, ayoko na. merong pinapasukan yung gf ng pinsan ko sa makati. part time lang tapos weekends lang ang pasok. at ang basic pay nya ay 14k. gusto kong lumipat dun. para pwede kong gawin yung gusto ko. marami akong panahon para magaral, magworkshops, magpaka-pretentious, o kaya magbu-business nalang ako.